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y finger and his expression changes oh he says one of those at falcon one of those covers everything our insurance policy does not mould growing in the shape of a hand a smoke detector that chirps after the battery and hardwire have both been removed water dripping upward from a ceiling stain a bedroom door that locks only when somebody says the former tenant s name there is a procedure photograph nothing record nothing remove it last should we call sloane devon asks you want the bonus he checks his cracked samsung it is 10 47 p m we have nine units left including the one aaron sloane marked priority and five hundred dollars each if glenhaven court is ready for the buyers at seven my rent is due at five my landlord does not accept spiritual complications in place of money i take the cup into the bathroom the medicine cabinet hangs open showing a rusted rectangle where the mirror used to be i leave the cup in the tub close the door and finish the kitchen two clean shapes interrupt the grime on the floor one for a narrow table another for a chair someone sat here often enough for the tile to keep the arrangement after everyone else stopped caring i sweep from the back wall toward the front door the broom draws the red cup into the dustpan on the fourth try i stop looking at it i wrap it in a bath towel shove it beneath cracked cabinet liners and a box of stale cinnamon toast crunch then take the bag straight to the compactor when i return only the pale ring remains beside the sink i open falcon s turnready app and photograph the kitchen personal property remaining i tap no animals present no occupancy verified the leaseholder s name appears beneath the question holt bernard i remember mr holt thin old man house shoes outdoors astros games on a radio held together with silver duct tape he corrected the announcers as if they had called him personally for help i tap vacant the loading wheel turns the work order refreshes unit 2b unknown occupant what was his name i ask devon has gone back to the stars whose the tenant he peels another constellation from the ceiling was there one i know there was i know something about a sister in beaumont a church van a broken hip the details sit behind a wall i have spent years helping management paint white his name is gone in the hallway the contractor bag remains wedged in the compactor mouth the red cup presses against the clear plastic filled now with something darker than the unlit room behind it i turn away before it can tip every apartment has a bruise pattern black arcs behind a recliner mean someone rocked while watching television grease above the bedroom door means the same hand touched the frame at the same height for years a clean square on a wall shows where a calendar kept the paint from fading people lie about how they live their walls usually give them away unit 3d belonged to a family with three children although the work order lists two three height charts climb the inside of the pantry door the smallest stops after six pencil marks somebody painted over the name but skipped the sanding so the letters remain raised beneath beige landlord paint i run my thumb across them lucy maybe don t devon says from the refrigerator don t what touch stuff when you re making that face i don t have a face you have several that one means you re about to steal garbage steal is dramatic i keep small things sometimes never jewelry cash medication documents or anything a reasonable person might return for only objects too useless to justify the space they occupy in a landfill a brass button a metro bus token a key with no lock a ceramic dog missing one ear i tell myself i am preserving evidence i never decide evidence of what devon opens the cabinet above the stove two child sized sneakers sit inside soles pressed together who stores shoes over a stove i look at the kitchen floor beneath one chair are two pale rectangles in the dirt put them there he sets the shoes on the counter under the chair he gives me a look but he crouches and slides them into the clean spaces they fit perfectly something inside the wall releases a long breath devon rises slowly all right definitely one of those my phone buzzes sloane status i type 5 complete on schedule his reply arrives before i can lock the screen sloane do not delay 6c buyers arrive 0700 no exceptions why does he care so much about 6c devon asks you know rich people if one toilet still has a tenant in it the whole building tastes wrong he laughs once i photograph the sneakers a little girl is sitting in the chair above them the picture shows only her knees and her hands folded in her lap a yellow plastic bracelet circles one wrist i lower the phone the chair is empty i delete the photograph turnready restores it i delete it again the picture returns with the girl s hands slightly apart as though she is preparing to stand fuck this unit devon says put that in the completion notes seriously mari we put the shoes back whatever it wanted we handled it he studies me did we his voice carries my mother s cadence not her sound but that upward pull at the end of a question when she has already decided i am lying for a second i am barefoot in a kitchen i cannot place holding a dead light bulb in both hands then unit 3d comes back around me my thumb hurts a brass button has appeared in my fist its edge pressed deep enough to break the skin i do not remember picking it up we reach the sixth floor at 1 18 a m half the fluorescent tubes are dead the survivors give the corridor the color of old teeth a woman sits cross legged in front of unit 6c she has spread rent receipts photocopied licenses school portraits utility bills and handwritten lists across the carpet a battery lantern glows beside her knee i know her face from somewhere a tenant meeting probably one of my mother s little revolutionaries she looks twenty four and tired enough to be forty you re marisol she says mari i know what she calls you devon glances at me i set down my tool bag you can t be here neither can half the people you cleared tonight apparently you have to move do you remember mr holt the name hits a locked door inside my head silver tape on a radio then nothing the woman watches the answer leave my face bernard holt she says he lived in 2b for sixteen years his sister esther keeps calling because the nursing home says no bernard holt ever listed her as an emergency contact devon shifts beside me you re nia i say her expression softens for half a second celia told you about me celia a saint a flower a woman in an old simon garfunkel song no closer than that i reach for the name and feel it slide away nia rises too fast scattering receipts jesus it s already started what has she points at 6c open the door i need you off the floor open it you re trespassing in a restricted work area you grew up here devon looks between us i laugh because the hallway has begun to tilt i grew up in six apartments everybody thinks one of them explains me this one does the elevator bell rings aaron sloane steps out with two guards from blackstone protective services he wears a navy falcon polo tucked into khakis and the expression of a man arriving to correct the version of events poorer people have produced without him nia he says we discussed this you discussed it i declined this building is under transfer order people still live here not on this floor she sweeps an arm toward the documents because you re deleting them sloane notices devon listening take five the guards do not move he sighs glenhaven needs eight million dollars in structural repairs the elevators fail twice a month the fire panel is thirty years out of date sewage backs into occupied units the buyer is assuming those costs the buyer is turning it into student housing the buyer is keeping it standing after throwing everyone out relocation agreements were offered to people whose names disappear after they refuse sloane looks at me ms vega how many units remain four complete them nia laughs of course you d ask her my mother used to say there were two people at every eviction the one carrying bags and the one writing down how many bags remained i became the one with the clipboard it weighs less sloane gestures the guards take nia by the arms she resists enough to make them work for it look under the kitchen light she tells me then louder as they drag her toward the stairwell mari look at the stool the metal door shuts on her voice sloane waits until we are alone your mother has made this sale difficult enough he says the corridor shifts beneath me my what he studies my face and something careful enters his finish the unit then he leaves the master key works because falcon changed the lock before we arrived that comes first before the hauling before the photographs before a tenant can return with a lease in one hand and h e b bags in the other change the lock and the argument becomes architectural unit 6c smells like coffee sewing machine oil and lemon pine sol my mother celia i hold the name as it jerks once inside my head boxes line the wall two mugs sit in the sink a handwritten grocery list hangs beneath a texas shaped magnet beans cilantro café bustelo aa batteries mari s honey nut cheerios the last item has been crossed out so hard the pen tore the paper devon reads over my shoulder you have a cereal everyone has a cereal beneath the kitchen light stands a yellow plastic step stool one leg is short corrected by cardboard folded underneath the cardboard comes from a totino s pepperoni pizza box i know the stool pinches the back of your thigh if you sit on it wrong i know the kitchen fixture burns through cheap bulbs every three months and my mother refuses to call maintenance for anything she can complain through herself i put my hand on the stool the room folds i am small enough for the counter to reach my shoulders my mother stands behind me with one arm around my waist don t drop it mari i hold a light bulb like an egg while she steps onto the stool it rocks you tell management that thing almost killed me maybe then they ll replace it you tell them they don t listen when i the memory changes now i am standing in the same kitchen three weeks ago grown and sweating through my falcon shirt celia has covered the table with lease copies handwritten phone trees and envelopes addressed to people who no longer receive mail here the sewing machine is pushed to one side its needle still holds a length of blue thread she looks at the falcon logo on my chest you wore that into my home i came straight from work you clear apartments for the people clearing this building i clean up after court orders i don t issue them you take a family s things and turn them into contractor bags and you take every emergency in this building and turn it into my responsibility celia reaches up and taps the dead kitchen light twice these people are losing their homes i know then help us i have rent i have a job i can lose i have a landlord who doesn t care that you ve decided struggle builds character i kept you housed you kept me moving there s a difference she grips the yellow stool and drags it beneath the fixture you think working for falcon means they won t do it to you i think paying my bills gives them fewer excuses that is not the same as being safe and organizing tenants doesn t make you my mother the words land celia s hands stop on the stool she says very quietly no raising you did the memory tears away before i answer i come back with devon holding my elbow a photograph hangs on the refrigerator celia stands beside nia in the lobby both carrying signs between them is a woman wearing my face the woman looks furious i remember the argument now but not leaving i do not know whether i apologized or slammed the door the apartment door opens behind us devon grabs the nearest weapon which happens to be a toilet plunger nia looks at it please don t make me die embarrassed how did you get past security the same way your mother did for twenty years i waited until the person in charge assumed somebody else was watching she crosses to the photograph and taps my blurred face this was three weeks ago i remember some of it you called celia a martyr with a landlord fixation that also sounds like me nia points toward the boxes she packed these herself sloane scheduled the cleanout after she got arrested for what refusing to leave the lobby a laugh slips out that sounds like her nobody joins me devon opens the nearest box why didn t falcon move her property to storage because storage preserves ownership nia says vacancy doesn t she lifts the stool the kitchen light flickers knuckles drum from inside the cabinets i snatch it from her don t move that now you believe me i believe the apartment doesn t like you the apartment loves me your mother fed half this floor from that stove my mother feeds people so they owe her nia s eyes sharpen is that what you think love is no that s what she thinks love is the answer comes too quickly celia s name loosens inside me i press my thumbnail into the brass button until the edge cuts deeper when i open my hand there are three objects instead of one the button a bowling pin keychain and the broken ear of a ceramic dog an old man corrects an astros game in the next room i smell tortillas blistering over a gas burner my tongue presses against a missing tooth that is not missing from my mouth your van nia says i look at her what s in your van two contractor bins sit beneath a moving blanket in the back of our white ram promaster i have been collecting these things for four years together they look less like evidence than a problem i have hidden from myself a baby sock a cracked roku remote a spoon bent almost in half a laminated prayer card a jar of buttons a metro q card a wooden letter m a photograph with the people cut out i uncover the first bin every loading dock window fogs from the inside the habits enter me at once i lock an imaginary window three times rub two fingers together in search of cigarette ash and whisper come eat before it gets cold to a son who has been dead longer than devon has been alive my shoulders bend around pain from a warehouse injury my left hand reaches for an inhaler my right signs a rent check in handwriting that belongs to evelyn or esther or nobody nia catches me before my knees hit the concrete faces surface and vanish bernard holt with silver tape on his radio a girl with a yellow bracelet a woman sleeping in her fiesta mart uniform so she will not miss the morning bus a man hiding cash behind a loose baseboard because banks make him nervous my mother carries black trash bags down a stairwell she presses a red mixing bowl against my chest keep this why because they can take the apartment they can t call it empty if something from it still knows your hands i am seven or nine or every age at which adults explain terror as a game because children move faster when they think they 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