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o how the organizers tried to please every complainer isn t it funny how we expect so much from god but yet we don t give as much to god isn t it funny how we want god to bless us with money and yet we cant treat a starving friend isn t it funny how we say lord i want to do your will but when we don t like it we make our own choices isn t it funny how we say use me father but run away and hide in the comforts of our rooms isn t it funny when we say we want to give god glory in everything and in anything we do and still break the simplest of all rules in the country states organizations universities schools and homes i feel frustrated and disturbed more so disappointed with society and human selfishness more so with those that call themselves bringer of the good news christians what good news can one bring to a society when one does not live the life of the good news i like your jesus but i don t like your christians quoted by one of the noblest man ever to live on this earth mohandas karamchand ghandi true isn t it we always say we want to be like jesus but are we really trying maybe we think we are but in many times we have overlooked even the smallest things of it all if we can t even obey the smallest commandment of god or follow the smallest footstep of jesus how can we be proud to say that we have obeyed the greatest commandment of all how can we be proud to say that we are walking with jesus day by day side by side hypocrisy that s what we are our christian fellowship theme this year in my campus is building up radical people burp what does it really mean to be radicals the definition from dictionary com defines radical as rad i cal r d k l adj arising from or going to a root or source basic proposed a radical solution to the problem departing markedly from the usual or customary extreme radical opinions on education favoring or effecting fundamental or revolutionary changes in current practices conditions or institutions radical political views linguistics of or being a root a radical form botany arising from the root or its crown radical leaves slang excellent wonderful yes radicals means to go back to the root in fact it came from the word root itself in greek i think the root of how everything started this year we ve had enough of the activities in cf it s time we grew up and really get into the root of christianity christianity is not just a mere religion the best example to refer to as what christianity is all about is of course the root himself jesus he was a total radical can you imagine it he came into a society that was living under rules and regulations and tried to change it and change their mindsets so that they d focus on our heavenly father and society instead the whole sermon on the mount matthew 5 7 shows how rad he was amazing isn t it and yet it is so hard for us to even obey those little things he showed us the root of christianity itself well this is a whole topic by itself maybe i ll talk about that another day the point of me bringing this radical part up is so we can look at the example of jesus to change our mindsets and our lifestyle to be different the one thing that got my heart really frustrated disturbed and disappointed was the fact of how we were portraying ourselves as christians with our compromising stands where is our stand for jesus have we all been so numb that everything we do seems okay in this society we live in we had some discussions in cf about co habitation piracy smoking drinking gambling and clubbing and classroom ethiquette attendance honesty that day it really made my heart feel so heavy yes although it may seem like they were grey areas that we were discussing about but certain things are just not that grey afterall some are clearly stated in the bible we do not need to justify ourselves in what we do and make it seem like it is a grey area or it is okay to do it in many cases we may say we are not fully convicted therefore we just do it or don t do it i think if we needed conviction to do something or to not do something the whole world will be living selfish lives and and we would be living a life that serves our own wants desires and pleasures what if jesus needed to be convicted to die on the cross for us and he wasn t convicted to do so wasn t it the obedience that he portrayed back there at the garden of gethssemane and sometimes we can be so proud to declare what we have done or have not done because we were not convicted you know what breaks my heart even more was what some leaders in the cf said during the discussions the years of the older generation christians trying to help the younger generation realize the importance of keeping our standards for jesus is going down the drains signing of attendance for our friends who doesn t attend class or asking our friends to sign for us when we don t attend class has become such a norm this is a stand i hold very close to my heart yes some may say that everyone has a different pace of studying so as long as they can manage it it s okay some may say that if it helps our friends or ourselves then what harm can there be what happened to the glorifying god part what happened to our responsibilities as a student to attend classes and learn what happened to the let me be a good testimony to my friends as a christian part what happened to the obedience part this generation has lost its respect for the elders why do i say so i ve been observing in many places and sad to say it s happening amongst cf members as well yes he may not have won some people s respect he may think in a very different way than we do he may be from a different generation but that does not mean we should not respect him i respect him tremendously for all the things he has gone through for all the differences he has tried to make in the university for the impact he s left on the lives of people for being brave enough to linger around talk to join the prayer of the religion of majority in our country i can say boldly that no one i reapeat no one from our cf or even campus would dare enter the prayer place every friday although i cant really click with him he has earned my every respect if it was not for him we wouldn t even have a cf if it wasn t for him we wouldn t be able to get the cf room everyweek it is so saddening that every time he speaks we don t really listen every time he speaks i hear whispers of there he goes again but wasn t he right wasn t what he said right i think by now we all know who this person is if it was not what he said that night i think god s glory might have been compromised even as i blog this i am speaking for myself as well i m ashamed to say that many a times i ve failed to keep my stands strong failed to glorify god in all i do i m guilty of many stands i ve compromised i m guilty of many of the above stated issues we discussed on sometimes it s hard to give it up but can we at least try can we at least be challenged to change our lifestly and turn around i m challenging all those who are reading my blog even to myself glorifying god is not only constrained to praising his name in public or shouting god is good in front of people glorifying god also means we honour him even behind closed doors when no one is looking glorifying god also means we abide by the rules and the authorities glorifying god means we abide by traffic rules glorifying god means we work with integrity little little things people do see it even if it s not seen we should be glorifying his name in everything that we do this is a challenge dare u take it why can t we give up something for him when he had given up his life for us dr ian chai and there was silence need i say more bea yours truly beascuits at 2 18 pm 3 comments wednesday august 16 2006 3 months and 11 days i m back but i feel kinda lost in my own blog have i lost the touch of even putting my own thoughts down into words my brains are gonna disappear into thin air if i don t start thinking again but i m tired of thinking can i not think anymore i want to yet i don t want to i need to what was the purpose of this blog again i only want to use it to glorify your name daddy to encourage the people who reads it and to place my thoughts of what i learn about life have i done that are you glorified have you been encouraged am i learning about life i ve misused it for a bit i m sorry be patient it ll come back slowly i m still learning i still want to encourage i still want to glorify life it ain t easy but it s colourful indeed i love life yet i m afraid of life complicated isn t it i bet you do feel the same about it don t you i am who i am today because of how life has shaped me i m thankful to you daddy for the life you ve given me it s not by coincidence for i m fearfully and wonderfully made i m quite a deep person in thoughts in emotions sometimes i just don t show it forgive me if i seem quiet sometimes i m just not good with words yet i don t know how to express it i guess that has affected me to be somewhat macho i still have my soft spots i m still a lil uncomfortable to reveal all of them just yet so forgive me if i don t speak the right words or give the right touch inspired to inspire touched to touch encouraged to encourage loved to love fed to feed clothed to clothe given to give blessed to bless courage for a dream people that matters worthwhile relationships strengthening of the feet boldness for the streets humbling encounters scandalous grace bea yours truly beascuits at 2 59 pm 5 comments friday may 05 2006 i believe in you is that so hard to tell me that must the first sentence be of something negative and not something encouraging all i needed you to tell me was just i ll be praying with you and for you i believe you can do it but noooooooo it had to be we are very unhappy bah tell me have i ever failed you havent i proven to you that i ve handled it well with all the responsibilities around me i know my priorities and with that i still honoured daddy with it is it all that hard to let go and tell me that you have faith in me that you d support me in my interest in my hopes and dreams and especially support me in what i m going thru and doing at this moment i don t need you to tell me the obvious that i need to concentrate that i m a final year student that it s gonna be difficult don you think i already know that i m afraid too but i dun mind going through the challenges but all i needed to hear from you was just simple words i believe in you i ve never heard those words from you before mayb that s because i ve alwiz been the naughty one heh you worry too much you don t need to worry for me i can worry for myself in fact i m not as worried as you are what s there to when daddy s alwiz been by my side havent he proven himself time and time again that he is a gracious god fine if you dun haf enough faith in me then at least haf faith in daddy that he will provide a way and that he s already laying the path for me as you can see through the placement i ve gotten and everything else that comes with it what s there to worry daddy s already got his plans heh it s so much easier to please daddy than to please humans you know what whatever you ve said i m still gonna just trust in daddy because you know why i ve seen his grace and blessings for me i don t deserve it but yet he gave it to me that s how i know i ll be a survivor not by my own strength but by his strength i m sorry you cant see that maybe one day you would hopefully bah enough of blabbering goodnite world bea yours truly beascuits at 1 23 am 2 comments monday may 01 2006 peace a very good friend of mine sent this to me it s taken from one of rick warren s book the power to change your life john 14 27 reminds us of how god s peace is a gift we do not need to earn it his peace does not depend on our circumstances rather it is god dependent there are 5 ways we can achieve this perfect peace 1 principles we need to follow god s principles found in his word we obtain his peace when we are obedient to him ps 119 165 167 2 pardon we need to accept god s forgiveness micah 7 18 the no1 destroyer of peace is guilt 1jn 1 9 reminds us that if we repent and ask god for forgiveness he ll pardon us 3 presence try to focus on his presence instead of on our problems always easier said than done but also always worth a try focussing on god helps because our solution is found in him whereas worrying about our problems doesn t change anything ps 46 1 says god is our refuge and strength an ever present help in times of need and ps 46 10 reminds us to be still and know that he is god sometimes in the midst of our business we may feel very tired and burned out and it is at this point that god may be trying to tell us to keep still for a while and let his spirit fill us and refresh us once again 4 purpose we need to trust that his ways are higher that ours and that he knows the plans he has for our entire life when things seem uncertain we feel we re not in control anymore and it is at this point we need to remember that there is someone who knows what s going on and he knows it even better than us we need to acknowledge that god is in control prov 3 5 6 and that he is the master controlling what goes on in each and every one of us indecision often produces stress but when we trust in god he makes our paths straight and not stressful 5 pray peace is a gift from him but we need to ask him to give it to us phil 4 6 7 if you re not praying you re more likely to be worrying therefore when you feel pressure mounting up don t panic pray instead finally peace does not mean we are free from trouble but it does mean that we can be calm in the midst of life s troubles more on my thoughts later bea yours truly beascuits at 1 12 pm no comments friday april 07 2006 angels from heaven note this post is especially dedicated to 2 angels sent from heaven who made my yesterday special the finer things in life the little blessings along the way are always overlooked by many is it because the trouble or the problem overshadows it i don t know sometimes we get bogged down by just one darkspot in our lives that we don t see the blessings around it sometimes we get caved in to our own world we hardly manage to see the sunshine that s outside around it one of my sunshines are no doubt the friends around me the many angels that daddy has sent from heaven although sometimes we may bicker and have our dark moments these are also the angels that support encourage and care for me in many special ways precious friendships should not go to waste just because of little petty arguments it s definately not worth it if you think that the friendship is not worth the lost then go do something about it i do admit that sometimes my eyes become too small to see these little angels around me because of certain darkness in my life sometimes even wanting to give up everything but later on realize that it s not worth it to give up everything if everyone 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