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garet they d come up and take mom out to lunch and visit a good long time aunt connie will be missed i must say my cousin steve s calm faith through it all really inspires me i know someday that day will come for me my precious mom has covid 19 when i received this news a week ago i was overcome with a sick feeling considering her respiratory struggles the last several years it seemed to be the worst possible thing tragic too just days away from receiving the vaccine and after ten months of her successfully dodging this nasty and mysterious illness however she is making it through in miraculous ways her oxygen saturation remains high she received the antibody infused plasma transfusion and the worst symptom for her is a deep cough the outpouring of prayers and support for mom has been much appreciated and it s making a huge positive difference i share the messages and prayers with her and it always lifts her spirits i m grateful thank you aside from the important behind the scenes recovery work in my life i have maintained my myfitnesspal logging and the food accountability postings on instagram those daily commitments remain constant our holiday gatherings are much smaller for obvious reasons and that s okay this period we re all living through will pass there s hope thank you for reading you re invited along as i continue writing this blog that has given me so much over the last twelve years i appreciate your support i hope you have a safe warm and very merry christmas thank you for reading sean a few pics from the last couple of months this was a screen shot from a recent video chat with mom from the covid 19 ward that smile says a lot riding bikes and jumping on a trampoline with noah two beautiful gifts this transformation gives me quality time with my youngest daughter courtney the two of us are very close and that too is a precious gift of this daily recovery practice posted by sean anderson at 8 04 am 7 comments sunday november 1 2020 november 1st 2020 a break november 1st 2020 a break i m still here i m alive and kicking i appreciate the many messages of concern i ve received while i ve taken a break from most forms of social media and writing this blog i haven t taken a break in the daily self care of my continued recovery my food plan is simply one piece of my daily musts and it doesn t take a break ever at least i pray i never again justify a break from that if ever i do just know it s the addiction talking even in my absence from most social media and this blog my daily food plan accountability postings on instagram continue without interruption my connections with support friends in the same lifeboat have actually increased in the last month and a half most importantly my daily connections with the god of my understanding have increased as well could specific elements of my daily practice be better always i don t exercise enough i find things to hyper procrastinate over my sleep patterns aren t good most of the time either and that right there is a big big big one this daily practice has never been perfect it s consistently imperfect i believe maintaining the consistency of the core non negotiable elements will help me evolve the other things in positive and supportive ways one thing that s very important for me is to keep my ego and pride in check in the course of my regular therapy sessions and also through watching listening to and learning from others along this road i ve gained a better understanding of healthy ego and pride vs unhealthy ego and pride taking an extended break from most social media this blog and my podcast has provided an opportunity for me to really connect in deeper ways with my purest motivations and purpose this isn t the sean show i don t have all the answers i m not a guru i don t know it all i m just doing the things to help me make it another day i don t live in fear of not making it another day i simply do my best to live daily with a very healthy respect and reverence for whatever it takes for me to remain well it s real life it s recovery it s one day at a time it s humbling it s full of things worthy of my gratitude daily it s full of challenges it s full of loved ones it s full of people who get me it s full of mental emotional and spiritual practices it s full of imperfections as i pick this blog and other things back up the intent is to use these tools for accountability and support the original purpose when i started this thing in 2008 a lot has happened in the last month and a half i ve set a time limit for me to wrap up this post so i ll include some photos and captions as quickly as possible courtney and i recently spent a day together i m so proud of her i recently had a great birthday weekend visit with this little one more photos from our recent visit mom and i recently had a very cold outdoor visit they ve since stopped the visits because of an uptick in positive covid 19 cases six feet apart grateful for what we can do right now even if it means no hugging that s the hardest part noah and i have enjoyed some playtime with the visual effects on messenger halloween i spent a little bit of time with three of my grandkids and my youngest i was the friendly zombie an update on mom she s not doing well right now if you can spare some prayers for her please do she s fighting another horrible uti or something it isn t covid 19 thankfully because they test her twice a week her brain fog delusions one of the symptoms of the infection are the worst they ve ever been right now it s not good i must have faith and put it in god s hands trusting she ll once again make it through this pattern of infection plaguing her thank you for reading and continued support practice peace and calm sean if you re interested in connecting via social media i accept friend requests on myfitnesspal my daily food logging diary is set to public mfp username seanaanderson facebook www facebook com seananderson505 instagram seanaanderson also i d love you to subscribe to my podcast transformation planet you can find it in apple podcasts google play for android spotify and listed wherever you find your favorite podcasts if you haven t listened before you ll find 24 episodes waiting for you questions or comments send an email transformation road gmail com posted by sean anderson at 9 55 am 9 comments monday september 14 2020 september 14th 2020 connected september 14th 2020 connected since our last edition i ve maintained the integrity of my food plan boundaries i ve remained refined sugar free i ve met or exceeded my daily water goal i ve been intermittingly getting in exercise sessions toggling between body weight strength routines and walks and i ve also stayed well connected with exceptional support in the past like the distant past absence from this blog was a strong indicator of intense struggle i ve received several messages of concern lately and i appreciate every single one of them thank you i m doing well one day at a time always and in many ways more connected than ever before i ve increased my connections with people and i ve doubled down on the spiritual mental and emotional side of things blogger has changed formatting no longer will you see my instagram accountability postings on this blog even though this change was brought about by technical issues it s a good change rest assured i still weigh and measure log and instagram my food each day and if you really wanted to check on that you ll find it there every single day instagram com seanaanderson but the thing is this entire journey isn t about the food my personal food plan is simply a tool that helps keep me clear headed enough to do the real work along the way i can t make spiritual progress if i m in the food my food postings on instagram were never meant to be anything other than an accountability tool for me when i post a meal i m instantly sharing my food with almost a thousand people granted only a handful look at it but it s there it s simply a function of the tool that is my abstinent food plan it isn t a recommendation it isn t for recipe ideas it isn t a hey look at what i made kinda thing it s simply an accountability measure for my personal food plan i make it enjoyable to me i keep it refined sugar free and when if changes need to be made i consult another person for those changes as i become more and more into my recovery i become torn on how to continue this twelve year commitment on this blog tomorrow is the 12th anniversary of that night when this whole thing started in 2008 i don t like the title of this blog i don t like the url i selected on the first night and i don t like these things because they lend energy to a diet mentality that ultimately never worked for me i didn t know what i didn t know back then this road isn t all about the food and achieving a dramatic physical transformation i ve done that and trust me when that s the number one goal it ll leave you sorely disappointed it did me the spiritual mental and emotional transformation the learning how to feel feelings and navigate life in better ways the willingness to let go and trust a power greater than myself that s where the good stuff is found if i m searching listening and learning in that direction the physical parts take care of itself very much a side effect of my spiritual condition those things are ongoing one day at a time i must renew that subscription each and every morning when i get down on my knees and ask for help to get me through one more day these things aren t new to me yet i was continuing on and presenting this blog and other media in ways that could be interpreted as diet mentality and didn t always reflect the hope strength and experience that has dramatically reshaped my values along this road i don t diet this blog isn t about dieting it s about living i don t know it all it wouldn t matter if i did because it isn t about what i know it s only about what i do remember my best knowing kept me in the obsession in that life stealing preoccupation and near at or above 500 pounds for almost twenty years i look forward to continuing this blog in a way that is in harmony with my heart mind and soul mom update mom is still in quarantine after several staff and residents tested positive for covid 19 she s safe and doing well they re keeping her healthy mom s uti has cleared and with that comes a clarity with her thoughts she understands why she can t go back to her regular room at the moment as soon as the nursing home gets a stretch with zero new cases they ll get her back into her regular room she misses being in her place in the meantime we visit via video chat daily mom is also getting better with the portal controls this enables her to reach out more often with me her siblings and others i m full of gratitude as i hit the pillow tonight thank you for reading and continued support practice peace and calm sean if you re interested in connecting via social media i accept friend requests on myfitnesspal my daily food logging diary is set to public mfp username seanaanderson my twitter seanaanderson facebook www facebook com seananderson505 instagram seanaanderson also i d love you to subscribe to my podcast transformation planet you can find it in apple podcasts google play for android spotify and listed wherever you find your favorite podcasts if you haven t listened before you ll find 24 episodes waiting for you questions or comments send an email transformation road gmail com posted by sean anderson at 10 26 pm 6 comments sunday august 23 2020 august 23rd 2020 emotional rollercoaster august 23rd 2020 emotional rollercoaster since our last edition i ve maintained the integrity of my food plan boundaries i ve remained refined sugar free i ve met or exceeded my daily water goal and i ve also stayed well connected with exceptional support the nursing home called at 10pm thursday night mom s respiratory distress and uti had become bad enough to send her to the hospital er i arrived at the hospital not knowing what to expect i was screened masked up sanitized and allowed to go into mom s triage room i haven t been able to be within six feet of mom or touch her in any way since early march walking into her triage room i realized the restrictions obviously weren t in place here and so i did what any loving son would do i kissed her forehead through the mask and i rubbed her hand this nudged her awake and immediately into the biggest smile ever with confusion created by the uti mom wasn t quite sure why she was in the er so i explained it to her and we visited in between mom s intermittent slumber just sitting beside her rubbing her hand was a wonderful thing the er was very busy thursday night into friday morning mom was hooked up to vitals and stable so naturally she was lower on the priority list it was just fine it gave us extra time to enjoy one another s company with mom sleeping i eventually decided to go home try to get some sleep with the plan being to return first thing in the morning or in a few hours as it were after a very short two hours i made arrangements for a colleague to fill in for me on my show i did my morning foundational routine enjoyed my coffee and headed back to the hospital not much had changed except the decision had been made to admit her to the hospital in an effort to help speed the process of clearing up the uti and the severe effects it tends to create i m not certain mom even knew i left she didn t mention it she was pretty out of it as the nursing staff waited for the hospitalist to assign her a regular room they came in to tell us mom needed a covid 19 test before admission to her room i asked if it was a rapid test and indeed it was just then mom needed to use the restroom and that required help from this er bed where she was connected to the things you re connected to in the er i offered to step out during this time in the lobby i was informed i couldn t hang around there and needed to go outside or to my car i did go to the car where i connected with several support friends the rapid test was administered around 8am i was told the results would take about 30 minutes back in her room and at almost 9am we hadn t heard anything mom and i were visiting about random things when suddenly she remembered the test and asked me how long it would take i told mom it should be done already and that i would go check and be right back to let her know the nurse at the desk checked and the results weren t showing on her computer screen she called the lab directly for the results when she hung up i knew it wasn t good who are you are you next of kin oh boy when they use the phrase next of kin you know it isn t going to be good the test was positive you ve been exposed you re not allowed to go back in her room you need to go home immediately and quarantine for ten days i follow the rules ya know i do i wear a mask i follow the guidelines but i can t go back in her room to say goodbye i 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