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de the bank waiting for it to open grayson withdrew the money from his final paycheck along with the small overdraft he was allowed it would kept us going for another few days but no more during those days as the tide that had pulled grayson out slowly washed him back ashore we made the first moves to enrol him in a methadone program it would take a week but he was taken on and given the date his first script would be scribbled out to bide him through we travelled back and forth across town buying up as much methadone and useful opiates as we could the next days would be tough i told grayson that i d stay there with him and we d suffer the worst if it out together and with the money gone and having slipped into overdraft we could do nothing but drag a hand down our heavy faces take a deep breath swallow exhale and prepare ourselves for a period of sober living so in a flat in lambeth as the first hot carnival days of summer rolled in we slept and watched films and sweated it out on a diet of methadone paracetamol and slow release morphine tablets and after four days in surrender we came to and found our feet and for a moment in the ageing middle of our lives the bastard sea of life sat still my thanks for reading as ever shane x lines for joe m to follow shortly 14 comments email this blogthis share to twitter share to facebook share to pinterest souls of the goldhawk road it was one of those tawdry summer evenings and all i could think about was the heat it was everywhere stuffy and humid and crucifying even at that late hour then there was a woman looking older than she was sat outside the closed estate agent s pickled drunk and burnt out as if she d lived in that oven since forever and with the heat on top of the drink she was in an uncommon daze like the madness in her mind was cooked in for good she was scrunching up her face and moaning pushing away the arm of a man who was trying to tell her something trying to get through pull her up and take her off someplace fuck off an away bobby she kept saying just leave me alone every now and again her eyes would lull back in her head like she was about to go out then just as slowly they would recentre and refocus and she would return once more to the hell of her immediate reality o the heat was cooking everyone up and the city was all set to catch aflame that was the summer of my return to london when for a brief moment something felt like it could really happen man this heat just makes yuh lazy reeaal lazy not wannin uh do uh ting about nuttin yet plenny a tings tuh do yeah plenty of things to do i said and if they d give me a break i might just get on and do them brother yuh doan got two coin furruh couple uh beers huh dis heat s juss bout dried me out an uh need sum liqwid refreshment sorry i don t man doan tell me dat juss bout evrywun got two quid in today s day tis for uh drink bruvva if i had it you d already be drunk ahh yea yea so what is it dat be bringin ya ere yuh waitin fuh sumwun is dat it ahh me shoulda re ah lized yea now me spies dat serpent in yuh wha tit is yuh afta bruvva duh sweet brown or a lick uh da white maybe a tickle of each you never know ahh me hear dat bruvva me hear dhat well an trew an dyuh gunna spare ol yankee ere uh rock uh bye white juss uh small rock bruvva i m de hy draytid ere ere look he said lifting up his arms and showing two huge wet patches of perspiration under the pits of his shirt me needin sumting or dis eve nin will stew me right on down intuh muh boots ya can spare uh white for an ol black comrade can t yuh maybe let s see how things stand once it s here o fank yew bruvva fank yew yew v saved me me sed tuh muhself lookin on down at yuh while me was over d ere me sed now dat s a decent kinda felluh right along d ere i knew it me could sense duh goodniss in yuh man i can t tell yuh what me d do fuh a rock uh white two beers an uh rock uh white an that ll be me juss fine tuhnight man you be belongin round ere ain t never sin yuh before is all me arlways good fer uh face but uh name o yuh can forget dat me can t even remember duh names uh me own childrin how wicked is dat bruvva me own spawned brethrin an i doan even know duh names nor how old dey even be grown up now uh bet grown right on up an out hustlin juss like i was at dat age o man summer wasn t like dis back d hen yuh cud breathe when we were young now the world has juss gottin heavy weighs right down on uh man like uh sack uh cement an round ere too i mean o duh bush wuz uh place tuh be back den an den dis happened we grew up an once we had an we opened our eyes uh whole generation had lost itself lost sumting we din t come in from afar bruvva we wuz arlways ere only yuh d never ave noticed us before i stared at the man this black ragtime prophet and as i stared his yapping went mute and for some moments i watched the silent animation of his mouth as it twisted and contorted into horrendous shapes his words being formed in that masticating orifice pushed out on the tip of an indecent purpled tongue bobby fuck off i m stayin ere fuck off an away bobby we ve gotta move on doll we can t stay here i can t leave you here like this you ll have us both fucking collared ahhhh fuck off an leave me a bit alone bobby bobbbbby mate mate ya waitin fer jamie give im a call please he s given me the right ol runaround today i turned to confront this latest spectre on the scene he stood before me thin but broad his arms out and hung at the elbows like he d been pegged out on a line to dry his face was pale and not quite white and his eyes were large and mad didya hear me said the cunt s given me the right ol runaround today please mate just give him a bell an tell him dave is ere i m not waiting for jamie i don t know any jamies who you after then silver the somalians could be nah mate don t score offa that lot them are fucking robbin somalian cunts won t see them unless no one else is on an i mean no one buy offa my man jamie come on whatd ya want jamie s are twice the size here give us ya dosh and we ll see him together right now get outta here i m not giving you my money what ya don t trust me ya think just because i m a junkie i m a thieving cunt is that it i don t need to be fucking slyin people mate am doing just fine as it is i can see that now leave me alone this place is hot enough as it is mate will ya just phone him for fucksake just a quick call before i could answer he had given up on me and was scampering off wraithlike up the road stopping people and terrifying them rattling his jangling neurosis along his stricken path bobby fuck off just let me be fuck off an away bobby fuck off an away there it was again that voice and those words the sound of a cracked and corrupted lullaby it was a bawl that carried on through generations and told the tale of every such summer evening there ever has been i watched the woman once more and wondered what the hell we were all doing the road was busy now the fast food shops had started serving in earnest and a few more drinkers had congregated on the corners the men in the late night gambling shop came out for cigarettes and in moments you could hear the greyhound races being called and the hullabaloo as another favourite lost its legs around the penultimate bend that was another man s hope gone right there i watched the man who then stood outside the bookies he smoked his smoke and pondered and it looked like he had finally found the answers to his problems in those long drawn out drags he took of his tobacco it s a well known fact the gamblers like the drunks and the drunks like the gamblers but no one likes the junkies the man cast his eyes my way he took the last inch of smoke from his cigarette and still staring at me flicked the smouldering butt into the gutter as if that place held some importance for me i wanted to say something to him stare him straight down the barrel and tell him something crazy but i said nothing i kept my silence and let him return in peace to the safety of his losing hub to flagellate himself in that way aye aye a voice said i turned around to see two community police specials trotting themselves into the scene one was tall and sticking up as straight as a pencil and the other was shorter and well built with a bright red face that looked like he was being strangled they both wore their half sleeved summer uniforms their radios crackled and chirruped away like insects in the warm late evening they approached the drunk woman sat outside the estate agent s slowly she raised her drink laden face and squinted them into view what you want i ain t done nothing wrong i ve had a drink is all but i din t do nothing to no one madam we ve reason to believe you was in hammersmith this afternoon and we need to ask you a few questions about what you did there hammersmith questions i din t fucking do anything madam let s do this somewhere a little more private i m sure you don t want your private business spilled out onto the street the two police specials helped her up when they let go she stood swaying tottering like that until her body decided on the vertical then she looked around bobby bobby she called but bobby was gone just a hunched back walking briskly away and turning off down the first street he arrived at the police escorted the lady a little ways down the adjoining residential street they lowered her to a sitting position against a garden wall and stood over her looking in and wondering what to do the heat was getting to everyone the workers in the furnace of the kebab house were standing outside fanning themselves down with damp cloths the drunks at the bus stop sat bemused and dehydrated and the junkies waited and some sweated because of the heat and others because of their poison that s when the wraithlike addict returned screaming on about jamie again reel it in a bit mate the police are down there i said he looked down the street at the police with the drunk woman he waved them off they re not fucking police just community workers they ve got fuck all powers of arrest and wouldn t dare bust us they can t mate not allowed imagine one of them daft cunts busting a dealer for a few bags and fucking up a 6 month long surveillance op them cunts are used to sweep the drunks along kick the beggars teeth out and jump in to break up bottle fights one got himself killed the other month and it wasn t even in the paper even their own lot don t like em fuck em at that he stood astride right on the corner facing the police officers and screamed waaaankers while gesticulating the act with his hand fucking waaankers leave her alone she s innocent the tall wooden officer warned him to stay back yeah an what you gonna do if i don t just stay where you are sir i m asking you for the last time stick your final warning up your arse i wouldn t wanna be any closer and i ll tell you what if i was doing a little better i d have your fucking badge harassing bastards and no one does a thing about it for a moment there was a brief stand off then the officer turned and the wraithlike addict cursed and the evening went on and the heat was just as persistent as ever the commotion he introduced to the road preceded him the sudden screeching of braking cars the bleating of horns and the shouts of irate drivers he wheeled himself on like it was nothing and i knew he was heading my way he had no legs and he said he was a poet he parked up a small meter opposite me and sat sweating away in his cheap government issue wheelchair he had oily grey hair pulled back into a straggly ponytail and a wooden beaded necklace hung down around his bare bony sun scorched chest beads of perspiration rolled down over his abdomen and soaked into the top band of his trousers d you like poetry he asked no i said i hate everything to do with reading and writing bores the shit outta me well you re missing out there then good poetry is better than any drug you can get better than this shit we re pumping into ourselves when great poetry hits it fucking transports you to another dimension man serious you don t know what you re missing and what am i missing and more importantly you are you any good good me i m the poet the poet i ve invented a whole new expression a new type of poetry altogether everyone knows me used to sit outside the broadway and write my verse on the fucking pavement in different coloured chalks you must ve seen me if you live around here you d have seen me what s your name already told you the poet o i didn t realize that was your actual name you up for reciting a line or two of course always on the lookout for an eager audience he reached down inside the crutch of his trousers and withdrew a damp rotting notepad he began leafing through it like it were his life savings pulling faces as he looked over his work like that one wasn t quite right and the next wasn t him at his best etc when he had settled on one he was happy with he kinda wriggled up straight in his chair cleared his chest before gobbing out a huge grey hunk of phlegm down on the pavement to the side of his wheelchair hhh hmmmm this one s called er my monkey and is my monkey rhymed up with the word junkie i asked you best believe it is seven fucking times if you want numbers then i ve heard it you re right you are known yeah you ve really heard that one i have and more than once huh then how about my much revered anti festive ditty cold christmas turkey about withdrawals isn t it being junk tied over christmas it is see you know more about contemporary verse than you think look over there i said do you see that green telephone connection box the de legged junkie poet looked over to where i was pointing and nodded well i said i know what s behind it the years worth of dust and smog and grime which has settled there i know the piss and the dampness and the weeds at the bottom and the fat brown slugs which slither out by night i know the scrunched up cigarette packets the pigeon s shit the rusting empty beer cans and the black nurse with a cock call guy flyer stuck upon the side that s what i know about contemporary verse right there well that s nice very nice but that s not poetry it s what us fellas in the writing game refer to as prose but i never said i was a poet you said that you said you were a poet the poet he looked at me like doubting thomas would have looked at jesus then he took a huge lungful of air and with his chest inflated began booming out verse in a majestic voice and like abas a mocker be o pig o boar o trundling swine i name you as a philistine i couldn t help but burst out into laughter almost sucking my lit cigarette down my gorge before finally spitting it out in a spluttering guffaw at that the legless poet started pointing and booming philistine hey o i name it a philistine philistine philistine for all to see people in the street turned to stare saw a wheelchair bound amputee gesturing and screaming out poetry and insults and waved him off as some ...