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ion and in agony she was to have more major surgery to remove the rods again the student told me that she didn t believe in reiki but would i try anyway i wasn t feeling optimistic about this which should have been a warning for me to follow my intuition and keep away from this but the student begged me we arrived at the hospital and were talking with her mom when the private room door opened a parade of interns and the surgeon walked in my heart sank mom introduced her daughter and then me as lady who was going to give her some energy healing the surgeon surveyed me skeptically he spent a few minutes asking mom questions and giving her info about her surgery scheduled for the next day while we tried not to listen as he turned to leave with his entourage he smirked at me good luck maybe you ll have better success than me it wasn t meant kindly i took off my coat and gloves and washed my hands in the corner sink but my hands were still chilly i apologised for their initial coolness as i placed them on her i moved systematically as i had been taught focusing on general soothing energy generation my hands began to generate their usual tingliness as i breathed energy through me all touch would have to be in face up position as she had much difficulty in moving at all as my hands moved over her abdomen and of course low spine beneath strong magnetic fields started to jerk my hands to specific places i had felt these before on other people they were indicative of joint pain wear and tear and inflammation but these were the strongest magnetic sensations i d ever felt my hands danced as if possessed they pulled to a specific spot but from there i became scared i felt strongly that a sort of goo was attaching to my hands i tried to pull it but then mom who had been lying quietly up to now began to moan and wince with pain her eyes were still closed but her body heaved under my hands ever so slightly i was out of my depth on this reiki session mom needed a master to work on her as i had seen at the saturday course i felt unprepared to deal with someone going into the kind of thrashing that i had witnessed when trying to pull out this sick energy from a person i had to let it slide back and moved on i finished the reiki with soothing energy and gently asked mom to open her eyes she was asleep but came around when her daughter said you can wake up now mom said she felt calm and it was nice thanking me for helping i didn t say anything i felt a complete failure we left and i decided not to tell the student what i had experienced i had encountered something very bad bone cancer perhaps but i really didn t know and didn t want to cause a false alarm later the student told me that her mom still didn t believe but that she did note how my hands went from feeling ice cold to almost roasting with heat especially over her abdomen i have only had one other intense instance like this it came later when i had my massage therapy practice some years later an elderly gentleman of african origin had walked in one day he asked for a 30 minute session i always did a thorough intake questionnaire and discovered some unsettling things on his medical history i asked him to lie on my table an adjustable hydrolic table that i could lower for him i had not asked him to undress as per usual i used palpation skills and a few easy tests to determine where his pain originated my heart sank as i felt sticky energy in his right hip pelvis and low back the poor man was in intense pain suddenly the door had flown open and his large angry looking wife stomped into the room yelling she was unhappy he was on my table i asked her to return to the waiting room and that i could not divulge anything client confidentiality i turned to him you need to go back to your doctor your problem looks quite serious and you may need to see a specialist i was as kind as i could be and i apologised that i thought a massage would not help he squeezed my hand and smiled the man had suffered lymph cancer but had been in remission for two years what i intuitively felt but could not say was that i suspected that it had returned aggressively and was eating through his bones i did not charge him saying that all we had done was an assessment he thanked me and left i felt unhappy that i had to turn him away but i would have been negligent if i tried to give him a massage a reiki session might have soothed but that was not what he wanted or what my practice offered five days later the receptionist had a message waiting for me as i arrived for afternoon appointments the man s son had called to say that his father had died but the family was very grateful to me he had felt quite at peace after he left my office i felt so unhappy he was such a nice man mom had all her steel rods removed but still struggled with pain the student and i were not speaking that often so other than knowing something of her mom s gradual deterioration i did not learn what the outcome was sometimes we feel things that we would rather not life throws all sorts of tragedies at us grounding is the only way to transmute the energies of such encounters we cannot take on other people s energies to ourselves no matter how much we want to help they just make us sick ourselves i was not in a position to offer more though i would dearly have liked to i knew that i must not let my own ego get in the way all i could do was learn from my failures to be continued colettebytes alternative health humanity spiritual uncategorized 13 comments february 17 2020 february 17 2020 5 minutes earthing experiences earthing a journey 6 my personal journey to connect with earth continued the post christmas season was a blah time i wasn t eating very well again and tended to stop at mcdonald s for an egg mcmuffin for breakfast on the way to college little did i know until years later that they because of the egg were the cause of ankle pains and joint stiffness that had me wearing orthotic inserts and taking pain killers i thought it was the gruelling schedule and the physical demands of the massage practices that were having a physical effect it was the second term of school and the pace stepped up adding extra time to the curriculum in the form of evening massage clinics for the general public this meant that i had to take one evening per week off from work that meant catch up on my work load there too my boss was not impressed but i converted holiday allowance time to cover the evenings i wasn t going to get away with that forever though my holidays would quickly run out my time at home on weekdays was now mainly just for studying and sleeping as a consequence my already crappy relationship dived into a deep dark hole i actually hated going home to a silent brooding partner who was becoming more distant by the day one saturday his daughter was over she often came on a weekend to visit her dad she was working now and would soon get her own apartment we got on pretty well but she was increasingly aware of the tensions and kept to herself beyond shared mealtimes i had just gone upstairs to put laundry away when i heard the phone ring she answered it there was a lot of talking so the call was for her but i couldn t hear the conversation however i felt an awful feeling of dread come over me there was something about the call that felt wrong and sinister i had to do something walking in to his computer room i said to my partner i feel something bad is going to happen please tell your daughter not to go out tonight he looked at me as though i d grown two heads uh huh he said shaking his head and returning his attention to his computer i had to do something so i ran downstairs and said to her as soon as she had hung up i don t know who that was or what your call was about and you don t need to tell me but i have a terrible feeling that something bad will happen if you go out tonight i am begging you not to go out any other night sure but not tonight she looked at me and said simply ok she went up to her bedroom she didn t go out and that was very comforting but i didn t know the story until months later when she chose to tell me she had been going out with a boy that i had met only once for almost a year he had hearing problems almost completely deaf and possibly a few mental problems as well i thought in hindsight their relationship had been good but mixed with volatile arguments sometimes it had not been violent until one evening he had punched her in the face she ended the relationship then and there he had begged her to come back she didn t he apparently had gone into a meltdown and his friends all blamed her the phonecall had been from a girlfriend of one of his mates with an invitation to a big get together but her ex wouldn t be there and would she come it turned out that she learned from the same girl in a another phonecall some days afterward that the get together was so that all the mates could beat my partner s daughter up to teach her a lesson the girl had called to apologise that she didn t know about the planned beating and was glad that she had not shown up i was flabbergasted i knew my feeling of danger was profound but this was just unbelievable relationships are so complicated and often have hidden agendas i was relieved when she said when you told me not to go out it sort of confirmed my own gut feeling that something was wrong i completely severed ties with that group life chivied along with lots of term exams innane work stuff and little time to think let alone ground and meditate i saw my friends when i could which was at least once per month but never enough finally the easter break came while work would continue i had my weekday mornings free for a while i replenished my energy my polish friend had thoughtfully invited me to join her on a saturday workshop with a reiki master healer it required that participants had already completed reiki i and reiki ii courses which i had but i didn t know if i would be welcomed last minute without pre registration the session held about 10 participants i was the 11th but welcomed anyway and i paid the course fee in cash on arrival the instructor and her assistant talked about their backgrounds and how they worked together their form of reiki had developed into an advanced form each participant would have a turn for a healing session with her but first she would demonstrate a healing session on a volunteer the lady waiting in the wings a client of the instructor s had just been diagnosed with cancer a form of leukemia although we weren t told this until afterwards and had consented to this public healing session to say that my jaw hit the floor would be an understatement the healing session started out with a scan and the usual reiki format but then developed into something resembling psychic surgery the pair of healers worked in silence quickly and with focused determination the instructor would seem to pull something like a stretchy glue away from the clients body and the assistant would cut it near the skin surface with her hands this would always have a sort of snap on the instructor s hands as she pulled whatever free and cast it to the floor what was unbelievable is that the client had her eyes closed almost under a complete trance but her body writhed in a fashion that one would think physically impossible it was scary to watch like something out of the exorcist movie but not quite so malevolent occasionally a moan would come from the client her facial expression clearly indicating something weird happening the two of them pulled what seemed like reams of material energy out of her body and then closed off with a soothing scan and the usual crossed hands t over the heart to end the energy connection in a gentle manner the room was so quiet the client didn t move but i could clearly see that she was deeply unconcious i could barely see her breathing and she was shivering the instructor looked concerned she waved all of us to leave our chairs to surround the client with our hands placed carefully one at a time on her body we all took our positions the client was stone cold freezing as we pushed energy into her with controlled breathing techniques the instructor piled on about 6 blankets it took probably 30 minutes of warming her with our energy but she did warm up and the shivering stopped not a word was spoken except for the whispered commands from the instructor i began to feel a migraine start i tried to ground and shrug it off but the feeling of nausea was overwhelming i said nothing the instructor looked up from her position at the clients head she gently took the hands of the person next to her and put them where her own two had been she approached me and grasped my own hands gently pulling me away and indicated to other participants to close up the gap she sat me on a chair a few feet away pushed some energy into my feet and gently whispered to me to drink some water then she returned to her position with her client eventually everyone was ushered back to their chairs and we all took a break for lunch while the client slept on gently snoring it was just an astounding thing no one spoke much it was all pretty hard to take in the client eventually did wake feeling groggy she remembered nothing of what had just happened the instructor asked her if she felt able to stand up she did and they gave her some water she said that she felt somehow lighter she came and sat with us for a little while recovering she said that she would fight her cancer and she hoped the healing session had helped she felt it had after lunch and the client already gone the instructor explained that she had intended to do an instructional healing that it wasn t really meant to have turned into the serious and difficult healing session that we had just witnessed but that she and her assistant had encountered a dark black sticky energy full of magnetism they had worked quickly to pull it out of the body and there was no time to explain what they were doing she apologised if it had scared us they had been unaware of her cancer diagnosis until just minutes before the session they explained that cancer has its own energy and is always difficult to deal with the rest of the day was for each individual to receive a healing session of their own with the instructor unfortunately there was not enough time for me but during the lunch break the assistant had been asked by the instructor to give me a special reiki attunement it was lovely and as good as any healing session that i have experienced unfortunately my friend was a little peeved that i should have this attunement when no one else was offered the opportunity i really think the attunement was to help me stop retaining so much energy when it entered my body i was being grounded yet again by someone else i would have loved to do a course with this lady but i was already stretched for time didn t have the money and the course would be two hours drive away from wh...