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ks past sending them up in flames too the idea might well be rejected but did you like it was it good work were you happy with it before you asked someone else to like it if not then come on if you had doubts about it too why wouldn t someone else but if you did like it and it was good solid work then fair enough you get a pass you can sail on to the next pitch with impunity following rejection your self doubt sensors may feel a momentary hot flush but you needn t abandon them to the flames while they to burn to a cinder although in those initial moments you ll feel like it don t neither literally or metaphorically throw your work or your self belief into the fire just find another marshmallow to roast on it until you feel strong enough to try again sign at beamish musuem for example j k rowling may well have felt the heat of so many rejections but she loved harry believed in harry and believed that someone else out there would too and she was right so undoubtedly it s easier to stay motivated when you know you re on to something good but how do you reach this belief like i say it must mainly come from the work itself surely but if so then how are we meant to reconcile the fact that something we thought was good was turned away by others in this case i guess all we can say is that it just wasn t for them sign at beamish musuem that s how my latest rejection email read at least this isn t going to work for us which for a short time was a disappointing answer but at least it was an answer at least i wasn t left hanging or pestering and because i still like the article in question i ll find a place for it somewhere else another website another magazine or right here sometime or other and at least receiving a rejection proves i did something i put myself out there once again and i guess the more times i do it the more i ll get used to the heat asbestos hands that s how some people explain their ability to pick up hot things without flinching isn t it well maybe if we re intent on being out there some of us need to cultivate asbestos self worth but what if unlike j k rowling you don t know if your work is any good oh that s a tricky one of course you can ask someone else for their opinion but then that just takes you back in the realm of subjectivity where whatever it is you re creating might never be for them they re not your target audience they re just not that into you and forgive me for doubting you but are you sure you can t tell if what you re doing is any good surely you do one way or another maybe you don t know it every hour of every day but which of us do i mean it s usually only the people who really ought not to who often hold an unshakable confidence in their abilities leaving the more reflective among us to do all the soul searching did you ever read about my mini writing related breakdown if so you ll definitely know that i don t believe in myself 24 7 and i m certainly no stranger to a crisis of confidence but at some point deep down under all that uncertainty you can surely determine the quality of your own out put or you know enough about its worth to keep you going or at the very least you recognise that there s something there even if you haven t found the words for it yet let alone the confidence to share it with others don t you don t i sign from a local museum a quick refresher course on the purpose of doors as for the purpose of that fear of sharing more widely who we are and what we do then surely it s related to protection to safety to self defence all perfectly noble perfectly reasonable responses given the circumstances which begs the question then why do you even want to put yourself out there why are you contemplating it why would you risk it what do you want to come from it why now and i guess it would be in taking some time to answer these questions that you we will unearth the answer to that final question how can we overcome it because once you possess a clear idea of why you re doing it what you ll get from it what will make it worth the risk then you ll be holding in your hands the seeds of the revelation on how you re going to overcome all those fears those answers will become the motivations which will keep you moving in increments towards being out there in whatever form that takes for you you the small soft vulnerable wizard of oz easing yourself out from behind the safety of the curtain revealing yourself as you really are in which case maybe we both need to just click our heels together three times the answers have probably been with us all along sticky note i found stuck to a computer screen on campus during assignment deadline season i have some interesting projects in the pipeline that will involve me having to put myself out there once again later this year and you know full well i ll be sharing it all with your here when i can chances are i ll be going on about it so much that you might wish i d stayed behind the curtain for now though i m eager to hear your side of things are you struggling to put yourself out there even though you want to do you know what s stopping you or daren t you even start questioning the feeling no judgement here i m absolutely just as bad nothing like a bit of reading starting a new project to dampen down those scary deep thoughts or do you have any stories tips or motivation of your own that you d like to share in the comments let s start a conversation here about ambition motivation fear rejection wizards ruby slippers whatever i m all ears and pointy hat julie x can t be bothered going through the torment of blog commenting while on your phone i don t blame you just grab me on a less cumbersome app instead withjuliekirk on instagram withjuliekirk on facebook notesonpaper on twitter posted by julie kirk at 15 43 3 comments labels motivation creative lifestyle fear anxiety failure rejection email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest friday 1 july 2016 my month in numbers 2016 june june what a wash out while there were definitely some good things happening there was plenty of rain grey clouds and everything else too if you re like me and granted you won t all be i won t deliberately try to cheer you up today some of us don t want to be cheered up right things are difficult and real right now and the last thing i want is to pretend nothing has happened and just get back to posting about pets come to think of it i never do that mainly because i don t have pets but i might just divert you for 5 minutes if that s ok normal despairing of the world can resume later how about for now you join me on a look back at june 2016 in numbers how s this for a statistic i spotted this ray of sunshine in york the other weekend something to take into consideration if you haven t already booked your 2017 holidays maybe i m drawn to eschatological signs like this because back in 2001 i called my english degree dissertation on post apocalyptic fiction it s not the end of the world who knew that 15 years later the ability to analyse end times would come in useful again i m 1 of the 48 who voted remain i m not going to talk about it all now but neither am i going to be quiet now and just move on as many leavers seem to want us to do living in a democracy means that when i don t agree with what s happening i still get to talk about it while we re on the subject of the greeks they invented democracy right we went to see dan cruickshank s talk on the history of architecture in 100 buildings rubbish photo better story if you don t know dan cruickshank he s a historian who s worked a lot for the bbc and writes books his latest of which was the subject of the talk he delivered at middlesbrough theatre this month he discussed the meaning behind all kinds of buildings throughout history starting with some very early examples from syria and greece covering why they were made how structural developments were made and what value civililisations have put on them then at the q a at the end after other people had asked various questions a boy in the front row asked him a very long and convoluted question about the greeks and how they must have liked architecture because and non one was quite expecting this particular reason because in the percy jackson books film s the gods of olympus live in the empire state building so it must be significant to them cruickshank was very sweet and recognising there was no simple answer to this said i m going to come and have a chat with you then let us all go home so we didn t have to sit through the kid s entire thesis and came and sat on the front of the stage near him so they could talk probably not the end he had planned for his serious talk but handled very nicely it s things like that that leave an impression on people isn t it i m sure many people not just that boy will remember his kindness in other cultural news we used our 10 national art pass card 3 times visiting 3 museums galleries in york saving 10 50 so far back in april i saw laura howard bugsandfishes on twitter tweet about a special offer where you could buy a 3 month national art pass card for just 10 which would allow you to get into all kinds of galleries and museums for free the offer s ended now but there s a regular year long price too so james and i both bought one which meant getting into the 650 year old merchant adventurers hall for free where amongst other treasures i enjoyed this touching detail of how a wealthy woman left money in her will which she wanted spending on teaching 6 poor girls to read knit and sew after that seeing as how we had the card we hopped across town to the yorkshire museum saving another 7 50 which is where james learned that he s slightly taller than the backside of a moa a big extinct bird and they say no knowledge is ever wasted our 3rd saving came by visiting the york art gallery but seeing as how i ve already written a full review of the place already i won t go into that i will however share with you something else that happened in the yorkshire musuem james s 1st brush with a bear this month i know it was a bowler hat last month and now it s a topper i think he might be gradually working his way up to crown and i say it was his 1st brush with a bear because he had another james s 2nd brush with a bear this time it was at the animal inside out exhibition at the life science centre in newcastle where alongside bears there are 100 other preserved animals on show i took lots of photos but you re probably having your lunch right now aren t you so i won t share any more just yet yet it is a fascinating show about anatomy and wonder if you can stomach it and to be fair if i can you probably can the best worst part was when a tiny girl wandered up to the glass case we were looking in pointed to a preserved human leg and asked in her toddler english wha tha you don t want to know i replied under my breath now before i move off the topic of his heroism posing with dead bears and all let me tell you about james s hole in 1 never let the truth get in the way of a good story or so they say during a visit to a suppliers who happened to be hosting a sport themed sales promo one of the reps tweeted a photo of james clutching a golf club and his prize for getting a hole in one a bottle prosecco so far so impressive except rather than making a single clean shot james claims it actually took him about 18 attempts to get the ball in the bucket apparently they gave him the prize as it was the closest anyone had got all day but hey free wine his main concern afterwards was not that they d embroidered the truth but that they might invite him on corporate golfing days when it comes to sport he makes me look veritably olympian on the other hand if library visiting was a sport i d be on top form this month i read 2 library books from 2 different libraries and attended an author event at a 3rd the first book i read was kazuo ishiguro s the buried giant which i really enjoyed part mythical fairytale part musing on againg and memory next was chris kraus s i love dick which is not quite what the title suggests but you can imagine how cautious i was about getting the book down 3 flights of stairs and through the self service machine without bumping into anyone i knew and lastly i read a memoir of avghost writing career ghosting by jennie erdal which wasn t from a library i found that gem in the minster gate book shop a 5 floor secondhand book shop in york as usual you can find links to all the books i ve read on my pinterest board as for the author event that took place in a library i d never been to before involving a journey on 2 buses and memorising the names of the roads bus stops before mine so i knew where to get off i m tempted to write more about this journey in a post of its own so i ll leave you with photos of the novels by the authors in question who were very generous in discussing their process and careers in unconnected news i re embraced the 1990s by using those twisty spongy rollers is there a proper name for them for the first time in 20 years the results have been varied today for example i ve had to put it in a pony tail as it turned out soooooo big and fluffy i d forgotten the 90s was the decade before frizz products were invented and with styles like these we needed them the first attempt wasn t too bad i just pulled on my fake leather jacket and pretended i was 14 again to complete the look i should have dug out my ripped jeans and my walkman speaking of my look i paid just 11 48 for these 2 monochrome pieces in charity shops the dress was 4 49 while the skirt was 6 99 i ve been completely and utterly re inspired to seek out charity shop outfits lately and these are just 2 of 6 items i bought during june which in total cost just 32 45 more on those at some time or other i m sure on the first day that i wore the skirt it paid for itself with a compliment as she was letting us through the entrance turnstile at the life centre in newcastle one of their staff members leaned in and said i really like your skirt how nice was that just the kind of morale boost you need before going to look at the preserved internal organs of a gorilla and the blood vessels in a shark s liver oh and before you ask if everything i bought this month had to be black and white then maybe this will answer your question after 16 years of valiant service we finally had to retire our old car and welcome a new set of wheels into our lives the fact that the new car both inside and out also obligingly matches my recent outfits is purely coincidental probably so that was my june if you ve got a post of your own to share then don t forget to leave me the link when you leave me a comment if you ve been meaning to join in on social media then check out this photo by ikibana_banana on instagram as miriam came up with her own clever way to share her may numbers via her ig feed and if you fancy joining in casually then simply share a story photo 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