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m missing these two having gordon as my personal chaos goblin going write this and virgil as a filter to describe things 7 1 26 28 like reblog mrmustachious somnousbutler squiddokiddo icomb ici icomb ici he makes people gay he makes people gay seen plenty of he would not say that never seen he would not write like that before also hard agree that he makes people gay so he makes people happy lol gotta remember how they worded these things back in those days no actually gordon tracy personally made me gay yall are so funny 4 28 26 75 like reblog ltwilliammowett scrimshawed crochet hook made by a sailor for a beloved person ashore or at sea 19th century scrimshaw neat stuff 4 25 26 933 like reblog thebirdfantasy thundergeek59 katblu42 astraembers untitled 6 1 and 6 2 the hush fic i found another one for you all just a quick note on this one first and there s another at the bottom there was a time not too long ago i actually thought i might continue to this one but it s a pretty dark concept and a little difficult to navigate so i just don t think mentally i can do it the working title though is hush drug use warning attempt 1 at first there s fire with a sizzle where the new nanos deliver their message to the pain receptors in his nervous system then the prickling spreads like ice cracking along a frozen lake as the rest of him goes numb with their intrusion in a word john calls it dangerous and he has likened his brother to a stubborn mule more than once for taking it but that s not what it s called since the pill was gordon s idea in the first place their resident aquanaut was the one that got to name it he calls it hush designed to quiet his pain innovative enhancements to nanotech could only isolate a target area so far the pill like their edible transmitters activates on his tongue to deliver the stop message to his pain receptors but pressure and temperature responses come along with it in varying degrees the only thing completely unaffected is his motor capabilities because that would defeat the purpose all together gordon was very clear with his doctors about that from john s understanding since the medication had been developed without his knowledge and if john hadn t known about it no one had if there were aware of just what research and development their brother s inheritance had been supporting well there may have been words about it not that they would ve done much gordon was an immovable force when he wanted to be at 5 ft 9 heels dug in deep and stance unyielding any other time they admired that tenacity it s what carried him through the olympics what drove him forward when re learning to walk what kept his spirit bright through difficult times at the end of the day it s that knowledge that reconciles the turmoil in john s heart his voice wouldn t have made a difference it was always gordon s decision his body at risk his danger to weigh and measure john may not like it but he understands it and knows what his role is to be now that what s done is done attempt 2 hush is what he called it it had a scientific name a string of alpha characters and numbers that represented the chemical make up but gordon could never remember it nor was there a reason to brains knew it virgil hated knowing it gordon knew the drug for what it did how it made him feel and what it could help him do and that s all that really mattered it was hush because it took his screaming nerve endings and snuffed them down to nothing it was hush because it told the broken part of his body to shut up that it was wrong when it yelled you can t you can t you can t because he can he has and he could that was the gordon tracy he knew best the champion the survivor the one who beat the odds overcame his diagnosis all those years ago when he was told he d likely never walk again hush the drug and it was a drug as much as they kept it on hand as gordon s last option prescription gave him his strength in his worst moments by turning everything else off okay so the rest of this goes there s a rescue gordon feels needed and decides to use the drug to quiet his chronic pain but the trade off is that it s too effective and the reason virgil doesn t like it is because it s a danger to gordon he actually can t feel anything afterword so a he might not even notice getting cut or burned or a broken bone the brothers are overall split about the existence of this thing and then virgil s worst fears actually happen but he wasn t advised that gordo had taken it because gordon knew he d be mad so the impact is worse here are some additional notes i had listed in a doc hush pill form new nanos to turn off shuts down pain receptors turn off most pain across his body would lose some sort of mix between pressure temp specific to keep motor in extremities fingers hands feet face lips ears etc at onslaught it ll affect back and torso with muting in his fingertips and head temp mix could feel the heat of his blood on his head notes john is with gordon as his feeling comes back virgil walks in hush is the one thing virgil will actually get mad at gordon for beyond just brotherly irritation motivations gordon afraid to be a liability willing to take the consequences knowing he can help people in this moment virgil afraid that gordon will injure himself further the benefit isn t worth the risk to gordon s health and he was with gordon through it the last time that left its own scars on his heart john also afraid that gordpn will injure himself further but the difference is that he understands where gordon is coming from alan thinks its cool without really understanding the risks scott big brother also afraid for gor don end of the day gordon is responsible for his own body autonomy will pull black mail if he needs to will call out scott s own self destructive tendencies and i debated how a panic attack would feel under this stuff but never really dove into it further than this note panic attack the pain of a panic attack doesn t come from physical pain it s pressure hyperventilate chest tight and can t breath can t feel the actual pain of it but know it s happening wow this is a concept that s a lot to digest not in a bad way what a fascinating and scary idea i love it i feel like this hush drug would also make for a great torture device in a whump fic because a character could be on this drug and beat up in so many ways but they won t feel it until later when it all starts to hurt at once no need to apologize responding to tags it was 100 intended as a whump idea 3 19 26 25 like reblog womble1 astraembers untitled 7 tsof verse someone posted a duck in a cup and sent it to me internally i named said duck pidge because gordon names all his ducks other bird names scott splutters at the small canary yellow head that pokes up from the inside of his coffee mug the confused miniature eyes staring at him in confusion at being held aloft the tuft of feathers fluffed upon its head look so soft it would be illegal not to give it maybe just one pat but first it is sitting in his favorite cup gordon he says slowly lowering the coffee mug back down to the countertop there s a duckling in here gordon who s already completed his morning chores and returned to the rancher stops whistling and leans back from the open refrigerator to glance at him the laughter reaching his eyes oh that s pidge scott frowns at the tiny face trying to place the name and it s the feather piled atop the creature s head that reminds him of a mane like the space lions show you liked nooo not like the space lions voltron is al s thing i watched stingray he grabs the carton of creamer and pours it enough to fill a third of his selected beverage mug and that s too much sweetener for a cup of coffee in scott s opinion but gordon is gordon it s pidge as in pigeon he says pigeon yes pigeon yes is there a reason you sound so incredulous gordon slides next to him giving pidge a pat on the head and taking a sip of his drink with his other hand while scott flounders unsure what to do with his hands now that his usual cup has been commandeered by waterfowl love it zero explanation as to why pidge is in the cup womble i was 80 sure it was you who sent that gif or picture to me at least the first time i think i ve received it more than once was my gut right was it you 3 18 26 10 like reblog okay so with all those snippets out in the universe i both am and am not going anywhere on the one hand i do not plan to stay active here on this blog it s still my main so its not disappearing but i m finally coming to terms to the fact i proabably won t be sliding back into fandom anytime soon i am more active these days on my final fantasy blog so if you play 14 come find me at embershearth if you don t play 14 and still want to stay connected the best place to do so is probably on discord send me a message the next few days so we can connect love you guys love the boys forever and always just changing times ️ thunderfam 3 18 26 9 like reblog astraembers astraembers okay thunderfam i found a bunch old unfinished snippets my google drive that i was thinking about releasing to the world they are unrefined untitled and i have no the context around when i wrote them so any duplication comes with massive apologies bit all that said even the little ones and knowing i won t be adding to them ya ll want to see these are all posted now i meant to queue them but anywhoooooo found a few more including an idea i was keeping close to the chest for a long time thanks for the support thus far and have fun that s actually the last of them unless you want a vague sense of some random concepts from my aus that never came to be 3 18 26 9 like reblog untitled 8 i fear the unrelenting mist so dense it obscures the horizon and stifles the stars has drawn us to our end it will only be a matter of time before the waters smash us upon the shoals leagues we have traveled and returned so close to where i last bore witness to the emerald of your eyes and the rosy blush of your cheeks both finer than any other treasures and yet not for me again weep not for me my love for the sea stole away my soul upon our parting if tomorrow the waters should ensnare my breath i have lived all the better with your kiss upon my lips your laughter within my breast your heart of my heart there is no doom when i have loved so yours words written swallowed by the sea and lost to the tides this was going to be a part of a ghost ship sailing au i never wrote the barest bones of the plot go like this the thunderbird gets sent into the mist and the boys don t know where they are anymore they start acting a little off just jumpier more irritable then start having their fears play out their fears manifest in the fog they see a signal from another ship and begin following it before they realize it s bringing them deeper in and things are getting worse eventually they realize it s a ship that had gotten pulled in by the same mist and is trying to warn them away then showing them the way out very star trek vibes old writing archives thunderbirds are go 3 18 26 6 like reblog untitled 7 tsof verse someone posted a duck in a cup and sent it to me internally i named said duck pidge because gordon names all his ducks other bird names scott splutters at the small canary yellow head that pokes up from the inside of his coffee mug the confused miniature eyes staring at him in confusion at being held aloft the tuft of feathers fluffed upon its head look so soft it would be illegal not to give it maybe just one pat but first it is sitting in his favorite cup gordon he says slowly lowering the coffee mug back down to the countertop there s a duckling in here gordon who s already completed his morning chores and returned to the rancher stops whistling and leans back from the open refrigerator to glance at him the laughter reaching his eyes oh that s pidge scott frowns at the tiny face trying to place the name and it s the feather piled atop the creature s head that reminds him of a mane like the space lions show you liked nooo not like the space lions voltron is al s thing i watched stingray he grabs the carton of creamer and pours it enough to fill a third of his selected beverage mug and that s too much sweetener for a cup of coffee in scott s opinion but gordon is gordon it s pidge as in pigeon he says pigeon yes pigeon yes is there a reason you sound so incredulous gordon slides next to him giving pidge a pat on the head and taking a sip of his drink with his other hand while scott flounders unsure what to do with his hands now that his usual cup has been commandeered by waterfowl old writing archives thunderbirds are go also i took it out but i literally ended this on gordon i no other context for that the next dialog was 3 18 26 10 like reblog untitled 6 1 and 6 2 the hush fic i found another one for you all just a quick note on this one first and there s another at the bottom there was a time not too long ago i actually thought i might continue to this one but it s a pretty dark concept and a little difficult to navigate so i just don t think mentally i can do it the working title though is hush drug use warning attempt 1 at first there s fire with a sizzle where the new nanos deliver their message to the pain receptors in his nervous system then the prickling spreads like ice cracking along a frozen lake as the rest of him goes numb with their intrusion in a word john calls it dangerous and he has likened his brother to a stubborn mule more than once for taking it but that s not what it s called since the pill was gordon s idea in the first place their resident aquanaut was the one that got to name it he calls it hush designed to quiet his pain innovative enhancements to nanotech could only isolate a target area so far the pill like their edible transmitters activates on his tongue to deliver the stop message to his pain receptors but pressure and temperature responses come along with it in varying degrees the only thing completely unaffected is his motor capabilities because that would defeat the purpose all together gordon was very clear with his doctors about that from john s understanding since the medication had been developed without his knowledge and if john hadn t known about it no one had if there were aware of just what research and development their brother s inheritance had been supporting well there may have been words about it not that they would ve done much gordon was an immovable force when he wanted to be at 5 ft 9 heels dug in deep and stance unyielding any other time they admired that tenacity it s what carried him through the olympics what drove him forward when re learning to walk what kept his spirit bright through difficult times at the end of the day it s that knowledge that reconciles the turmoil in john s heart his voice wouldn t have made a difference it was always gordon s decision his body at risk his danger to weigh and measure john may not like it but he underst...