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me about easily almost too easily i later thought katsu owed me a favor perhaps he had set me up by obliging himself to me at any rate i requested an interview on the subject i had been sleepwalking and regaining consciousness in the oddest of situations with even odder traces of lingering dreams memories that i don t care to expound upon i hoped that the experience of his parents might shed light upon my own predicament katsu to my astonishment agreed but should we ever not be surprised by katashi katsu meet me this afternoon he said i scrambled for a pen poised to write on the inside of my forearm where i asked he named a small family owned restaurant off the ucr campus one we had frequented in 2001 then said three o clock there and right there only there i katashi katsu will be there at precisely 3 00pm i entered the restaurant to find katsu waiting at a booth along the window he was facing the door as always i sat across from him tash had a mug of coffee in his hands black and piping hot another had been ordered for me i thanked him and sipped cream and two sugars the way i had preferred their house blend all those years ago please set your instruments on the table he said i place my microcassette recorder down between us a notebook and pencil beside it how have you been tash this is my story he said i punched the record button interview proper begins the interviewer shall be noted henceforth as rr with personal observations supplied in brackets katsu my mother was babysitting for her sister in march of 1968 her sister connie we will refer to her as my mother s sister she was young then nineteen maybe twenty no nineteen her sister s family owned a house in brookfield connecticut deep in the woods near lantern hill are you familiar with the area rr no katsu it is woody rr okay katsu my mother was watching her three nieces while her sister and her sister s husband visited friends nearby to play cards they ate a dinner of elbow macaroni are you familiar with elbow macaroni rr i ve seen pictures katsu be serious with me rr yes i ve had elbow macaroni before katsu that is all we have to be familiar with for this story the door opened behind me i heard a group of children laughing katsu eyed them warily over my shoulder katsu con t my mother and father were dating when this happened engaged to be wed it was around the time he implanted her with me katashi katsu rr you were born the following year correct katsu that is correct rizzy rodham i spent the full term inside her and escaped in january of 1969 rr on what day the date i mean katsu my mother was alone that night with the children the three little girls she had put them to bed and was looking at the moon through the trees out the big picture window in the living room she didn t just look at it though she was watching it that is how she said it to me because it seemed to be moving very slowly through the trees so slowly that she couldn t be sure it was moving at all but she felt that it was and she realized as she was standing there that the moon was in fact on the other side of the house she had seen it through the window of the youngest girl s bedroom as she was tucking her into bed rr this light katashi it looked like the moon katsu like she said but not exactly this was not the moon it was too large too close for the moon to be and the bluer spots seemed to be in the wrong places rr the face katsu if you will at this point a waitress returned with a fresh pot of coffee to refill our mugs katashi informed her that it would be the last time they would be adding coffee to the coffee that day rr the face was wrong katsu yes it was a face but not human rr what is that supposed to mean exactly katsu not human is all she said rr go on katsu i am going on there s no need to tell me to go on i am already telling you the story rr okay katsu she went back to the youngest girl s bedroom to make sure she d seen the moon from that corner of the house it was still there and it definitely was the real moon in a panic she broke one of her sister s rules for babysitting and called the man who would be my father he came over right away that light was still in the trees and upset him even more than it upset her for some reason rr had either of them experienced anything like that in the past katsu no or if they had they didn t tell me he stayed with her until her sister got home and the two of them left right away they didn t say a word about what had happened to her sister only that she wasn t feeling well the light was gone when they stepped outside they were on their way home then when my father noticed that the light had reappeared and was now following them it didn t just appear to be following them like the real moon seems to do it was following them it followed them all the way back to wellesport where my mother was living with her family my father tried to outrun it but could not even though he wasn t married yet and had a very fast car at the time they turned into her driveway she had a long gravel driveway that went back into the trees you couldn t see the house from the road and as they were turning the car shut off rr completely katu completely then the lights and radio came back on he re started the car and drove her to the house her mother the woman who would be my grandmother was waiting she asked what they were doing out until 2 30 in the morning they had left her sister s house at a quarter to twelve and come straight home and they stared at each other unable to make sense of it until her mother pulled her inside and slammed the door it should have been a fifteen minute drive that is the story rr that s it katsu that is all my mother told me about it once and only once aside from that neither of them would ever speak about it again they made it clear that they did not care to discuss it further i asked from time to time but they would not even reply interview proper ends katashi katsu waved his hand to indicate that he was done i signed off and stopped recording the interview proper was done but felt incomplete and also strangely like it would be completed excuse me katsu said he went down the hall to the bathroom i finished my coffee and asked for the check approximately five minutes later i replaced the recorder pad and pencil in my bag i watched the hallway i waited after five more minutes had elapsed i hoisted the bag onto my shoulder and went to the bathroom door there was no sound from inside i knocked and called his name aware that disturbing katashi katsu was almost always a mistake whatever the circumstances but disquieted by his failure to return when i received no reply i tried the doorknob it turned freely tash i said loudly i m opening the door i pushed the door open until it hit the stop against the wall the light was on this was a small single bathroom there was a toilet sink garbage can paper towel dispenser and vent there was no window nor was there any sign of katashi katsu _______________________________________________________________ interview by juliette rizzy rodham published here for the first time unabridged and with her consent that is not the shadow of a house painted by walter conley all material copyright 2010 by respective creators warsaw moon 4 july 10 2010 7 05 am posted in uncategorized comments 1 warsaw moon part four by paul d brazill dark dreams and worse memories lapped at the shore of krystyna s sleep until she awoke drowning in sweat and stained by sour memories it took her a moment to adjust to the surroundings her bedroom looked unfamiliar in the wan light krystyna lay for a moment each heartbeat like the tick of a clock and edged off the bed her joints ached after the day spent working out in the gym moving like robocop she went to the window and peeled back the blinds a constellation of streetlights and a galaxy of christmas decorations faded into the distance towards the old town the street was almost deserted she strained to listen someone somewhere nearby was whistling was it rhapsody in blue or maybe she was imagining it she was exhausted and her mind was starting to play tricks on her again winter had crept up and smothered the days with darkness flushing her memories to the forefront of her mind night after sleepless night her anxiety brewed and bubbled to boiling point her sleep was becoming increasingly fitful her days spectral guilty conscience her mother back in komorow used to say when her father couldn t sleep it was always easy for her mother to sleep but for krystyna it was like wading through molasses especially these days she looked at dragan half dressed and slumped across the bed he was holding a bottle of vodka like a baby holds a teddy bear she had a flashback to their first meeting before she d come to warsaw from her small town out in the sticks she d heard stories about the night drivers amphetamine pumped young men who each midnight tied fishing wire around their necks and the cars brakes and then raced from one end of the city to the next when she d seen the cut marks on the taxi driver s neck and his red red eyes she d ben a little wary but excited the serbian was handsome and charming with his hybrid of languages but that was then and this is now she thought just like the song that dragan used to play in his first bmw krystyna shook her head took a deep breath and counted to ten she walked into the migraine bright bathroom and looked in the mirror she ran her fingers across the coin shaped scar on her right shoulder and grimaced at the memory it brought back krystyna tied back her long black hair and checked the ten inch barrel desert eagle xix that she kept hidden in the washing basket it was just a matter of time she thought she ran the shower as hot as bearable before she got in maybe it would wash away the past maybe _______________________________________________________________ photo by tariq raheem see more of tariq s work at tariq12 deviantart com and tariqart net follow him at twitter tariqart12 _______________________________________________________________ read the series warsaw moon in order here _______________________________________________________________ produced by walter conley there are several new projects in the works submissions are closed at the present time questions comments to disenthrallers gmail com the rights to all material presented here are owned by the respective creators do not reproduce without express written permission under the triple moon june 19 2010 7 41 am posted in uncategorized comments 8 _______________________________________________________________ untitled it was too early this birth she and the child waited in some odd place hovering between two worlds not sure which was the one they should dwell in for eternity they each chose one life on earth moved on leaving the one who picked that place to always wonder about what could have been quin browne _______________________________________________________________ _______________________________________________________________ longing by susannah elisabeth pabot in the days before memory when moonless skies were a blanket of darkness after each day s dusk a prairie child was born into the first rays of the sun her newborn face reached up out of her mother s womb and felt a dazzle of golden warmth and pure light and from that moment onwards she sought nothing less her cries shook each blackened night and no song nor tender rocking at the full breast would soothe her until dawn broke listening to her new daughter s wild and desperate howls her mother soon understood that this child was unlike others and so she named her longing when longing learned to walk and talk she did not play with ragged dolls nor skip with her sisters and brothers no crouched by herself her eyes swam out over oceans of grass to grasp hold of the sun wandering over the vast skies above her and when the light threatened to disappear at each day s end and the sun slipped downwards into the land longing wailed i love you why do you come and go instead of staying with me each night the sun would lay his arms around her for one last time and try to find an answer that might quell her pain if i stayed forever i would burn a hole into the sky and you would fall through he said or if i never slept nor you my light would fade and the earth disappear into darkness forever but whatever he came up with longing would always answer i don t believe you if you loved me enough you wouldn t go i promise to come back the sun always whispered just before leaving her but stubborn longing would call into the darkness that is not enough longing s brothers and sisters grew in the usual ways and wandered from their father s land into their own while longing stayed where she was haunting every day s dusk pleading unable to bear her child s suffering her mother wept through each night placing wet cloths on her daughter s burning forehead until one evening just before sunset she glanced down onto her daughter s writhing body and saw that unnoticed her breasts had become womanly and her hips ripe and filled with flames in that moment longing s mother knew that she must set her child free she turned her child s face into the setting sun and said go and try to find what it is you so desire longing rose and bid her mother farewell she ran not stopping to rest or eat or sleep for many weeks and when she finally stood on that slice of land where the sun sets longing lay down into the grass flung her arms open closed her eyes and waited for him to descend look at me i am not a child anymore she cried if you cannot stay with me take me with you shaken by her ravenous love the sun caressed longing with his warmth licking every sweating crevasse longing smiled and opened her eyes at last capturing the sun with her gaze he thrashed and flailed but longing s eyes were fierce and for one endless second before of falling into the earth he dipped through her and her thirst was quenched aglow in his burning rays blinded and hollow from then on longing wandered in darkness but as her body faded away her stomach grew round and full in the sun s image when her skin could not stretch any further she broke apart and out of her the moon rose glorious into our night sky _______________________________________________________________ _______________________________________________________________ don t marry the witch i make my own warmth where you cannot see my gums bleed we arc in conversation and the air drops something massive approaches the doorway waives survival shit like this happens every day and i know you ll sleep better knowing i m not beware your human is showing rachel kalyna ________________________________________________________________ ________________________________________________________________ white heat by jelena vencl ohlrogge her skin gives off a faint scent of something familiar but he cannot put a finger on what it is vanilla sugar milk baby powder...
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