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his cleft business so it wasn t just a boring day in the life of a four month old and then nova came along and things got busier and blogging got harder i post when big things happen now because there is usually more details and emotion that need to be said that won t fit in a little paragraph on instagram so here i am although you all know our big news now i m pregnant with our third baby woohoo i had to write down how this little being came to be mostly for my own memory but it has also been a very spiritual experience for me so i wanted to share we all know my little crazy nova has not being an easy child she is full of life she is stubborn demanding and high maintenance although she is the best cuddle bug out there she has been testing my patience for a long time now i was fully prepared to wait until she was two before i considered having a third baby i had no desires to be pregnant again for a long time in july 2014 i decided i needed more happiness in my life i was struggling with life and raising two little kids i wasn t happy so i made a goal with curtis to attend the temple every other tuesday it was one of the few nights curtis had off work because i had my church calling as an activity day leader which was only two times a month but curtis got every tuesday off so tuesday became temple tuesday and guess what we rocked temple tuesday i think we only missed two tuesday s in about 4 months one night we were short on time so we decided to do initatories it was actually the first time i had done them besides my own during a specific part of the ordinance i had a very strong desire to be pregnant i longed for it and was excited for it in that moment my excitement didn t stop after i was done with initatories and i was excited to tell curtis my experience on our way home i told him the impression i got while there i knew he wouldn t just drop everything and be on board with me for a third baby so i told him to pray about it and that i d wait impatiently though it was like night and day one minute i had absolutely no desire for a third baby and after the temple i couldn t contain this strong desire to be pregnant right then and there after a couple weeks of nagging curtis for a third baby i decided to stop and put my focus elsewhere so i signed up for 2 10k races in november i had not run consistently since hudson was two months old and i had 8 weeks to train for six miles it ment i had to wait until after my races to get pregnant and curtis was ok with that he wanted to wait until the beginning of the year to start trying for baby number 3 it felt like decades away though there was one night in the midst of waiting and training i had a very clear and real dream about curtis handing me a baby boy with lots of dark hair wrapped in a hospital blanket we were in a hospital room and we named him ramsey i always liked the name ramsey but never really decided on it for a baby or even really told curtis about it so when i told curtis my dream he agreed to start trying for a baby as soon as my races were over he also agreed to name our boy ramsey if it were a boy i couldn t stop thinking about the dream and how our third baby just might be a boy well low and behold things were aligned perfectly and it was literally days after my last race that i could get pregnant and two weeks later i got a positive pregnancy test although getting pregnant for us has always been easy i still felt like this baby was meant to be here right at this time i was so excited to be pregnant again i told curtis the news by writing i m pregnant at the bottom of a hot chocolate filled mug and we announced to the world that i was pregnant on christmas day i had another dream of me giving birth to a dark haired baby boy and we again named him ramsey this was just days before my ultrasound in which we found out we were indeed having a boy so ramsey it is coincidence i think not for some reason only heavenly father knows this boy is meant to be in our lives right now it s times in my life when i or we have been struggling that we turn to lord and get back on track to the things he wants us to do that we are most influenced by the spirit he just wants to see us try no matter how little and he ll give us a nudge in the right direction where we can find happiness once again it s in these moments that i realize we are inline with his will and it s because we are putting forth effort to be now if i could always remember that life might be a bit easier but i am only human experiences like these testify to me that heavenly father has a plan for us although i feel totally incompetent for three children i find strength in the fact that this is what heavenly father wants for us he trust us with another one of precious spirits i know he knows we can do it and i know he watches me struggle with hudson and nova and just waits sometimes too long for me to call on him for help i m so grateful for my testimony of a father in heaven who loves us and a testimony of a gospel that helps me raise a family i don t have to be alone in this calling i m so happy to be pregnant with our third baby also scared for three children but more excited can t believe we are actually on our third baby i feel like i just had hudson this pregnancy has been so different from the last two my morning sickness lasted only until 12 weeks and wasn t even that bad compared to the last two i also really haven t been that tired but oh the aches and pains started weeks ago i ll be 18 weeks on friday so that makes him due august 21st so excited despite being pregnant all summer i am actually really excited for summer yes you heard right i just bought a maternity swim suit and i plan on spending a lot of our time by the pool or splash pad i have always wanted to go swimming while pregnant it sounds amazing the kids start swim lessons on the 31st that i am excited about too and we have a mexico trip in june it s gonna be a fun summer i ain t gonna let a big oil belly get in my way and the kids way of a fun summer that s the plan at least at 10 59 pm no comments wednesday june 11 2014 the b word ahhh breastfeeding so special so bonding so relaxing so natural and so much love on most days those would not be my words of choice when speaking about breast feeding in fact some of those words i have never used to describe breast feeding despite my lack of nice words towards it by some miracle we have made it to a year a whole freaking year of someone else sucking on my boobs many many times a day beyond pregnancy my body has still not been my own twenty one months i have not been away from my baby girl for more than 4 hours it s exhausting and we wonder why she is such a mama s girl as exhausting as it is i have enjoyed it i love seeing nova get so excited when she wants to nurse that she jumps up and down in my lap and even helps pull down my shirt i love when she looks at me and smiles and when her hand plays with my lips i love when she pops off with milk dripping down her cheek to see what hudson is up to and then latching back on and getting down to business again i love that i am her favorite and i love that i can comfort her in a way no one else can so breast feeding has been quite a different bonding experience i do feel more attached to nova i feel like i worry about her more when i m away from her and it s not that i love hudson any less it s just the mind set of knowing no one else can give her the nourishment and comfort that she gets from me nursing her even though i m sure she could make it a whole day now with out nursing cause she ll eat anything i just worry about what if s what if she really needs me when i m gone it s totally just me now though now that she is older i never felt like breast feeding was my style it s quite rare in my family i did not grow up around it by any means i could not have told you the first thing about breast feeding 21 months ago and now whoa could i write a book about it or what totally i know all the secrets and remedies now i would probably be the last person you d guess who would want to breast feed i m very impatient i like taking the fast route and finding the easy way of things i m a no nonsense kind of person ahh but me and nova did it we make a good team except for when she wakes up for the third time in the night and wont go back to sleep unless she is nursed except for then then i don t want to be on her team we are working on that still yes for the past 7 months that s one thing i don t like putting up with is the night nursing i expect it at 4 or 5 months but one year old it s completely a habit i don t care what those breast feeding advocates say oh but she just needs comfort and needs that good nutritious more fatty night milk no she can have that milk in the morning same milk right yes i ve gained some more patience through breast feeding i fully support breast feeding it is a wonderful thing and i do believe it is the healthiest choice for your baby i think every mom should have a goal to breast feed i don t support the nay sayers of formula though and i don t support pushy breast feeding advocates look if nursing is just not working out for you and your new baby after a few good weeks or months of effort then let it go let it go turn a way and slam the door i don t care what they re going to say but really by all means get all the help and support you need in your breast feeding journey because my gosh you will need it it s nothing short of a team effort i just think some women push nursing moms too far when trying to help out by putting too much pressure on them to keep going they act like breast feeing is the only way to go and then the moms feel like huge failures when they just aren t enjoying it and want to quit and then scare them about formula they need to know that if they do choose to quit that they wont be judged for it and they need to know that they will be supported in their decision to quit so they wont feel so much regret over it you don t need that kind of baggage with a new baby if you choose to quit it s important to know that you still did your best and that you will still be supported in you decision to bottle or formula feed fed is best it s just not fair though i ve said many times how dumb it is that breast feeding is so dang hard when it s the natural thing to do why a new baby is stressful enough but throw breast feeding on top and your a wreck for months is the latch correct do i have enough milk is she getting enough milk why is she eating every half hour to use the nipple shield or not she s still not back to her birth weight four weeks later let s clip that tongue tie try a chiropractor don t eat any dairy heaven for bid and better cut out all greens too and chocolate oh wait are you still eating enough to supply milk 4 gallons of water a day right a paci heck ya why does it still hurt four months later thrush and mastitis twice i knew breast feeding would be hard i think it was through friends talking about it on mommy facebook groups that it actually sparked my interest in it i asked many questions and did my own research i bought nursing bras covers and pads i felt prepared and i knew i wanted to make it to a year and then i had nova it s a whole other story when the time actually comes to breast feed i felt so silly as the nurse showed me what to do we had latch problems right away during our hospital stay i asked to see the lactation consultant many times but she only came by three times and i was still so lost by the next day just the gown touching my nipples would make me cringe so much pain i didn t even know if it was worth it now but from the moment she had first latched i was somehow emotionally attached to breast feeding her first week was rough and i fought with myself many times over quitting but i just could never bring myself to do it it was really stressing me out i wanted to keep going but it was oh so hard and i wanted to quit but then i would feel like a failure i ve put in a lot of sweat and tears over nursing nova breast feeding has been far from a natural experience for me and i can t say it s been any easier than bottle feeding sure it s been nice to not have to prepare any bottles and then wash them but all that time saved goes into the hours and hours spent nursing nova has nursed twice as much as hudson ever spent taking a bottle and the diet change sorry i just have no self control there call me a child abuser if you must but i wasn t about to cut out all my favorite foods we ll deal with the tummy aches and rashes hey she s still alive and happy today i never liked the argument that breast milk is ready when ever and where ever cause i also found out with bottle feeding that formula is also and formula wins that argument in my opinion cause you can t breast feed in a car a bottle would have come in handy many many times in the first few months for miss i hate my car seat and a bottle gives instant satisfaction where many times when nova was just too hungry to wait for my milk to come in she would cry and cry and cry and not nurse poor baby would get so frustrated i hated it bottles win again and nursing out in public was quite the hassle for me for a long time covers are hot but i wasn t about to let my boobs be seen by the public i believe in modesty when breast feeding i can be more discretely about it now that i have more experience but back then and even now nova is not a neat eater she was constantly on and off and on and off when she was younger which had to do with our on going latch issues if we were to nurse in public with out a cover my nipples would have been shown off many times the struggle is so real and another win for bottles for lightening the load of a mother others can more easily help out and nova could be enjoying sleep overs and grammy and pappy s you may be wondering why i didn t just pump and bottle feed also which i did for about 2 months but it was rare let me tell you my struggle there we had latch issues for months i feared that using a bottle would make her stop nursing since it was much less work for her bottles were our last resort during the hard days and well pumping is just a pain in the butt i salute any mom who can do that full time it s not worth it to me i keep telling myself i had no choice but to keep going after every trial we came up to because she wouldn t take a bottle after 3 months old but of course i had a choice i just didn t try hard enough to quit because deep down this is what i really wanted to do i ll hate on breast feeding all day every day but i secretly like it people ok i m not your average breast feeder i never chose to breast feed for the health benefits that was just a bonus i ain t afraid of no formula it s heaven sent and i didn t chose to breast feed because i felt denied that option with hudson when i had him i could not have cared less about breast feeding in fact my prayers over the decision to breast feed him or not we...