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and girls she can count up to 50 by herself and is starting to recognize sight words they can both write their first names chris is still my athlete he has gotten really good at dribbling a soccer ball and can hit a ball with a bat he s also my lover and i think he s going to have quite the game with the ladies when he s older i was putting them to bed the other night and he said mommy you get an extra hug and kiss because you deserve it playa all the way i mentioned in my last post that i was starting a new job still with the same company but other than that all new i am enjoying it so far but i have yet to see the fruits of my labor i m managing 2 teams one of which is the event planning team i have a small local event next weekend and then my first big event will be in june in aruba i know i ll be working my butt off but who cares i ll be in paradise i ll be gone about 10 days so i m not super happy about being away from the kids for so long but they ll all survive definitely happy the weather has started to cooperate recently we ve had the never ending winter around here including snow last week we ve been getting outside as much as possible and taking advantage of the warmer days and sun we ll be travelling to my parents house in north carolina for easter and taking a much needed break from school and work we haven t seen them since christmas so it s a long overdue visit hoping we have nice warm weather so we can hit the beach a day or two i wish i had a more exciting update but the truth is that we re just moving through the days in a regular boring routine hope you all are doing great posted by suzanne at 7 44 pm no comments sunday december 29 2013 holidays 2013 i hope all of you had a wonderful christmas with friends and family for us this christmas was the best yet it couldn t have been more perfect the month of december started with me accepting a promotion at my job it s a big promotion with a lot more responsibility and some traveling involved hubby and i discussed it and decided it was the best thing for our family the initial increase in workload and time away from the family only a few times per year will be worth it in the long run i start my new responsibilities next week the kids pre k class did a christmas musical this year and it was a big production they practiced for weeks i can already tell that i m going to be one of those mom s who gets teary eyed over everything i just can t help it as soon as i saw them walk in my eyes got all watery i m just so proud of them my parents came up from north carolina on christmas eve and stayed with us through friday 12 27 it was just so great having them here and really made it feel like christmas i have such fond memories of my mom s parents coming for 2 weeks over christmas and it makes me so happy to create those memories for my kids we all went to my sil house for christmas eve our yearly tradition we had fun catching up with everyone and the twins had a blast playing with their cousins we got home around 10 30 and started playing santa luckily i was organized this year and already had the twins gifts wrapped and there was nothing to put together so we got off easy the kids truly understood the whole santa concept this year and it just made it so much fun their excitement was so contagious i just love christmas christmas morning the kids woke up around 7 00 am i tried an overnight crock pot breakfast casserole recipe that i found on pinterest so we came downstairs to wonderful smells and no pressure to cook breakfast right away the kids opened their presents while the adults sat back and enjoyed coffee oh and cocktails christmas afternoon we went over to my bil s mother s house to spend time with my sister and her family they drove up from nashville on the 23rd and were busy visiting with my bil s side of the family by the end of dinner i think we were all feeling the effects of the day and we came home around 8 30 i coordinated a happy hour on the 26th so local friends could visit with my sister and that was a great time my sister and bil stayed the night with me that night so it gave us some extra time to catch up i can t wait to see what 2014 has in store for us posted by suzanne at 3 40 pm no comments wednesday november 27 2013 it s all about family on this thanksgiving eve i know many of us are pondering the year and thinking of things we are thankful for when i think back over the year there are many things that come to mind it was a pretty crappy year my husband lost his job twice we needed expensive and unexpected car repairs three times my entire family moved out of state leaving me alone for the first time ever my job has been unrewarding and there were many mornings where i hated to get out of bed and as i type this list of crappy things that happened i m also reminded that some pretty good things happened too my husband found a job twice our cars are still running and for the time being we have avoided taking on new car payments i ve adjusted to my family moving away and surprisingly i talk to my mom more now than when she lived close by while i m still stuck in a dead end job at least i have a job right of course i m thankful for my children they are my true purpose in life if we could afford it i would love nothing more than to be home with them thinking ahead i m hoping to have some flexibility with my work hours so i can be home after school when they start kindergarten there is not a day that goes by that i don t thank the lord for my babies it s so funny how perspective changes before kids i was very career driven i wanted to take on more and didn t care what i had to do now my job doesn t seem to matter don t get me wrong i still work hard and i m dedicated to what i do but i m not willing to travel or relocate like i used to be i just want the day to end so i can see my babies and snuggle with them on the couch oh those snuggles they never get old do they no matter how stressed i feel it all goes away as soon as i feel their body relax into mine i still rest my head on theirs and take in their smell just like when they were babies that s not weird right so let s talk about thanksgiving dinner in the first time ever we didn t have plans i was happy and sad maybe it would be fun to have a small dinner with just my little family but thanksgiving is about family and i was a little bummed that we wouldn t be seeing anyone my sister in law is now hosting and to put this in perspective i ll just call her hoity and my brother in law toity they are very odd they live in a million dollar house but they act like they are poor until they want to buy pottery barn furniture she hosted last year and i think it s pretty standard that people bring different dishes to share last year i brought mashed potatoes and a broccoli side dish now my sil is very nice but she s not always the brightest bulb in the pack as i was preparing my dishes it occurred to me that she might not think to make gravy and how horrible would that be to have to eat mashed potatoes without gravy so me being the planner i rolled up in there with my mashed potatoes and gravy packets in my purse just in case this year i again offered to bring a dish or two i again got mashed potatoes and this time green bean casserole she told me her mom was bringing dessert and that my mil was bringing the meat um what isn t it standard that the host typically makes the main course who the hell asks a guest to bring meat oh it gets better my mil came over last weekend to visit the kids and said she needed to leave by 3 00 so she could make it to the honey baked ham store ok stupid question do they sell turkey because the last time i checked t u r k e y was the meat of choice for thanksgiving i asked her about it and she said she was planning to buy a turkey breast doesn t that feed like 3 people so now i m gonna to have to roll up in there with mashed potatoes gravy packets and turkey legs in my purse but hey at least we ll be with family posted by suzanne at 1 32 pm no comments wednesday november 13 2013 bye bye blog i like many of the bloggers i follow have had a difficult time finding the time and energy to keep up with my blog i ve given it some thought and i keep asking one question are blogs a thing of the past i originally started this blog back in 2008 it was an outlet to help me grieve the loss of a pregnancy and i found great friends and comfort over the years as the kids have grown the blog has moved away from me and is now more about the kids and what they are doing it s not that i have less downtime than i did before if anything i probably have more the kids are able to play by themselves now requiring less supervision in the evenings when i do sit down to relax i find myself grabbing my iphone not my laptop i use my phone way more than i ever thought i would i do almost everything with it including reading other people s blogs i miss you guys when you haven t written in awhile if i want to browse pinterest i do it on my phone email phone facebook phone instagram phone but when it comes to writing a blog post my phone isn t very convenient and omg what a pain to wait an extra 30 seconds while my laptop boots up right i think we all go for the quick fix these days it s so much easier to write a quick blurb on facebook or to post a picture on instagram you re done in less than a minute and still able to effectively communicate with friends and family i m wondering if this is happening with some of you too this blog will always have a special place in my heart i still go back and read some of my older posts and i don t think i m ready to say goodbye quite yet so in the meantime i ll continue to keep my little piece of the blogosphere posted by suzanne at 12 21 pm 5 comments saturday november 2 2013 fall 2013 the twins birthday always kicks off fall for us we ve had some wacky weather here but i think it s finally taking a turn for colder temperatures now the leaves are turning and falling to the ground making for perfect piles the last 2 years we went to my sister s neighborhood for halloween since they moved we got to see our neighborhood this year the kids had a halloween parade and trunk or treat event that afternoon at school when i picked them up they were already ahead of the game with 2 bags full of candy we ate pizza for dinner and they were so anxious to get their costumes back on it s always that fine line of waiting for people to finish dinner and getting out so we have enough time to get home for bedtime we started out about 6 45 pm and within 5 minutes it started sprinkling and then turned into a very light rain no stopping us i grabbed an umbrella and off we went it s just water right i had to leave my good camera at home so i only got a few photos with my phone we also received the kids school pictures this week such a difference over the last few years we ve gone from dreading them because the kids would never smile to dreading them because we can t decide on which ones to buy the did 3 poses of each child individually and then 3 poses of them together love the larger black and white photo and the one of them hugging each other they look so grown up don t they for the first time in forever we don t have plans for thanksgiving i m so conflicted about it part of me is happy that we ll get to spend the day together as just our small little family and then the other part of me is sad because it s supposed to be a day to spend with family meaning everyone creating new memories i guess and before we know it christmas will be here we received a catalog from target last week that was all about toys i caught the kids looking through it and their sheer innocence and excitement was so contagious it brought back such great memories from my own childhood i can t wait for the fun to begin posted by suzanne at 3 27 pm 1 comment tuesday october 29 2013 happy ectopiversary i m fairly certain hallmark doesn t make a card for ectopiversaries roses are red violets are blue you almost had a baby but we fooled you october 29 2007 is the day i had the surgery to remove the baby that was growing in my left fallopian tube it had a heartbeat and aside from it s poor sense of direction it was a healthy baby i m not proud of where i went after that event i blogged about it so if you are so inclined just take a gander through oh almost all of 2008 and you ll get a pretty good sense of where i was the words angry and bitter pretty much sum it up but as they say things happen for a reason right that event also gave me a kick in the ass and once i was lifted out of that dark hole i was more determined than ever to have a child or children lol what can i say i m an overachiever october 29th will always be a reminder of the sacrifice to be where we are today so very thankful posted by suzanne at 10 14 pm no comments monday october 28 2013 the evil that lurks in the shadows last year my husband and i got hooked on the tv series the walking dead if you haven t seen it it s a show about zombies this season it has taken a new twist and there is now a hemorrhagic plaque circulating around the survivor s compound like some evil being it lurks in the shadows and no one knows when or who it will choose as its next victim i ve begun to think of cancer as this evil we all go about our lives not knowing that cancer is lurking in the shadows will it choose me you your son or daughter your best friend over the last year i ve learned of several young children ages 2 10 who have been struck by this horrible disease they all live within 10 minutes of my house and i learned about all of them through the miracle of social media i ve often asked myself are there more cases of childhood cancer now or am i just hearing about it more because of social media s prevalence in our everyday lives after learning about every single one of the children i have followed their stories some are still battling that dark evil and some sadly have lost and with every story the heaviness of sorrow and fear weighs on my heart last month i attended a fundraiser for a little boy who has battled 3 different cancers in his short 10 years of life he is now partially paralyzed but he s alive at the event the mother of a remarkable young girl got up and spoke to the crowd her 10 year old daughter was scheduled to speak and the mother apologized that gabby recently had a treatment and was exhausted after attending a girl scouts retreat the day before i learned yesterday that gabriella passed away saturday night i never met her and for all intents and purposes her life had no link to mine yet i can t stop thinking about her now that i have 2 children of my own the thought of that evil choosing one of them scares me to pieces i can t imagine being a parent and watching your child have to endure the horrors of chemo radiation and endless drugs and then watching your child take his her last breaths on this earth part of me wishes 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