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walker find more cartoons you can freely re use on your blog at we blog cartoons pages about twitting or something tweets by notthatandym categories categories select category bible 10 emerging 11 essay 2 green 3 groanings 48 hilarity 22 in the news 42 me 84 moments 75 questions of faith 11 rants 29 scribblings 5 uncategorized 1 archives archives select month january 2014 1 april 2013 1 october 2012 2 august 2012 1 july 2012 2 june 2012 1 march 2012 1 january 2012 1 july 2011 2 june 2011 1 april 2011 4 march 2011 2 february 2011 3 january 2011 2 december 2010 2 november 2010 1 october 2010 3 september 2010 2 august 2010 2 july 2010 3 june 2010 2 may 2010 5 april 2010 6 march 2010 4 february 2010 2 january 2010 5 december 2009 5 november 2009 3 october 2009 3 september 2009 4 august 2009 5 july 2009 4 june 2009 1 may 2009 8 april 2009 6 september 2008 1 august 2008 2 july 2008 10 june 2008 12 may 2008 6 april 2008 6 march 2008 6 february 2008 2 january 2008 9 december 2007 4 november 2007 5 october 2007 26 september 2007 11 august 2007 13 july 2007 11 june 2007 10 may 2007 8 april 2007 7 march 2007 1 february 2007 7 search for be nice to me amazon wishlist people i know anna duncan jude julia kat liz phil j phil t people i read grace imonk lisa rlp scot mcknight tsk places bbc news city gates oasis america anglican anglican church anniversary apple asbo jesus bbc beauty bible boris johnson burma cartoons challenge christianity church community conservative controversy creative writing david cameron debate doubt dreams election 2010 emerging emerging church english l abri environment facebook faith faith journey flickr friends friendship gafcon general election global anglican future conference god google gordon brown government homosexuality humour image jesus jobhunting ken livingstone l abri labour lambeth conference life london london mayor me news oasis photography photos politics questions relationships sex space steve chalke tallskinnykiwi uk uk politics unemployment us video wired wired magazine women work writing recent thoughts why i m a feminist management no title things we learn on our holidays a hero s passing search for intelligence and ignorance things i ve thought about and things i haven t menu widgets search why i m a feminist happy birthday to simone de beauvoir to emancipate woman is to refuse to confine her to the relations she bears to man not to deny them to her let her have her independent existence and she will continue nonetheless to exist for him also mutually recognising each other as subject each will yet remain for the other an other the reciprocity of their relations will not do away with the miracles desire possession love dream adventure worked by the division of human beings into two separate categories and the words that move us giving conquering uniting will not lose their meaning on the contrary when we abolish the slavery of half of humanity together with the whole system of hypocrisy that it implies then the division of humanity will reveal its genuine significance and the human couple will find its true form from here january 9 2014 andym feminism google doodle simone de beauvoir 1 comment management yesterday i had what may well be my penultimate counselling session during the winter last year i came to the realisation that my depression needed properly tackling in recent years i have become comfortable with the adjective depressive to describe myself it was a helpful shorthand for my ups and downs and helped me understand some of the repetitive patterns in my life last year while in southborough ma i decided that i needed to tackle this part of my nature more head on i came back from the states and started both counselling and antidepressants the last year has been a journey of management adaptation and trying to understand myself it has been about finding things that aid stability and encouraging them and those that destabilise and avoiding those in the process i have stabilised my income somewhat found a place to live entered into my first proper relationship since the breakup of my marriage it took me a while to realise how significant those things are but they are significant as is the daily struggle to stay here in london in the moment with my friends and community a struggle that i am now winning more days than i am losing its strange when in a mechanism that has become normalised where you discuss your fears your apprehensions your concerns you suddenly realise that you don t know what to talk about but that s what happened to me last night i sat facing my counsellor we do sessions over skype and realised that i didn t have anything to say and that was a good thing its not that i am no longer depressed or worried or that instability has left my life not at all in fact but those things are not looming over me to the same extent maybe it is the medication maybe it is the mental exercises i have been trying to teach myself maybe it is spending time in relationship once again probably a combination of all three but that depression is manageable right now and i am hopeful that it will stay so even though my stable job is coming to an end even though relationship brings up all sorts of issues even though i am still out of love with london and community has some real issues because i think i am beginning to understand this thing that has been part of my life for so long perhaps always and with that understanding comes a journey in learning to manage to survive to not be overcome you could say i m quite happy about that april 9 2013 andym 1 comment aside i just re found this piece of unfinished writing from a couple of years ago i thought it was worth sharing in the past the model for life has been simple obvious find a career move up the ladder get married buy a house have kids move to a bigger house sell up and move to country retire play golf leave the house in the country to the kids this old model has served our parents well but it isn t open to me the expectation of ever increasing house prices of housing as investment has lifted the value of property beyond what is achievable to low middle income earners such as myself the average house price is now too many times the average income and the era of cheap credit is over it just isn t conceivable that i as a single person with my historic income could buy a house let alone one big enough to raise a family in demographic changes mean that the pension retirement model is broken beyond repair there are not enough workers to support the number of retirees and it is getting worse the average pensioner is living longer and couples are having less children for my generation a comfortable retirement is only really conceivable for the highest earners private pensions funds are becoming bankrupt and the state will increasingly struggle to support the growing number of pensioners many of them on dangerously low incomes the comfortable financially secure future the middle class dream is fast becoming fantasy it is unlikely that i will earn enough to achieve it i have neither the capital nor the job security to build that type of security i have no desire to abandon myself to a life of insecurity a permanent now of short medium term jobs rented apartments living in the transient communities of the bigger cities i have the same desire for place for family for security and stability that our parents and grandparents did i don t see why we should abandon our desires for family life because the models of previous generations have been broken instead of tearing our clothes in despair or resigning ourselves to a life of transience and impermanence we need another model another possibility of achieving the same aims it is easy to decry societal change financial hardship and the death of the family it is far harder to come up with a solution there are some things that are dying that i have no desire to resurrect i don t want to spend the last 30 years of my life playing golf and going to the theatre i don t particularly feel that society owes me anything or have an expectation that they should provide for me either now or later but there will come a time when i can t work either for health reasons or old age and i would hope for some structure to support me i don t know now if marriage and children are possible for me i have to be realistic it is not impossible and it is desired but such things are out of my control but i have no desire for an isolated lonely future i don t want to live a life without children in it whether or not i have my own i have a desperate longing for family but family can take many forms my hope is that intentional community and collective ownership can be an alternative an antidote to the decayed and broken current model that it is possible to gather together with like minded individuals and create a space a home a sense of family that can be self supporting and enduring that a group of people can together own property create a home develop a collective financial security raise children care for one another in sickness and old age and endure beyond the death of the original members into perpetuity i also hope that beyond this it would be possible to create something that can have a positive impact on the wider community in a geographic area and even to an extent society as a whole that a community might be able to collectively demonstrate alternatives to the usual patterns of life the question of course is how you do that how do you build community over the long term how do you overcome the barriers of finance and property especially when money is so easily a source of conflict suggestions on a postcard or debate in the comments gratefully received october 19 2012 andym change community debate dreams family society leave a comment things we learn on our holidays some people are always photogenic it is possible to take a good photo of cathers my friends are all a bunch of posers more on flickr october 3 2012 andym film flickr photography leave a comment a hero s passing image via gizmodo com neil armstrong has died nasa offers its condolences on today s passing of neil armstrong former test pilot astronaut the 1st man on the moon neil was 82 nasa nasa august 25 2012 we don t have many heroes in our modern cynical age even fewer gods in a time where almost any achievement seems open to almost anyone there are few things that leave us truly awestruck truly humbled neil armstrong was a man who achieved something that most thought impossible and unfortunately some still do he stood upon the face of another world armstrong was the pinnacle of a truly herculean endeavour where thousands of mere mortals worked together to show that even the very heavens were within our grasp that the celestial bodies our ancestors worshiped could be reached out to and touched the first man to set foot on another world armstrong with his compatriots aldrin and collins returned to earth as heroes to worldwide adulation and acclaim we would expect an ordinary human to crumble under the pressure or be revealed as somehow fragile and deficient it was armstrong s genius that he became a cypher he retreated from the public eye gave few interviews and fewer appearances and allowed us to see him as a living monument to human achievement neil armstrong died today at 82 years of age a true hero in the homeric sense of the word and the world is poorer for his passing in the late 60s and early 70s 12 men walked on the moon there are now only 8 of them left among us august 25 2012 andym armstrong moon nasa neil armstrong rip leave a comment this is our world as seen at night by those that watch over us july 22 2012 andym earth iss nasa space view leave a comment hospitality i have experienced a lot of hospitality in the last few years the last time i had a place i would call my own was the summer of 2008 since then i have been a lodger and a houseguest and a student and a traveller camper nomad a lot of people have opened their homes to me and done so with amazing generosity i m in texas right now over the last month or so i have stayed in at least six different households every single one has responded to my and often several other people s invasion with a great deal of generosity going far beyond what is necessary they have opened up their homes and their lives showing us their cities feeding and watering us and rarely letting us pay for anything i am awed and humbled by this generosity and i dearly wish i could reciprocate hospitality is a key part of matryoshka haus life it is part of how we define ourselves as a community and it is how we want to express ourselves to the world by opening up our homes to strangers and friends thinkers and dreamers wounded travellers all it is one of the characteristics of mh that is most meaningful to me and why i am so committed to them but i am keenly aware that i am almost always the recipient of this hospitality rather than the provider of it and that saddens me over the last few days an unexpected crisis has seen me decamp to dallas a town that was never on the itinerary for this trip at very short notice an amazing couple called dawn and mark have opened up their home to me despite significant chaos in their own lives right now they are in the process of selling their house and getting ready to move possibly out of the country and they did so unthinkingly because radical hospitality is so ingrained in their dna i only wish that i could do the same i don t have a house to go back to next week it looks like it may be a while before i find a place to be mine something is nagging in the back of my mind telling me my nomad days are not over yet but that means it will still be some time before i can host others before i can offer the kind of hospitality i have received i do hope it s not too long july 7 2012 andym 2 comments nashville julia jackson got married it was a beautiful thing june 10 2012 andym 1 comment seeking so i ve been away and i ve come back i ve spent most of the last 5 weeks at the southborough l abri doing the l abri thing which in my case has meant spending a lot of time thinking reading listening talking about meaning no where near as cold and snowy as i expected man s search for meaning is pretty universal most of us at some point wonder what on earth life is all about we wonder if there can be any meaning behind our existence at all to quote friedrich nietzsche why am i alive what lesson am i to learn from life how did i become what i am and why do i suffer from being what i am i think most of us if not all of us feel the pull of those questions through our lives if we don t it is because we are better and better at distracting ourselves lest we think about things too deeply and reach conclusions we don t like for me coming from a christian background and having spent the large part of my 20s in something of a religious fervour i feel the pull of those questions keenly i wonder what on earth...