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just the swings on weekdays her bedtime routine involves a nappy change and getting into her pyjamas then tagging along for zyma s evening routine which now includes both a catheter and a nightly enema as we attempt to find a way to get her out of nappies for kindergarten she lies on z s bed watching the mobile while i cajole her sister into her pyjamas listens to z s bedtime story then goes onto the breast while i sing zyma her bedtime song the alphabet song over and over again if i m lucky she falls asleep in my arms and i can then transfer her straight to her bed where she ll stay asleep for maybe half an hour recently while my dad was visiting she actually didn t wake up and had her very first ever 5 hour stretch of sleep since then it s been very much hit or miss again though which i m putting down to teething yes that s right we have a tooth the first one came through at about 5 and a half months and it looks like number 2 is going to break through any day now spot the tooth luckily for us she remains a chill baby and doesn t seem to mind being put in the carrier every afternoon to pick her sister up from nursery she loves people and currently isn t showing any signs of being afraid of strangers as long as she s in mine or jan s arms she ll babble and coo away at anybody and complain if they don t respond she adores her big sister and most of herself giggles are in response to something z is doing the usual practice here is to start babies on little tastes of food at 4 months literally just an occasional smear on the end of a finger to get them used to different tastes now that she s six months old she s gradually getting larger amounts just a couple of teaspoons right now and she absolutely loves it particular favourites so far seem to be pumpkin sweet potato and parsnip along with sweet fruit purées but she hasn t really rejected anything z was happy to try all foods but she was about 16 months old before she would eat more than 3 4 spoonfuls of anything with the possible exception of croissants i had intended to stop breastfeeding at 1 year but ended up going to 2 just to make sure she was getting some nutrition so i m interested to see how our food journey continues with this one the next step is to introduce dairy eggs gluten and milk before her 9 month checkup apart from food and her sister she loves putting things in her mouth playing with the toys on her play gym anything that rattles or crackles and her own feet she can roll onto her tummy but has only managed to get back again 2 or 3 times and isn t quite able to sit fully unsupported yet but she s definitely getting there this age is a lot of fun and i m really enjoying watching her little personality emerge she s just starting to understand peekaboo and i m so excited to see what she s going to learn next tagged 6 month old aster baby girl second daughter 1 comment 4 months of aster friday 30 january 2026 friday 30 january 2026 by confuzzled bev posted in life i meant to write a 3 month post for aster but then came christmas x s birthday party and various appointments and just like that she s already 4 months and a half oops so it looks like we re doing this instead apart from the last two weeks when both kids were ill one after the other thanks jan for bringing that home we ve got into a solid routine over the last 4 months we all go to nursery together in the morning to drop zyma off then jan heads to work and aster and i either come straight home if she s asleep or go shopping she generally falls asleep halfway round the supermarket back home she goes into her bed still in her pram suit if she wakes when i get her out of the pram she has another feed before lying down some days she s up by 9 o clock but most of the time she sleeps until 11 then it s nappy change more milk and a play plus some forced tummy time she s not a fan but is tolerating it for longer and longer periods most days she gets another nap in before another feed and nappy change then it s into the carrier and off to pick up z some days she has to stay in there for a while as we head straight to the bus or tram for one of zyma s afternoon appointments luckily although she fusses while i m getting the straps etc sorted once she s in she s usually happy and often falls asleep some days sticking her in the carrier is the only way i can cook dinner when she refuses to lie on her mat or sit in her chair she is still obsessed with the boob and at her 4 month appointment she had gone from the 25th to almost the 50th percentile for weight she s roughly 50th for height as well she s 4 cm bigger than z was at her 4 month checkup we thought her september birthday versus z s december one would be enough of a difference to be able to use the clothes that zyma never wore because by the time she grew into them it was the wrong season not everyone thinks of that when buying bigger sizes as gifts but that only worked out for a few months right now she s in 3 6 months clothes which z was wearing in may june so i ve had to add a few long sleeved staples to the collection happy baby most of the time she s a very happy baby she has big smiles for everyone and loves chatting with us in her little baby way she also talks to the toys on her play gym and randomly every time she s on the changing mat she ll look to the left and babble away like mad we haven t managed to figure out what s caught her fancy in that corner of the room she does cry more than zyma did but that s not difficult considering z literally only cried for milk or from around 5 months when she had to go in the pram she was a nosey little thing and hated being on her back with only the sky to look at so far aster is perfectly happy in the pram but she does like to be entertained at home woe betide anyone who sits down with her for too long with nothing to keep her occupied she enjoys finger puppet books rattles and her own reflection and we recently discovered that she finds it hilarious when we put cutlery into the drawer she s slotted into the family perfectly and we all love her very much tagged aster baby baby girl four month old mama life 4 comments zyma is 4 thursday 1 january 2026 by confuzzled bev posted in disability parenting family life as always seems to be the case these days i m a little late with this but better later than never right two weeks ago our first daughter the one who made our dreams of being parents finally come true turned 4 it only seems like yesterday we were in hospital with a tiny newborn wondering when we would be given the all clear to take her home and now she s a preschooler age 3 was a big year for zyma she got her wheelchair in october of last year and took to it like a duck to water in may 2025 we flew with it for the first time and she got to show most of her extended family how well she can use it hills are of course still a challenge but when she s feeling motivated she ll give them a good go she also had the chance to test a posterior walker in june and she did so well with it that we applied for her to get her very own the application was approved in july but after many delays on the manufacturer s side it only finally arrived a week before her birthday so this year s task is to motivate her to practice walking with it regularly for the last few months she s also been attending a weekly play group with another girl her age who is also in a wheelchair she s starting to realise that not being able to stand isn t the norm at hers age and it s been really good for her to see that she s not the only one at the same time she moved up a group at nursery and is so proud to be a big preschooler and no longer a toddler next comes kindergarten which is the start of obligatory education in switzerland unlike german kindergarten which is nursery or daycare in switzerland it s more along the lines of pre school similar to reception class in the uk having got lucky and skipped the terrible twos we definitely had some threenager behaviour to deal with this year this girl is too clever for her own good and has an answer for everything a lot of the time you can t fault her logic either but the answer is still no most of it is fairly harmless though and her worst behaviour is almost always a result of being overtired becoming a big sister has obviously been a major upheaval but she s taken it very much in her stride she absolutely adores aster and loves helping out with her a little too much sometimes poor baby just has to stir slightly in her sleep and she s being woken up by a very enthusiastic big sister cuddle i m extremely proud of how wet she s adjusted to no longer being an only child she s so kind caring generous and friendly if it weren t for the fact that i see my mother in some of her facial expressions i would wonder whether the doctors transferred the wrong embryo she certainly doesn t get her sunny personality from me i m happy to take credit for her imagination though listening to her make up stories about what her dolls are doing takes me right back to my own childhood the year from age 3 to 4 has seen zyma change from a toddler into a proper little girl and i can t wait to see what she does next tagged birthday post four year old mama life preschooler zyma 4 comments one month of aster monday 20 october 2025 by confuzzled bev posted in life i can t believe in writing this it only feels like a couple of days since i posted that she was here but somehow aster turned 1 month old on friday so far she s a mostly chilled baby apart from struggling with gas something we never had with zyma she ll struggle and strain then finally push out something that a grown man would be proud of we re currently hoping that it s just because of an immature digestive system and it s will gradually get better the midwife said it s normal and recommended massage she still has day and night confused so she ll want to eat every two hours all night long buy can happier sleep for 3 or 3 5 hour stretches during the day useful for getting z out of the house not so much for my sleep deprivation usually we go back to bed after dropping zyma off at nursery today aster gave me an hour before wanting milk to be fair it had been nearly 3 hours since her last feed then she stayed awake grunting and complaining so i brought her to the living room where she wouldn t disturb jan after a nappy change she promptly started crying for more milk she s a proper boob monster i thought z liked her mama milk but this one has her beat hands down as a result she s also been gaining weight like a champ and has already outgrown most of her newborn clothes z was in size 50 until about 2 months zyma is an amazing big sister gentle helpful and caring so far we ve had no issues with jealousy the only thing we need to work on is getting her to sleep through the night again and stay in her own bed since i was in hospital she s developed some kind of separation anxiety and keeps telling us she can t be alone and she doesn t like her bed on the rare occasion that aster goes longer between night feeds z starts crying for me at 3 a m and ends up in the big bed with us look mama she s holding my finger overall things are going well i say having literally just dealt with an hour and a half of fussing the gas situation seems to be slowly improving at least last night she slept peacefully in between two hourly feeds without having to be on me and we re gradually settling into a routine i ve yet to figure out how to get out of the house by myself with both girls i can t push both the pram and z s wheelchair at the same time but luckily jan has another month off so there s still some time and by then a will hopefully be big enough to go in the carrier now the baby has finally fallen asleep which means i can actually put her down and make my breakfast there s a cup of tea with my name on it begging to be made tagged aster baby girl life with a newborn mama life my girls siblings zyma 4 comments she is here sunday 21 september 2025 by confuzzled bev posted in life literally the day after i wrote my last post i went for a growth ultrasound since the abdominal measurement was on the small side the doctor decided to see whether she could get me in for the c section at 38 weeks instead and so daughter number two made her entrance into the world on 17 september 2025 at 2 55 p m we are home now everyone is doing well and zyma is a very proud night sister this time around we re going with aster as her blog name it s the birth flower for september and also means star in greek tagged aster baby girl birth announcement daughter number 2 zyma s sister 6 comments still here still pregnant tuesday 9 september 2025 by confuzzled bev posted in life and now jan has kindly given me a cold so i ve got a headache temperature and constant sneezing on top of the aches and pains i already had c section is scheduled for 24 september so we re onto the final countdown and entirely new territory z was born at 37 weeks so after tomorrow i ll be the most pregnant i ve ever been please keep your fingers crossed that nothing goes wrong in these last two weeks it s all been such smooth sailing so far that i can t believe the universe doesn t have something in store for me tagged almost baby time ill ivf ivf pregnancy pregnancy the final countdown third trimester 3 comments melting tuesday 24 june 2025 by confuzzled bev posted in life other people hooray summer is finally here me noo make it stop it was 35 c on sunday today it s a slightly more reasonable 28 but we re looking at highs of 36 tomorrow i can only hope this heatwave ends soon tagged heatwave not built for this weather summer too hot 6 comments 25 weeks 4 days sunday 22 june 2025 by confuzzled bev posted in life thank you everyone for the comments on my last post i should really get round to answering those as you can probably guess from the title i m 25 weeks and 4 days pregnant today last time this was the day that zyma had her operation it s so strange to be having a normal pregnancy we had an extra ultrasound at nearly 18 weeks then the usual 20 week ultrasound both showed no indication of spina bifida the brain and spine both look fine and there are no signs of any other anomalies at this point either i m already over a week passed viability and on friday i passed the gestational diabetes test so now i have no more appointments until 29th july when i ll be 30 weeks and 6 days it would have been slightly earlier but the doctor i see for my ultrasounds is on holiday so they gave me the next available appointment with her she specifically said i should request her the boss because of my past history so now i get to just enjoy my pregnancy how strange tagged pregnancy viability unlocked 7 comments posts navigation older posts welcome to confuzzledom 30 something eek how did that happen english woman living in switzerland with my german boyfriend mama to two teeny stars in the sky born too soon at 16 weeks 4 days and to zyma born ...