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e pain the death the uncertainty the loneliness the economic hardships the surges of anguish and anger over terrible injustices our family just tried to stay home and stay out of the way and not add to any of the worries i m not sure that s the best way but that was our way personally we did move forward we were able to use the unprecedented working remotely situation to our advantage and purchase a home that was a big step for us i was almost certain we d spend the rest of our lives drifting and renting actually part of me would kind of like that especially if it could be in london yes i m still on about that place homesickness is real even for places that i cannot truly claim as my own a place to settle down in an affordable location was always in the plans though we worked to save and be ready whenever the time might come i thought that was years down the road when the world turned upside down however we were prepared to make a decision to buy a house in a week and then just do it crazy i still can t believe we are lucky enough to have a home i m really excited about every day i wake up more on that in future i have folders and folders of pictures backed up and ready to see the light of day on here for some reason i m just feeling like saying words today maybe in a second i ll see if i can find just a representative two or three who am i kidding i can t just pick two pictures it ll be five at the least stepping rather gingerly into 2021 i am of the opinion that it ll continue to be a difficult time for our world i m prepared to continue to try and keep a low profile and keep mostly to ourselves we re plugging along on house projects and homeschool and garden plans taking one day at a time super big dreams for the future never seem to fade entirely from my imagination so they are still there too when i take a step back and reflect wow my imagination and biggest hopes could never have prepared me for the amazing people who came to me and intertwine their lives with mine our life spanned half in ca and half in ut this year i was just finally starting to actually like living in the bay area wouldn t you know isn t that just the way with me always lagging behind the times and getting with the program just as it s almost over sigh we started last year expecting to continue to explore and enjoy the beauties of california who really saw what the year would unravel to be i m grateful we did still get to go outside and wander a little though far from other people we escaped some of the tensions of the pandemic by staying with family we were relieved to have some relaxing of the rules though we still tried to use common sense and respect social boundaries thankfully the kids played together nicely almost all the time lots of movie nights occurred obviously henry took interrupting school to a new art we moved house the kids still play with only themselves and when others aren t around my main hope for this next year with the hope of the vaccine and other things is that they can make neighborhood school and church friends still this time of being 99 just us has been wonderful addendum i have been heading this direction for a long while after much thought i ve realized that i no longer want to write and share pictures for an audience i m ready to take my family journaling private i may change my mind in the future so i am leaving this space in case i think it much more likely that i ll not return to a public forum for this especially as the children mature i hope i can keep rekindle the enthusiasm i have for making this family record it has been invaluable to remember and reflect posted by redlambourne at 11 40 pm no comments labels at home childhood family togetherness tuesday december 15 2020 on not writing recently someone mentioned they noticed that i wasn t writing as much i had no idea this person even paid any attention to my public journaling and it was flattering that they had enjoyed reading thoughts that i put into text also nerve wracking because putting all this envision me gesturing wildly at my brain and facial expressions online for the past dozen years has made me vulnerable beyond what i realized i m sure it s obvious but i don t much edit or proof read and these aren t always my best articulations it s an old fashioned brain dump diary style i reflected that yes it s true i don t write as much haven t for years now i ve been trying to figure out why to be sure instagram did swoop in and capitalize on the easy post and caption market and i succumbed as for more in depth tap tapping of the key board into paragraphs on the screen it s not that i don t have the time there is all the time in the world for the most important things so thinking out loud here why i haven t prioritized my own writing for some time number one is probably that i am plain old lazy by the time in the day it is my turn for 1 the computer and 2 my own thoughts well i m worn out and want nothing more than to veg on the couch passively consuming someone else s story secondly i feel as if many of the topics i would write about are not my own more than ever before there is always someone else involved and i feel ever more caution about privacy as my children become more independent from me i would rather be accused of being too cautious walking that line than stray into anything resembling exploitative third i ve never had much interest in global events or serious topics i am so wrapped up in the little details of my own personal every day i think i have less and less to say as the world gets bigger and scarier i m letting it drown out my tiny voice in times of personal crisis i ve been the quietest again wanting to be careful and sure of what will stay in black and white long after i am gone i dread the thought of my child having to carry a carelessly worded burden that is not of their creation they ll make happen upon enough of their own and yet i keep my ramblings going every one who knows me well gets the ahem privilege of hearing more than they ever really desired to know about my stream of consciousness i am working on that filter i imagine that in true rachel fashion here i have just said a lot about not saying a lot i m saying all this because i have felt the lack my journey the past 12 years of parenthood has had phases of losing and finding and remaking myself i could wax on about the ebbs and flows i have changed i have grown i like to think i m more me than i ever was before still i have let parts of myself lie dormant and i want to be ready to wake them again posted by redlambourne at 11 25 pm no comments labels rachel friday august 21 2020 christmas at grandma s 2019 christmas at grandma and grandpa s is always so good i m still surprised every time by the sunshine and the perfect weather and citrus season but i never complain the kids love being with their cousins so much and pretty much disappear into play until it s time to eat one meal or another i love that christmas at the grandparents is the perfect mix of going out and about and keeping very busy having fun and down time to sit and talk and laugh always laugh i decided about three days before we left for orange county that i wanted to make matching cousin pjs i don t know why i figured that was a good thing to add into the preparations but i had fun and barely made my deadline the kids were good sports and wore them happily they were really cute although better suited for norway with the cosy and warm flannel next time maybe i ll re do with a light cotton ha grandparents gave the gift of a disney day but crazily the children begged not to go but to play with their cousins with their christmas toys so most of the adults and henry went instead it was probably one of my favorite disneyland trips ever we ate the most amazing food and weren t hurried and got to shower henry with all the attention when he wasn t asleep in the stroller it was a great day and it was collin s and my anniversary which number and it was interesting to think back on all the times we ve been together since our dating days i never would have thought that place would be such a part of our story our gift to grandma this year was fancy tea at the langham hotel with just the girls it was so yummy and elegant posted by redlambourne at 3 35 pm no comments labels cali for ni a cousins disneyland family togetherness grandparents holidays lambourne clan winter wednesday august 19 2020 eliza s doll eliza received a hand me down american girl doll for christmas i remember getting my kirsten doll when i d already pretty much outgrown dolls but i remember it being such a big deal to get a real doll it was a christmas gift from my grandmother who loved dolls bee would have been thrilled to see eliza s response to the doll i keep getting confirmation that they are kindred spirits and were will be best friends in heaven it was adorable to watch how much liza bee loves this doll eliza said the cutest thing later that day after she d had the doll for about eight hours she said now i finally know what it feels like to have my very own doll she named the doll isabelle and still sleeps with her every night when asked what she missed most about home when we were in utah for two months every time her answer was i miss isabelle i d told her not to bring the doll because we d only planned to be gone a couple weeks and there would be so many toys at nana s house i don t know if she ll listen to my advice ever again i get a kick out of this picture of the opposite teeth nana helped her make doll clothes and i made her matching skirts and just because it s so sweet eliza s real life doll patient henry posted by redlambourne at 12 41 pm no comments labels baby 3 eliza playtime tuesday august 18 2020 nine months out henry and mom on the beach remember when we didn t know who was inside and we called the baby littleberry here we were at 9 months of growing it was a beautiful sunday late afternoon on the beach and i asked collin to take some maternity portraits for me i wanted to see what the beautiful was when i couldn t even imagine feeling it i ve mentioned before this pregnancy was hard on me i struggled a lot seeing these pictures helped me remember that this time was special and very importantly temporary where every day of pregnancy felt like a year each day of henry s little life felt like a blink of an eye here we are nine months later on the same beach with much more predictable northern california weather conditions i think it s funny that the weather shown in these pictures is exactly opposite of how my emotions were doing similarly the joy i felt the moment he was born and most moments since is immeasurably opposite of the depression i wrestled with in pregnancy i m so glad collin was game for playing photographer again our little blue eyed blonde haired california baby and i at a happy place posted by redlambourne at 11 55 pm no comments labels baby 4 henry duke mom moments san francisco christmas at home 2019 no matter where we spend christmas proper with one side of the family or the other or traveling or otherwise we always want to spend a weekend in december or january doing our own little family traditions this year we got to welcome the dollahite grandparents into the festivities nana taught eliza and retaught me how to make pulla finish bread we had our nephite dinner on the day we marked for christmas eve then dressed up and acted out the nativity davy even accompanied some of our carols on the piano eliza had a few extra scenes she wanted to add to the play a dramatic angelic rescue of the baby for one eddy was dignified and focused as both a good king and a bad one henry was delighted by all the costumes and swapped between lamb king shepherd and who knows what else with great determination we opened presents next morning on our own personal early christmas father christmas humored us and came bringing a wished for board game for davy and eddy a doll for liza bee and some cars for henry it was a happy simple affair eliza had quite an exciting christmas season as she lost both her two front teeth right in time as well as played a part in the ballet studio s nutcracker performance she loved being on stage you could tell the whole time she was beaming posted by redlambourne at 10 37 pm no comments labels at home family togetherness grandparents holidays visitors winter older posts home subscribe to posts atom lambourne five about us adventures around town and abroad home is never far with these people near my blogs rachel lambourne images mommy and me museum follow on instagram labels africa 7 all boy 47 america the beautiful 13 around town 129 at home 118 baby 3 51 baby 4 7 before baby 6 better next time 8 boston 37 boston in the fall 28 brothers 23 cali for ni a 17 childhood 62 church 1 collin 20 cousins 11 creativity 49 davy 95 deep musings on life and stuff 27 disneyland 8 dollahite fam 31 eddy 60 edward and bear 7 eliza 68 england 89 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