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ther than a slight breeze here and there not only did i complete the full six miles but i never needed to walk and ended up only three minutes past coach s projected time i was very careful to listen to my body and adjusted my speed as was needed so i was very pleased to learn i stayed right on track i m super slow generally and this took me 1h 22 min at an average pace of 13 41 mile i look forward to watching that number decrease over the next few months i did it posted by the accidental somebody at 4 40 pm no comments saturday january 4 2025 doing a big thing i ve decided to train for a marathon even though no one will likely read this it feels nice to be able to write out loud so this is more for myself than anything but shit if anyone is out there hello to you anyway i attempted to train for a marathon back in 2005 but i was tricked into quitting by my own husband no less i was up to eight miles most of the time pushing both kids in a double running stroller and it was incredibly enjoyable and rewarding especially as a stay at home mom with no outside interests i had a very insecure husband and any kind of self improvement on my part especially a physical one felt threatening to him he didn t like that i had chosen to do the training and never offered or showed support in any way if i asked him to watch the kids while i went on a run he complained and pouted one day he said hey you should start your own photography business we could get you a really nice camera and a laptop and just put it on the credit card i had always wanted to be a photographer and he had known that about me for years he knew very well the size of the carrot he had just dangled in front of me and knew that not only would i agree to it i would dive my whole self into it to the extent that i would no longer be interested in the stupid marathon and he was right i fell for it hook line and sinker years later after we had been separated for some time i asked him if he had wanted me to start a photography business so that i d stop training for the marathon and he sheepishly said yes to this day i shake my head that i was so stupid to fall for that but in my defense two things worked against me 1 i had a husband who would rather manipulate me with something incredibly close to my heart than work on his own issues and 2 i had undiagnosed adhd and i couldn t have said no to that dangling carrot if i tried funny thing though i had actually brought up to my husband around that time that i thought i might have add as it was called back then now it is all blanketed under adhd i was diagnosed with inattentive adhd last year and he rolled his eyes and blew me off so that was that anyway the race i will be running will be in billings mt on june 1st which gives me ample time to train i found a free app that not only provides me with a training plan but lets me know how i m doing based on how i perform with each run i m kind of in pre training training until january 27 which is when my actual marathon training will begin in earnest this is beneficial in that it will allow me to get myself where i need to be in terms of ability i m just a sliver behind where i should be right now but close enough to be able to be caught up by the 27th also i m taking this time to research proper nutrition what to eat and when to eat it cold weather running tips and just general information that might help me stay healthy and injury free i ll turn fifty years old three weeks before the race so my old ass self needs to be careful there are reasons i m doing this though it s not just to run a marathon for the sake of running a marathon i want to document this training so as i go i ll probably write about what s been going on that has precipitated this decision until next time posted by the accidental somebody at 7 45 pm 1 comment sunday march 26 2023 time time seems to fold over onto itself as if everything that happened in between two points never really happened and only linger as a myriad of thoughts we call memory like i snapped my fingers and instantaneously traveled into the future i last wrote in this space five years ago i have a bundle of memories about all kinds of events that transpired over those five years but as i sit here it feels like only a moment ago that i was in our rental house on raleigh st in westminster co writing about my job as a freight unloader at a lowe s store if we sit and think about it dividing what we call time into its perfect little measured increments time feels real almost tangible if you re someone who always needs to be busy just sit quietly with your hands folded in your lap for an hour you can bet your ass you will feel every second of that hour like they are mosquitos buzzing in your ear but if we remove all concepts of time remove all words that describe it put away all the devices that tell us what time is and just feel the present moment time seems to disappear all that remains is this present moment and time is seen for what it really is a concept so over the past five years i did do all the things they did happen but i now see that they all happened in the space we call now and it s only when i attach a timestamp to each and every little last scrap of memory that those events are placed in what we call time that s why it feels like just yesterday that i last wrote in this blog or that i got married to dave or that i got the inch long scar on my right hand from pounding on and breaking the glass portion of the front screen door because my sisters wouldn t let me into the house it all feels like yesterday because it all happened in this space we call now posted by the accidental somebody at 10 10 pm 1 comment wednesday april 25 2018 career interview tonight right before bed brandon asked me to fill out this interview for one of his classes i decided to answer with honesty and candor i look forward to feedback career interview the career interview involves interviewing someone about their work people generally love to talk about the work that they do and usually this is a fun experience for everyone we recommend that you try to talk with someone that does the work that you want to do you can try googling people in the profession and calling them you do not need to meet with them in person when calling let them know that you are a high school student who is interested in doing the work that they do and if they would mind taking a few minutes to answer your questions otherwise feel free to interview an adult family member or friend you can always interview a school staff member when doing the interview remember that it is important to be well organized and professional the person you interview is taking time out of his or her busy day to help you listen carefully to what the person says you may be surprised by what you learn please use the interview question sheet provided below to help you with the interview or at least be able to fill in the answers to these questions from your notes interview question sheet career person s name kim bieske 1 what are your main tasks or responsibilities at work i m part of a three person team who unloads freight trucks at a lowe s home improvement store i stand at the end of a line of rollers and as products roll down the line i grab them and place them onto the department designated pallets once the pallets are stacked approximately 4 6 feet high i then take a pallet jack and haul the pallets to their respective departments sometimes the total weight of a pallet can exceed a couple thousand pounds in which case i either have a coworker push from behind as i pull or i walk exceedingly slow and stop as needed to catch my breath and try not to die 2 what kind of education training or other preparation do you need to get into your career e g college degree technical training high school diploma apprenticeship on the job training before i could begin working as an unloader i was required to complete computer based training such as how to safely clean up a hazmat spill and what to do if an active shooter is in the building you run and or hide is what you do for the shooter not for the hazmat cleanup other than that my ocd tendencies have prepared me to be one of the best pallet stackers in the company actually it was my years playing tetris as a child that were probably the best preparation for said pallet stacking as i can look at just about any shaped package and know exactly where it will fit in any given situation even with my eyes closed 3 how did you get into this career when you were young did you want to do anything else did you have other types of jobs before this one i was originally hired at lowe s as a cashier but after nearly a year of dealing with verbally abusive customers which resulted in panic attacks that left me crying in a bathroom stall i practically begged to be placed behind the scenes where i would have minimal contact with mean customers i didn t always want to be a lowe s freight unloader in fact when i was little all i wanted was to be a mom but as i ve clearly raised brilliant children who will soon make viable adults in today s society my job as a mom is nearly finished and i felt that it was time i really tried something challenging 4 what personal characteristics are required for someone to be successful in your career e g being organized or creative writing or speaking clearly being strong or good with your hands being a freight unloader requires massive amounts of hulk strength of which i am well equipped until it comes to pulling appliances down from being stacked then i stand by and let the men feel manly and heave them down themselves it is imperative that proper lifting be used when picking up heavy items the extensive amount of bruising i have on my arms thighs and shins is not an indication of my proper lifting capabilities i am just clumsy 5 have any recent changes affected your job what changes to your career can you foresee in the future e g changes in technology economic changes we used to be a four man team but one man left our department to work in the electrical department thus the three man team came to be except when one exceptionally irresponsible coworker frequently takes advantage of time off and leaves us with a two man team for days on end which in turn creates animosity aggression and irreparable exhaustion also as a result of the changes in manpower which has resulted in extra work for those two of us who actually show up with consistency i am nearly unable to walk and i have a large purple bunion blooming on the inner knuckle of each foot 6 what do you like most about your job and the career you have chosen in what way s is it better than other types of jobs careers at the end of the day after a hot shower and my required foot rub from my fiance his requirement not mine it pleases me to pour my poor broken body into bed knowing i worked myself so hard i can barely function it s better than other jobs because i literally eat all throughout my shift and burn the calories as i go 7 what do you dislike most about your job and the career you have chosen what are the toughest parts compared to other jobs careers i dislike when other employees pretend that the work we do is no big deal but whenever anyone is asked to lend a hand because the two man team is running on fumes and has nearly passed out everyone scatters like cockroaches because they know it s going to hurt a lot 8 what advice do you have for someone who wants to get into this career don t when you are finished please drop this document into your locker in empower or show your ae teacher so you can receive credit for this required activity posted by the accidental somebody at 11 14 pm 2 comments wednesday march 7 2018 the condom chair the bright warm light of the late afternoon winter sun shone brightly into the living room as my fourteen year old son brandon walked in through the front door he quickly stopped in his tracks and attempted to assess the situation presented before him i was sitting on my haunches on the hardwood floor hands sheathed in clear disposable vinyl gloves with one of them stuffed into a double layer of plastic grocery bags as if i was ready to pick up a steaming pile of dog shit in front of me was a small gamer s chair the kind with no arms or legs and is slightly curved and sits directly on the floor it was folded over so the secret pocket i had discovered on the bottom was facing up a few shiny gold wrappers lay in a pile next to me on the floor brandon remained fixed in his spot in front of the door his confusion mounting you don t want to know i said shaking my head i wished i hadn t known either it was a chair i had found earlier at a thrift store after having visited nine stores looking for what i called a banana chair the kind that were popular when i was a kid in the 80s apparently they stayed in the 80s because all i could find was that one chair and as i stated above it was of the gamer variety with speakers and knobs and functions that would be useless to me since it was the only one i could find within a 20 mile radius i decided i d give it a cursory cleaning cover it with a throw and call it good after it was home and sitting on the floor of the living room i began to look over my purchase which is when i discovered the somewhat hidden zippered pocket on the bottom i flipped the chair over for easier access unzipped the pocket quickly peeked inside and noticed a bunch of garbage that looked like candy wrappers in the moments that would follow i would make the worst decision of my entire adult life one i would regret immediately one that still makes me retch a little when the memory surfaces i instinctively reached in and grabbed a handful of the garbage with my bare hand no less and as soon as i pulled it out some horrified sound escaped my mouth and i threw it all onto the floor i had pulled out a handful of empty condom wrappers gaaahhhhh i exclaimed as the reality of what i had just done quickly settled in my seventeen year old daughter amanda was sitting on the couch nearby jesus christ it wasn t just garbage they re condom wrappers kill me now i pleaded with her had i not wanted that kind of a chair for a very specific reason and had it not been the only one of its kind that i could find in all of creation i would have thrown it into the dumpster immediately i ran into the kitchen put on a pair of disposable vinyl gloves and went back to the chair i had to clean it up all of it i didn t want to but i had to so i braced myself this time with gloved hands i gently grasped the opening of the pocket and took a better look inside to see what i was really up against begging every god that ever existed that i wouldn t find what i knew would be in there i saw more wrappers all of them empty then i looked just a tiny bit further and saw it laying in there like a flat flaccid fleshy rubbery shell of a penis it was a used condom god fucking dammit i thought to m...