Meta tags:
description=Read my journey through infertility over the last 8 years...;

Headings (most frequently used words):

life, with, blog, conceptionchronicles, time, is, flying, by, helloooooo, my, internal, dialoge, minutes, babies, and, 2nd, grader, cannot, stand, the, cuteness, three, under, 16, months, happy, halloween, she, here, stats, recent, posts, archives, categories, follow, via, email,

Text of the page (most frequently used words):
and (85), the (85), with (33), have (30), are (27), for (25), but (25), that (24), you (24), she (23), not (22), this (20), posted (20), day (20), they (19), will (18), kids (18), life (17), #conceptionchronicles (16), all (16), time (15), blog (14), out (14), want (14), 2014 (13), her (13), months (13), can (13), don (13), twins (12), 2012 (12), hubby (12), more (12), babies (12), work (12), then (12), uncategorized (11), 2011 (11), 2013 (11), home (11), get (11), would (11), about (11), just (11), take (10), our (10), having (10), comment (9), devon (9), baby (9), was (9), still (9), really (9), when (9), very (9), from (9), your (8), 2015 (8), love (8), good (8), than (8), them (8), like (8), some (8), bed (8), now (7), other (7), got (7), leave (7), three (7), back (7), there (7), break (7), much (7), fight (7), december (6), march (6), august (6), november (6), minutes (6), happy (6), been (6), week (6), night (6), last (6), over (6), years (6), myself (6), through (6), right (6), feel (6), should (6), how (6), stop (6), days (6), website (5), email (5), infertility (5), may (5), july (5), october (5), february (5), month (5), flying (5), pounds (5), into (5), later (5), here (5), though (5), grace (5), little (5), getting (5), times (5), too (5), tough (5), same (5), parents (5), weeks (5), almost (5), two (5), way (5), keep (5), things (5), year (5), before (5), better (5), summer (5), sometimes (5), house (5), sleep (5), think (5), marriage (5), him (5), oldest (5), free (4), create (4), own (4), wordpress (4), com (4), content (4), posts (4), january (4), april (4), june (4), september (4), 2016 (4), started (4), ava (4), only (4), lot (4), because (4), even (4), busy (4), see (4), chores (4), miss (4), one (4), school (4), quick (4), something (4), nap (4), every (4), bad (4), sex (4), off (4), pleasure (4), both (4), while (4), repeat (4), start (3), comments (3), follow (3), internal (3), recent (3), weight (3), were (3), hours (3), mom (3), their (3), few (3), nanny (3), binky (3), old (3), know (3), read (3), journey (3), after (3), crazy (3), could (3), let (3), going (3), family (3), dont (3), being (3), where (3), well (3), eat (3), swing (3), weekends (3), dinner (3), wouldn (3), any (3), looking (3), tummy (3), mommy (3), talk (3), doing (3), look (3), say (3), nights (3), complaining (3), who (3), yes (3), hopefully (3), ones (3), required (2), write (2), log (2), sign (2), join (2), subscribers (2), address (2), new (2), ivf (2), select (2), categories (2), archives (2), dialoge (2), helloooooo (2), older (2), beautiful (2), which (2), yet (2), smallest (2), labor (2), until (2), ready (2), always (2), girls (2), such (2), halloween (2), walking (2), around (2), watching (2), pics (2), nursing (2), nurse (2), police (2), gone (2), husband (2), without (2), chaos (2), either (2), curious (2), etc (2), also (2), give (2), cute (2), under (2), car (2), seat (2), thank (2), goodness (2), colic (2), what (2), long (2), different (2), several (2), people (2), friends (2), made (2), place (2), ever (2), tell (2), great (2), bit (2), return (2), hello (2), poor (2), neglected (2), super (2), lots (2), couple (2), since (2), 2nd (2), homework (2), putting (2), lunches (2), idea (2), maddy (2), grade (2), wears (2), feisty (2), shouldn (2), napping (2), guilty (2), wants (2), find (2), whole (2), phase (2), difficult (2), pass (2), hell (2), guess (2), call (2), maybe (2), put (2), earlier (2), plus (2), rather (2), physical (2), emotional (2), yup (2), today (2), excuse (2), wine (2), wanted (2), remember (2), yourself (2), make (2), screw (2), everyone (2), goes (2), pooped (2), everything (2), overlap (2), end (2), dishwasher (2), laundry (2), clean (2), again (2), kiss (2), wait (2), stay (2), dialog (2), working (2), probably (2), believe (2), has (2), space (2), pregnant (2), funny (2), down (2), words (2), each (2), stress (2), forget (2), next (2), honestly (2), most (2), come (2), world (2), play (2), blogger (2), name, loading, collapse, bar, report, manage, subscriptions, view, site, reader, privacy, account, subscribed, subscribe, enter, receive, notifications, via, venting, pregnancy, miscarriage, egg, donation, category, 2010, title, 985, hits, stats, search, soooooo, juliette, onces, biggest, gain, pregnancies, fairly, easy, pushed, water, broke, gave, 930, contractions, min, apart, dose, pirocin, 945, epidural, push, memory, treasure, went, check, ups, peanut, kick, neighborhood, laugh, outfits, cries, hungry, changed, eats, champ, starting, wean, alone, enough, hands, haven, scared, hectic, thankful, supportive, complete, utter, basically, divide, conquer, switch, touch, poke, bottle, blanket, room, ing, kisses, stuffed, animals, toys, rewarding, twice, slept, loves, sleeps, whenever, far, breastfeeding, supplementing, root, peace, cannot, stand, cuteness, note, avoiding, personally, originally, struggling, purpose, journal, bloggy, major, repect, hate, gossip, lie, true, feels, lying, blogging, gossiped, questioned, why, didnt, equally, unapealing, crossroad, cjrious, excited, doung, napper, grat, sleeper, letting, cry, cut, sleeping, stopped, wake, fell, waking, zombie, wakes, feeding, girl, already, smaller, twin, mild, tempered, mat, bouncy, alive, blogosphere, sucks, least, teacher, four, grader, big, between, coming, making, grading, papers, child, freedom, girlfriend, lunch, pedicure, wide, fit, clothes, bras, hips, ribcage, body, skin, deflated, balloon, pouch, below, belly, button, joke, makeover, 40th, bday, boob, job, tuck, loose, point, flat, higher, boobs, won, wear, bikini, eyes, growing, sweet, pie, blends, turned, ago, looks, clothing, copies, sister, constantly, turn, smile, hard, discipline, stinkin, updates, upstairs, forward, schedule, trapped, backyard, these, dialogues, case, guilt, leaving, needs, first, yelling, becoming, anger, satisfaction, telling, lives, wonder, difficulty, seeing, forest, trees, friend, hang, tonight, early, expect, improve, willing, regular, basis, men, women, connection, thing, mind, extra, tired, sexy, pissed, disgusting, fattest, eating, drinking, dessert, honest, happier, sweets, meals, ugh, accept, overweight, convenient, prepare, healthier, options, tackle, problem, number, scale, determines, source, mad, worse, anything, cause, must, run, errands, target, bjs, food, shopping, existence, yard, basement, else, besides, enjoy, along, hour, sit, couch, 1130, 330, pretty, 7pm, 7am, naps, mentally, exhausted, mommyhood, random, nappers, unload, load, away, mess, messy, soon, text, texted, maid, omg, sassymouth, comes, eight, sure, didn, mother, did, headache, wining, camp, _____, topic, discussion, runs, head, fix, trying, conscious, try, rule, decisions, suggestions, appreciated, hey, zero, hobby, apologize, advance, another, energy, tried, lost, had, surprise, spontaneously, definitely, happening, snipped, nerves, lively, sassy, social, confident, deep, hope, calms, person, sooner, semblance, reminding, blessing, need, asking, selfish, beyond, those, thoughts, burner, says, does, doesn, silent, silence, fighting, fights, best, ignore, jobs, extended, common, anticipated, bring, date, trips, prep, fantasize, divorced, his, wow, relax, recharge, sounds, staying, potty, training, stringing, together, screaming, showing, personality, climbing, driving, nuts, worry, teach, high, kiddies, during, awesome, cook, plays, helps, swap, cleans, bedtime, puts, spend, wash, floors, general, stuff, sports, turns, escaping, fall, works, amazing, company, sane, seems, recurring, theme, peek, especially, full, fast, 4th, triplets, sing, cuddle, grow, versions, ladies, become, brag, meatballs, ttc, timeline, skip,

Text of the page (random words):
my journey through infertility over the last 8 years skip to content home about me ttc timeline older posts time is flying by posted on december 12 2016 by conceptionchronicles a peek into my crazy world life with 4 is busy especially now that the school year is in full swing i can t believe how fast time is flying by my oldest is 9 and in 4th grade the twins are 3 5 and my baby is 2 it really is like having triplets they play fight kiss fight sing fight cuddle and then fight and love on each other i love watching them grow into little feisty versions of the ladies they will become and a few more just because this is my space to brag about my meatballs happy new year posted in uncategorized leave a comment helloooooo posted on march 1 2016 by conceptionchronicles yes still here this seems to be my recurring theme over the last 2 5 years bad blogger bad bad blogger life in my world is crazy go go go up at 5 leave for work at 6 teach high school kiddies during the day while my awesome nanny has the little ones home by 4 cook dinner while hubby plays with the little ones and helps our oldest with her homework eat dinner swap he cleans up while i play with the little ones then at 6 45 start bedtime 7 00 devon hubby puts twins to bed by 7 15 then we both spend some time with our oldest and she is in bed by 7 45 8 00 start chores lunches wash floors general clean up and house stuff two nights a week we have sports with my oldest we take turns escaping the chaos fall into bed at 9 hopefully to sleep by 9 30 repeat repeat repeat repeat hubby works weekends so i don t get too much time to myself my parents are amazing and come over most weekends to see the kids and keep me company sane maddy is going to be 9 next month the twins are 2 5 and potty training stringing words together and really funny devon is 16 months walking screaming when she wants something showing lots of personality and climbing on everything and driving mommy nuts with worry hubby and i are not in the best place we ignore each other a lot there is so much stress in our home babies jobs extended family life with 4 kids while both parents work without common days off is super difficult i don t think that either of us anticipated the stress that 3 babies in 15 months would bring forget date nights forget trips and we are both so pooped at the end of the day that we go right into chores and then next day prep honestly most days i fantasize about being divorced no one to fight with when i get home from work and hopefully hubby would take the kids on his days off wow a day or two a week to just come home from work and relax and recharge honestly that sounds better than staying in a not so great marriage then sometimes we have good days and those thoughts go to the back burner for a day or two until he says does doesn t do something and i go silent again silence is better than fighting the same fights day in and day out right probably not hopefully this phase will pass sooner than later and we will go back to some semblance of a happy content marriage i keep reminding myself that having 4 kids is a blessing and even though it is so so so tough right now that doing it on my own would be maybe better for me but not better for my kids they need both parents and me asking him to go would be selfish beyond words i can t believe that it has been 4 years since i started this space and in that time i tried ivf 7 times got pregnant 3 times lost 2 and had de twins surprise 7 months later spontaneously pregnant with 4 5 will definitely not be happening hubby got snipped not that i wouldn t love having more babies in the house i love kids but i don t think our marriage could take it or my nerves i miss who i was lively funny sassy social confident i think she is still deep down in there i hope some day when life calms down a bit that i can return to the person i was that s all for now i will apologize in advance it will probably be another 6 months before i find the energy or time to blog posted in uncategorized leave a comment my internal dialoge posted on august 6 2015 by conceptionchronicles hello poor neglected blog but hey i have 4 kids three under 25 months so i think everyone will excuse me for having zero time to have a hobby today s topic of discussion is about my internal dialog this dialog runs through my head all day long it is one of the things i am working on but i have no idea how to fix this so i guess i should say i am not working on it rather trying to stay more conscious of it and try not to let it rule decisions i make any suggestions would be appreciated _____ i can t wait for hubby to get home i have such a headache from the wining you wanted to stay home with the kids for the summer be happy with the life you have and your oldest goes to camp 3 days a week stop complaining i don t know where this sassymouth comes from and she s eight i don t talk this way to my kids and i sure as hell didn t talk this way to my mother oh yes you did you just don t remember it omg i just want to kiss you all day but i also can t wait for you to take a nap so i can get a break all i want is a break just one hour to sit on the couch and take a nap the twins nap 12 2 devon 10 1130 and 2 330 and they pretty much sleep 7pm to 7am there is no overlap of naps no break from kids i love them so much but i am so mentally exhausted at the end of the day i want a break from mommyhood some days but there is no break if i do get the random overlap of nappers i am always doing chores unload dishwasher load dishwasher do laundry put laundry away clean up mess that will be messy again as soon as the babies get up call text back the 3 people who texted me this week sometimes i just miss being me not a mom not a maid must run errands with the kids get them out of the house go to target bjs and food shopping with all 3 babies yes i know i could go at night when everyone goes to bed but i am pooped i just want to go to sleep and i feel there whole existence is our house our back yard our car and our basement they have to see something else besides that plus they enjoy it even though it is much more work to take three babies along to everything i am off in the summer hubby is not i should do more than him screw that you do more than him all school year summer should be your break don t be mad it will just make things worse screw that tell him how you feel don t say anything it will just cause a fight yup the same fight we have every other month you look disgusting you are the fattest you have ever been there is no excuse for the way you look um i have 4 kids three who are babies i have no time to work out then stop eating so much stop drinking wine 3 nights a week stop having dessert but they are a source for pleasure for me and i am not getting much pleasure right now from my life stop complaining you wanted this life remember ugh stop complaining and accept that you are 20 pounds overweight don t have time to work out eat what is convenient because you have no time to prepare healthier options and will tackle this problem later be happy with yourself it is not the number on the scale that determines how you feel about yourself it shouldn t be but it is but let s be honest if i were happier in my life i wouldn t be looking to wine or sweets or quick meals for pleasure i should be getting that pleasure from my life go have sex with your husband i m too tired i don t feel sexy he pissed me off today you say this every day just go do it even though you don t want to because it is good for your marriage but i don t want to how do you expect your marriage to improve if you are not willing to have sex on a regular basis men are physical women are emotional yup and i have no physical or emotional connection right now to him and sex is the last thing on my mind i would take an extra 30 minutes of sleep any day over sex go call a friend to hang out tonight maybe hubby will put the kids to bed so you can leave earlier and then get home earlier no then i will feel guilty plus i would rather go to bed early these are just some of the dialogues i have with myself every day sometimes all day sometimes at night when i can t sleep i have a very bad case of mommy guilt i want to do things for me but feel guilty leaving the kids or not putting their needs wants first i find myself yelling more than i should becoming quick to anger and not getting a whole lot of satisfaction from life i don t think a mom should want to have a break every day i keep telling myself that this phase of our lives is very difficult and this will pass we will look back some day and wonder how the hell we made it through i guess i am having a lot of difficulty seeing the forest through the trees posted in uncategorized 3 comments 5 minutes posted on july 20 2015 by conceptionchronicles it s all i got the twins are upstairs napping and devon is in the swing i am looking forward to having all 3 on the same nap schedule i am trapped in the house or backyard with napping babies quick updates the twins turned two a couple weeks ago time is flying by they are still very different in looks and weight grace wears 18 month clothing ava wears 2 or 3t grace is very feisty ava copies her sister they are constantly doing something they shouldn t then they turn at you and smile so hard to discipline them when they are so stinkin cute devon is almost 9 months she is sweet as pie she blends right in school is out for the summer so i am home with the 4 girls it can be tough at times to only do baby talk all day but i do love it they are growing old too quick posted in uncategorized leave a comment posted on may 18 2015 by conceptionchronicles having a big family is busy like really really busy between work coming home and getting dinner ready homework putting kids to bed chores making lunches grading papers well you get the idea i sometimes miss only having one child the freedom to go out with a girlfriend have lunch with my parents get a pedicure i do miss it but i wouldn t want my life any other way maddy is 8 and in 2nd grade the twins are almost 2 and devon is 6 5 months where is the time going baby weight is almost gone but i am so wide i still can t fit in my clothes or bras my hips and ribcage body after 4 is not so good looking my skin on my tummy is like a deflated balloon and i have a pouch below my belly button i joke with my hubby that i want a mommy makeover for my 40th bday boob job and tummy tuck i want to loose 20 pounds before then no point in having a flat tummy or higher boobs if i won t wear a bikini here are some recent pics of the kids time is flying before my eyes posted in uncategorized 1 comment life with 3 babies and a 2nd grader posted on february 22 2015 by conceptionchronicles hello poor neglected blog i am still alive and well in the blogosphere i am super busy with lots of kids and back at work i only see the kids a couple hours a day after work and before bed which sucks but at least i see them on the weekends and i have them all summer since i am a teacher four months to go devon is doung well she is almost 4 months old great napper not a grat night sleeper we started letting her cry a bit more and cut out the binky she was sleeping through the night a 7 weeks then stopped she would wake when the binky fell out she was waking 4 times a night and i was a zombie 3 weeks before my return to work things are better now though she still wakes around 4 for a feeding this girl can eat she is already 15 5 pounds more than grace the smaller twin was at a year she is a very good baby mild tempered she is content in her swing mat bouncy seat all day no colic thank goodness on a different note i have been avoiding my blog for the last several months i know several people personally that read my blog my blog originally started as a way for friends to keep up on our journey and i have been struggling with the purpose of an infertility blog after infertility i would really like to journal about my crazy life but would like to keep the bloggy friends i have made over the last 4 years in a place i could really let go there are some major things going on in my life that i want to write about but out of repect for my family i dont want to blog about it i hate gossip and i dont lie ever so not being true to myself on my blog feels like i am lying and not blogging because i dont want to be gossiped about or questioned why didnt you tell me is equally unapealing i am at a crossroad in my life i am cjrious even excited where my life will be in 6 months a year 5 years posted in uncategorized leave a comment cannot stand the cuteness posted on november 22 2014 by conceptionchronicles it s been tough with three babies but it is really rewarding devon is a really good baby she is almost 4 weeks old and twice this week slept 7 hours at night she loves her car seat and sleeps in it whenever we go out thank goodness no colic so far still breastfeeding but supplementing more and more she will nurse for 30 minutes then root 45 minutes later with two other very curious babies nursing is tough i give her what i can and for as long as i can and i am at peace with it back to work in 7 weeks not happy about that posted in uncategorized 1 comment life with three under 16 months posted on november 9 2014 by conceptionchronicles is hectic i am so thankful to have a very supportive husband parents and nanny without them it would be complete and utter chaos basically we divide and conquer either my hubby or nanny take the twins and i take the baby or we switch the twins are very curious about the baby they like to touch her poke her take her bottle binky blanket etc when we are all in the same room we have to do a lot of police ing but they also give her kisses stuffed animals toys etc very cute i haven t gone out with all three yet too scared so in love with her she is a good baby she only cries when hungry or getting changed she eats like a champ i am still nursing but i am starting to wean i have been alone with all three babies a few times and it is too tough to nurse and police at the same time not enough hands here are a few recent pics posted in uncategorized 1 comment happy halloween posted on november 2 2014 by conceptionchronicles here are the twins on halloween ava got it more than grace but they got a kick out of walking around the neighborhood i got a really good laugh watching them in their outfits the girls went for their 15 month check ups though they are 16 months ava is 24 pounds grace is 19 she is such a little peanut posted in uncategorized leave a comment she s here posted on october 27 2014 by conceptionchronicles and she s beautiful i m soooooo in love devon juliette 8 pounds 6 onces which is my biggest baby yet and my smallest weight gain of all my pregnancies her labor was fairly easy and i pushed her out in 14 minutes my water broke at home at 4 am they gave me until 930 to get into a good labor on my own contractions were 7 min...