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rida s statistics majority of lifers without parole are women under 25 75 are the co defendant 85 have a history of drug abuse lowering the mentality of choice and covering up mental illnesses that exist 95 are victims of sexual verbal physical and mental abuse all mitigating factors which should have been taken into account during trial and sentencing were swept under the rug instead of facing the problem or neglect that these women suffer their only concern is a conviction the state of florida department of corrections has become a human warehouse money is the only goal not equality justice or liberty nobody cares anymore in the judicial system even if you weren t a part of the crime the hopelessness in a natural life sentence is so mentally and physically crippling that many have given up completely but there is hope the programs that are available need to be taken into account what we have done the sobriety the good behavior the process of learning to become good productive citizens women of integrity and character most of us women did not have full time parents to show us that these things are or what we should be where is the sense that taxpayers pay millions to keep women imprisoned that are assets to other women to their children to their families where does the insanity stop where are and when do the people say enough is enough several women are willing to speak on this matter but when will society listen or show concern we are real people despite our ridiculous time it s time to stand up it s time to save lives it s time to be a voice we are women with a voice we want the world to know that this principal theory these life sentences without parole or a second chance in life are not right where is the justice for truth where is the justice for those who are rehabilitated the ones who wake up in the morning seeking praying strong enough to fight for the weak we open up to you we are handing you a passion for women all over florida the two of us are victims where was society where was the judicial system when we needed them there was no help until it was too late we stand up as warriors for this cause we scrutinize this ridiculous theory a theory that has taken young mothers from their children daughters from their mothers who need them and sisters from sisters where does any theory justify that to an extent of no hope to the extent that we are thrown away like dogs at the slaughter we are not useless we are women women who choose to be heard now is the time jennifer twist 816719 lowell correctional institute annex 11120 northwest gainesville road ocala fl 34482 my name is jennifer laurie twist i was given my first taste of loss and abandonment when my mother left me with my grandmother for two years i got my first sexual experience at 7 1 2 years old when i was molested for over a year i was molested and terrorized by someone 8 years older than me at 8 years old i learned what marijuana tasted like by 11 years old i tried cocaine by 13 1 was hooked on both for me there was no source of supervision my stepfather was a womanizer i watched him beat my mother he was never home because of his gambling addiction at 7 1 2 when i tried to tell about the sexual abuse my offender cracked my face open my mother s co dependency upon my stepfather left me susceptible to all my trauma at 15 years old i was living with three girlfriends and one night we went to a bar that night i was involved in mv first criminal activity when my friends and i stole a bunch of purses from inside the bar the next seven days we bounced 43 000 00 in fraudulent checks at this time i was pregnant and it was 1988 my stepfather kicked me out because i refused to have an abortion i honestly don t know in my numbness from the emotional trauma and drug abuse what i was thinking but at 15 seven days later and pregnant i was arrested there was no investigation as to why i was just labeled a rogue teen and my parents had to pay restitution shortly after at 6 months pregnant i called my mother to my apartment where i was living with a man who intentionally drugged me and as i was sleeping he would rape me at that point i chose to put my baby up for adoption after i delivered her i lost my will to live i felt like a part of me had died i ended up with a woman and started smoking crack and committed trafficking offenses of stolen property that were purchased off the credit cards we stole i was seeking peace in drug abuse and excessive spending but nothing helped i ended up with a 9 1 2 year sentence where the system just fed me anti depressants and anti psychotic drugs to get me high numb and make me sleep the medications hindered and there was no help prison was a kiddie camp we had our clothes and meetings at the park they did not offer therapy yet no one questioned why an underage girl was in such a mess or why her mentality was so distorted i served 6 months of 9 l h years and went out with the same mentality that i walked in with but became a better and smarter criminal i learned about sugar daddy s how to get one how to use him to get what i wanted because at this point it was just about me i was too numb to care it was 1991 when i went in and came out in 1992 when i was 19 in 1994 1 came back on a violation for a year and a half i ran hard checks and credit cards money i just wanted to be in i wanted the jewelry clothes the flash the acceptance and i served 9 months on the violation charge i felt so ashamed so unloved unworthy i now had a past i never faced no where and no one to turn to i felt i had to buy friends that no one would be around me if i wasn t this person a person i didn t even know a person i did not want to be but thought i had to be the biggest mistake i made was the friends that i chose i don t care if this doesn t free me prison has been my mentality since i was young before my life sentence i lived in a prison of my own trapped in hostile relationships lost confused mentally i was still that little girl lying on the bed being raped i was just being socially raped and didn t even know it because no one was there to show me i got in trouble money got me out i got abused and got high to numb the pain i lost a daughter because she wasn t accepted and killed myself to let her go there is no logic to these decisions just emotional mental wounds that the mind couldn t process because it was immature i am not the only woman who has suffered there are millions of us with similar stories yet no one to speak and still yet no one to listen in 1996 my final conviction of life with no parole came after a trial that lasted 9 days the judicial system gave me a conflict of interest attorney the state prosecutors were nothing but smoke and mirrors upon my arrest the cops stripped me naked and tied me down with my arms spread legs spread and shot me up with a medication i begged them to let me go the officers confined me and told me they d only let me go if i spoke to patti lumpkin i complied to be set free from my bondage during the interview ms lumpkin had to keep slapping me to keep me awake she fed a story to me kept telling me no this is what happened right i don t even remember anymore after that interview i was in solitary confinement on medications the police continued to question me feeding me stories versions they wanted to hear of what happened all of this was presented to the judge and was denied suppression the judge never gave it a second look it was all on camera the truth what is the truth and what does it matter when the state of florida wants a conviction i was sitting in the car waiting for my co defendant to use the bathroom while unbeknownst to me he was committing murder there was no preconceived notion or knowledge of what he was going to do i had no idea the victim was my friend july 25 2015 will start my 20 th year of incarceration my first 10 years were really hard i continued to use drugs in prison and stayed in trouble around 2003 2006 1 started to try working on myself it has been a long hard road but i am proud of the woman i ve become when i came to prison i had an 8 th grade education and was completely broken thanks to god i am now a certified help desk analyst by the florida department of education a certified cosmetologists by the florida department of education i have a diploma with hands on experience in gardening landscaping and a diploma with highest honors in hotel restaurant management i have just recently completed a yearlong faith character program and i am a computer technician in the program at 42 years old i have learned the value of life i m clean sober and productive i keep a clear record because i chose to live a better life where even in here it is very easy to get in trouble i have all the skills to be a productive citizen in society yet 20 years ago i was a principle so florida says there is no second chance where is the justice in that my name is marianne star blake i have been given a life sentence with no chance of parole i have never been arrested in my life i was 26 in 2012 at the time of the crime i had my own house was about to start a new job the next day with two beautiful bright children and a drug addiction at 4 years old i was sexually molested by the man my mother would eventually marry a year later during the ages of 4 7 he became physically abusive to all three of my brothers and myself my mother had a daughter with him as well but at the age of 5 i told my mom what was going on and what was going on and the church she attended did a prayer circle and called me a liar two years later i told my brother when we were home sick from school he said go tell mom you gotta tell her i remember saying that i did and she didn t do anything i came home from school the next day and he was gone that man only got 6 months in jail for a lesser charge of lude and lascivious behaviors for the two minors me and my brother that charge and sentence was the same county i got sentenced in i was in and out of counseling physical abuse was still relevant because there was 5 children and just my mother who was the only provider the same church that called me a liar and picked me up on the bus just never came anymore i remember being the only one dressed for church that day and the bus never came at thirteen i skipped school to have friends because i was not allowed out of the house i had to be home to take care of my little brother cook clean watch the house all while mom was at work i was practically made the mother to my younger brother and sister and not only that my mentally handicapped brother needed me too during this time i found out my real father had died when i was one i became depressed suicidal and i started cutting myself my mother then put me in a mental facility and they said i was just looking for attention to me that was a slap in the face i was sexually assaulted at 14 the first year in high school in front of the class room in the hall i ran home crying when only one person stood up for me and the other students said i asked for it he was sentenced to classes for offenders i had to switch schools because the kids ridiculed me and made fun of me and would say they didn t want to touch me i did graduate high school but with major difficulties i was medicated and had anxiety attacks so for 6 months of high school i took classes over the phone after the incident i found once i acclimated and stopped hating myself pretended to be cool i found the greatest friends i created a distorted figure of myself though at each twist and turn men were still trying to get me like i was a piece of meat i graduated and started doing drugs it went from drinking to smoking pot at parties till nobody parties anymore then i was left alone with this mental struggle i couldn t be alone with myself i knew no other way my mother never taught me character she never taught me to do make up or what a woman of integrity was growing up men were in and out of our home i did not know what stable was i was not mentally stable my drug use went to cocaine at 19 years old and when i had my son at 21 i swore that i would stop but post partum set in and i was popping xanax to be okay lortabs to have energy xanax to take away the worry i was afraid someone would hurt him i wouldn t even let him crawl on the floor if it looked dirty when i started working i remember walking a mile home because the father of my kids wouldn t answer the phone i thought he left with my son that i just walked out of my job by then i was taking ecstasy to feel better i got pregnant again and knew that i was scared half to death we were living with someone else practically homeless on drugs so i wanted to give the baby up for adoption but we kept her she was a girl i didn t go to the doctor because i was in denial but at delivery we found out the baby was a girl the father of my kids had to coax to hold her because i wouldn t i was afraid because it was real i wouldn t breast feed because when my son was born he stopped breathing and had to be resuscitated while i was holding him he caught an infection at birth i say my new born son s body turn blue at 23 i was a stay at home mom we had a home he had a job and was gone from 6 am to 6 pm finances were hard and i was still struggling with addition they put me on anti depressants but they didn t help i started cutting my hair and cutting myself questioning what was going to happen to my children when i couldn t be there at this point my sons 1 1 2 and my daughters 5 or 6 months the father of my kids and i argued all the time because he says it s all in my head there s nothing wrong with me he says i hated myself that first victimization still followed me i was afraid for my children my future that i wasn t enough i was secluded in that home alone with each and every thought and i snapped verbal arguments went physical fast we began throwing things and breaking things in anger i was back handed and flew off the porch into a seizure because i hit my head on the rocks after that i took my children and left i myself up mentally and it became reality i did not know what love was i didn t know why i couldn t stop using drugs i just wanted to be happy and didn t know how i just didn t know how i got pregnant again at 24 by the same man i chose to give him up for adoption i started working to keep him and take care of myself and my other two i had a great job when i was 3 months pregnant but once again i was sexually assaulted the police were called the next day nothing was done because the other men there said it never happened at birth of my son i lost a piece of me i was sober but couldn t stay sober i was a failure no one would help me my mother kicked me out at 6 months pregnant at 26 my crime was committed my co defendant was 19 he was spending the night because i was afraid of the drug dealer coming back because he kept showing up at my home i was smoking crack that weekend but that night i was asleep ...
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