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illegal protest wasn t quite there on sunday photos and videos started circulating online depicting some of the protestors stepping on the logos of the universities they supposedly represented this attracted backlash from the public who believed it was disrespectful for them to have acted in such conduct these universities are the centres of knowledge sowing their seeds for their future yet why are they stepping on the universities emblems now these criticisms instead of being responded to with grace and accountability were met with indignant voices of dissatisfaction instead of acknowledging their faults they blame the critics for having an issue with the problem purporting that it is a purposeful distraction from the main point of the assembly i e corruption that logos are just little images that logos are not what represent the universities that what is stepping on logos compared to corruption and i find it ironic i find it ironic that individuals who claim to fight against people refusing to take accountability for their actions are screaming in refusal to take accountability for their own actions i find it ironic that you could act so valiant against the so called elites yet you couldn t even stand up for your own mistakes that instead of issuing an apology for your misconduct you just had to pull up your arms and make up excuses for your faults people often fail to see how the worst of destructive crimes stem from little faults of men no i am not comparing the refusal to take accountability for stepping on logos with the misappropriation of thousands or millions of funds held under trust however i am simply pondering on the thought that if you couldn t even owe up to your faults today when you have nothing to lose will you be able to owe up to your faults or the faults of your friends your colleagues your employers or your political allies when you have everything to lose but of course if one were to simply apologise and take accountability well there goes the anarchic appeal kebenaran sudah diberi berhimpunlah kata pm malaysiagazette https malaysiagazette com 2025 01 24 kebenaran sudah diberi berhimpunlah kata pm ︎ rate this share this post email a link to a friend opens in new window email print opens in new window print share on facebook opens in new window facebook share on x opens in new window x share on linkedin opens in new window linkedin share on tumblr opens in new window tumblr share on reddit opens in new window reddit share on pinterest opens in new window pinterest like loading author aeshah karim posted on january 26 2025 january 26 2025 categories our country politics tags anarchism himpunan rakyat benci rasuah politics leave a comment on on logos accountability and the anarchic appeal chasing footprints books my parents brought me and my siblings up with books and books and books books were our companions and our guides books were everywhere in the house be it in our playroom our bedroom the living room or the kitchen we never had a room designated as a library but you are bound to find a bookshelf or two in every room my parents taught us to love and appreciate books since the moment we could crawl around and play they flipped through picture books with us and pointed out colours numbers and shapes even if we couldn t understand much at that age they instilled a curiosity to discover the wondrous worlds waiting to be explored in the rows and rows of books which line up the walls of our playroom my father would read and act out the many books which were too hard for me to read but wildly exciting as they tell of great adventures across the seas or a simple but thrilling tale of a gingerbread man being chased around town sometimes our toy bears and rabbits were little actors as they played out the tale he was telling when i was turning four my mother sat me down and made me read ladybird s phonics series as a past time activity until slowly but surely i unlocked the door to the many lands and seas and realms only books can bring me to reading became a fun activity which wasn t much different from playtime whenever we started to grow bored as we visited the grocery store my parents would place us in their trolleys and give us a book to read even when we visited our grandparents in terengganu we will visit the bookstore ran by my family alam akademik or keda buku pok loh yunang as it is fondly remembered by many where my siblings and i will sit in the cozy reading corner at the store with a stack of books we have chosen to read my grandfather had a beautiful library in his house with books that my father will always encourage us to read however most of them talked about concepts my siblings and i found to be too difficult to understand there was a day when my sister and i were ecstatic to find a few books which seemed simpler but they were written in arabic and thus we could only try to make sense of the story from the illustrations and with the few arabic words we have learnt at school despite my inability to understand the books my grandfather s library was my favourite room in his house as i found a sense of familiarity and comfort in more recent years one of my favourite past time activity was to read a book with my father early in the morning while we have our breakfast we shared a similar interest in book genre and topic which made for interesting discussions whenever i found a concept to be confusing i would often ask my father as he was always able to break down complex subjects into clear explanations he would also give me sticky notepads to mark interesting pages or to leave some notes in the margins however there were also certain books such as fictions and retellings of real life mysteries and unsolved cases which i enjoyed reading but he didn t read them as much he said that he used to read some of them during his university days but there were other books which fascinates him more as he grew older this is when he said there is a choice in reading in choosing books the wondrous worlds hidden in books are knowledge discovering them is learning and with the limited amount of time that we have in this world and with the responsibility that we carry on our shoulders to better ourselves and those around us we need to also learn to evaluate the importance of a book and which of them should be read first but there isn t a fault in reading light materials from time to time he had said and thus i would read these books on my own in my room on days when i wish to wind down from a hard week three years back my father had planned to rearrange some of the books in our living room the books were arranged according to topic and there were some titles which were not kept in the right place either in a rush or because we couldn t quite decide which section it would fit in best there were also some books stacked in a corner which were either taken out of the bookshelves to be read yet were never kept back in their places or simply never found their way inside the bookshelves however he passed away before he could see his plans through and i couldn t quite bring myself to do it on my own there were moments when i wanted to and i was about to yet i didn t for when i glanced at a book and read its title or flipped through one which piqued my interest i was harshly reminded of the loss that i feel without him to this day i would still automatically think of asking my father for an explanation whenever i stumble upon a new concept or theory or a confusing piece of information and it hurts when i couldn t what pains me the most is a sense of disappointment in myself i would be reminded of when my father encouraged me to read my grandfather s books which i thought were too difficult to understand yet i never quite tried i would be reminded of when my father recommended a certain book for me to read yet i decided to put it off for a while as i was reading other books which i thought were more exciting i would be reminded of his advice on understanding and evaluating the importance of a book in comparison to another and only now do i feel a sense of urgency to try and learn as much of the things he knew and tried to teach as i could to hunt for as much books which he had read and left annotations in the margins to chase after the footprints he left in the sand which are being blown away as the days pass by but there is no use crying over spilt milk and wasted time and ruined chances thus dusting myself off and restraining myself from falling into the wallows of disappointment frustration and feeling of incompetence i finally decided to arrange the stack of books in the corner back inside the bookshelves and albeit partially rearrange some of the books my father had intended to and though i couldn t quite keep out the voices in my head which refuse to not cry over spilt milk and are insisting that i am incompetent and a disappointment i picked a few titles from my grandfather s collection which now resides in our home and tell myself that even though i may have thrown away the opportunity to learn much more i can still learn to unlock the door to the many lands and seas and realms of knowledge i so wish to discover slowly but surely this piece was written a year ago and i decided to keep it in it s original state without changing the three years back to four years back i couldn t quite bring myself to publish it when i wrote it and so it has been collecting dust in my drafts folder for a year publishing it now on a whim rate this share this post email a link to a friend opens in new window email print opens in new window print share on facebook opens in new window facebook share on x opens in new window x share on linkedin opens in new window linkedin share on tumblr opens in new window tumblr share on reddit opens in new window reddit share on pinterest opens in new window pinterest like loading author aeshah karim posted on may 23 2022 categories books catatan tengah malam myself leave a comment on chasing footprints a treasure trove of knowledge perpustakaan tan sri omar mohd hashim wisma sejarah photo courtesy of persatuan sejarah malaysia as a life long history enthusiast one of my most desperate wishes is to visit all or at least almost all of the museums and historical galleries there are in malaysia one of these historical galleries is persatuan sejarah malaysia s psm galeri sejarah located at the ground floor of wisma sejarah a proud landmark standing tall in one of kuala lumpur s busiest roads jalan tun razak the building also boasts a member only library that houses more than 3 000 books we have frequented wisma sejarah in the past since it is a popular wedding reception venue but wedding receptions are generally only held on weekends in kl and the gallery only opens on weekdays thus when my elder sister said that she will be sitting for her a levels at wisma sejarah three years back i was beyond thrilled with some forward planning and internet research i whole heartedly volunteered to accompany my sister to wisma sejarah and prepared my day trip backpack filled with day trip necessities and a list of agendas for the trip the plan for me was to first register as a member of the organisation then visit the gallery and then read the books in the library upon our arrival and after wishing my sister good luck as she strode into the exam hall at about 08 45 i quickly went up to psm s office to sign up as a member of the organisation then hurried back down and agonisingly eagerly stood in front of the galeri sejarah waiting for it to open the guard was steadfast in following the 09 30 opening hour the moment the guard finally finally pulled the large wooden doors of the gallery open i was overwhelmed by excitement and rushed in even though the guard had yet to flick the lights on this trip happened during one of the bleakest times in my life my father had just passed away a few months prior and my family and i were not certain about anything concerning our future including our education i had also lost my writing and research job a work i passionately loved thus this opportunity to fulfil one of my longest dreams became even more meaningful to me after touring once twice then one last time for good measure around the minuscule yet informative gallery i thanked the guard for his kind hospitality and went for my third aim of the trip the library perpustakaan tan sri omar mohd hashim was already opened by the time i reached it and after signing in the guest book i pulled out a notebook and a pen and engulfed myself in the overwhelming sight of the shelves of books some of the books were books i have only dreamed of seeing much less holding and reading i didn t have much time to read that day since i spent a lot of time at the gallery therefore i decided to only browse around and make a mental assessment of the titles offered and what s where so that i can spend more time reading and less time browsing or being awestruck and distracted by the many titles offered during my next trip and that was how i spent my next few trips to wisma sejarah secluded in the many rows of books being lost in tales of old and new and worlds no level of imagination can do justice and learning lessons and words of advice i hope to remember until the day i die it was a beautiful safe haven a reprieve from the dreadful loop of thoughts i was stuck in during one of my bleakest moments my trips were so frequent that the librarian and i have grown amicable to and comfortable with each other the librarian would usually turn her radio on when no one is visiting the library to fill in the silence but as a sign of respect she would turn it off when someone visits after my frequent drop bys however she asked if it was fine for her to switch the radio on at a low volume i said yes since i could simply bring my headphones to drown the noise a little every morning while i waited for the library to open i would reread the brief biodata of tan sri omar mohd hashim the namesake of the library which was written on a wall plaque hung beside the library s doors back then i had only briefly read about him had only heard his name and story in passing i knew that he was psm s chairman as well as the person who initiated the move to build wisma sejarah and i knew that he was the person largely responsible for our malaysian examination council s mec take over in handling the spm examinations from cambridge but not much else i vaguely knew his story but not his ideals principles or his words however the trips to the library stirred my curiosity and i started to read a little bit more about him from his writings which were available in the library then came an unassuming morning it was just another day of me spending my time blissfully reading in the library while my sister racked her brains trying to answer exam papers when i heard someone walked in there was a little bit of a stir and by a stir i mean that the librarian stood up from her seat to gre...