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ing david soon after he came home from the maternity hospital 30 years ago david s birthday 21st march is also the afghan new year this embroidered cloth was a gift to him from jawad s wife on his first birthday exquisite embroidery in each corner of the cloth it became clear we had to move operations to afghanistan or risk being robbed every time we shipped medicines and supplies across the border in 1993 jawad went ahead finding a suitable building in the northern city of mazar i sharif and i followed with david daud who was then two years old the children playing together on a picnic in balkh described by marco polo as a noble and great city jawad being used as a climbing frame the noble and great city was renowned in our time for its delicious kebabs you can read about the following three years in mazar i sharif and my work teaching health volunteers in rural hazara jat or hazaristan in drunk chickens and burnt macaroni real stories of afghan women when i returned to scotland there was no facebook very few people even emailed and keeping in touch wasn t easy but we always managed taliban came to power and the family escaped to pakistan the dh david and i went to pakistan several times to meet up after taliban was pushed out temporarily as it turned out jawad and family moved back to afghanistan to kabul mustafa and his sister shahnaz won scholarships to india and we visited mustafa there regretting we didn t have enough time to visit shahnaz as well we also returned to afghanistan for an all too brief reunion time together in a recreation park near kabul when we visited in 2006 farid mustafa and david in kabul opposite the museum mustafa later did his masters in the uk his parents looked forward to seeing him graduate and we looked forward to a grand reunion over here however when the hoops the british government made his parents jump through for a visa became unsurmountable we went to bristol to be there for him mustafa s graduation day in bristol jawad s son murtaza was the first to be married and he moved to america where he and his wife soraya live in connecticut it is their daughter who adds the next link in the family chain she and i met when she visited kabul earlier this year for her aunt s wedding and we chatted on a video call after she d read my book and had some questions for me here she is i am sausan farhnaz jawad i was born in hartford connecticut usa july 2nd 2010 originally i am from afghanistan jahgori district where my father murtaza ahmadi was born my grandfather jawad ahmadi was running an international ngo lepco to treat leprosy and tuberculosis in the very remote area in central highlands of afghanistan i live in simsbury ct i have gone to afghanistan two times already kabul the capital of afghanistan is surrounded by high mountains my last visit to kabul was in may 2021 to attend the wedding of my aunt which was held in a very nice wedding hall unfortunately i could not attend the wedding of my uncle which was held on august 8th it was celebrated in kabul s famous garden bagh i babur a very old and famous garden where the mogul emperor babur one of the genghis khan s descendants is buried the reason i could not attend my uncle s wedding was because afghanistan was having trouble with the taliban and the flights were cancelled if i went to his wedding i would be stuck in afghanistan luckily my grandparents and the newlyweds left the country but sadly some of my grandparents relatives are still stuck in afghanistan my family nation is hazara this is a tribe mixed with mongol and turkish which is living in the centre of afghanistan you may be wondering why this post now since taliban once again took control of afghanistan earlier this year i ve turned down several invitations to speak in public about the situation and i ve not written about it on my blog i couldn t i was too angry and heartbroken to find a way to talk about it taliban s takeover and the plight of those desperate to leave the country were on the front pages of our newspapers until the day the last soldier left afghanistan after that afghanistan stories were found half way through the paper scarcely newsworthy jawad s family and mine have been friends over many years and across many miles i really hope people reading this will see individual people not a faceless mass of refugees or asylum seekers real people our friendship will last as long as i do and be remembered for even longer and i look forward to more conversations with the youngest for now in the family the delightful sausan and i hope with all my heart that one day jawad s family will reunite in afghanistan an afghanistan free from taliban share this share on facebook opens in new window facebook share on x opens in new window x email a link to a friend opens in new window email share on linkedin opens in new window linkedin share on pinterest opens in new window pinterest like loading marysmith splace islay cancerupdate 42 october 29 2021 mary smith 187 comments thanks to wee sis she and i finally made it to islay together for the first time since we left the island in 1961 my last visit to the island where we were born was over twenty years ago although wee sis has been going more recently i spent the weeks before we went terrified i wouldn t be able to go because cancer cells would suddenly multiply or my throat would stop working or something in fact the worst that happened was a filling coming out m s salted caramel florentines delicious but not recommended if you have dodgy fillings i was able to get an appointment to have a temporary filling put in the after our return i had an appointment to meet with the oncologist and tried mostly successfully to put it out of my mind and not dwell too much on the decision i knew i had to make sooner rather than later i ll do an update on that meeting in my next post it was a magical week packed full of memories it was a week of connections old and new of friendship laughter good food pizzas by the sea indian curries home cooking and posh restaurant and drink we were taken on a mystery tour and picnic the most amazing potato curry and puris one day on another we visited the singing sands we didn t get to visit all the beaches i remember from my childhood but we managed a few and we watched seals watching us and saw thousands of barnacle geese if you can zoom in on this pic the grey dots are not stones but geese the dentist on the island has bought the house wee sis and i were born in he and his wife invited us to see it wee sis doesn t remember it she was only three when we left but i could still recognise the layout of the house the front hall which seemed so much smaller than in my memory the curved staircase my bedroom dad s office in the round church in bowmore where we were christened we found our names on the cradle rolls on display cradle rolls in kilarrow parish church bowmore islay interior of the church known as the round church the main central pillar of the church is of timber the order of the british empire awarded to the rev donald caskie born in bowmore he was minister of the scots kirk in paris when the germans invaded in 1940 and stayed to help british civilians escape he later helped british and allied service personnel escape for which he received the obe until he was captured by the gestapo a german padre saved him from being executed his autobiography 1951 is called the tartan pimpernel he died in 1983 and is buried in the church cemetery and i found the name of my best childhood friend born two days before me friends reunited after 60 years she and i were the first babies the new doctor on the island delivered she and her family left islay some years after we did but she has relatives still living on the island and visits regularly we managed to meet for the first time in sixty years we would need days probably months to catch up properly on our respective histories pizza by the sea night cooked in a pizza oven in a garden overlooking loch indaal cows because why not the singing sands they have a lot in common sheep and geese carraig fhada lighthouse near the singing sands it was a wonderful trip but exhausting towards the end i was definitely flagging and had to turn down an invitation to a girls night party which i d been looking forward however my energy levels had dipped too low i also dropped out of a walk with wee sis and her dog because i was concerned i might not manage the return part i cried as i made my way back to the car hoping anyone seeing me would think it was the wind bringing tears to my eyes it was an emotional week with a feeling of a circle being completed and a final farewell made kildalton cross one of the finest most complete early christian crosses in scotland share this share on facebook opens in new window facebook share on x opens in new window x email a link to a friend opens in new window email share on linkedin opens in new window linkedin share on pinterest opens in new window pinterest like loading marysmith splace silentsunday october 3 2021 mary smith 71 comments share this share on facebook opens in new window facebook share on x opens in new window x email a link to a friend opens in new window email share on linkedin opens in new window linkedin share on pinterest opens in new window pinterest like loading marysmith splace cancer update 41 dithering over decisions and walking with llamas september 29 2021 september 30 2021 mary smith 144 comments i m still dithering over what to decide about the chemotherapy treatment option i have had a meeting with the palliative care consultant which was helpful and reassuring in that chemotherapy and palliative care are not an either or scenario and if i decide to go ahead with the chemo i can still be seen in palliative care for help managing any symptoms from either the disease or from the treatment knowing support is available in managing symptoms caused by the treatment is reassuring other topics discussed with the consultant included resuscitation and whether or not i should have a dnr in place and also whether or not i would want to treatment interventions such as ventilation i think that s a no i started on the safefit trial established by university hospital southampton nhs foundation trust macmillan cancer support and other medical bodies to enable people with a cancer diagnosis retain or regain physical fitness levels after a very lengthy process or questionnaires both online and over the telephone plus a bit of a hiatus in my application because of the unexpected appearance of cancer cells in my lymph nodes after my treatment ended i was accepted and assigned an instructor for the first four weeks i have one to one online exercise sessions tailored to my fitness levels and needs it s very much a holistic approach so my instructor always checks on my stress levels not sure she expected me to burst into tears on our first meeting but she coped very well i also re started pilates classes after a break and that felt good too over the period of lockdown which more or less coincided with my cancer diagnosis and treatment the class has been so important the exercise but also seeing people even if only on screen all in all i ve been feeling fairly well and although i can see the lymph nodes in my neck expanding they aren t bothering me too much yet though i do worry about winter when i usually wear polo neck jumpers which i suspect will be an irritation but then as always seems to be the case whenever i m doing the things i m supposed to be doing to improve my health to stay as physically strong as possible something knocks me back this time i put my back out i was putting the cat s breakfast down on the floor forgot to engage my core and bend my knees mea culpa i reached for the frozen peas followed by the heat pad dug out the lumbar brace and took paracetamol expecting it to ease off after a few days it didn t and i had to give in and make an appointment with my gp before cancer i was rarely at the doctor i was brought up by parents who believed the nhs was a wonderful privilege never to be abused so you had to be seriously ill before the doctor was consulted and so i still hate to feel i m making a fuss about nothing oh my goodness what a difference strong painkillers and a muscle relaxant made when i woke up three days later i m kidding i couldn t believe how much the pain had receded before the pills i couldn t have sat for long enough to type this far i should apologise here to the many people waiting for a reply to their emails letters and cards now you know why i ve not been able to keep up the llama who has firmly turned her back on me is the llama i was going to take for a walk the one thing which did help my back when it was bad was walking which really eased it i was delighted to be invited by a friend to take one of her llamas for a walk it was a lovely annie the llama did grumble a bit at first about being made to go for a walk but she soon stopped complaining and seemed to enjoy looking about her occasionally she turned to stare at me as if to say i don t know who the hell you are but i think we can manage this together me and my new bestie i m so looking forward to my trip to islay with wee sis which is still a couple of weeks away isn t it odd how time moves slowly at times before islay though i have another exciting event a wedding i can t remember when i was last at a wedding i can t remember when i last wore heels the week i come back from islay 16 24 i ll meet the oncologist try to get answers to my questions and make my decision share this share on facebook opens in new window facebook share on x opens in new window x email a link to a friend opens in new window email share on linkedin opens in new window linkedin share on pinterest opens in new window pinterest like loading marysmith splace cancerdiary 40 september 13 2021 mary smith 159 comments it s been almost a month since my last blog post and what a month of highs and lows and bits in between it has been get the drinks and snack ready for a long post soon after the meeting with my oncologist while waiting for the requested pet scan i was on the beautiful island of arran where i d been invited on a writers retreat i ve visited arran with the dh several times and on most visits we d climbed goatfell so i was concerned i d be depressed knowing i can no longer do such climbs nor many of the other walks i ve previously enjoyed rather than be depressed the combination of being in such a magical place with glorious sunshine talking writing with three wonderful women i felt exhilarated and by the end of the week had convinced myself i could climb goatfell i d have to start early as it would take me all day with the number of rests i d have to take but i was sure i could do it i was also sure i was getting my writing mojo back it s not often i m up on time to see a sunrise this from my window on arran we were there to write but we did have a day out ...
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