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y in which they live were shown on televison and all over the internet again i believe that this would not have happened if the men were not homosexual they haven t even had been in court yet and have been released why was it necessary to post the pictures in such detail that usually only happens for predators child molesters and in an effort to arrest someone who has committed more serious acts one of the men was outed by this article i can only imagine what turmoil this has caused in his life but you think people understand and don t follow the myths of homosexuality think again the comments on the internet have been so hateful and just down right incorrect we have a long way to go to end the hatred misconceptions and understanding of homosexuals here are some of the comments i hope they will all be required to register as sex offenders i they aren t already registered they all look like pig s ugly reject s i hope they are all registered as sex offender s and banned from ever walking a public park or beach can we just stop funneling money to aids research this is such a preventable desease you obviously can t educate sick freaks like this that find another mans ugly dirty ass an appatizing yet disgusting piece of enjoyment these people are programed diffrently and should not receive 1 dollar of tax payers money why use more advanced primates like chimpanzees for medical research when we have such low end evolutionary challenged knuckle dragging primates like daman to use instead should have corralled all 18 of em freaks in that cess pool then hit that place with a goddamn tomahawk missile that would have been your us defense dollars well spent yuck what a bunch of sicko s what s our country coming to when they write the book on the decline and fall of the american empire it should be coming soon freaks like this should figure largely into the why it happened sick sick sick they sure do look like perverts thanks to manhattan beach pd for getting these pervs off the streets of our community these 18 deviants should thank the lord above that this is not iran or the taliban here s a question for you anthony if this was iran or the taliban do you think any of these freaks would still be alive you are complaining that cbs posted their photographs shut up anthony it is a deviant act after seeing their photos it explains alot it s the only way these ugly freaks will ever get laid pathetic losers see this is why people are against gay rights if they re not having a nasty parade with leather pants then they re trying to f__k each other in public bathrooms by overtaking them unfortunately if you vote for gay rights you re voting for perverse public activities and they re trying to make you feel guilty for discriminating against nasty sex acts yea arrest all of them nasty m___ f___ gay public sex pervs should be given 30 years to life the cops should ve lock em up in jail until they all lost their jobs become real lowlifes creepy freaks these guys are gross and disgusting there were also many people who were supportive and spoke back to these comments and many critized the media for posting the pictures this is a statement from darrel cummings chief of staff at the local lgbt center it s shocking that any news operation but especially an affiliate of a major network like cbs would choose to publish the mug shots names and birthdates of people charged with victimless crimes simply because the charges are salacious or related to gay sex naturally we don t condone illegal activity of any kind but these men haven t been proven guilty and historically charges such as those leveled against them have involved police entrapment publishing their photos serves no purpose other than to humiliate and destroy their lives we call on kcbs kcal to immediately remove the images and names from their website these men are not perverts deviants or homeless they have respectable lives but many resort to this illegal behavior as they are afraid to come out to a homophobic world the stigma is soooo strong and there is for many much shame so they get their needs met anonymously knowing the risks because the media posted pictures with dates of birth and city in which they live and some weres outed to everyone including family work friends etc the picture has turned their world upside down and life as they knew it what they did was illegal and extremely dangerous but the major problem is that the pictures were released which probably wouldn t have happened and this probably wouldn t have been such big news had they not been gay welcome back to the 1950s and 1960s i am soooooo angry for the posting of the pictures and names where they live and dates of birth so what do you think posted by clueless 1 comments tuesday march 27 2012 one big knot i ve not been writing as i have been having neck and shoulder pain from stress doctor says that it is just stress and gave me some home remedies my therapist and i have been working on relaxing my muscles the past month has been really tough in therapy and i carry it all in my body especially my shoulders and neck i m one big knot a great massage sounds good but i ve also heard that some people use chiropractors what do you suggest i can t do physical therapy due to my respiratory problems ouch posted by clueless 3 comments wednesday march 21 2012 kony 2012 filmaker jason russell is diagnosed with a brief psychotic disorder most of you have heard about kony 2012 filmmaker jason russell having some type of breakdown i found out today that he was diagnosed with a brief psychotic disorder you might say what i ve never heard of it it is just an excuse actually most have not heard of it because it is rare in the united states and other developed countries but it is a very difficult and scary disorder that lasts one day but less than a month in which the person returns to his her regularly expected behavior i really hope that this will help to end the stigma of mental illness and not perpetuate it from what i know of jason russell the sudden whirlwind and emotional and behavioral demands that kony 2012 is more than enough to be a stressor to trigger this disorder psychosis means that one has a break from reality and may have delusions having odd thoughts that one believes are real and hallucinations hearing seeing feeling tasting smelling etc things that no one else experiences it is marked by poor judgement cognitive impairment or acting on the basis of a delusion or hallucination as with all mental illness and disorders they are very real and not an excuse for inappropriate behavior in this case he did not have the resources to deal with his mounting stress it is not a character flaw and does not mean that he cannot continue to make fantastic work it does mean that he needs a support system and resources to manage his stress levels the following is from http www sabp nhs uk eiip index_html client what is psychosis what is psychosis the symptoms of psychosis vary a lot between individuals and not everyone will experience those that we have listed hallucinations unusual or strange experiences eg hearing smelling and or seeing things that other people do not delusions include thinking people are conspiring against you that you have special powers or skills or that people on tv or radio are talking to or about you distressing thoughts beliefs e g you may believe that someone is following you watching you or listening to your conversations experience of external control you may feel that a force or person outside you is interfering with your thoughts body or actions thought disorder your thoughts maybe very jumbled and confused and you cannot hold a clear train of thought you may become suspicious and hostile change in behaviour may become withdrawn and communicate less mood swings and increased anxiety or low mood loss of energy and feeling withdrawn the symptoms of psychosis vary a lot between individuals and not everyone will experience those that we have listed posted by clueless 2 comments sunday march 18 2012 day by day by dc talks worship in song day by day dc talk i live a simple life i take a day at a time i spend my mornings with god before i hit the grind the subtleties of darkness never cease to amaze as a physical world creates a spiritual haze blinded by distractions lost in matterless affairs reachin through the darkness trusting you will meet me there day by day day by day day by day day by day oh dear lord three things i pray one two three to see thee more clearly day by day to love thee more dearly day by day to follow thee more nearly i got to take it day by day you cruise around the corner you watch your back you sweep your feet down alley streets sometimes you creep i never see you comin monday man you re on my back like a knapsack strapped with my heavy burden no you cannot condemn me i won t buy your bag of goods you ve got nothing for me anyway that s why i pray day by day day by day day by day day by day oh dear lord three things i pray one two three to see thee more clearly day by day to love thee more dearly day by day to follow thee more nearly i got to take it day by day these three things i do pray day by day day by day by day by day these three things day by day by day by day i do pray day by day by day by day by day day by day day by day day by day day by day day by day by day by day day by day day by day by day by day day by day day by day by day by day by day it s one step out of time day by day day by day day by day day by day oh dear lord three things i pray one two three to see thee more clearly day by day to love thee more dearly day by day to follow thee more nearly i got to take it day by day day by day day by day as you walk day by day go to god and pray day by day i m gonna go your way day by day you know you gotta pray see thee more clearly every day love thee more dearly oooh oh yeah follow thee more nearly i m gonna go your way does anybody hear me day by day by day by day by day by day by day by day by day by day by day by day by day i know i m always safe with you one day at a time posted by clueless 3 comments wednesday march 14 2012 drama continues christmas occured during the time that i could not access my blog for the most part it was uneventful i had a great time with my husband we just stayed home together for 2 1 2 weeks relaxing it was wonderful it was great not going to the family gatherings as we just rested however all was not without a hitch below is a series of email back and forth which is an on going situation players adrian husband arleen aunt judy arleen s partner michael mike uncle 1 3 12 from judy coleen and adrian i d greatly appreciate it if you would stop sending ecards and so forth to my email if you wish to contact arleen please use her email address arleenadachi gmail com thank you my response it was sent to arleen s email judy the card arrived in both of our emails separately me that would not be possible from my end as you have been deleted from hallmark account for more than a year also i did not receive any email from hallmark indicating that it was sent to you only a confirmation that it was sent to arleen s gmail sent attachment of confirmation judy you know what coleen give it a rest i don t know how it ended up sent to me but i got arleen s card just like she did leave it to you to make a federal case out if it obviously there was some glitch let s leave it at that arleen and i aren t liars it happened it s over you can stop now email sent to michael 2 24 12 i also wanted you to know that prior to grandma s passing that judy and arleen broke all communication with us and requested that we do the same after the service and stuff they again indicated that they did not want any communication with us and that we were not to email call or send anything in the mail cards letters etc because of the situation when names were drawn for christmas i ordered and sent them gifts ahead of time four days before christmas we found out since the email from them was sent to adrian s work email and he was on vacation that they did not want to exchange gifts since we all had each other and financially it would work better for them since we had already sent the gifts we told them that they could keep them since that email we have not received any contact from them and at their request we have not contacted them it should also be noted that the emails were sent under arleen s account but written by judy michael s response 2 27 12 hey guys i didn t know your relationship with arleen and judy was that bad what prompted all the bad feelings you don t have to answer that i don t think any of us will probably see arleen and judy again and we probably won t hear much either very strange hey we move forward and hopefully everything for the rest of us will be ok talk to you later mike i am pretty much okay with it i think it is funny that judy was caught in her little game and then turned it around onto me my uncle s comment says it all but i do wonder what happened to make him think this either way judy and arleen are waaaaaaaaaay crazy posted by clueless 2 comments tuesday march 13 2012 all settled now sort of after scaring my self half to death on monday my therapist and i calmed me down out of my tailspin i decided that i could reschedule duh in the meantime i spoke with the director and felt like it went well and i have an appointment scheduled when it works best for me the unfortunate thing is that the schedule for the classes are mon thur instead of m w f and i have to take the dreaded gre i never do well on standardized tests most indicate that i might be able to handle trade school on another front i am having an extremely difficult time with my husbands layoff he did start a new job today within his company but it has rotating shifts and weekend work i am having much difficulty admitting that i need him and will have less time with him i m not supposed to need anyone because then i don t run the risk of being disappointed so now i stuff everything down and it creates more problems my therapist is helping me to work this out but my husband and i just had an arguement last night i m having a really difficult time on the other hand i am showing progress as i handled both situations in an hour meaning telephone conversations one with the university and one with my husband informing me posted by clueless 2 comments tuesday march 6 2012 what happened yikes argosy university i scared myself yesterday i m planning to apply to a couple of universities for a doctorate in clinical psychology i had spoken with the admissions director last year explaining my situation regarding letters of reference as if has been more than 20 years since i graduated from college and i have not been working for 5 years so for my letters of recommendation i am losing contact or people have passed away or retired she stated that i could start collecting them even though i did not know when ...