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he plans to be an effective president an effective executive branch leader of government after decades of not delivering a lot in the senate will it be his super competent cabinet if he built his entire platform on m4a but we lose congress and he can t deliver is there a back up plan is there a plan to manage the anger disappointment and fallout if that happens how is his campaign responding to the results from super tuesday are they critically self assessing or just blaming warren supporters convince me he can win it all give me math for that what is his electoral path we know from 2016 that getting tons of votes in california does not a winner make so far the numbers are not in his favor what do you say when canvassing and somebody says socialism with the same tone they would use for coronavirus also and this is not small what is his plan and your personal plan for confronting the toxic bro culture hint notallberners is not an effective argument because i ve now deconstructed from three three cults and there is a fragrance of fundy style group think wafting from the bernie camp that is both deeply familiar and extraordinarily unsettling it has to do partly with his supporters fixation on his purity of woke ness the decades of un wavering commitment to ideology how nobody who has ever evolved through different positions can be trusted the way they virtue signal their own progressive bonafides by considering that everyone not with them immediately and completely must be a corporate shill who doesn t care if people die i care very very much if people die that people have already been dying which is why i take this choice so seriously if bernie s turnout is disappointing despite widespread support for m4a consider that the problem may be your candidate or the culture around him not his platform and not a conspiracy of party politics against you and what are you going to do about that how do you think the messaging should change and i totally get it that you re angry i get the sense of emergency and urgency i do but i also know from experience that shaming people for disagreeing with you is not productive if you want them to join your side i m a woman remember i ve never been allowed to be angry so what are your thoughts i m open i really am we all share at minimum the same biggest goal a democratic wh if i can t land on a choice i feel good about i might sit the primary out i will of course show up for the general and all the down ballots poc especially invited to weigh in 4 comments filed under uncategorized december 16 2019 2 48 pm i believe in santa clause an acquaintance recently expressed surprise when she discovered that we have decided to go full santa clause with our kids she knows i started life as a jehovah s witness that most of my extended family still don t celebrate christmas or easter or halloween or birthdays or stand for the pledge or the anthem or any of that it surprised her that we would choose to fling ourselves so far into worldly culture as to embrace santa our decision also surprises some of our christian friends who take a more shall we say authentic approach to the holiday it even surprises some of our atheist friends who feel that the revelation of the lie of santa was their first step out of the fantasies of religion and they quietly wonder if we are setting our children up for disillusionment and well atheism and they may be right this whole thing may be a failed gambit but dammit i m embracing it anyway because i love santa clause i believe in santa clause i believe in santa clause the way i believe in money and corporations and government all of these things all of them are fictions they are entirely made up they only exist because we say they exist and behave as if they exist money without our communal belief holding it up is a lot of wasted paper the minute we stop believing and agreeing with one another to believe that money is money it becomes paper it is our very faith in money that creates its meaning it is only because we believe in it that it exists and that s fine a lot of things are possible when money exists that are not possible when money does not exist ever try to barter your macrame skills for new shoes it is a very convenient and useful fiction why not with santa why do i have to be able to visit a castle at the north pole for santa to be real here s what santa means to me when i was about five or six years old our family had only been celebrating christmas for a year or two we went to arizona to visit cousins who had also only been celebrating christmas for a couple years and none of us were sold on santa we weren t raised with him from birth after all so the adults pulled a major coup they bought all the materials for building a tree house but kept it off sight until after we d all gone to bed then loaded it all into the back yard in the dead of night and covered it with a tarp the next morning after all the dolls and fire trucks had been unwrapped one of the adults excused himself to the restroom and jingle bells were heard fading away outside the window a huge show was made of running to all the windows to see if we could see santa flying away and what was that what was that in the yard we spent the rest of the day building the tree house and i was a firm believer in santa for a couple years after i don t remember when i discovered the truth but what i kept from that experience was not the deception but the magic my grown ups cared enough to engineer magic into my life and i felt that as love santa may have been a convenient fiction the vehicle for the magic but the love was true so when i say i believe in santa i mean i believe in engineering magic for another i mean conspiring for joy i mean creating mostly small miracles santa is real when we make him real not in a punitive creepy distant police watchman keeping a tally of your mistakes way but in a you have a secret admirer who cares enough to ambush you with love kind of way remember there s room for everyone on the nice list it s not about money or materialism but about attention and attention to detail and commitment to another s joy it s about picking a target and knowing what makes their heart patter it s about allowing space for play because play reminds us that we re human and that hope is real even as the climate closes around us and the news is full of spite and cruelty found on my instagram this week from laurajeantruman being joyful isn t a betrayal of the pain of the world and it doesn t make your suffering illegitimate those good bursts of joy that come at odd times in our worst years are sometimes the only things that keep us alive santa is my shorthand for all the pockets of joy that were created for me by other people why shouldn t he be as real as money and christmas which btw if you ve never googled it is a co opted roman pagan holiday whose symbolism is nonetheless so perfectly aligned with the birth of jesus that imho the holiday remains true in the most important sense even if it is entirely inaccurate a useful and meaningful fiction will tracking down a copy of my 4 year old s lost and discontinued favorite doll and allowing them to reunite on christmas morning complete with photos doll luggage and a letter from santa explaining that baby kutto was traveling with him for a few months solve consumerism racism climate collapse greed caged migrants human rights abuses or any of the other world miseries no obviously but maybe it will get her in the habit of looking for miracles and later on looking for ways to make miracles and maybe when she s old enough to make a difference to the world she ll find some so who else out there wants to believe in santa let s conspire for joy 3 comments filed under personal uncategorized tagged as christmas faith giving love magic religion santa truth september 29 2018 8 55 am evangelicals abortion is your golden calf not your holy grail i m christian i believe life begins at conception i m still pro choice i ll tell you why in a minute i ve been sitting on this one for a while now i was waiting for a time when i was less busy so i d be more ready to deal with the potential fallout from poking the internet or i was going to wait until i was ready to unleash my shiny new blog hopefully in the new year but as i write this yesterday was the ford kavanaugh testimonies and i saw in my perusal of coverage a striking statistic 48 of white evangelicals would still support kavanaugh on the supreme court bench even if dr ford s allegations were proven true let s say that again roughly half of white evangelicals support putting a drunken rapist on the highest court in america if it gets them closer to overturning roe v wade there is so much in that statistic that appalls me the ends justify the means cynicism the opposite of biblical hope the total disregard for survivors of sexual assault in white evangelical churches there s no lack of evidence for this cultural trend the opposite of biblical care the total willingness to put their own identity politics at the front at the expense of literally everyone else s the opposite of the gospel call to be a church of all peoples to reach across and learn to care for your opposite there is so much about the whole situation that twists my stomach in knots but i don t have a compelling story about sexual assault to share thank god though i ve been groped and flashed like every woman i know but i can be brave about my stance on abortion because if ever there was an urgent moment to defend women this feels like it i know a lot of abortion opposers and since i was one myself for several years i can already hear the justification but this is to stop a genocide what can be more urgent and important and morally imperative than that i m going to challenge the scriptural authority of that position because if you re willing to sacrifice every other christian value to defend the unborn then i think you ve made abortion an idol first we can only say genocide if we re talking about people i m not going to argue about when life begins because it s not the premise of my position but i would like to point out that theologians across the ages have disagreed on this count there are biblical suggestions that personhood begins at conception or even before certainly like jeremiah 1 5 there are also biblical precedents for the stance that life begins at breath genesis 2 7 for example for centuries the church believed that life began at quickening or the first time the woman carrying the fetus can feel it moving around 18 weeks again my argument doesn t rest on a specific moment at which life begins so i m not going to argue about it i m just pointing out that loving and devout and faithful and thoughtful and reasonable and well meant people have come to different conclusions about this so any claim to have the whole truth about it seems flimsy suspect and dishonest to me second before i get to my actual arguments i d like to remind everyone that the bible does not actually mention abortion not once not in the old testament nor in the new the closest it comes is exodus 21 22 25 22 and if men strive together and hurt a woman with child so that her fruit depart and yet no harm follow he shall be surely fined according as the woman s husband shall lay upon him and he shall pay as the judges determine 23 but if any harm follow then thou shalt give life for life 24 eye for eye tooth for tooth hand for hand foot for foot 25 burning for burning wound for wound stripe for stripe i ve seen articles arguing this passage both ways regarding fetal personhood does the passage establish that fetuses are not full people because the party is only fined for damage or does it establish that fetuses are full people because if harm follow it is treated with the life for life standard the debate hangs over whether if any harm follow refers only to the wife or also to her unborn child does her fruit depart mean a miscarriage or a premature birth which nonetheless results in a living child many translations will happily make this choice for you which is why i went back to the king james again fetal personhood is not part of my argument so i m not going to discuss it at length just pointing out again that well read and well meant people disagree about the meaning of this passage but this passage is still not about abortion abortion is when a woman chooses not to carry a child to term in her own body in the exodus 21 scenario it was someone else who accidentally caused the injury or death of the fetus so it was not a woman choosing what happens in her body so the bible doesn t mention abortion at all which is significant because other ancient texts do for example the laws of middle assyria 14th century bc roughly contemporary with the pentateuch you punish a woman with impalement and no burial for causing her own miscarriage if she dies from the abortion her body is still to be impaled and not buried to make an example for all the other women it s notable that the same texts give the father permission to commit infanticide if the baby is defective in some way disabled disfigured female etc so the abortion law wasn t about protecting life so much as it was about protecting a man s right to make all the family planning decisions in his household so the next door neighbors of the ancient israelites had very strong feelings about abortion but when moses went up on mt sinai the god of the hebrews who had a lot to say in general about separating his people from the detestable ways of their neighbors chose to remain silent on abortion he had reams to say about clothing and fibers and food but nothing on abortion that s worth saying one more time for emphasis god had every chance to condemn abortion and chose to remain silent the roman empire into which jesus was born practiced abortion regularly at all levels of society and had no laws against it jesus has nothing to say about it neither does paul neither do any of the other gospel writers but they do have an extraordinary amount to say about women jesus especially is radically pro woman he both allows and defends mary s choice to sit at his feet a position the feet of the rabbi reserved only for men at that time he interrupts an urgent mission on behalf of an important man jairus to heal not only the body but also the shame of a woman who has been untouchable for 12 years because of her reproductive health he gives to women the honor of bearing first witness to his resurrection when women s testimony was not considered trustworthy enough to be valid in court believewomen trustwomen so jesus cares deeply about the equality and dignity of women there s so much more to be said about this but i ll leave just those three examples for now or i ll never get to the crux of my actual argument which is this even when you consider a fetus a life there is no getting around the fact that it s not an independent life it is a life dependent 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