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old was 9 months old we were informed by the minister at our former church that children belonged in the nursery not in the worship service now she had a lot of stranger anxiety at that point and we weren t going to dump her in with a stranger and have her petrified for an hour and besides she was exceptionally good and did not cause any disturbance but no discussion was to be had so we left the church i been brought up in it also meant leaving the choir and the friends that i had there a little less than a year after we left that church some friends of mine from a community chorus invited me to sing with them at their church for their christmas cantata we have been attending that church ever since however this church has been loosing a lot of people lately for quite some time now the families with children have slowly been leaving to go to other churches there were only a few left this past year and the other family with a 6 year old and 5 year old just decided this past week that they were leaving as well this basically means that there will be no sunday school for our children because there just aren t enough children left to have it i had dinner last night with my 2 best friends from my original church we haven t kept in touch quite as much as we said we would because like everyone else our lives are very busy but last night i realized just how much i miss seeing them every week at choir and church while i really like the people in the choir and at the church we now attend i haven t created any really close friendships there and girlfriends are so important all of this has made me feel kind of hollow right now i want to do what is best for my children i know the attitudes at my former church haven t changed much but they do have a sunday school i know the people at the church we now attend would be there for us if we had any need at all i know they re trying to improve things but it isn t working i know dh has no desire at all to go back to our old church because he said he never felt completely comfortable when we were there our present church has no youth group isn t going to have a sunday school now and doesn t have a nursery even though they are much more kid friendly during worship services and i miss my girlfriends i m feeling lost god where do you want us to be july 30 2008 posted by blueyes113 children church family friends leave a comment twenty things to remember i received this in an e mail today i thought everyone should remember these things and wanted to share them finish each day and be done with it you have done what you could some blunders and absurdities have crept in forget them as soon as you can tomorrow is a new day you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense ralph waldo emerson twenty things to remember author unknown 1 faith is the ability to not panic 2 if you worry you didn t pray if you prayed don t worry 3 as a child of god prayer is kind of like calling home every day 4 blessed are the flexible for they shall not be bent out of shape 5 when we get tangled up in our problems be still god wants us to be still so he can untangle the knot 6 do the math count your blessings 7 god wants spiritual fruit not religious nuts 8 dear god i have a problem it s me 9 silence is often misinterpreted but never misquoted 10 laugh every day it s like inner jogging 11 the most important things in your home are the people 12 growing old is inevitable growing up is optional 13 there is no key to happiness the door is always open come on in 14 a grudge is a heavy thing to carry 15 he who dies with the most toys is still dead 16 we do not remember days but moments life moves too fast so enjoy your precious moments 17 nothing is real to you until you experience it otherwise it s just hearsay 18 its all right to sit on your pity pot every now and again just be sure to flush when you are done 19 surviving and living your life successfully requires courage the goals and dreams you re seeking require courage and risk taking learn from the turtle it only makes progress when it sticks out its neck 20 be more concerned with your character than your reputation your character is what you really are while your reputation is merely what others think you are no matter the storm when you are with god there s always a rainbow waiting leave gentle fingerprints on the soul of another for the angels to read i don t want to get to the end of my life and find that i lived just the length of it i want to have lived the width of it as well august 22 2007 posted by blueyes113 children family health 3 comments in memory of mikki today was one of the saddest days of my life my first baby girl my cat mikki died today she would have been 17 years old sometime this month i don t know exactly when she was born as she was a stray she was only a few weeks old when i got her around memorial day weekend in 1990 she was a little tiny furball who was afraid of her own shadow she moved with me from my apartment to my townhouse and finally to the house we live in now she was always a tiny cat but in the last few months she became very skinny her appetite was still good though but i guess her heart was worn out i will miss her terribly i do want to share a favorite story with you the first christmas she was with me i came home from work one night to find that the bottom string of lights on my christmas tree weren t working i checked the string and found that one of the sockets was missing a bulb i thought it strange but just put in a new bulb a few nights later the same thing happened again i still had no clue what was going on a day or two later someone came to my apartment and i went to answer the door in my stocking feet now my door was at the bottom of an interior flight of stairs i felt a lump under the carpet and when i looked i found the two light bulbs together under the rug at that point i knew that one of my two cats must have had something to do with it but i didn t know which one until a few hours later when i heard a noise at the bottom of the stairs i went and looked and there was mikki sticking her paws under the rug looking for her buried treasure to this day i have no clue how she managed to pull the bulbs out of the sockets without breaking them rest in peace my sweet angel may 2 2007 posted by blueyes113 life and death 1 comment the good and the bad i ll start with the good yesterday my precious daughter rode her 2 wheel bike without training wheels for the first time she was so proud of herself she was riding her 12 dora bicycle it s really too small for her now we re going to have to get her a 16 bike she and i were looking at some online last night and of course they all come with training wheels she says to me we don t need the training wheels now mommy of course she still needs me to push her to get going and she hasn t quite figured out how to turn around yet but i bet she ll have that all down pat in a few weeks she s growing so fast but i love to see how happy she is when she discovers she can do something new what s really funny is how much she loves numbers she s constantly asking what s x plus y my husband thinks she s crazy he hated math obviously she already loves it the bad i think my endometriosis is on the warpath when we were going through all the fertility testing before dd was born i was diagnosed with severe endo it s bad enough that my one fallopian tube is adhered to my bowel and the dr wouldn t try to remove that for fear of rupturing my bowel for the most part i ve only really suffered monthly cramps but a little over a month ago i developed a constant ache in what i ll call my crampy area it s been growing steadily since and now i feel as though i have constant cramps i really think the adhesions have attached to my c section scar now i need to make a doctors appointment and see what my treatment options are unfortunately i know they are either drugs or surgery and there really is no cure for endo this chronic pain is really wearing me down any prayers you could send my way would be appreciated good night april 26 2007 posted by blueyes113 children health 1 comment hoping for a healthy april did you ever feel like you lost a whole month that s how i feel about march first we had the stomach virus which began the 2nd week in march my little man was sick for 5 days my princess picked it on the 5th day on her 5th birthday no less and had it for 3 and then i got it i felt lousy for about 5 days it was almost a week after that cleared that my son began the 5 day fever with cold i m still recovering from the cold thankfully the almost 2 yr old bottomless pit is back to normal he s always hungry i don t know where he puts it today i asked him if he had a hole in his stomach and he said yes as he trotted into the kitchen what is he going to be like when he s a teenager i don t think we ll be able to keep enough food in the house i m also very tired i think i m just worn out from all the sickness what i really need is a week on a tropical island sun and sand and maybe a pina colada or two but that isn t going to happen right now so i think i ll go to bed and dream about it if i don t get a chance to write anymore this week may everyone who reads this have a blessed easter april 2 2007 posted by blueyes113 children family 2 comments this and that it s been awhile since i ve written anything so i ve had lots of time to think now it s time to put some of it on paper so to speak firstly i have been in touch with the composer of the song on this blog she is a beautiful person she has graciously sent the sheet music to me for our church choir she is very interested in having the piece performed at this point i don t know when we will be singing it our choir director is so busy with easter music that she hasn t had time to review the piece i am so looking forward to singing it though unfortunately my children have been sick for the last week fortunately they are both feeling better now but this also means that i have not left the house for over a week during my sons adoption while we were waiting for icpc i felt more homesick than i ever thought i could be i m beginning to think that it had a large part of cooped up in it now i need to get out of this house thankfully we re all well enough for church tomorrow i think we need to go shopping for something tomorrow anything i m going to start the next part of my random thoughts with a single question who came up with the lame brained idea that our planet has ever had a stable climate or a stable anything and now for the more scientific part of our program just for reference i am a degreed chemical engineer from a highly regarded university let s start at the beginning of an experiment i want to measure how long it takes water to come to a boil from 70 degrees f on the front right burner of my stove the first thing i must do is make sure the water is stable at 70 degrees i must also know the barometric pressure and the humidity for they will have an influence these bench marks are my steady state the foundation for my experiment without a steady state there is no experiment if there are too many variables there is no experiment in fact there can be only one variable in a true experiment in my example i could either run the test at different flame heights or i could run the test on days of different humidity but i could not change both variables at the same time or my results would be invalid so my question about climate change is where is the steady state where is the basis the starting date used by everyone seems to be 1880 when temperature records began to be kept and yes there has been a small increase in the earth s temperature since then but what was going on before then was it steady until 1880 and then suddenly started increasing could there have been a decrease in global temperatures in the hundred years before 1880 and a question that has truly been bothering me have these temperatures been measured at exactly the same locations with the exact same methods continuously since 1880 because if they re not being measured in the sames places and they re not using the same methods or equipment you ve added more variables into the experiment and speaking of variables just how many variables are there besides industrial manmade greenhouse gases which could change the earth s temperature by the way we create greenhouse gas everytime we breathe out gas production variables population change since 1880 volcanoes the ocean and livestock gas are some off the top of my head other variables that would change the earth s temperature sunspots or more precisely solar flares from sun spots and the sun s changing diameter so there are just too many variables for a conclusive experiment and i must add before i go that i find the fact that the term greenhouse gases has become a scare word extremely upsetting without these greenhouse gases there would be no life on this planet these gases which include water vapor are what maintain our life supporting atmosphere they are what filter out the excess radiation from the sun and what keeps enough warmth on our planet for life to survive without them earth would be as cold and barren as the moon i for one am thankful for greenhouse gases goodnight march 17 2007 posted by blueyes113 little bit of everything 1 comment may you always have peace as i was playing with the widgets here i noticed there was one to add music to my blog i decided to check it out i didn t know exactly what i was searching for so i just browsed around the catagories and then i came across this song may you always have peace i had never heard it before nor had i heard of the performers but as soon as i started listening it struck something inside of me i think it is just so beautiful and it is definitely something i wish for everyone in listening to it i thought it would be a beautiful song to sing in church so i decided to see if i could find the sheet music for it i searched for quite awhile last night and have come to the conclusion that they have not published it i think i will have to contact them and see if i can buy it directly from them i truly hope so unfortunately i didn t get my singing escape tonight i ve come down with a bad cold and had to skip choir practice i don t think i could have sung very well and i certainly did not want to give it to anyone else i hope to be feeling better by church on sunday god gives me the gift of music my gift to him is to share it with all my heart february 23 2007 posted by blueyes113 singing 5 comments my first post i ve decided to call this my thoughtful place a place where all the random thoughts in my head can spill forth i don t know how often i will write or how coherent it will be we will just have to see where my mind takes me my days are mostly filled with the sounds of my children i love talking to them learning how an almost 5 year old thinks and watching my ...