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oid having to god forbid welcome guests at the front door of my building inevitably as our evenings wore on and the liquor warmed our bellies and softened our logic we would begin to pass my ipod in a small circle each of us having to pick our favorite sad song or our favorite dance song or the song we used to play on repeat when we went through bad breakups years before and at least in someone s case i m looking in my direction right now perhaps got a little carried away in a bad journaling phase by the next morning i could seldom recall how we concluded this game but my ipod history would indicate i reverted to tori amos again and everyone knows it s been a successful evening when you end up crying to china in your beer and your bathrobe if only those cheerleaders from high school could see me now come march i had figured out that the local domino s was open 24 hours for delivery which if you know anything about trying to eat late night in boston is all but unheard of in this town and while domino s might not be your idea of fine dining i still consider the olive garden date i went on for my 9th grade homecoming to be one of the fanciest i ve ever had so upscale is a relative term after john and evan would leave me and fade out into the black winter streets i would ring up domino s for an order of breadsticks two cokes and three sides of marinara i had this order down to a science as i had perfectly deduced the ratio of soda sips to breadsticks to marinara dips required to complete the ultimate midnight eating in bed experience this routine was operating like a well oiled machine until one night upon receiving my delivery order i discovered that the marinara had not quite made its way into my takeout bag well this would not do one cannot create a symphony in their mouth when half of the orchestra is napping in the green room i called domino s and told them what happened before requesting they come back and redeliver the marina sauces understandably they weren t too keen on this idea as driving out to someone s home at 1 o clock in the morning to drop off three small containers of marinara doesn t in theory sound like the best use of someone else s time that said my theory is that breadsticks simply cannot be eaten without complimentary dipping sauces and while the 50 of my next order offer was tempting i turned it down in favor of the marinara it s okay i said i can wait 30 minutes went by 45 an hour i called back hi i called earlier about the missing marinara can you give me a status update on an arrival time you still want us to come out there it was clear they had deemed me such an inexperienced snacker that they wrongly assumed i would eventually give up and fall asleep or even forget about the mishap all together and eat my breadsticks without any sauce no it doesn t work like that i m not good at most things but if snacking is a sport i m the whole goddamned olympic universe housed in one hungry body dripping in gold medal tin wrapped chocolates i stressed again that yes i would still like for someone to deliver the marinara and yes i would be happy to continue waiting 30 minutes went by 45 i called for the third time they assured me they were on their way and finally as the clock neared 3 00am i received my marinara the story would end there if i had simply gone on to eat the breadsticks in bed resumed day to day life the next morning and then like clockwork waited for john and evan to be in touch so we could pretend for a moment that we were going to entertain the idea of doing anything else but reconvening at my house on the approaching saturday but the story doesn t end there because while all of these things did happen after the wine was drunk the firewood burned purple rain performed in a bathrobe on top of an ottoman when it came time for me to call in my delivery order domino s refused to answer the phone i let it ring until the automated operator came on and politely advised me to hang up i tried again i tried again i tried again i called another domino s to ask if my domino s was closed no they assured me let me transfer you over more ringing more ringing the kind but assertive operator again domino s wasn t answering my calls and it was just established that domino s was indeed open 1 1 domino s was screening me apparently the marinara incident left the staff so irate they flagged my phone number in their database a few weeks later i made another desperate attempt to be reunited with my breadstick and marinara order this time elated as i was when they answered the phone my hopes were just as quickly dashed when upon reciting my phone number to the guy on the other end of the line i was told they were currently on a seven hour wait when your estimated delivery time is quoted to take longer than the time it would take to fly to europe it s safe to assume your business probably isn t wanted anymore i don t fault domino s for this i imagine had it been me charged with delivering marinara to a lady in an oversized bathrobe at 3 o clock in the morning upon returning to headquarters i would have likely suggested we help said lady out in the long run by cutting her off from our services like now and in fact i might even owe domino s a thank you as being involuntarily weaned from my late night addiction made zipping up by jeans much easier once may came to town and the bathrobe was retired to the trash can recently i was talking to my father and telling him how relieved i was that spring had arrived in the northeast i gave him the speech about how emotionally exhausting the winter was how it kept everyone locked up and hidden away from meaningful human interaction and how now that summer was on its way i was committed to being a better me by spending more time at the farmers market stepping up my exercise routine and registering for a 10 day juice cleanse the farmers market i used to visit has moved and i have no idea to where i tried the juice cleanse but by day two i was sneaking chips and not telling anyone i went for a run earlier this week but half way down the street i tripped on a brick and busted my knee open a little boy walking nearby pointed and laughed his dad told him to be quiet it was too late so when all else failed i decided to try my hand at culturecube again i remember liking it here maybe even more than breadsticks posted by culturecube at 2 56 pm 1 comment tuesday june 17 2014 it s me culturecube i have lived in my current apartment for five years next month mostly i love it it has a working fireplace hardwood floors big bay windows with a killer view and a bathtub also within twenty paces outside of my front door i can find the dry cleaners the hardware store which sells great candles and hand soap coincidentally the deli the liquor store and the pharmacy where i usually buy aspirin on the mornings after i ve visited the liquor store in my most recent past life i had jumped between four apartments within the same amount of years which left me exhausted resentful and swearing up and down that when i found my next place i would stay put and time has shown that i did in fact do just that there are things about this place i m not crazy about those big bay windows are lovely in the summertime but come winter the ledges are often coated with snow on the inside meaning i literally shovel indoors my kitchen is nothing more than a tiny counter space with a small stove top and an attached mini fridge i haven t purchased a pint of ice cream or put ice in my drink since 2009 the building is old which means it has character but also means dust bunnies are weekly critters to be managed in addition to the occasional mouse which one time found its way into my oven just as i reached inside to retrieve a baking dish i had intended for nachos i still sometimes cringe at what would have been had i elected to preheat the bathtub isn t particularly deep and the paint is chipping around the drain exposing rust and many layers of lead that i m sure can t be good for you but almost every night since i first dropped my bags here i have bathed in it a few years ago i dated a guy i met at a book club gathering which turned out to be less about books and more about booze i was head over heels mad for him and i m fairly certain that those feelings were driven in large part by not only his willingness to indulge me but his actual enjoyment of baths too he found the soaking to be as meditative and clearing as i did and we would wake up on saturday mornings pick up chocolate milkshakes from the deli and sit in the tub talking and waiting for the water to cool and naturally drain a bit before filling it back up and continuing on with what felt like the perfect weekend activity there were even the occasional nights when we would come home build a makeshift stand beside the tub prop up the computer on top and watch old episodes of murder she wrote on netflix with the lights off like our own personal drive in except the car was a bath and clothing was prohibited there was no sex and truly no want for it in that space just the bath the conversation the chocolate milkshakes and our pruned digits it was pure bliss somewhere in there we started fighting i threw a tube of lipstick at him outside of a restaurant he moved to los angeles and i cried out loud to a friend do you know how rare it is to find someone who wants to watch tv in the bathtub with you i replaced the milkshakes with beer and sulked many a night in the murky soapy water the ends of my hair getting wet but never fully submerging my head because i didn t have the energy to actually wash it anymore it was love and heartbreak and all the shit that comes along with it housed in this old porcelain bin it s the church of this apartment and i ve worshiped and repented there religiously since our introduction earlier this week after a day at work and a night of forcing myself through a podcast while i ironed in an ill fated attempt to be smarter despite my debilitating boredom i made my way to the bathroom to pee take a bath and go to bed and then just as i pulled back the shower curtain to run the water i saw him he was big and black and definitely not a man waiting to watch tv with me he was a cockroach and the first of his kind that i have encountered in my apartment since inhabiting it i can say unequivocally that on my top ten list reasons i like boston more than texas the absence of cockroaches in ones home depending on the time of year you might be asking falls somewhere between the 2 and 4 spot i would rather have a run in with a rat than a roach and i mean that with every last drop of sincerity in my body this horrible creature was in my bathtub my safe haven scattering all over its surfaces leaving its vile disgusting unholy mark on my church it was like watching the person you love get another girl s initials tattooed on their arm and i had no choice but to throw myself in front of the needle as a woman of 34 who lives on her own my cabinets don t house things like bug spray and wd 40 i m typical and perhaps a tad repugnant in that i use storage for things like too many samples of eye cream books i forgot to read and serving utensils for that dinner party that i swear one day i m actually going to host the closest weapon i have for which i can assault a cockroach is a travel size bottle of cheap hairspray that i smuggled home from a hotel room once upon a i don t know when and as a woman of 34 who lives on her own on this night i found my full body outside of the bathroom doorway while i aimlessly waved my arm inside attempting to take down a cockroach from the walls of my bathtub with a can of loreal professional hold this went on for a good five minutes or so me peeking my head in to evaluate his position aiming spraying watching him wiggle and seethe regaining his footing and starting the whole process over again finally at some point he caved behind a small tub side stool falling out of my line of sight i stood there a bit longer waiting for him to reemerge but he stayed hidden not letting me know if he was dead or alive or really alive and just waiting for me to turn my back before he came looking for revenge i didn t dare venture into the bathroom to look for myself i was too afraid so i retreated to my bedroom still desperately needing to pee but unwilling to put myself in harms way and thus deciding worst case scenario i could go in the water bottle by my bed in the middle of the night i closed the door piled pillows up around the bottom crack and buried myself under the sheets to wait out the night this is the moment when there is no one to call no one cares that there is a bug in your bath tub no one wants to hear that despite how stupid it sounds and you know how stupid it sounds you re afraid to go to sleep you re contemplating unrinating in a bottle because you re so afraid no one is around at 11 o clock at night to talk you through your nonsense it is in this same moment that you are transported back to another apartment the one in which you lived when you were 24 years old in texas one week after you and your first love broke up at a sonic drive thru at midnight on a saturday you said we can t do this anymore while desperately ringing the car hop because you knew you were going to need that route 44 cherry lime aid and tater tot order stat if you had any hope of getting through it in one piece you re in your bed again and there is another cockroach scurrying across your floor and you can t kill it you re too afraid and the boyfriend is gone you re alone there is no one to call now you don t cry but you re overcome with sadness as you remember the essay you read where the author quoted his friend who had just lost someone she loved she said i have plenty of people to do things with i miss having someone to do nothing with you sleep with the light on the next morning back inside of my barricaded bedroom i pulled back the pillows from door crept out of my room and very very slowly made my way into the bathroom to see if my previous evening s dueling partner was mortally wounded by the tub i couldn t spot him so i kept on delicately moving the shower curtain gently pushing aside the bathmat carefully lifting the towels there was nothing he had escaped and here s the bit i stumbled over again as i painfully regained the courage to reach inside my cabinet for my toothbrush wash my face with one eye open and finally finally finally pee i do this every day every day i do this i go to work i carry heavy groceries home i walk my dog at 6am when it s snowing out i assemble my own furniture and i ve even taught myself how to install an air conditioner i m pretty damn self sufficient women like me will meet you for a beer tell you that they re happy they re proud and for the most part i believe them i really do and they should be because they ve earned that but i also believe that women like me still wait for the person who will 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