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comfort that courage does not always announce itself but it is there and it deserves to be acknowledged loving you has been a lesson in balance in learning when to speak and when to listen when to hold on and when to give space when to plan and when to simply trust the moment you have shown me that love thrives not in perfection but in mutual effort and understanding for that i am deeply thankful as you celebrate another year of life i want you to be proud of yourself proud of how far you have come proud of the person you are becoming proud of the way you have loved learned and evolved you do not need to measure your life against anyone else s timeline your journey is your own and it is meaningful precisely because it is uniquely yours i hope this year brings you peace where there has been pressure clarity where there has been confusion and joy where you least expect it i hope you find moments that make you pause and smile for no reason at all i hope you continue to discover new layers of yourself new strengths new passions new possibilities most of all i hope you continue to choose yourself with the same care you offer to others you deserve rest you deserve celebration you deserve love that is steady respectful and sincere you deserve to be met with the same energy you give i want you to know that i do not take you for granted ️ not your time not your trust not your affection being loved by you is a privilege and it is one i hold with seriousness and gratitude i am committed to showing up for you not just in words but in actions consistency and care i am excited not just for what we may do or achieve but for who we will continue to become i look forward to the conversations we have not yet had the memories we have not yet made and the quiet moments we will share that may never be photographed but will always be remembered thank you for allowing me into your world thank you for trusting me with your heart thank you for loving in the way that you do honestly generously and without pretense my life is richer for having you in it and i do not say that lightly happy birthday my love may this new year of your life meet you with kindness challenge you in ways that help you grow and remind you of how deeply you are loved always and sincerely ️ ️ ️ ️ ️ philip it s not all a bed of roses posted on mar 31 2025 by auma image by dgabi she looked at her lover from across the room wondering what she would do with all the love she was feeling in her chest she watched him smile with that boyish grin she had come to love in her heart she had no doubt that he truly loved her but maybe not quite as much as she loved him and sadly she realized that he would never fight for their love if called upon and that hurt so much of course the first person she ever fell in love with was not ready to fight for her how ironic she didn t know whether to shout her heart out or cry her eyes out love as she was learning was not all a bed of roses for one to have love pain was inevitable how could something so sweet cohabit with something so bitter it was a conundrum she would never understand promise to my lover posted on feb 13 2025 by auma i will love you with the steadfast and unwavering love of nature s passionate embrace i will love you with the patience of an ancient oak tree enduring every season with utmost grace i will love you with the passion of our tender touches and soft kisses i will love you with the urgency of a heartbeat that races against the clock i will love you with the genuineness of a child s laughter pure and unrestrained i will love you with a love so fierce that orpheus s love for eurydice will pale in comparison and the gods will look at us with envy and even when our love becomes hopeless i will cling to it in every thought and every reminisce in every dream and every imagination because you my lover are a wish and an answered prayer from the depths of my soul you are my happiness my peace and my solace you are my ray of sunshine after a very stormy night you are my warmth in the quiet of dawn a tender whisper that stirs my heart you are mine to love always and always by auma lizzie life as a fish posted on jan 15 2025 by auma image by ai artist gallery i think i need to take a walk i tell myself as i get deeper into bed i want to go out but i don t feel like it a walk is better in the morning i grasp at lame excuses trying to convince myself against taking the walk and besides right now i m too tired sleeping too much has really taken a toll on me maybe i will just sit up and see if i ll get some strength and so i sit up and stare blankly in front i find myself thinking about what it would feel like to be a fish i would swim all day and not worry about anything other than eating to my fill and hiding from the sharks i would come to the surface every once in a while to view the glorious sun and experience it s warmth on my scales oh what a life that would be and when i m older i d have a family and take care of my little fingerlings i d teach them all there is to know about survival just like my mother taught me and her mother before her and we would produce a generation of witty fishes i get jolted out of my riverie by a barking from a distance lord i really need to take that walk right now i stand up and drag myself to the door here goes nothing by auma lizzie is this it posted on jan 14 2025 by auma image by jeanepisode my food tastes like ash i didn t even have the strength to open the salt can lid and put salt in it now i m looking at it wondering if i ll eat it or just leave it to fester the music from my phone sounds like howling from a dying animal is this how heartbreak feels like why did i have to open my big mouth and spoil everything why did i have to obsess over the future and spiral like that you tell me it s okay but deep down i know deep this is it for me this was the only chance i had but i ruined it mightily i m lost for words because what can i possibly say that will make you see me in the same light again what can i do that will convince you that everything i said was because i was afraid of the unknown i really want to know what you re thinking so bad but i m also afraid to know i m afraid that you have locked your heart forever even the seconds you take to reply to my messages seem like eternity and yet somehow i m thinking that some day we ll be able to laugh about all this i m wishing that some day i ll tell you how scared i was of losing you that i laughed at my own stupidity is this really it by auma lizzie the mullings of a 20 year old posted on nov 16 2024 by auma image by kate i want to live a blameless life i want to live a life without regrets but you see the thing about life is that there is no rehearsal to it there is no warning there is no guide to life there is not a person to tell you what you must do and that which you must not do there is no telling what lies in the future so that you can prepare for it every waking hour of my life i think of what i could have done differently every day i am consumed by regrets of all the mistakes i made every day i am bombarded by numerous questions questions of what if what if i had worked harder in school what if i had done what my mother asked me to do what if i had given that beggar a coin what if i had been a better friend what if i had talked to them instead of just going off like that numerous questions that i will probably never know the answer to questions that will linger forever but will never be answered questions that eat at me every second and every hour of every day another thing about life is that you can never change anything once it s done it s done you cannot take back a word once you have uttered it you cannot take back an action once you have committed it you make a mistake and it is like a scar it remains with you for the rest of your life but what if life had a rehearsal what if you could chose a path in life to follow and see where it takes you what if you could see all the obstacles that lie ahead and prepare for them or better yet what if you could undo all the unsatisfying parts about your life wouldn t life be better if that was the case wouldn t life be simpler wouldn t the world be a better place i bet there would be no regrets if that was the case there would be no poor people in the world there would be less misery and sadness coz who in their right mind would see that poverty lies ahead and do nothing to change their course of life who would see that misery lies ahead and not choose another life of course no one likes suffering no one loves being sad no one loves misery we only suffer because we have no choice we only live miserable lives because that s what is predestined to be and we have little or no control of it but sadly life is the way it is as humans we have learned to embrace life and accept it as it is we live each day hoping for the best of life but accepting whatever it throws at us whether it s misery or jubilation by auma lizzie the one that got away posted on nov 10 2024 by auma it s funny how even after all this time my heart still aches for you three years down the line and i still freeze when i see you with a guy i guess this so called love i had for you was deeper than i imagined and even though i haven t talked to you in decades seeing you with him still left me disoriented i was pretty sure i d gotten over you but seeing you with him opened up a floodgate of memories memories that i had long ago suppressed for the sake of my aching heart memories that bring me sorrow because i ll never relive them i ll never again be in that close proximity with you i ll never again listen to you sing to me in your wonderful voice seeing you with him left me regrets of what never was and probably never will be regrets of why i wasn t confident enough to fight for your love regrets of pretending i was okay while deep down i knew i was breaking regrets of not appreciating you enough when i had the chance maybe this is the price i pay for not telling you what i really felt deep inside maybe this is the price i pay for letting you live a life without me and maybe this yearning for you will never be fulfilled and that s a loss that i have to live with even though every second that i m not with you tears my soul even though deep down i know i will never forget you discretion is the better part of valor posted on nov 7 2024 by auma image by victoria i wonder what got you thinking like that i wonder if you ve finally seen through me have you finally figured out that i m incapable of loving have you finally figured out that me being close to you is wholly because of your love for me and not my love for you because i don t love you you see i love the fact that you love me so much that not a day goes by without you seeking me out i love the fact that you listen to me so intently and obey every word that i say i love the fact that with you i m in control and you submit really well i wonder if you ve finally realised that the love i give you is just a way to secure you strongly into my hold it s not really love but you re so blinded by your love for me that you don t see it have you finally seen that no matter how much love you give me i will never love you it s really not my fault that i m incapable of loving you know i ve seen so many people burnt too many times for so long that i decided long ago that it s better safe than sorry discretion is the better part of valor you see and i must not let love ensnare me i learnt from a very young age that love is a very dangerous game you see everyone that i ever saw falling in love ended up in misery love is a tool used to control people and make a fool out of them i ve been doing this for so long that it has become engrained in my system old habits die hard and just like it is in the habit of a chameleon to change color it is in my habit to run from love i hope that in your realization you understand that it s not you that i dislike but it s love that i m fleeing from by auma lizzie i didn t ask for your love posted on nov 2 2024 by auma image by sophia i didn t ask for your love when i smiled at you from across the room i didn t ask for your love when i lent you a pen to write with i didn t ask for your love when i defended you from the bullies i didn t ask for your love when i lent you a listening ear i didn t ask for your love when i laughed at your jokes i didn t ask for your love when i gave you a handkerchief to wipe your tears i didn t ask for your love when i offered you a shoulder to lean on but now you re offering me your heart to take care of now your giving me your life to control now you re placing your future in my hands had i known i would have kept my smile to myself had i known i would have been less friendly had i known i would have been less helpful had i known i would have paid less attention to you had i known i would have refrained from offering you my shoulder to lean on coz then i would have avoided the responsibility of taking care of your heart then i would have avoided the responsibility of your life on my hands then i would have avoided the anxiety of breaking your heart but now it s too late by auma lizzie the stranger posted on oct 19 2024 by auma the first time i saw him he was sitting next to me in church i didn t pay much attention to him until he asked to borrow my pen that s when i noticed his big round brown eyes and his long lashes and luscious lips cute i thought to myself as i stared for a while i gave him the pen and continued studying him from the periphery of my vision in that short time i had already imagined a whole life with the stranger a house by the sea where we d watch the sunrise and sunset every day 4 kids 2 boys and 2 girls and maybe a pet i did not notice how fast the time passed when i snapped out of my riverie the stranger was gone he took my pen i sighed but deep down i knew he had taken more than my pen the second time i saw the stranger i was in the market i saw him among the throng of people he was buying boiled eggs from a stand nearby instinctively i walked to where he was and requested for a boiled egg from the seller i don t even eat boiled eggs i mentally scolded myself standing next to him i realised just how tall he was a little over 6 ft whereas i was a mere 5 ft 4 i turned to pay the seller and in that short time he was gone i almost cried i put the egg in my bag and walked away solemnly seemed like destiny didn t plan for us to talk the third time i saw him he was sitting in the park reading a book i was elated i composed myself and approached him jane austen i love her work i said as i looked at the cover of his book she s a really good author he said smiling oh wait i know you you took off with my pen last time i joked he chuckled upon realization a glorious sound it was we talked until he got a call and frantically ran off to god knows where i didn t even get his name i cried for the days that followed i repl...