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th a new group of friends and actually just snacked on peanuts and raisins a childhood lunchbox staple altogether forgetting to eat a meal i may have been lacking in my daily protein intake for those few days but i didn t eat junk so it s a fair trade off plus while i can t stomach plain water anymore and you can t take bottles into the arena i took individual packets of crystal light and bought a bottle of water everyday it got the job done i did get back to work with my trainer after some significant time off following hand surgery i swear some weeks he s trying to kill me but seriously i need the accountability so i keep going but then august hit i was in a rough place and keith went and developed a couple of kidney stones ouch one of them was so large he required surgery for it to be blasted with a laser he spent 2 nights in the hospital a week later he had the stent removed that same day early september i was admitted to the hospital for 24 days once again food became an issue but i was armed with protein shakes and bars i actually lost weight while i was there after that break i was back with the trainer until we went on vacation leaving 2 days after our 22nd anniversary the same date we d left for our honeymoon we took a brief cruise to on disney cruise line and then took several days at disney world and for fun hubby gave notice at his job as soon as we hit land it wasn t ideal he would have much preferred to tell his boss in person but out of respect he wanted to give the full 2 weeks notice anyway it wasn t for fun because he had a great job offer on the table we got back from vacation 12 14 and his last day of work was 12 22 one huge non scale victory for me not needing a seatbelt extender on the plane even better i just kept pulling the end tighter and tighter it was a great feeling i was incredibly concerned about food at disney it s always been one of our favorite things about our disney vacations this was my 13th trip it was our 9th trip together including our disneymoon we got the text that our room was ready and it turns out we d been upgraded to club aka concierge level you know what that means free food it also meant that we walked out onto our balcony the first night at the wilderness lodge after a long day at 2 different parks and watched the fireworks over cinderella s castle we were downright giddy we d also been eligible for the free dining promotion they offered we weren t going to pay for the dining plan i simply don t eat that much but it was free so we grabbed on i tried some new foods and did well until the last day when i tried a few too many new things in one day and my sleeve rebelled i vomited other than that i did quite well i even lost weight because of all the walking we do at disney it was an extraordinary vacation we still enjoyed some great food we had the upgrade we were at our favorite place on earth the adult exclusive beach called serenity bay at disney s private island castaway cay where we floated on mats in the clear ocean and just hung out talking all the while our backs getting burnt as we were laying on our stomachs and we were on a phenomenal new ride seven dwarfs mine train during the nighttime fireworks and those were just the highlights 12 29 marked two years since i joined thirty one as an independent consultant what started off as a bit of a roller coaster has become a consistent and thriving business i love the company and what they stand for and the products can t be beat i know i m partial but i love what i do since i m not able to hold down a full time traditional job and remain on disability this is perfect 12 30 was two years since my initial consultation with the bariatric surgeon it was the day my new life started even if it wasn t my surgiversary it was the day this portion of my journey began it was the day my eating changed and i slowly began to add exercise into my life it was the day i met the man who would give me a major tool for success in my weight loss it was the day i started the most difficult and most rewarding thing i ve done for myself i lost just over 26 pounds this year while i m not at my goal just yet i have fewer than 20 pounds to get there i have a consultation with a surgeon for skin removal surgery in a few weeks with hub s new job we have new insurance so i m not sure what that will mean for payment lots to investigate yesterday i had an appointment with a surgeon regarding skin removal surgery i m on the books for march 7 pending insurance approval not to be overly graphic here but with all of the sagging skin i have a persistent rash which means that there is a good chance insurance will cover the procedure i m anxious about it but eager for the skin to be gone it makes me appear far heavier than i am it s exciting i know i say this each time i write but i really hope to post more often and want to be as open of a book as possible so don t hesitate to ask questions and share this blog with someone you think may be interested either considering surgery had surgery or is a support person for someone in either of those groups and please subscribe if you want to read the antics i m certain are in store for this year now i ve been lax about taking regular photos but here is a collage i put together it includes a slightly less than flattering picture from this past saturday with a sort of clingy shirt but it s what i have and it s real so i share it i apologize for the big gap in timing between pictures so i ll include an earlier collage with a couple of pictures not included with the most recent one over and out friends posted by jen b at 9 04 am 8 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels anxiety bariatric surgery disney exercise food personal trainer restaurants skin removal surgery surgery vacation tuesday july 11 2017 59 weeks on 7 11 17 wow is it seriously summer and how did i go so long between posts ok well i can answer the second one sort of i found myself in the hospital for 3 weeks late january through mid february totally unrelated to surgery so what is nutrition like when you re inpatient and you have to educate the nutritionist on what a bariatric diet looks like i ll tell you it s not easy i had taken protein shakes and bars with me as well as a few things for snacks thankfully the nutritionist couldn t really meet my needs but agreed to send up 2 hard boiled eggs three times a week i know it s a bit debatable right now but i didn t want to risk my cholesterol by having eggs every day and or multiple times a day so there i was stuck in the hospital limited to shakes and bars plus a few cheese sticks carrots and hummus oh and since water makes me nauseous i had taken an insulated cup with me along with a pitcher and a ton of powdered drink mix good thing or i would have been dehydrated in no time but i survived i was able to speak with the dietitian at my surgeon s office and get some tips before admission my hospital s nutritionist had little interest in talking with my dietitian again it was a good thing i did some advanced planning or i would have been in bad shape back up until the beginning of january and i joined and gym and was meeting with a trainer twice a week then the hospital hit but after i got out it was back to twice a week with sl the trainer plugging along i get to march and start having problems with my right and dominant hand alas i have an emg and find out that the carpal tunnel has gotten worse in that hand i had surgery a few years back when the left one was the worst of the two a couple of visits later and i m scheduling surgery more surgery but this time it was going to impact my ability to function since i couldn t type or really do any chores at all it would seriously interfere with my training after getting the stitches out i started back with the trainer but hate to admit that it s been sporadic the past couple of months some junk has come up which i won t go into but it s taken most of my time and all of my energy ugh i feel like there s something at every turn really impeding my ability to be successful here i m not making excuses but this has been my reality because of it and surgery i haven t been able to workout with my trainer much i had some consistency there but that s gone along with much of my motivation i need to get back there or at least start walking the dogs would love it if we took them or riding my exercise bike here at home oh one development is that we learned of a place where they refurb donated bikes and sell them for cheap we went there a week and a half ago and ordered some bikes they had yet to be refurbed so we re waiting on them but hopefully that ll get us moving too this past weekend i did a bunch of yard work especially when it s 90 degrees out that s a workout for sure it s something right ok i had my one year surgiversary appointment the end of may he seemed pleased and i was glad to be losing albeit slowly at this point if you ll indulge me i m going to jump around a bit more here when i was in the hospital it was like i was at a nursing home breakfast was at 7 lunch at 11 30 and dinner at 4 or was it 4 30 by nighttime i was famished everyone around me was snacking and i had only no sugar added dried cranberries blah there is only so much of one food a person can have at least with protein bars there are oodles of flavors so that didn t get dull sometimes i had bars for breakfast since i didn t take my sugar free coffee syrups to add to the shakes i had to mix it up anyway while everyone was snacking on cookies and chips at night i sat there ravenous and then it happened i discovered sugar free cookies it was a dangerous discovery and one which haunted me for months just recently however on a call with my dietitian we discussed the added calories these cookies are adding to my diet it took a bit but i ve given them up i keep fruit on hand to satisfy that sweet craving but it s so much better than those cookies my cousin was married a couple of weeks ago and hubby and i went to the wedding since i m able to shop in actual stores and not limited to online i got a great deal on a dress to wear just for the wedding see picture i guess it s sort of funny but i forgot my dress sandals and was forced to wear the ones you see in the picture guys may not understand this but most women will there is something about heels that gives some level of confidence for me i m just excited that i can wear them and not basically know that i m bound to fall but i forgot them grrrr at least i had my non dress sandals and wasn t forced to wear sneakers it s a funny thing when i was 326 lbs i d lose 20 lbs and nobody would notice now i ve been stuck losing only 20 lbs all year and people seemed shocked at how great i look it s a percentage game i guess but i feel like i ve gotten nowhere and that s not what people see i think of how i lost 40 45 lbs before my wedding and went from 180 to 135 140 and the man at the bridal salon s jaw dropped when he saw me but at 300 lbs 40 lbs feels like it doesn t even make a dent i find myself questioning if people feel like they have to say i look good because they know i had surgery and want to be encouraging man between that and the body dysmorphia my head is messing with me big time at the wedding last month i definitely chalk it up to a good gut sucker inner aka fake spanx the guy that has operated on both hands now came up in a database of surgeons who also do skin removal surgery he has known me for several years and has seen the transformation so when i saw him yesterday i said that i d like to talk skin removal surgery at my next appointment my bariatric surgeon wanted me to wait until i was closer to my goal i m praying that will happen by november when i see him having my belly skin removed should be covered for medical reasons rash but i d love to have my super gross thighs arms and chin done plus sorry guys i d kill for a boob lift gravity is not a middle aged woman s friend let alone one who has lost a person in weight since we can t afford to private pay i ll take what i can get maybe for my birthday in january i ll have this dang belly skin removed vacation we re going to disney world this isn t new for us and if you ve read any of my blog or know me in real life you know that hubby and i are fanatical we re first doing a quick disney cruise and then staying at wdw for several days food is going to be very different from past trips in the past food was a huge part of our trips there so many options so many yummy options this year i went through the menus available online and we chose places where i knew there d be something i could enjoy and which hopefully wouldn t make me sick it ll be in the fall but i ll still have to put on a bathing suit gasp what yes a bathing suit i did get a catalog which shows bathing suit bottoms which are capri pants yee haw although i may go the longer shorts route i ll still have to display the bat wings but i m trying to keep a good attitude and say that they re war wounds i m on a super supportive bariatric site i ve been frustrated seeing people lose more weight than i have in over a year when they re maybe only 6 mos out i admit it s upsetting someone wrote the other day that we each have our own journey and one person s isn t anothers it was something i needed to hear heck i m on psych meds which slow my metabolism i m a woman and we have slower metabolism than med super unfair right and i m in my mid 40s none of these things add up to quick weight loss i ve also been inconsistent with my workouts i have to keep my eye on the prize and know that i m still down a lot of pounds and it s my journey and nobody elses easier said than done but i am so thankful to the woman who wrote that just when i needed to hear it it s still part of the self hatred though hey what can i do but work on it ok well i m going to try to keep this from getting any longer i ll also try to post more often posted by jen b at 12 24 pm 2 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels acceptance bathing suit bike body dysmorphia body image carpal tunnel cookies dietitian disney exercise gastric sleeve journey medication obesity personal trainer self hatred surgery travel vacation weight saturday january 14 2017 surviving the holidays after bariatric surgery yeah this is a difficult one i ve held off on writing it unsure how to really convey this experience to anyone outside of the bariatric world thanksgiving this was probably the easiest of them all my sleeve handles turkey i made a special cranberry sauce using low sugar craisins as well as a pumpkin pie the sauce was pretty yummy i am not a fan of cranberry sauce especially since i grew up with cranberry mousse aka the pink stuff which is one of the most delicious things on earth but i put this over my turkey and while i still had to have the pink stuff pass by me i held off this 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