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ber 5 august 9 july 4 june 4 may 6 april 5 march 7 february 6 january 8 08 8 december 3 november 5 i m here to write make crack the funnies and share ideas and experiences you can make yourself at home there s tea in the pot life isn t about finding yourself life is about creating yourself george bernard shaw monday 25 july 2016 are real books your escape hatch or are your bookshelves blocking your exit hi you when was the last time you bought a book or to be more precise when was the last time you bought a real live book made of paper you know the kind i mean they re the ones you can easily flip through to find that amazing paragraph to bore entertain someone with they re the ones you can easily bookmark using hey here s a novel idea an actual bookmark or else anything else you have on hand just tell me you re not a good for nothing corner folder and they re the ones that come wrapped in exciting cover designs and that never run low on power and don t break when dropped from the bed when you fall asleep mid sente yeah those kind of books because if you ve bought one of those gems during 2016 then you re in part responsible for the rise in traditional book sales yesterday after lunch at my parents my dad read out a story from the newspaper detailing how sales of traditional books rose during the first half of this year while ebook sales have seen their first drop since statistics on them started being kept that s because of you dad said to me although to be honest as i mentioned on national libraries day as while i do read a lot the majority of my fodder comes courtesy of a library or three the majority but not all and dad might have a point because i ve already bought more books this year than in any recent times so much so that a few months ago i moved a little vintage bookshelf on to our landing to hold part of my burgeoning personal library in recent weeks i ve been tempted to start selling off some titles maybe through ebay just to keep things flowing around here to prevent some books just lodging on the same spot forever read once never to be re read simply taking up space on my petite little shelf where space is at a premium but if i ever begin to feel like maybe i have too many books on there at least i can say that at least my book collection hasn t quite blocked my doorway not like in this secondhand bookshop i recently visited and it s not as if i ve had to cut my door down its length and re hinge it so you can both still use the door while keeping all of the books it reminds me of how stephen king explains that he always has a book with him another world to visit at the opening of a page as he never knows when he ll need an escape hatch i guess we all just need to make sure that amid this real book renaissance all our metaphorical escape hatches don t block our actual exit to continue the theme what was the last book you bought anything to recommend where do you keep your books shelves piles in front of doors that only hobbits can squeeze through feel free to tag me in photos of your latest read or your shelves via social media can t be bothered going through the torment of leaving me a comment while on your phone i don t blame you just say hi through a less cumbersome app instead withjuliekirk on instagram notesonpaper on twitter withjuliekirk on facebook posted by julie kirk at 14 27 16 comments labels books bookshelves reading portable magic email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest wednesday 20 july 2016 getting out from behind the curtain a few thoughts on ambition fear and what we can learn from various random wizards i know it s not just me who in the face the super streamlined efficiency of micro blogging via instagram now struggles with traditional long form blogging crikey yeah this kind of blogging has become traditional old school a mere whiff of wifi away from being as on trend as a telegram times and technologies certainly do move fast i know it s not just me who struggles with getting round to completing those projects she started in a whirlwind of inspiration and excitable newness and who now can t bring herself to return to see it through to the end i know it s not just me who has equal amounts of both the ambition to do more create more reach more people and the sheer gut knotting brain whirring horror of all that that would involve and because i know it s not just me who feels like this i m sharing a piece of writing today which hopefully will help someone else reading it maybe even you realise that it s not just them either because it s me too background this piece began life a couple of months ago as a 30 minute timed exercise in response to a writing prompt which suggested talking about the fear of putting yourself out there why do we feel it what purpose does it serve and how can we overcome it it s been edited and titivated up since the photos aren t the best i ve ever taken but they fit with what i wanted to say today finally there are multiple non deliberate references to wizards in this piece who knows where they came from make of that what you will getting out from behind the curtain the fear of putting yourself out there why do we feel it what purpose does it serve and how can we overcome it sign at beamish musuem two immediate and sharp prongs spring to mind when thinking about the fear of putting myself out there the fear of rejection and the fear of failure recently for me the key to overcoming the fear of rejection has been faith in my starting point the idea article etc which i m trying to persuade someone else to look at i need to wholeheartedly believe in that idea before i begin partly because it provides the motivation i ll need to pitch and self promote with a clear conscience but also and perhaps most importantly because that original confidence can later act as a welcome buffer upon rejection rejection is hard enough to combat without it catching on the tinder sticks of self doubt as it stalks past sending them up in flames too the idea might well be rejected but did you like it was it good work were you happy with it before you asked someone else to like it if not then come on if you had doubts about it too why wouldn t someone else but if you did like it and it was good solid work then fair enough you get a pass you can sail on to the next pitch with impunity following rejection your self doubt sensors may feel a momentary hot flush but you needn t abandon them to the flames while they to burn to a cinder although in those initial moments you ll feel like it don t neither literally or metaphorically throw your work or your self belief into the fire just find another marshmallow to roast on it until you feel strong enough to try again sign at beamish musuem for example j k rowling may well have felt the heat of so many rejections but she loved harry believed in harry and believed that someone else out there would too and she was right so undoubtedly it s easier to stay motivated when you know you re on to something good but how do you reach this belief like i say it must mainly come from the work itself surely but if so then how are we meant to reconcile the fact that something we thought was good was turned away by others in this case i guess all we can say is that it just wasn t for them sign at beamish musuem that s how my latest rejection email read at least this isn t going to work for us which for a short time was a disappointing answer but at least it was an answer at least i wasn t left hanging or pestering and because i still like the article in question i ll find a place for it somewhere else another website another magazine or right here sometime or other and at least receiving a rejection proves i did something i put myself out there once again and i guess the more times i do it the more i ll get used to the heat asbestos hands that s how some people explain their ability to pick up hot things without flinching isn t it well maybe if we re intent on being out there some of us need to cultivate asbestos self worth but what if unlike j k rowling you don t know if your work is any good oh that s a tricky one of course you can ask someone else for their opinion but then that just takes you back in the realm of subjectivity where whatever it is you re creating might never be for them they re not your target audience they re just not that into you and forgive me for doubting you but are you sure you can t tell if what you re doing is any good surely you do one way or another maybe you don t know it every hour of every day but which of us do i mean it s usually only the people who really ought not to who often hold an unshakable confidence in their abilities leaving the more reflective among us to do all the soul searching did you ever read about my mini writing related breakdown if so you ll definitely know that i don t believe in myself 24 7 and i m certainly no stranger to a crisis of confidence but at some point deep down under all that uncertainty you can surely determine the quality of your own out put or you know enough about its worth to keep you going or at the very least you recognise that there s something there even if you haven t found the words for it yet let alone the confidence to share it with others don t you don t i sign from a local museum a quick refresher course on the purpose of doors as for the purpose of that fear of sharing more widely who we are and what we do then surely it s related to protection to safety to self defence all perfectly noble perfectly reasonable responses given the circumstances which begs the question then why do you even want to put yourself out there why are you contemplating it why would you risk it what do you want to come from it why now and i guess it would be in taking some time to answer these questions that you we will unearth the answer to that final question how can we overcome it because once you possess a clear idea of why you re doing it what you ll get from it what will make it worth the risk then you ll be holding in your hands the seeds of the revelation on how you re going to overcome all those fears those answers will become the motivations which will keep you moving in increments towards being out there in whatever form that takes for you you the small soft vulnerable wizard of oz easing yourself out from behind the safety of the curtain revealing yourself as you really are in which case maybe we both need to just click our heels together three times the answers have probably been with us all along sticky note i found stuck to a computer screen on campus during assignment deadline season i have some interesting projects in the pipeline that will involve me having to put myself out there once again later this year and you know full well i ll be sharing it all with your here when i can chances are i ll be going on about it so much that you might wish i d stayed behind the curtain for now though i m eager to hear your side of things are you struggling to put yourself out there even though you want to do you know what s stopping you or daren t you even start questioning the feeling no judgement here i m absolutely just as bad nothing like a bit of reading starting a new project to dampen down those scary deep thoughts or do you have any stories tips or motivation of your own that you d like to share in the comments let s start a conversation here about ambition motivation fear rejection wizards ruby slippers whatever i m all ears and pointy hat julie x can t be bothered going through the torment of blog commenting while on your phone i don t blame you just grab me on a less cumbersome app instead withjuliekirk on instagram withjuliekirk on facebook notesonpaper on twitter posted by julie kirk at 15 43 3 comments labels motivation creative lifestyle fear anxiety failure rejection email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest friday 1 july 2016 my month in numbers 2016 june june what a wash out while there were definitely some good things happening there was plenty of rain grey clouds and everything else too if you re like me and granted you won t all be i won t deliberately try to cheer you up today some of us don t want to be cheered up right things are difficult and real right now and the last thing i want is to pretend nothing has happened and just get back to posting about pets come to think of it i never do that mainly because i don t have pets but i might just divert you for 5 minutes if that s ok normal despairing of the world can resume later how about for now you join me on a look back at june 2016 in numbers how s this for a statistic i spotted this ray of sunshine in york the other weekend something to take into consideration if you haven t already booked your 2017 holidays maybe i m drawn to eschatological signs like this because back in 2001 i called my english degree dissertation on post apocalyptic fiction it s not the end of the world who knew that 15 years later the ability to analyse end times would come in useful again i m 1 of the 48 who voted remain i m not going to talk about it all now but neither am i going to be quiet now and just move on as many leavers seem to want us to do living in a democracy means that when i don t agree with what s happening i still get to talk about it while we re on the subject of the greeks they invented democracy right we went to see dan cruickshank s talk on the history of architecture in 100 buildings rubbish photo better story if you don t know dan cruickshank he s a historian who s worked a lot for the bbc and writes books his latest of which was the subject of the talk he delivered at middlesbrough theatre this month he discussed the meaning behind all kinds of buildings throughout history starting with some very early examples from syria and greece covering why they were made how structural developments were made and what value civililisations have put on them then at the q a at the end after other people had asked various questions a boy in the front row asked him a very long and convoluted question about the greeks and how they must have liked architecture because and non one was quite expecting this particular reason because in the percy jackson books film s the gods of olympus live in the empire state building so it must be significant to them cruickshank was very sweet and recognising there was no simple answer to this said i m going to come and have a chat with you then let us all go home so we didn t have to sit through the kid s entire thesis and came and sat on the front of the stage near him so they could talk probably not the end he had planned for his serious talk but handled very nicely it s things like that that leave an impression on people isn t it i m sure many people not just that boy will remember his kindness in other cultural news we used our 10 national art pass card 3 times visiting 3 museums galleries in york saving 10 50 so far back in april i saw laura howard bu...
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