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ink pulp soul skip to content primary menu ink pulp soul search for close menu home about contact links out recent posts sonic flux capacitor protected 32nd protected love from home a birthday reflection protected how much categories books 8 brain fart 23 daydream 3 dreams 5 drunk writing 2 faux aphorism 9 faux philosophy 11 favorite feelings 3 internet finds 1 movies 1 poetry 33 post mortem 10 real time chronicling 20 reviews 5 sort of egocentric 8 strangers 2 uncategorized 13 archives august 2023 1 august 2020 1 march 2020 1 august 2015 1 july 2015 1 december 2014 1 september 2014 1 june 2014 1 may 2014 1 april 2014 1 march 2014 4 november 2013 1 august 2012 1 may 2012 3 april 2012 3 march 2012 1 february 2012 1 january 2012 7 november 2011 1 may 2011 3 april 2011 1 march 2011 4 february 2011 1 january 2011 1 november 2010 1 october 2010 2 september 2010 1 august 2010 4 july 2010 4 june 2010 4 may 2010 6 april 2010 5 march 2010 3 february 2010 5 december 2009 1 november 2009 5 october 2009 4 september 2009 12 august 2009 5 july 2009 2 june 2009 1 august 2008 1 twitter tweets by haczardous follow my blog with bloglovin paghinto at pagnilay dito ko nais manatili kung saan ang tunog ay tunog at ang letra ay letra lamang walang kahulugan walang panghuhusga sa yapos ng mahabaging panglaw 2 comments featured czar carbonel sonic flux capacitor i have been building a time machine no this is not the stuff of sci fi and no it is not that back to the future type of time machine but still a legitimate perfectly working one it all started in 2009 when i decided to do an artist of a bi month in an effort to expand my musical tastes i set forth a goal to pick a new unfamiliar artist and to listen to that artist for two full months so apparently i ve been building a time machine all this time when i listen to dave matthews band for example i get transported back to my 23 year old self first month at ogilvy seated in neo room bathed in the soft yellow light i was doing overtime for some of my advertising accounts i was with friends being silly and i was still doe eyed with advertising so i was having a blast when i listen to cornelius i get transported back to the dubai airport in 2016 i had this very long layover ogilvy brought me to berlin to a global conference where i felt like a misfit too young inexperienced insecure i was in that small white pod working on candy shield i was cringing about the things that happened in the past weeks when i listen to dirty projectors i get transported back to starbucks sm bicutan circa february 2019 post breakup with zac my eyes were tomatoes i needed to go to a coffee shop to force myself to work lorde brings me back to first few days of quarantine ari lennox brings me back to vietnam and the memories of when i was texting with a boy i met in ny stan getz brings me back to my first few months when i just got my condo and i felt independent and proud and as i write this i m listening to digable planets carving another time machine in my brain comment august 15 2023 august 7 2025 czar carbonel protected 32nd this content is password protected to view it please enter the password below password august 4 2020 august 4 2020 czar carbonel protected love from home this content is password protected to view it please enter the password below password march 31 2020 march 31 2020 czar carbonel a birthday reflection today marks my 27th revolution around the sun this marker while inherently insignificant is a good reminder to reflect about how the self has fared as a human being here s a list of the things i ve learned about life thus far business taught me that there are opportunities everywhere and spotting those opportunities are easy enough if you want them enough having money taught me the value of financial leverage how money is not the end but merely a means failing at work taught me that failing is a necessary pain to understand better and that the best reaction to failure is in two parts acceptance and clear next steps to move forward to do better voraciously reading for leisure taught me how to love learning new ideas and perspectives and that apparently this has been my secret weapon in treading life being kind without agenda pure thoughts words and actions taught me how it is the only principle that is an absolute positive you can never go wrong with kindness both to others and to yourself constant reflection and introspection taught me to question why i do what i do and how i can add real value to the world it has taught me to not take things as it is to question to challenge constant reflection and introspection also taught me that life cannot be predicted no matter how hard you plan or dream unconditional love for my family taught me how to bite my tongue how to be patient how to forgive that these things that i do to them they do to me too and these actions strengthen our love for each other more i hope to learn more things in the next revolutions around the sun so help me universe comment august 4 2015 august 8 2015 czar carbonel protected how much this content is password protected to view it please enter the password below password july 18 2015 july 18 2018 czar carbonel puberty at 26 this entry is self indulgent pardon the excessive egocentricity that will ensue music 1 after everything i ve been through this 2014 health just took its toll now on the 12th month merry christmas last weekend i forced my body to do all these things hang with friends take a shot on love write 6 briefs do yoga and moonlight it was too much i knew something will fold and my immune system did 2 i cannot write with beautiful words anymore the writer self is now just a part of my past buried with the memories unretrievable now i write in such a functional transactional manner magic has disappeared ain t that statement a bit meta to disappear is like magic and magic to disappear is magic about magic is this an obituary for the writer self am i giving up that is not a question 3 26 is such a strange state i feel so old so old more and more i spend time reminiscing reading old emails and conversations i ve forgotten so much already that this happened that i felt that way etc etc the exercise is like observing the self from a 3rd person point of view as if the old self had will had a mind of its own that you cannot control mindfuckful and this this must be a relatively new feeling born in the 21st century people from the previous generations don t have the luxury to read through their past conversations letters would be the analogue version but chats and emails are more real time thus are able to portray the unfiltered self more and reading them is like spying on the past self detachedly from the present 26 is such a strange state i ve never been this obsessed with aging and i know it will just get worse i m not yet liking this business of getting old i guess i m not yet that old so it will get worse then hopefully it will get better 4 comments december 3 2014 june 15 2015 czar carbonel whenever i read your poems i hear imagine your distinct raspy voice and when i think about it maybe i ve heard your imagined voice more than the actual comment september 24 2014 december 3 2014 czar carbonel mga salita kagabi hindi ako makatulog kaya binasa ko uli ang lahat iyong mga tula at nagpanggap na ako ang dalaga sa mga sinulat mong taludtod hanggang sa naghalo ang katha sa tunay at lalong di napawi ang aking antok comment june 13 2014 czar carbonel a belated coming of age the brain has bloomed late but at least it did it reminisces the days when it worked hard without necessarily understanding what it was doing when it was content with performing on spec while unburdened by the ignorance of the big picture when doing things was for the self maybe for the family and friends but it ended there when it learned and memorized with grit and zest but never connected how the self can use this knowledge to achieve a bigger goal beyond the self the brain has forgotten most things from the past perhaps because it learned them without a purpose in mind but now it is blooming it is feeling wonderfully enlightened when it remembers or understands it tries not to take things as it is now questions are commonplace it probes how the self can genuinely add value to the work how can her skills contribute to society comment may 18 2014 august 21 2014 czar carbonel thoughts why nations fail by acemoglu and robinson sparked my newfound love for history i ve learned how much society s economic and political dynamics were influenced by critical junctures of the past but reading about history also gave me an impression that the struggle for the past centuries was mostly man vs man fast forward to today societies now are more self aware and are gradually evolving to have a proper check and balance in place to eschew oligarchic control and to encourage innovations the struggle is slowly shifting out of man vs man over time i m confident that the world will take care of itself and the invisible hand will reign especially since globalization and technology are inevitable forces and they make ideas travel faster thus making people smarter thus making it hard for the elites to rule and extract from the mass also we prioritize solving man vs man because it directly affects how we live our lives now this is an optimistically bold statement but my gut tells me to give it a maximum of a century or 2 and global societal peace will happen organically however one thing that is not getting better over time organically is climate change just because we can t yet feel the effects now we ignore it s the elephant in the room that can crush us all but for the few who care they know how the scale and intensity of its impact will take a toll on how the future generations will live their lives the man vs man struggle will gradually improve over time but man vs nature a much much difficult struggle is already within a stone s reach we need to act fast and act now as of now i don t know yet what to do how to go about this the insight just came to me now midway the book but there are a lot of things to do including researching and immersing myself in the issue comment april 13 2014 april 28 2014 czar carbonel posts navigation older posts create a free website or blog at wordpress com ink pulp soul create a free website or blog at wordpress com subscribe subscribed ink pulp soul sign me up already have a wordpress com account log in now privacy ink pulp soul subscribe subscribed sign up log in report this content view site in reader manage subscriptions collapse this bar loading comments write a comment email required name required website design a site like this with wordpress com get started