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ow me you know i love rainbows so lots of photos were taken and lots of joy expressed during our walk once we got into the stadium zach went to get us beer and i started walking the kids to the merch line but it was sooooo long after a brief discussion and lynzie complaining about just wanting to sit down we split up i took lynzie to our seats and zach and isaac stood in line all was good until zach was completely annoyed by the line and hot and so i suggested he send isaac to me and then i would switch with him this seemed like a great idea the kids and zach would get to watch khalid who d just stepped on stage and i would be done by the time ed came on and we could avoid all the lines after so we could get home to the babysitter as soon as i started down the ramp they delayed the concert because of lightning and asked all the people to head to the concourse i tried to call isaac but nothing so i texted hold your sisters hand don t leave her i found zach and he informed me that he had talked to isaac they were safe and had found a place to sit and wait out the storm he also said he was glad i was there because he was gonna need to fight some people a little note about zach he often says he is going to fight people when he finds them annoying and doing saying stupid things but he never starts something it s just his way of expressing his frustration to me totally a joke we got our merch but now we had no service ugh i was so worried about the kids we headed back up we had seats in the nosebleed section and the main hall on our level was beyond crowded you couldn t move and we didn t know where the kids were we searched we split up we came back together we called we texted finally after like an hour isaac picked up and we were able to coordinate a meeting point right about the time we could go back to the seats for the concert to start well the main act the opening acts pretty much got skipped lynzie s friend mom and sister had gotten tickets a few rows behind us we offered to let lynzie go up there but she wanted nothing to do with anything while we sat in our seats waiting to get going the guy behind us told us joke after joke after joke some pretty good ones too it was nice entertainment around 9 it poured rain before we d left i d asked zach if he thought we should bring the ponchos and he assured be there was 0 chance of rain 0 now we ve been delayed nearly three hours due to lightning and rain we were soaked lynzie s friend s mom decided she was going to leave since the little one was miserable and asked if we could take lynzie s friend home the girls went to sit in the rows above us once the concert started and people stood up i had them come down and we all stood together for most of the concert until we needed to pee and water our jokester left and zach took his seat and lynzie sat in his lap she watched experienced most of the concert curled in a ball with her eyes closed i was so sad because she d been so so so excited to go she definitely went downhill as the hours progressed after the last song we had to walk a mile back to the car where we sat in a parking lot not moving for about 40 minutes we finally got home at 2am 10 hours after our adventure began morgan was still awake she insisted she was not tired but she did want to snuggle she never got to snuggle because she fell asleep before i could pee and brush my teeth lynzie did have a fever of 101 when we got home and went straight to bed i drank two big beers during the adventure and it didn t have a chance to fully process when that happens i generally sleep for about an hour or two and spend the rest of the night in misery which is exactly what happened i got exactly 1 5 hours of sleep before my body said time to wake up and then i had to drive isaac to castle rock for tryouts i was a literal walking zombie good news isaac was rested enough and performed well enough to make the the team he is super excited this team has been the team to be on he gets to have some of the best in the biz be his coaches for me it means a little less weekday driving which i m all about this post was supposed to have taken a different flow so i ll have to try that version of the story tomorrow stay tuned for good mom posted in life leave a reply whelp posted on august 14 2023 by jenn reply i failed on day 1 we didn t make it up for yoga i braided lynzie s hair wrong i made isaac take a shower and go back home for breakfast i made lynzie cry morgan didn t get enough sleep and was whiny a miserable all morning i got worked up over stupid shit and yelled at everyone everyone is mad at me and understandably so i m frustrated at the stupid school system and people in general today we are not winning today was a bad day for no other reason than myself all i can hope is that i pull myself out of this funk and treat my family kindly and that my tomorrow is a better day posted in life leave a reply new year posted on august 13 2023 by jenn reply i recently read some of my blog posts to the kids they loved it i used it as a way to demonstrate why we should be writing about our life our thoughts our fears our hopes and dreams so tonight we write for 10 minutes we are writing about the beginning of the school year whatever that means for us for me it s freedom in a way zach comes back to me in the middle of the day he runs interference with morgan fixes me lunch and has time to do middle of the day errands gas groceries car stuff etc it seriously amazing it also means more routine we are going to try our am yoga before school again it was so great last year isaac is moving on to high school which means he gets to ride the bus and he has to get on about the time lynzie starts school which means morgan has to wake up early every day and walk with lynzie and i to school we will see how she does waking up so early morgan has a few more weeks of summer before she heads back to preschool this year she will be going 3 days a week instead of 2 and i think she will really thrive she so reminds me of isaac and needs to be occupied every moment of every day the older kids are both going to be trying out for teams in the next week lynzie is going out for the rec gymnastics league and isaac is trying out for the ninja team he has been scared of for years in addition to this lynzie is going to be part of her third musical the little mermaid i m so proud of her for coming out of her shell and trying something she as unsure of she s loves it and it builds her confidence so much z i aren t changing much in this year but i hope that we can build more on the core of wtf strengthening our bonds connections and allowing us all to grow to be the best that we can be posted in life leave a reply 13 1 posted on october 10 2022 by jenn reply i ve always wanted to be a runner and by always i mean for the last 20 years in my head it s a beautiful thing it s like flying i avoided all physical activity growing up every excuse to avoid pe was given and as a result my 20 year old self didn t have the toolkit to build it up after we got married i joined a gym and did classes and wanted to run so i tried the couch 2 5k program multiple times eventually tabling the entire idea no one told me it was okay to walk no one told me it takes 6 weeks to see a change no one told me that you might have a great day one day and the next day might be your worst ever but you have to show up even just a little or maybe they did but i didn t understand it not in the way you need to understand something for it to change you something fell into place this year and here i am at almost 42 chasing that dream of being a runner yesterday i ran my first half marathon i m feeling a little defeated my watch didn t track properly so my stats are off my two miles and whatever time that took and it didn t map my run i feel a bit like an imposter can i even say i did this i expected to finish in 3 hours but it was 3 05 but official time is 3 20 there were only 60 people of 1900 behind me we walked close to the last 4 miles i always thought my biggest problem would be my feet rubbing and blisters but i m happy to say my feet are in perfect shape my real challenges are needing to pee this cost us 15 minutes and pushed us to the back of the pack away from the people we were keeping pace with sustaining energy both during and after the race hydration how can you be so thirsty and yet have to pee so bad at the same time and so here is the stupid part i m so disappointed in my performance yesterday that i m feeling the need to do it all over again to prove i can do better is this the real secret to running that you are always competing with yourself posted in life leave a reply class photo posted on september 21 2022 by jenn 2 someone from my graduating class recently posted our class photo from 8th grade my son is in 8th grade time warp i can t find myself in the photo maybe i m not in it but i do remember so many of the faces i see it s funny what you remember about growing up let me set the stage my parents still live in the house that we moved into when i was 3 just a mere year older than morgan is now i latched to people and didn t expand my friend based i was quiet and most of the people i knew were either my neighbors or brought into my friend group by someone else i was a good follower but also not in 5th grade someone told me i had pizza face in 6th grade someone was so surprised when i said i weighed 130 pounds in 7th grade someone told me a should pierce my right nostril in 9th grade someone told me i had beautiful hands notice a theme i remember comments around my physical features maybe that s all people said but maybe it s just what i heard a kid i went through school with commented on one of my social media posts a few weeks back with the comment you were the smartest person i knew again what i heard no an exact quote a co worker of mine recently said i bring a positive energy to the group another person said you are a good person guess what none of that has anything to do with my physical appearance these are things of value now back to that photo those kids we all had value we all had positive things to add to the world for a lot of us we forgot to pay attention to those things and we forgot to share with others what we found valuable in them another friend one i d distanced myself from in my own crazy awkwardness continues to tell me i m amazing she said i m going to keep telling you because as humans we don t say it enough and it s true my memory not a direct quote lol go tell people they are awesome tell people how they impact your life and then surround yourself with people who will tell you the same and push you to be even more awesome than you already are posted in life 2 replies quarantine posted on october 29 2021 by jenn reply two years it s been almost two years since i sat down and wrote maybe it s on purpose the forgotten year or two but i find myself being drawn back and missing the dreaded quarantine period let s rewind to set the stage 2020 began with so much hope and joy in our lives new baby new job kids doing well in school and loving ninja and then the world stopped we refer to it as friday the 13th because friday march 13th was the last day of school it was the day the world shut down for us it was 10 days before my return from maternity leave and just days after i had finished redesigning my office into a space that was workable for work and a homework zone for the kids and project zone it s like i knew our lives were about to change working from home and with the chaos of children is nothing new to me what was new was teaching them and zach how to work at home and making the spaces each of us needed to succeed and in reality that was probably harder on them than it was on me i felt so blessed that as i was transitioning back to work instead of finding a place for morgan to be or someone to take care of her we were all picking up the slack and raising her together for the next three and a half months we were all home all the time i micro blogged these days through instagram everyday we tried to do something just a little special we watching very little tv but made great memories and now i find myself missing it i miss the quiet of the highway i miss the quality time i miss playing games multiple times a week i miss zach being home all the time i miss not having to rush anywhere i miss people being okay connecting via zoom or facetime i don t know that i like people anymore i don t know that i want to hangout with others maybe i m just out of practice i look forward to seeing people i want to plan things but when i find myself leaving i find myself in a funny little spot 2020 was not bad for me it had a lot of opportunities like zach s vacation or the quarantine or covid but it wasn t in fact it might be my most favorite year how do i transition back to the real world my kids crave all the things they missed they want to go to school they want to be at ninja they want to throw parties and do all the things i want to be at home with my kids with my husband living the quarantine life posted in life leave a reply the scariest day posted on december 28 2019 by jenn 1 the doctor found the heart on the ultrasound it didn t move over the last nine months we d listened and watched that heart beat often to see it frozen in time was devastating how did we make it this far for all to be lost zach and i never said we are going to have this many children but after lynzie was born we were content with our family then got a surprise and were elated when we lost that baby and almost me we felt like we were missing someone so we began a journey of having another baby this pregnancy was pretty easy i felt great and i didn t feel like i looked that pregnant the whole time probably due to how much extra weight i had on me to begin with but we won t dwell on that i only gained 17 pounds the whole pregnancy which puts me now on the same weight loss plan as when i got pregnant in the third trimester things started happening i still felt great but they were things that made me more high risk that i was just because of my age i got gestational diabetes i d done that before so it was really no big deal for me but it caused me to see a high risk practice for the rest of my pregnancy and document my sugars and send them in weekly because of gd by doc wanted to induce at 39 weeks i got high blood pressure this was something that is still a debate on if it was caused by the pregnancy or if it was pre existing it landed we in the er one day because my doctor made us go for monitoring in the end the determined it was pre existing and we took a more relaxed approach to my care for the remaining weeks this made the doc want to induce at 38 weeks baby girl decided to be head down and then two weeks before delivery she flipped herself to be breach again then within the week turned herself around again to face down of course a breach baby complica...