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men with guns who wanted to enforce their rule and infiltrated all media to repeat their same old lies i see the media around me full of these lies they re a bit more clever still not logical but who cares what really matters is that people don t care for logic and rational they have their establishment intellectuals feeding their egos and filling their brains with status quo excuses whether it s 1984 or a brave new world it doesn t matter it all looks the same after a while of observation the brave new world is far superior of course it s more fulfilling it provides the illusion of freedom but a moderate in 1984 and a moderate in a brave new world are the same nothing but fuel to feed the machines of control after the first few seconds of this movie i don t know what happens maybe there will be heroes and villains that shape the world but in these type of movies it doesn t matter what really matters are the individuals that survive these events what do they take with them from the old world is up to them to be honest there s little to take from the old world except resistance to it maybe we can resist the inhumanity and injustices as we move forward maybe we can still fight against control and oppressive structures that s still going to be worth something as we transition i know that this is what i will try to take with me posted by wael eskandar at 6 13 am 1 comment email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels coronavirus covid19 life politics friday january 03 2020 more of so much time spent in this world so many experiences less time to explore now and more time to decide what i need more of the irony is that i can t get what i want more of just yet to get more of what i want i have to do more of what i need to do but i know things i need more of in my life they re clear but they re easier said than done i need to read more i need to write more i need to make more music i need to spend less time on those what will not expand my ideas i need more nature i need to be at peace with myself i need to work on myself i need to dedicate more time to sports i need to care less about changing the world i need to focus more on who i want to be i failed last year to have a post each month the last two months saw no writing i ve lots a lot of my anger and passion i m hoping to rebuild those new years are not reset buttons they re just arbitrary points in time that we can use to count more of who i truly am this year posted by wael eskandar at 1 06 am no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest friday november 01 2019 twitter s censorhsip this month i was busy documenting twitter s censorship of arab voices with the help of other researchers we documented a mass suspension aimed at activists who spoke about egypt during the course of our investigation in order to verify our findings we stumbled upon another pattern of twitter falsely flagging responses to tweets as hateful conduct this forced twitter to apologize for the mass suspensions but not for their misapplication of the hateful conduct policy i wrote an article in arabic and in english to document this and it was covered by buzzfeed i also dumped the images i collected in a facebook album posted by wael eskandar at 11 50 pm no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels censorship egypt politics twitter monday october 14 2019 dear lydia this is one of the worst periods of egypt s history the next generation will ask us how could you allow this i wrote this letter addressing lydia one of my fascist friend s daughters some time back envisioning what i would tell the next generation my simple answer is that we tried dear lydia it is with great sorrow that i write this letter to you knowing full well that you may not trust or comprehend it or even believe me you may have grown up believing a narrative that runs contrary to the truth in which case this letter shall not have an effect on you and you will feel bitter and angry at this letter and at me for writing it but there s a strong chance that unlike your parents you will have come to understand the true history of what happened in the time before a time of events both i and your parents have witnessed up close and each of us took their route this letter will only make sense if you ve ever come across the truth of the history that took place starting from 2011 and the repulsive turn into oppression in 2013 where injustice prevailed and massacres took place it is only with the realizing of the ugliness of this history and trying to reconcile it with what people did that would give meaning to this letter your mother was one of the staunchest supporters of the sisi regime because your uncle was a policeman she was a vehemently opposed to anyone who pointed to police corruption she supported the police as they killed thousands of people and even though many have presented her with evidence that they were unjustified she shrugged them off she continued her support for police brutality in the face of logic and evidence of a declining sense of justice and a declining economy she was happy to label anyone who opposed the crimes of these irresponsible tyrants as traitors while the real treason was committed by those she supported your father and i were closer he was also more moderate yet he showed great weakness never engaged in trying to call out the criminals even though he may have seen their crimes he was looking out for your future as any father would but the cost was the future of many other generations and the history you have inherited so many have been killed with the blessing of apologists and your parents were those apologists in answer to your questions as to whether our generation was aware of these atrocities that you learn about in school the answer is yes there was plenty of information it is just that many did not want to believe or want to be confronted with the sad reality that their country was run by criminals that their children s future was going to be determined by criminals they would rather believe that those trying to rectify the situation were spies rather than people who loved their country and valued its future enough to oppose the oppressors torture was widespread and to get a sense of how people reacted they didn t care as long as their own people were not affected yet as we ve come to learn it was only a matter of time before someone close to someone got hurt in some way or another the country descended into lawlessness on account of police brutality yet your parents and people like them were steadfast in blaming the victims of this brutality rather than the perpetrators there was a strong narrative that the country was fighting terrorism but as we ve come to see the policies put in place by the oppressive regime did nothing but create more extremists who were fighting because of a growing extremist ideology or to attain some sort of justice against a regime that offered no civil way of attaining it i want you to believe me when i tell you i have tried hard to speak to your parents and convince them to take a different moral route but they shunned me and chose to continue in their ways i asked them to stand by their integrity for your sake so that you will not view them as weak or immoral for allowing such atrocities but to no avail they were determined i do not know if there was anything more i could have done i want you to believe that i have tried my best that you and many like you not inherit the country and the history that you did not to inherit the parents that you did we had many opportunities if only people had learned to look beyond their selfish needs we would have all been better off history cannot be changed now you have seen what has happened and the only thing i urge you to do dear lydia is not to follow the same path taken by your parents of apathy and justification for tyrants remember that all this is transient all that remains is how much of your integrity you have maintained lovingly w posted by wael eskandar at 11 53 am no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels egypt jan25 politics revolution sunday september 15 2019 fuck their palaces this is about the spaces they take from us to give themselves here i am with spaces all around me in a city in europe whose rich history covers its streets with darkness and brightness i m here in this space with everyone enjoying the music and their freedom but back home there are few such spaces they are building palaces at our expense the cost of their space is ours they have set out to take our spaces to make them their own the cost of their freedom to steal is the freedom from our own the very youth that would ever build our future thousands in jail the spaces they should be inhabiting stolen from them and for what for luxury palaces gardens and special interests for spaces that may end up abandoned but guarded empty spaces as empty as their dreams for a future the present i m experiencing in those foreign spaces abroad is what we deserve back home it s what those thrown in prison deserve we live in a transmogrified past and the only way to reach the present is to travel i never thought time travel was possible but it is you just have to leave the borders of this time warp where its inhabitants are stuck in slavery it s not easy to leave the wardens are not just our jailers but those very same foreign countries who arm the oppressors with weapons and technology to keep us locked in the condescending view of us in their embassies as they forget about the riches they ve stolen that sense of entitlement for a better life even though its price is paid by our enslavement my friends are in jail so that some general s wife can have her customized palaces these palaces are not just built with the money they steal from us but with our lives their fortress is not just the walls they put up but the network of greedy interests that produce humans that stand in the way of justice to maintain the corruption that keeps them thriving we never asked for this we would have been happy to dance but what choice were we given to dance away while trampling the rights and lives of others underfoot to dance while trampling their dignity and ours it s not much of a choice both are a form of death one of them closer to the literal sense of the word our lives being destroyed if we speak the other a literary death the death of our conscience and humanity fuck their palaces we will dance when we can to counter their greed we will speak when we can to counter our death posted by wael eskandar at 3 16 pm no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels egypt jan25 military politics sisi friday august 30 2019 chocolate cake streets the streets reflect everything they are the ripple effects of closed door meetings with decisions and actions that affect our lives our motivations are not as individualistic as we often think our motivations are set by the context we live in both the social and political manifest themselves in us you re unique and special just like everybody else i would have liked to think my thoughts and my journey was special after all i climbed out of the abyss of mainstream thinking read history questioned my reality and experienced so many things that many others may never experience in their lifetime but that doesn t make me unique in character there are at least about 400 other people out there that have my same characteristics critical argumentative expressive angry pensive and host of other qualities i don t know if i possess or not the point is that i m a result of what i ve been given to deal with but special in that it s me our lives are like recipes each person has their own but many people share the recipe what really differs is that the quality of ingredients and their compatibility differ so let s say i m cocoa i would be put in the mix with butter sugar flour and milk i would react with these ingredients be subjected to heat cold chemicals and other elements till i finally look like a chocolate cake i may taste slightly different i may think that i ve gone through a lot but i m still a chocolate cake like many others out there perhaps my contribution is the quality of cocoa that i am the result is still not guaranteed for what kind of butter milk and flour came into contact with me i m not telling myself it s not worth it to try and be a better chocolate cake but it would be simplistic to believe that i m the only one i walk through the streets and look at templates of people certain people come with bundled characteristics that make them similar to one another the class joker the swindler the kind fool the evil prick they all follow patterns but they sometimes come in various flavors i walk down the streets and i see cheese cake carrot cake red velvet vanilla icing cake and i try and recognize their patterns it s impossible to figure things out about people with just a glance but what s worrying to me is that people are being shaped i look at changes in policy and society and they re quickly manifested in the faces of people i watch go by their recipe changes and sure enough they react to the new ingredients put their way and transform or even transmogrify there s not much i can do about it the only thing i can hope for is be aware of where i stand and perhaps try and become a better ingredient posted by wael eskandar at 12 39 pm no comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest tuesday july 30 2019 moving i woke up slowly not rushing into any of the morning tasks that i have to do i thought of doing a bit of work perhaps to have an easier week later on i put up my first poster in the new house since i moved it s of pulp fiction i know it s a bit of a cliche but it makes the place mine in some way my friend got me plants they change the space as they sit on the window sill it s odd how small things make a place more soulful like the fridge magnet i bought from a city i visited only for work it s the little things that reflect who i am that make a difference in a space i don t want to own many things here because i ll move but at the same time i want the place to feel like it s mine like it reflects me it s a tough trade off that i haven t quite figured out yet days like these make me wonder what living somewhere means we give our life meaning through the random things we encounter around us the movies that are out the music that we can choose from the restaurants that are there and people that happen to be in our neighborhood it s like these things are forced upon us and we have to somehow create meaning by arranging them into categories this friend is closer than that that street is better than this my own thoughts are inconclusive so far as to what to make of the new things around that i ve been given to organize but ma...