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e against her left thigh he looked directly into her eyes and then angled the blade slipping the razor between the hose and her leg making a vertical slit she straightened up you didn t have to do that i would ve poe pressed his fingers to her lips he made a silent sawing diagonal cut that he curved past her knee he took both edges of the slit hose and ripped them apart the sound like tugging a rusty zipper the exposed leg fascinated him it was a vague flesh color the hinge joint a darker brown she tried to take the torn flaps of the pantyhose to cover her leg her breaths came in rhythmic hitches and she made a clumsy attempt to wrest from his lap he shushed her and drew the blade against the knee a thin cut a transparent corkscrew shaving wormed free he stopped mid thigh and brushed the excess she touched his hand don t this one s expensive she said he looked her in the eyes and made another cut don t poe gripped her hard by the face to kiss her she scrambled free tumbling near the quarry s edge she crawled for the lightbulb and the camper he stood up from the chair his face disappeared into the shadows her pantyhose had torn further snagging at the socket her hair hung in her face matting to her cheeks with sweat and tears her face had become an exaggeration of eyelash and smeared lipstick she tried to pull the dress past her knees and hugged her face into her shoulder when poe extended a hand she slapped at it she inched back fingers grasping for traction in the giving sand the leg dragged with her she reached the aluminum steps of the camper and clasped to the bottom rail he followed her slow kicking sand over the furrow the leg made he spoke to her in a soothing tone and curled an arm under her waist and around her right leg she released her grip and he lifted her she pressed her face to him she refused to let him touch the leg so he unfastened it and dropped it to the sand he eyed the leg as he carried her into the camper at dawn poe climbed from the camper he draped the leg over his shoulder and walked to the lawn chair the sun had begun to creep over the lip of the fields past the quarry reds and yellows bleached into the morning light a bird skimmed the length of the quarry and settled on the crane poe sat and leaned forward he began to sculpt the leg he heard her call his name once then twice then nothing the leavings fluttered in a pile at his feet _______________________________________________________________ all rights to unrequited love retained by bruce brown s executor introduction copyright 2010walterconley rodham katsu october 18 2010 10 54 am posted in uncategorized comments 3 katashi katsu interview ________________________________________________________________ ________________________________________________________________ editor s note last weekend an acquaintance of mine by the name of rizzy rodham who writes what she wants and does it all too infrequently for my tastes sent me an email the email had no subject contained within it was an interview by rizzy of the elusive and mystifying katashi katsu although i bear no ill will toward the man i hesitate to number katsu among my friends if you knew him you would understand he is a mutual something of ours rizzy s and mine that will have to suffice katsu trusted her with the following information she trusted me i know entrust it to you the readers of disenthralled to make of it what you will walter conley louisa va october 18 2010 stall an interview with katashi katsu conducted independently by rizzy rodham walter katashi katsu recently agreed to sit with me for an interview concerning the alleged abduction of his parents by extraterrestrials in the spring of 1968 i knew little of the encounter beforehand tash had mentioned it in passing back in 2001 while we were both employed by the u s d a national clonal germplasm repository for citrus and dates at uc riverside he shared certain details of the event unprompted and for reasons known only to him during our weekly trip to the department s experimental date palm grove in the isolated desert community of blythe i will never forget that morning as i will also never forget the afternoon of the following interview it came about easily almost too easily i later thought katsu owed me a favor perhaps he had set me up by obliging himself to me at any rate i requested an interview on the subject i had been sleepwalking and regaining consciousness in the oddest of situations with even odder traces of lingering dreams memories that i don t care to expound upon i hoped that the experience of his parents might shed light upon my own predicament katsu to my astonishment agreed but should we ever not be surprised by katashi katsu meet me this afternoon he said i scrambled for a pen poised to write on the inside of my forearm where i asked he named a small family owned restaurant off the ucr campus one we had frequented in 2001 then said three o clock there and right there only there i katashi katsu will be there at precisely 3 00pm i entered the restaurant to find katsu waiting at a booth along the window he was facing the door as always i sat across from him tash had a mug of coffee in his hands black and piping hot another had been ordered for me i thanked him and sipped cream and two sugars the way i had preferred their house blend all those years ago please set your instruments on the table he said i place my microcassette recorder down between us a notebook and pencil beside it how have you been tash this is my story he said i punched the record button interview proper begins the interviewer shall be noted henceforth as rr with personal observations supplied in brackets katsu my mother was babysitting for her sister in march of 1968 her sister connie we will refer to her as my mother s sister she was young then nineteen maybe twenty no nineteen her sister s family owned a house in brookfield connecticut deep in the woods near lantern hill are you familiar with the area rr no katsu it is woody rr okay katsu my mother was watching her three nieces while her sister and her sister s husband visited friends nearby to play cards they ate a dinner of elbow macaroni are you familiar with elbow macaroni rr i ve seen pictures katsu be serious with me rr yes i ve had elbow macaroni before katsu that is all we have to be familiar with for this story the door opened behind me i heard a group of children laughing katsu eyed them warily over my shoulder katsu con t my mother and father were dating when this happened engaged to be wed it was around the time he implanted her with me katashi katsu rr you were born the following year correct katsu that is correct rizzy rodham i spent the full term inside her and escaped in january of 1969 rr on what day the date i mean katsu my mother was alone that night with the children the three little girls she had put them to bed and was looking at the moon through the trees out the big picture window in the living room she didn t just look at it though she was watching it that is how she said it to me because it seemed to be moving very slowly through the trees so slowly that she couldn t be sure it was moving at all but she felt that it was and she realized as she was standing there that the moon was in fact on the other side of the house she had seen it through the window of the youngest girl s bedroom as she was tucking her into bed rr this light katashi it looked like the moon katsu like she said but not exactly this was not the moon it was too large too close for the moon to be and the bluer spots seemed to be in the wrong places rr the face katsu if you will at this point a waitress returned with a fresh pot of coffee to refill our mugs katashi informed her that it would be the last time they would be adding coffee to the coffee that day rr the face was wrong katsu yes it was a face but not human rr what is that supposed to mean exactly katsu not human is all she said rr go on katsu i am going on there s no need to tell me to go on i am already telling you the story rr okay katsu she went back to the youngest girl s bedroom to make sure she d seen the moon from that corner of the house it was still there and it definitely was the real moon in a panic she broke one of her sister s rules for babysitting and called the man who would be my father he came over right away that light was still in the trees and upset him even more than it upset her for some reason rr had either of them experienced anything like that in the past katsu no or if they had they didn t tell me he stayed with her until her sister got home and the two of them left right away they didn t say a word about what had happened to her sister only that she wasn t feeling well the light was gone when they stepped outside they were on their way home then when my father noticed that the light had reappeared and was now following them it didn t just appear to be following them like the real moon seems to do it was following them it followed them all the way back to wellesport where my mother was living with her family my father tried to outrun it but could not even though he wasn t married yet and had a very fast car at the time they turned into her driveway she had a long gravel driveway that went back into the trees you couldn t see the house from the road and as they were turning the car shut off rr completely katu completely then the lights and radio came back on he re started the car and drove her to the house her mother the woman who would be my grandmother was waiting she asked what they were doing out until 2 30 in the morning they had left her sister s house at a quarter to twelve and come straight home and they stared at each other unable to make sense of it until her mother pulled her inside and slammed the door it should have been a fifteen minute drive that is the story rr that s it katsu that is all my mother told me about it once and only once aside from that neither of them would ever speak about it again they made it clear that they did not care to discuss it further i asked from time to time but they would not even reply interview proper ends katashi katsu waved his hand to indicate that he was done i signed off and stopped recording the interview proper was done but felt incomplete and also strangely like it would be completed excuse me katsu said he went down the hall to the bathroom i finished my coffee and asked for the check approximately five minutes later i replaced the recorder pad and pencil in my bag i watched the hallway i waited after five more minutes had elapsed i hoisted the bag onto my shoulder and went to the bathroom door there was no sound from inside i knocked and called his name aware that disturbing katashi katsu was almost always a mistake whatever the circumstances but disquieted by his failure to return when i received no reply i tried the doorknob it turned freely tash i said loudly i m opening the door i pushed the door open until it hit the stop against the wall the light was on this was a small single bathroom there was a toilet sink garbage can paper towel dispenser and vent there was no window nor was there any sign of katashi katsu _______________________________________________________________ interview by juliette rizzy rodham published here for the first time unabridged and with her consent that is not the shadow of a house painted by walter conley all material copyright 2010 by respective creators warsaw moon 4 july 10 2010 7 05 am posted in uncategorized comments 1 warsaw moon part four by paul d brazill dark dreams and worse memories lapped at the shore of krystyna s sleep until she awoke drowning in sweat and stained by sour memories it took her a moment to adjust to the surroundings her bedroom looked unfamiliar in the wan light krystyna lay for a moment each heartbeat like the tick of a clock and edged off the bed her joints ached after the day spent working out in the gym moving like robocop she went to the window and peeled back the blinds a constellation of streetlights and a galaxy of christmas decorations faded into the distance towards the old town the street was almost deserted she strained to listen someone somewhere nearby was whistling was it rhapsody in blue or maybe she was imagining it she was exhausted and her mind was starting to play tricks on her again winter had crept up and smothered the days with darkness flushing her memories to the forefront of her mind night after sleepless night her anxiety brewed and bubbled to boiling point her sleep was becoming increasingly fitful her days spectral guilty conscience her mother back in komorow used to say when her father couldn t sleep it was always easy for her mother to sleep but for krystyna it was like wading through molasses especially these days she looked at dragan half dressed and slumped across the bed he was holding a bottle of vodka like a baby holds a teddy bear she had a flashback to their first meeting before she d come to warsaw from her small town out in the sticks she d heard stories about the night drivers amphetamine pumped young men who each midnight tied fishing wire around their necks and the cars brakes and then raced from one end of the city to the next when she d seen the cut marks on the taxi driver s neck and his red red eyes she d ben a little wary but excited the serbian was handsome and charming with his hybrid of languages but that was then and this is now she thought just like the song that dragan used to play in his first bmw krystyna shook her head took a deep breath and counted to ten she walked into the migraine bright bathroom and looked in the mirror she ran her fingers across the coin shaped scar on her right shoulder and grimaced at the memory it brought back krystyna tied back her long black hair and checked the ten inch barrel desert eagle xix that she kept hidden in the washing basket it was just a matter of time she thought she ran the shower as hot as bearable before she got in maybe it would wash away the past maybe _______________________________________________________________ photo by tariq raheem see more of tariq s work at tariq12 deviantart com and tariqart net follow him at twitter tariqart12 _______________________________________________________________ read the series warsaw moon in order here _______________________________________________________________ produced by walter conley there are several new projects in the works submissions are closed at the present time questions comments to disenthrallers gmail com the rights to all material presented here are owned by the respective creators do not reproduce without express written permission under the triple moon june 19 2010 7 41 am posted in uncategorized comments 8 _______________________________________________________________ untitled it was too early this birth she and the child waited in some odd place hovering between two worlds not sure which was the one they 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