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was on thursday saturday it all came crashing down colby was really worried about scratching his screen since he didn t have a case and screen protector for it yet and so when we went to go to dinner he didn t put it in his pocket when he got out of the car he forgot it was on his lap until he heard it crash against the parking lot his phone didn t scratch it full on shattered his phone looked worse then this pretty sure the bill to replace his screen was more then the cost of the phone in the first place poor poor colby posted by cortney at 2 22 pm 1 comment labels colby our random life yes i m married to him 1 23 2011 i miss you dear kindle you have been with me since i successfully made it through my first trimester and colby decided i needed to be spoiled rotten you made me so happy and we became instant friends some days i really can t believe i put you on a plane to london for 4 months i hope you don t think i abandoned you i really just wanted you to be able to go and see cool new things make sure jamie taking good care of you i hope she has put lots of good books on you and that she is keeping you safe make sure she takes pictures of you in front of all the cool sites you need to get out of her bag every once in a while there are so many books i can t wait to read together i promise to never let you go again be safe see you in may xoxo cort posted by cortney at 1 30 pm 2 comments labels colby jamie kindle 1 20 2011 birthing class for husbands i really hate the unknown so naturally the thought of labor really scares me i want to know what to expect and what my options are so cue birthing class once a week for 2 5 hours for 4 weeks sounds just like something colby would want to do by the time we were an hour into our first class colby was not happy he was bored as could be and was so sick of listening to our instructor i on the other hand was enjoying every minute an hour later he was singing a different tune it was time to practice our relaxation since this was our first class the husbands got to participate as she took us through our exercise by the end i had to nudge colby awake as we walked out of class colby went on and on about how much he loved our teacher and that he wanted to take her home what a change last week we were learning different massaging that the husbands can do to help us get through contractions the instructor would call out a contraction the wives would practice their breathing and relaxation while the husbands practiced the massage it was heaven i got to lay there and breath and get a massage next thing i know she calls out for us to switch positions she tells the husbands to lay on their stomachs and for the wives to practice massage what kind of sick joke is a room full of pregnant women giving their husbands massages while they are laying on their stomachs needless to say i think colby likes birthing class more then me posted by cortney at 12 00 pm 2 comments labels baby barker colby yes i m married to him 1 19 2011 all talk so jay has been in london for 2 weeks two whole weeks remember how i promised her a weekly blog post well in those 2 weeks i have posted nothing i am lame i know it on sunday we all got together for cake and ice cream for all the january birthdays jamie stayed up until 3 in the morning so she could party with us via skype she is not lame not lame at all during our little video chat she hit me up about my lack of blogging i promised her i would post something asap it is now wednesday still nothing again i am lame then my mom did something that shook me to the core she sent me this email no trip to mesquite till you post see we are supposed to go down to mesquite this weekend as a last hoorah before the baby comes she needs me to help her pick out decorations and bedding for their new house and i need a good dose of the sun we are leaving tomorrow i wish i could say that i am finally posting because i am such a good sister but the truth is i just really want 70 degree weather honestly though jay i promise to be better i will catch up and stay caught up i won t even count this as a post well maybe for those of you interested in jay s journey you will get jealous follow her here she is good at updating posted by cortney at 2 45 pm 5 comments labels jamie slacker 12 15 2010 growing and growing and growing cat this is for you 20 weeks 27 weeks yes i have the same face in both pictures i feel weird just standing there smiling so this is what happens i am so happy to report that we have entered the 3rd trimester the closer it gets the more excited i get i really can t believe that this dream i have been dreaming about for 3 years is actually going to come true in just 13 short weeks i have a feeling it is going to be better then i can even imagine posted by cortney at 3 36 pm 10 comments labels baby barker 12 01 2010 2010 re cap a year yes an entire year since i blogged last i am a slacker here is a little month to month re cap our our 2010 january colby turned 27 february i turned 26 we lost baby 2 march my dear friend stephanie gets bad news that her cancer has come back and spread she moved back to salt lake and i spent as much time with her as possible april i finally got a job i am now working for pmi doing event planning it isn t design work but i really like it folded 1 000 paper crane for steph with friends from highschool even though it was the third time folding those it is still such an amazing experience however i hope to never need to repeat it again may colby s little sister got married new calling primary 1st counselor june nickell family trip to oceanside ca it was freazing but we still had a great time my family rocks my dear friend stephanie lost her battle with cancer i was able to see her just 2 days before she passed away it is an experience that was absolutely heartbreaking but a moment that i will cherish forever i was able to tell her that i loved her and that i was so proud of her her passing left a hole in my heart that i don t think will ever fully heal july colby and i found out we were pregnant for the third time this news was very unlike the last two we were so scared we couldn t even be excited september 1st would mark 12 weeks so we planned on celebrating then nickell family campout always a good time august we saw the baby and heard the heartbeat for the first time most amazing sound i have ever heard after hearing the heartbeat we caved and told our immediate families had weekly ultrasounds to make sure everything continued to go well bear lake with the barkers september time to celebrate had fun telling family and friends the good news kept up the weekly ultrasounds it was so neat to see how much our baby grew in just a week i feel very spoiled with all our ultrasounds ovarian cancer walk with team stephanie it felt good to all be together in memory of steph i will keep up this yearly tradition for as long as i can jamie signs up to go to london for study abroad she is leaving on january 4 and won t be home until april 28th i am so sad she will miss the birth but so excited for her october it s a girl we get bumped to bi weekly ultrasounds big ultrasound shows that everything is developing perfectly i finally start feeling the baby kick finish the remodel on the basement if you can t find me check the basement it is beautiful and i love being down there november we spend an amazing week in mexico soaking up the sun with some great friends one last big vacation before all the responsibility begins i would give more details but what happens in mexico stays in mexico colby feels our little girl kick happy 6th anniversary to us while driving to dinner colby has a small panic attack when he realizes how different out lives will be on our 7th anniversary so funny the truth is colby is absolutely in love with his little girl he likes to talk to her and give her kisses and even sends her texts i am so excited to see him as a dad first baby shower we did my family shower early since jamie will be in london from january to may and will miss everything it was so fun to get baby stuff it makes it feel more and more real december well today is december 1st but we have big plans work christmas party kurt bestor buying a crib painting the nursery and falling more in love with our baby girl well for those of you who have been wondering what we have been doing there you go if i forgot something major please refresh my memory and i will add it to the list 2010 was a roller coaster of a year we have had so many blessings and felt so much happiness but also experienced extreme heartbreak i am so excited for the changes that are coming to us in 2011 ps i made jamie a little promise i told her that i would promise to update my blog once a week while she was gone so she would know what was going on with us so it looks like my year hiatus is coming to a halt and won t be repeated anytime soon posted by cortney at 9 47 am 10 comments labels baby barker making lemonade our random life stupid lemon 12 30 2009 good riddance 2009 dear 2009 i have to say you have not been my favorite year you have brought too much sadness and bad news in case you don t remember i will list out all that you have given us in april you took colby s job away in may and june you made lisa really sick and made her go through very difficult surgeries in august you gave colby s mom cancer in october you gave us unimaginable heartbreak that is not quite blog able in november you took my job away i have to say that i am very excited to celebrate you out of the world tomorrow it is only fair to say that amidst all that bad you have given us some happy moments as well colby has been able to peruse his dream of being his own boss and has been very successful in it colby s mom has finished all her treatment and preliminary results show that all the cancer is gone you took us to hawaii in october and i didn t break my leg this time we have developed stronger friendships that will last a lifetime with those who have helped us through this hard year i have had the most wonderful christmas break with no work getting in the way i guess i have learned to look for all the good around us even during all the hardships and when it comes down to it that is a lesson i will be forever grateful for thanks 2009 for an unforgettable year cortney posted by cortney at 10 56 am 9 comments labels making lemonade stupid lemon 11 20 2009 half a decade happy 5 th anniversary to the love of my life you are my best friend and i couldn t imagine my life without you here is to many more great years posted by cortney at 2 17 pm 4 comments labels colby happy in love yes i m married to him 9 03 2009 bye bye hair when colby first found out that his mom would have to go through chemo for her cancer and lose all her hair he said that when she had to shave it off he was going to shave his too the big day came on monday night he started out buzzing it as short as could be all done not so fast when colby was done i sent off a pic to a couple of people and we got this pic back from my awesome brother in law he had joined in the fun gotta love brian just as we were crawling into bed i got this pic from bri the caption said i m all in baby it ll be smooth as ice ha ha ha well colby couldn t be out done so he crawled out of bed to finish the job i was way too tired to join in the festivities so i made him promise to take pictures i woke up to this cute face with a smooth head i have always loved when young guys have a bald head and think he looks great he has a good shaped head for the bic ed look now he just needs to get a little sun on it because it is one white head thanks for the support bri you re the best posted by cortney at 11 08 am 11 comments labels brian colby family making lemonade our random life stupid lemon yes i m married to him 8 28 2009 paper cranes paper cranes are a symbol of courage hope and peace there is a japanese proverb that says if you make 1000 paper cranes your wish will come true this was used a lot with people diagnosed with leukemia after hiroshima when my grandma was first diagnosed with leukemia my sisters and i all worked to fold her 1 000 paper cranes hoping they would provide her with hope and strength when she died we were able to bury some of the cranes with her paper cranes have since been a very special symbol in our family we are currently in the process of folding another 1 000 paper cranes to offer hope and courage to colby s mom who was recently diagnosed with a rare form of stage 4 non hodgkin s lymphoma she was put in the hospital about 2 weeks ago to undergo chemotherapy and has been doing pretty good so far on tuesday she was able to go home from the hospital for the day and we took the opportunity to sneak into her hospital room and hang about 250 of the cranes we are almost done with the rest of the 750 which we want to hang in her house for when she comes home it is so neat to be able to re create an experience that touched my life so much the first time it makes me feel so close to my grandma i know she is happy to know that someone else will find comfort and joy in these special cranes i hope these cranes help make colby s mom feel just a little bit better and help her to feel of our love we love you debbie and are praying for you posted by cortney at 12 56 pm 11 comments labels colby making lemonade stupid lemon yes i m married to him letter dear blog i am so sorry i have neglected you i haven t done it on purpose and have even thought of you often i have just been too busy playing all summer and couldn t find the time to come and visit you please forgive me i will try and update you with things that have been going on even if they are a little out dated just so you know my mom is on your side and has gotten after me many times for neglecting you she even threatened me yesterday you don t mess with karen so i promise to be better hope all is well xoxo cee posted by cortney at 12 50 pm no comments labels i m so sorry letters 7 17 2009 miracles really do happen they won i really wouldn t believe it if i hadn t been able to see it with my own two eyes they were all so excited like kids on christmas morning it was the cutest thing i have ever seen for some reason they wanted to look like tough guys for the picture congrats master batters posted by cortney at 2 34 pm 3 comments labels colby our random life yes i m married to him 6 26 2009 high low friday high a surprise present of yard decor for my backyard i love little gifts when i don t expect them low a dear friend shared her bad health diagnosis i am still hoping to wake up and have it be a dream overall not the best week here s to a better weekend filled with sunshine and friends and no tears posted by cortney at 4 17 pm 5 comments labels high low friday 6 11 2009 i hope our human kids are this cute a while back we were having a rockin game night at our house it got a little late and max got a little tired so 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