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bob michelle little lira skip to main skip to sidebar bob michelle little lira tuesday may 31 2011 2 years prepare for some picture overload to document lira s most excellent two years i thought i d post some before and after pics lira still loves to eat and be messy she loves to swing she didn t really like to sleep in her crib when she was really little actually she didn t really like to sleep unless someone was constantly holding her insert heavy sigh but she has grown into a fabulous sleeper she is out like a light as long as she has her favorite dolls to cuddle up with she still loves spending time with grandpa and she loves being silly in the bath happy birthday little lira being your parents has been a super adventure love you posted by m at 9 31 am 1 comment friday may 27 2011 grandpa where are you i ve never been one to blog about personal things but there is something therapeutic about writing i keep a personal journal but i haven t written about my father s passing i ve actually avoided writing in it altogether since he died for the most part a stranger reading my journal would only know the happy experiences of a young wife and mother whose father is still alive by default because all record of daily life ends before his death i think i ll just keep it that way for awhile my last official entry dates april 28 it reads today i caught lira shoving the pizza i made for dinner down her shirt when i tried to stop her she looked at me with a puzzled expression and said a pocket i also found 1 slinky 3 nilla wafers and her paci in the left leg of her footy pajamas monday morning after breakfast the next entry or rather scribble dates may 16 it was a sleepless night most of the nights since my dad s death have been maddeningly sleepless i woke bob up and commented on how i had been thinking for so long that my thoughts had become short little poems in my mind we laughed together about it a bit cause you ve got to laugh at the crazy sometimes and he fell back to sleep but i was stuck awake in a desperate effort to silence my thoughts i grabbed my journal off my nightstand and in the dark just wrote 4 a m there is a heavier side of grieving when you cannot feel the kind words or comfort when you count the days and then the weeks and wonder if life can ever return to its routine or if night will ever again be just for sleeping instead of thinking it s not an amazing poem by any means but it is strange for me to look at my journal and see it go from care free to that in the turn of a page tonight while driving home from dropping mimi off at her apartment i heard lira say from the back of the car completely out of the blue grandpa where are you sometimes i wonder the same thing not because i wonder where he is but why he isn t with me and why i ll have to live the greater portion of my life without him look at me at any given moment i promise you i m thinking of my dad or trying not to posted by m at 12 57 am 2 comments wednesday may 11 2011 thoughts thank you to all those who have shown my family and me so much compassion this last week i just thought i would take a little bit of time to post some thoughts i have had mainly i just wanted to be honest with how i have been feeling my dad loved poetry so i will use two poems to illustrate the daily sometimes hourly highs and lows as i said before i am so grateful for the help and we have received by sharing this poem i do not mean to sound ungrateful at all but at times usually at the very early beginning or very late end of each day there is a moment when everything is fresh again my guard is down and i find myself feeling like this what people give you by kathleen sheeder bonanno long faced irises mums pink roses and white roses and giant sunflowers and hundreds of daisies fruit baskets with muscular pears and water crackers and tiny jams and the steady march of casseroles and money people give money these days cards of course the madonna wise and sad just for you chinese cherry blossoms sunsets and moonscapes and dragonflies for transcendence people stand by your sink and offer up their pain did you know i lost a baby once or my eldest son was killed or my mother died two months ago people are good they file into your cartoon house until it bows at the seams they give you every blessed thing everything except your father back but i love the moments when i feel like i could burst with the awe i feel knowing more fully of god s love i just want to grab everyone i pass by the shoulders and shake them and say it is all going to be okay can you believe that i had one of those moments yesterday i went back to my father s grave site by myself after the funeral luncheon he was already in the earth and it was just me some flowers and broken sod i pressed my hands on his ground for a moment i brushed the dirt off my palms and knew that he was happy those are the moments that i feel like this i thank you god by e e cummings i thank you god for most this amazing day for the leaping greenly spirits of trees and a blue true dream of sky and for everything which is natural which is infinite which is yes i who have died am alive again today and this is the sun s birthday this is the birth day of life and of love and wings and of the gay great happening illimitably earth how should tasting touching hearing seeing breathing any lifted from the no of all nothing human merely being doubt unimaginable you now the ears of my ears awake and now the eyes of my eyes are opened yesterday was a beautiful day it was wonderful to meet my dad s friends and co workers and hear their happy memories and stories two people came who loved my dad very much and felt like he was their good friend they worked at the maverick station down the street from where my dad worked every morning very early he would stop by and pick up a copy of the newspaper he would go in and talk with them for a moment he took the time to honestly see how they were doing and always left them feeling uplifted rather than just pick up his paper my dad would take a few minutes to talk with perfect strangers he was so consistent in his acts of kindness that they said they will always remember him as a very dear friend what an amazing man posted by m at 1 21 pm 6 comments friday april 29 2011 celebrity look alike lira walked out of her bedroom like this yesterday bob and i burst out laughing and then bob pointed out the uncanny resemblance to one of his favorite movie stars exhibit a exhibit b pretty funny eh for more funny check out the orabrush channel on youtube and morgan s hilarious video diary entries posted by m at 12 40 pm 2 comments saturday april 23 2011 while i wasn t posting why hello my small abandoned plot of internet it s been awhile don t worry i plan to make up for my absence with pictures lots and lots of pictures we begin our journey through the past 6 months with halloween lira loved dressing up and seeing other kids in their costumes in this picture she is eating a dumdum she picked up while trick or treating she loves suckers but gets so sticky while eating them we enjoyed celebrating a bountiful thanksgiving holiday with both sides of our family here is lira playing around before some feasting the next stop on our catch up tour brings us to christmas we loved spending time with family and lira loved opening presents she was really into it this year we celebrated a very happy new year with steph mckay and harper thomas we slept over at their beautiful home and enjoyed a little late night party and a delicious new year breakfast bob ended phase 1 and started the first half of phase 2 he only has two more weeks left of school and then he is on to his second year wahoo we had a very happy valentine s day and bob and i celebrated our 5 year anniversary we didn t really do anything for st patrick s day because that holiday kind of freaks me out i think it s the leprechauns we threw a party for shay and sarah who were accepted to the highly esteemed brigham young university we said goodbye for a little while to the thomas family sending them lots of love in sao palo brazil now let s take a little break from big holidays and events to give you a glance of one of our favorite daily activities eating lira has loved exploring new foods and ways to play with them we are now caught up whew i ll leave you with some pics of our professional easter egg hunter posted by m at 11 04 pm 2 comments friday september 24 2010 red butte gardens lira and i have loved making friends last week two of my new friends joined lira and me for a fun day out at the red butte gardens they brought along their children and we talked while our little ones explored the children s garden it was a great day posted by m at 3 28 pm no comments tuesday september 14 2010 homework medical school has not gotten too crazy yet bob may tell you otherwise and it has been nice to have bob home in the evenings but tonight he did have to study for a few hours when he got home i could tell he was getting pretty worn out and asked him what he was studying thinking that talking about it would help he showed me his laptop screen and said out loud what is the primary tissue here we were quiet for a moment before he said grey with blue dots we laughed hard good times posted by m at 11 58 pm 1 comment older posts home subscribe to posts atom blog buddies alison bob s blog cassandra natascha sfhs 2005 stephers t k the andersons evan driel the andersons jonny rachel the chestnuts eldon jenny the christensens kyle megan the duffs the everettes the fergusons the griffiths the hancocks the harstons the heaths the hinckleys the hirams the jonses the kunzes the losees the nielsens the orrs the pomeroys the shades the shaeffers the shumways the smiths the stanleys the taylors the thompsons the tolmans the turpins the wellses the wendlers the woods contributors bob chestnut m may 3 april 2 september 3 august 1 july 1 june 2 may 8 april 1 september 1 august 1 july 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