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y s kids really i love stuff like this and i particularly love when guys can be silly like this typically guys i meet are too concerned with appearing hardcore or something in that vein but i guess being a millionaire quite a few times over has made the difference in pharrell that or he s higher than a jackie wilson song he might just be happy that he and his band of merry men weren t detained in malaysia i recall serenading a group of new orleans westbank wal mart employees at 3 am with a song i think it was something from usher s confessions album they were about as amused as the girls in this video especially when my friend took it upon herself to remove her stilettos i also sing to anybody who has the good or mis fortune to look into my car when i m in a good mood and listening to a cd at full blast i sound a lot more annoying than i actually am in person now that i think about it in my defense that impromptu early morning medley was under the influence of everclear and various other liquids that tasted suspiciously like what i imagine drain cleaner tastes like well anyway the video is funny and i remember playing a hand clapping game to that song as a kid that makes it more endearing i think posted by e jay at 9 05 pm 1 comments labels famous faces lollercoaster things i love viddee yos saturday march 21 2009 good job mescudi i feel a little better now visit pigeons and planes if you haven t already posted by e jay at 12 45 pm 0 comments thursday march 19 2009 enough already i know the go international designer collections for target are not everybody s thing but i have been following them for quite some time sometimes they look nothing like the designer s typical or just most current aesthetic to the point where you assume surely some intern must have been relegated the duty of overseeing the design process sometimes the material is disappointingly sheer or rough sometimes you can karate chop one of the dresses or shirts in half because it s so damn thin or the patent leather looks too plastic or whatever i accept all of these things with an understanding i carry into thrift stores it s worth it because some things are just that great although it s not everyone s style i m still loving the hell out of my thakoon for target trapeze dress i am with my newest pieces of clothing like a teenage girl is with her first boyfriend i e imagining all of the places we ll go together what i ll pair it with how nice i ll treat it etc well the mcq by alexander mcqueen for target collection is my latest crush i don t know if it ll work out but i sure love daydreaming about it in my wardrobe i don t combine our names in a school notebook but i google look for it trying to figure out where it ll be and when imagining how amazing a few of the pieces will look with some of my other clothes each time i go into target lately it s on a cloud hoping my crush will be there and it isn t it just isn t it s downright frustrating how is this national chain not synchronized about receiving the collections damnit i can t even ask the employees because at best all i ever get is a blank stare or they ask me how to spell mcqueen hmph just wanted to pout a little i guess i may like nothing when i see it in person but that studded denim jacket i saw is just dying to accompany me to europe does anybody know when the full national release date is or when it s supposed to be i can t even find the original info i read in january that said the release date was march 6th or something posted by e jay at 11 24 pm 2 comments labels clothing collections frugal fashion question rant ridiculous target tuesday march 17 2009 welcome to heartbreak kid cudi noooo i can t say i really blame you but no this news has really got me down out i just put my two best friends up on you even though i ve been loving your mixtape for a minute your debut album hasn t even dropped yet and you re stepping back from rapping how can i embrace the martian if dude is running in the opposite direction i guess you re questioning is there any love in the industry but since you say you ve achieved your goals do you really have to play the industry game to keep making g o o d music you talked about 50 ways to make a record surely there are at least 50 ways to keep from being affected by the bullsh t business it sucks that your friends are seeing you in a different light now and all but i guess the limelight burns sometimes well as a fan i wish you good luck mr solo dolo and i ll definitely be on the lookout if or whenever you change your mind posted by e jay at 8 23 pm 2 comments labels famous faces music the wackness things i love viddee yos wear your green if you don t want to get pinched today unless of course you re violent and just waiting for someone to dare touch you this video is still funny 3 years later oh someone help me am i having some kind of attack i can t stop laughing so i really hope that i am typing this correctly posted by e jay at 4 07 pm 0 comments labels bore dumb lollercoaster pranks ridiculous viddee yos soundtrack for my life 3 16 09 posted by e jay at 1 19 am 0 comments labels 80 s baby 90 s child about me famous faces music viddee yos saturday march 7 2009 for the record just saw watchmen and it was pretty damn weird and i say that in the best way possible because i loved it posted by e jay at 12 43 am 2 comments friday march 6 2009 and you ask yourself where is my mind i d like to preface this with the fact that domestic and sexual abuse are not foreign unrelatable concepts within my family aside from emotional outbursts and snarky comments jokes on other blogs and with my the view watching mother i ve tried not to address place judgment on this whole domestic disturbia thing it should be a semi private matter worked out between those two involved their families friends and legal and spiritual counsel but it isn t it s a media circus a mess a fiasco of epic proportions complete with bat boy exists esque rumors and speculation as well as interviews with chris brown s sunday school teacher and the custodian who cleans rihanna s regular recording studio even by those media outlets with a semblance of credibility it has in part helped me realize that when it comes to the american media publicity machine there is no bottom can this be any more depraved has become a purely rhetorical musing since the answer is always yes all under the guise of the journalistic standby that people deserve to know everything who will get ahold of rihanna s bloody dress who can find the most gruesome photo of her face will the person who called the police speak out will the girl who sent the alleged text message be revealed what are chris brown and rihanna doing right now it s downright unsettling because i am only just now noticing how desensitized the public including me is about these things it s as if we think we have the right to know to pass judgment to demonize and analyze yet things of this magnitude or greater occur with seeming regularity right in our own families neighborhoods and towns and we collectively turn our heads say it s not our business and that we don t want to get involved why does the situation change when a celebrity is involved we are no more connected to them than a person we make eye contact with once in a hallway maybe less so anyway i admit that i ve been guilty of it as well so excuse me if i come across as hypocritical i ve just read so many comments and opinions that i didn t get to address and really would have loved to talk about this with those people to understand why they feel as they do rihanna s so stupid for allegedly taking him back she deserves whatever she gets because she s enabling an abuser i do think provided she really did take him back that she made a very stupid decision i understand that abuse is difficult to differentiate when combined with love both actions require emotion and passion so it s possible and even probable to become conditioned to believe they are related or even one and the same however i define stupid as having a wealth of information and support at your disposal to influence your decision making away from dangerous choices or at least those with very high risk yet making said dangerous choices anyway i don t think people were stupid for smoking in the 40 s they had very little information so i d just call them ignorant people who choose to take up smoking or continue to smoke currently are making a stupid decision of course this doesn t reflect on their overall mentality just their thought processes for a particular decision same goes for rihanna i ve been guilty of it too i stuck with a guy who wasn t like he used to be thinking he d change back to the person i thought i knew instead of getting out while the getting was good before i got my heart broken so to a lesser extent i am not immune to stupid decisions no one ever deserves to be abused however no matter what violence is not an answer to a problem because it only creates more problems chris brown is a monster who should be put under the jail he s sick and deserves to die be anally raped in prison be castrated burn in hell etc no absolutely not the demonizing of this young man is downright disgusting he did an awful thing yes that s true he even allegedly is a repeat offender he deserves to be punished by law for his actions anything else is up to god or karma or whatever you believe in none of us have been appointed as his judge and jury in this life or after chris brown rihanna is an adult who shouldn t be cut any slack for whatever reason these two people may be adults in age very close to my own but i see them as children teenagers think about it both of them witnessed some traumatizing things in their lives some 30 and 40 somethings are still working similar issues out with therapists or medication i know that some people who have also seen drug addicted or domestically abused parents have grown up to become stronger and better people for it but everyone does not have the same constitution or emotional pain tolerance these two became top earners and breadwinners within in their families at an age when many are worried about acne getting an a in sophomore biology or going to the prom i e seemingly frivolous things from that point on they ve lived a lifestyle alien to most of us they ve been primped prodded spoiled and coddled for years since how could they possibly have managed to go through whatever experiences are necessary to grow up normally even children should be punished for things that are reprehensible but i can t imagine not feeling bad for both of them not just rihanna clearly chris brown has not had the time he s needed to confront his demons nor has rihanna had the time to build up a self esteem that matches her public persona you re stupid for criticizing rihanna because you don t understand the cycle of abuse many people were saying that to commenters particularly those who experienced it first hand the cycle of abuse is easily comprehended honeymoon phase build up tension explosion honeymoon phase that doesn t mean it should be accepted some people who criticize rihanna s role in all of this are basing their opinions on how it should be not how it is having a chart on the widely accepted abuse cycle does not make it all right it merely makes it common which is not the same thing at all it seems as if these people are defensive because they also took back an abuser currently or in the past and perhaps rightfully feel like a criticism of rihanna s decisions is a criticism of their own similar decisions well for their sake i wish someone had been around to talk them out of it too celebrities are not immune to the cycle of abuse obviously not but jesus christ she is a celebrity and it is 2009 not 1969 my grandmother as lovely a woman as she was had 10 children a gambling problem an abusive boyfriend and black skin in 1960 s and 70 s mississippi now tell me that ain t hard she had very few options for herself rihanna is financially independent even if she is broke if she would just forgo the 12 000 shoes and bags for a while she d be good to go has no children with chris brown has a security team who obviously weren t on their job that night and a support system in her family millions of fans and incredibly powerful industry friends hello jay z and kanye why on earth would she stay well people would go for this garbage love is very complicated no it is not call me a romantic but love is the simplest purest thing in existence people are complicated it is our thoughts and questions that complicate it and our need for qualifiers that muck it up and turn it into all these things that we don t understand and ruin for ourselves one drop of pee can spoil the bucket of water or whatever the dumb saying is trying to mix love and pride love and fear love and jealousy or love and abuse will always leave you confused and hurt not that it s impossible to overcome but to me it s really like eating a fallen souffle it s kind of hard to enjoy when you have that constant reminder that something s wrong or off chris brown and rihanna will make their own decisions about being together but personally i think it s a bad idea when there is physical evidence that a person invokes that kind of ire in chris why would he want to continue walking that tightrope possibly regressing and hurting the woman he thinks he loves again would rihanna ever really be comfortable with him again or would she walk on eggshells afraid to do or say the wrong thing what kind of life is that what kind of love is that i would think love real actual love would be expressed in the ability to let the other go when a relationship is that volatile to preserve the life biologically or socially of that other person obsessive relationships should have died with romeo juliet grrr i blame the drippy nonsense that is twilight there is so much more i suppose because the whole subject is so taboo yet so intriguing to the public because of the high profile people involved i can hardly ever stop myself from talking once i get going so luckily with typing my hands get tired i ll just leave you with a song that s lyrics are appropriate with the situation i think sung by one of the better underrated contemporary singers amel larrieux say you want it all posted by e jay at 9 19 am 1 comments labels bore dumb bystander apathy famous faces ok so get this rant ridiculous the wackness saturday february 21 2009 someone stop me what do you do when your friends are at mardi gras weekend festivities and you have to stay home and study for a test paint leopard print on your nails of course forget swagga no one on the corner has boredom like me i am so very much over studying for tests why did i choose medicine damn interests ignore the blurriness of the photos by the way my digital camera s on the rag she s kind of a bitch and the iphone s default shutter speed is abysmal clearly i went 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