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the 50 something life of a southern gal new beginnings in life skip to content the 50 something life of a southern gal new beginnings in life menu about katherine emma s ants eggs and things the cheepers in memory of my son donald phillip gwarjanski teaser tuesdays trying featured katherine 4 comments what you may ask it seems i am trying many new things but what i am fascinated with at this moment is trying to set up my wordpress blog normally i would be asleep at 2 00 a m but not today i have been sick and the random awakenings in the wee morning hours give me plenty of time to play with wordpress what i ve been trying to do is add photos set up a menu design my theme describe myself and most importantly figure out why i am doing all this why do we blog why do we read blogs what is so fascinating about other people s thoughts what do people want to read i have many questions and find myself delving deeper into this new world of blogging to find answers posted in uncategorized tagged blog learn trying write a letter from prison august 29 2014 august 29 2014 katherine 2 comments in september 2012 just a few weeks after my son s death i went on a date i had not dated in a long time but the idea of going out to dinner seemed great at the time it was something to take my mind off the crushing grief i was experiencing if only for a couple of hours i was not in any frame of mind to start dating i did not intend to start dating but somehow i started to date this man soon he was separating me from my friends and family nothing i did was correct i was too independent he was the man and i was supposed to do what he said this did not go over well with me i had never been treated this way i refused to do things the way he started telling me to do i refused to stop talking to my family and friends he called me several times a day to see what i was doing and who i had seen or talked to eventually he stole money from me quit his job and tried to take over my life also he was arrested for driving under the influence i was reeling from my son s death and all the details that i needed to handle arguments were frequent and became shouting matches i started recording the arguments i became concerned that these arguments and the verbal abuse would escalate into physical violence but he would not go away after talking to the local sheriff s office and safe house i learned he had a conviction for stalking and was on probation i was advised to be careful and not to be alone with him the woman he was convicted of stalking came to my house they were back in some sort of relationship which was a violation of his probation she started calling me looking for him his mother called me begging me to be good to him i considered suicide the situation was that bad and no one would take me seriously all of this just in the first few months after my son died eventually i had the sheriff escort him from my property when he refused to leave over the next 18 hours he called my home phone and cell phone over 80 times i was afraid to go home and was staying with a friend i got a new cell phone for friends and family to contact me and saved all the texts and voice mails he left on the other number eventually i left town for a few weeks coming home only to get a restraining order and swear out a warrant for his arrest when i learned he was sitting in my driveway and in front of my house waiting for me to return it was almost six weeks before he was arrested and held without bond pending a hearing for probation violation in april 2013 his probation was revoked and he was sent back to prison at first he wrote me and even found a cell phone to call me finally he left me alone no letters no calls for a year peace at last this week i received a letter from him my hands were shaking as i opened it i considered sending it back or throwing it away but i know from my prior experience that i need proof of harassment the letter was full of promises that he was a different man that he loved me and missed me and that he went to church every day he begged to see me wanted to call me and wanted me to write him there were no apologies for what he did he wanted me to feel sorry for him his letter described the horrible things that had happened to him in prison and mentioned that he that he was up for parole he actually asked me to pray that he would be released so he could come see me i thought i would faint right then thinking he had been released from prison i was not the victim in the case that resulted in the prison sentence so i was not informed of any parole proceedings hours of research indicated that he was still in prison and that no parole had been granted nor is a parole hearing scheduled at this time he managed to upset me through a letter from a prison about five hours from me there are people on this earth who have no goodness in them they exist solely to take advantage of and control other people they lie steal and cheat this man is one of them he will not acknowledge that his behavior resulted in his arrest and conviction in his mind this is all my fault if you meet one of these people run run fast and far do not become friends or lovers with them do not believe their promises they can turn the charm on and off like flicking a light switch and that is all i can think about after getting a letter from prison running posted in domestic violence and abuse tagged abuse domestic violence prison stalking blessings in disguise april 18 2014 april 18 2014 katherine leave a comment quote of the day our real blessings often appear to us in the shape of pains losses and disappointments but let us have patience and we soon shall see them in their proper figures joseph addison posted in uncategorized qotd april 4 2014 katherine leave a comment the be all and end all of life should not be to get rich but to enrich the world bertie charles forbes about bertie charles forbes bertie charles forbes known as b c forbes is remembered as the founder of the long running forbes magazine aimed at investors he was born on may 14 1880 in scotland he worked as a reporter for a dundee newspaper until 1901 when he moved to south africa and founded a newspaper there but he stayed just three years before moving to the united states where he became a financial editor and columnist his sons bruce and malcolm succeeded him as editors in chief of forbes he died on may 6 1954 posted in quote of the day tagged forbes life qotd quotes a butterfly march 4 2014 katherine leave a comment what the caterpillar calls the end of the world the master calls a butterfly richard bach posted in quote of the day tagged butterfly caterpillar growth qotd quote richard bach transformation understanding suicide february 27 2014 katherine 1 comment i just read this and my heart is still pounding it is powerfully written it shows raw emotion over a friend s suicide as i read it and it s long i thought about my son i wondered is this what he was thinking when he took that one fatal step never letting anyone know he was hurting before he did it understanding suicide posted in a grieving mother i ll be in jail february 27 2014 katherine leave a comment posted in uncategorized i run out of stupid things to do february 26 2014 katherine leave a comment i run out of stupid things to do posted in quote of the day read this first february 26 2014 february 26 2014 katherine leave a comment i came across this through the national suicide prevention hotline it was on my facebook newsfeed i tried to cut and paste the article but it s not easy on my ipad mini read this article if you are considering suicide read this article if anyone you know is considering suicide so that you can share it with them just read this http www metanoia org suicide posted in a grieving mother donald phillip gwarjanski uncategorized tagged death depression grief life pain suicide suicide attempt suicide prevention surviviors of suicide you will never get over it february 24 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