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da thinking dee skip to main skip to sidebar da thinking dee tuesday june 16 2009 the one with the new job this is my second day of my new job i m still a lil bit nervous though and sometimes i have this sinking feeling that one day the truth will prevail but i will continue pray to the allmighty that all ends well my desire to start a new life has to prolong just to see that light at the end of the turnel life here is ok so far i will try not to say that it is ok ok because i s still new however lastnite during dinner i had my first taste of office politics before i went to bed lastnite i was thinking of what i can do to not entangled myself in this dangerous and fatal web i guess being a low profile personale will eventually help but i rather be someone who is low profile and at the same time contribute as many as i can to my institution so i listed down so many things that im thinking of completing today not to impress my boss but to have that satisfaction knowing i have all the know hows of things do wish me luck posted by mizz dee at 8 17 am 1 comment the one with the new job posted by mizz dee at 8 16 am no comments thursday april 23 2009 the one with jobs hi peep i ve been so tired i was supposed to be ok here with or without jobs but why is job hunting be so tiring and time consuming in sarawak at times i ve come to a conclusion that job hunting is just sooo frustrating in sarawak you will have to be 1 the big guy s son or daughter or even sibblings to secure a good job or 2 i have to be a of a specific group of people to be able to secure a good job sigh posted by mizz dee at 4 51 pm no comments tuesday april 14 2009 the one with regrets i was all over my facebook frens today and realized that some of them which i ve known from my previous work place are married wow browsing through their photos really make me see that there were steps taken in my life was a risky ones i had a blast while working there for about a year until the devil herself whispered in my ears that i shud change my direction so i did and i regret it even more now i lost my frens and although some gets really close now i know there is a reason behind everything that happened in our life but yeah i sure missed those people talking about the devil gosh how did i ever get so blinded by her ulterior motive scheming little b h she convinced me that what i did is truly right when she gain everything from it damn she definately twisted me around her little finger and i cudnt see that coming what happened then was unmistakenly cheating the very core of eternal life the devil was a lady who is so good at covering herself literally but i ve never met someone who is so obsessed with witchcraft and spell and potion and charm she talked as if she was the victim yet she was the predator and we awere the live bait we turned our back from our frens yeah i have to admit that where there are good frens there is definately bad boss but frenship arghhh frenship is something else people scanning through there photos i wanted so much to drop a few comment but i cudnt bring myself to say a few wordsnot even a congratulation upon their wedding seeing how happy they were i just cudnt bring myself to spoilt whatever mood they are in sighh i just missed those times of silliness posted by mizz dee at 4 20 pm no comments thursday february 26 2009 i never thought that i ll be around to write this but heck it is always a pleasure to channel my unstoppable thought through this page anyway i ve just celebrated my my 32th birthday and yeah the number aint pretty but thats the fact also i need to share my joy of having arya into our life is such a blessing to everyone and i ll never be happier than i already am busy well is there any post that i forget to say the damned word i guess i ll be busy as long as i live and hence the phrase rest in peace is rather approprite for a tombstone because that is the exact time to rest for someone as busy as i am as for my last post i ve mentioned a friend in a far far away land and yeah things a good now there is always a small corner of hope that things will be better in the future but who am i to be such hopeful well to tell everyone the truth life is clearer now i can see my direction although it is still blurry i now know the reason to be back home and can almost taste what will happen next which i wish some good things posted by mizz dee at 3 05 pm no comments thursday november 6 2008 the one with the faraway friend second post for the day i know you might wonder why i took the trouble again to write another entree it is something that has been eating me up lately and it has been weeks in fact you see since i ve been home i decided to shut my utterly hot phone number because i just want to be undisturbed by unknown callers and of course some other reasons so i ve registered a new number which only family and very very special friends know when i mentioned very special friends it is not necessarily means male friends ok or perhaps let me just say closest friends among this closest friend is a guy friend whom i never even meet in real life our paths crossed in facebook and since then we ve been texting each other phone calls well a couple of time he is away right now unreachable physically and thats why we seldom talk so what s with the faraway friend of mine well it is hard to say but i m worried he took me wrongly do i care about him yes i do like i care about all my friends regardless male or female to him if he read this dont be scared of me because i meant no harm i m not asking anything that you cant give me and friendship is good enough i m not asking for commitment i just want someone to talk to you might wonder why i like you to be my friend or maybe you just dont want to know but i ll take my chance it is simple because we are far apart you in ireland and i m here loyal to my malaysia it is easier talking to someone we never met and talk to someone who wont judge us the way other people do it allows us to keep some secrets to ourselves rather than placing everything on our sleeves why you you might wonder but why not you i guess guys is easier to talk to than gals gals tend to be emotional over thing but a guy rationalize me which i really need at the moment i ve been through lots of thing and my mind is as fragile as a glass i guess it is true that male is a stronger creation of god and that is why i needed you to be y friend just dont take me the wrong way posted by mizz dee at 4 36 pm no comments the one with the age factor do you still remember what you did when you re 26 well i was browsing through some acquaintance s facebook and realized how much fun she had and suddenly like a block of ice something hit me straight to the heart i remembered how much different life was at my 26 i dont go out partying and i dont even go out on a date i was some of you can say innocence in intepreting life but the truth is i was until i met him thats where i screwed up big time anyway now at 31 going 32 after several years of making more and more mistakes and unthoughtful decision i realized i ve changed in many ways although my mum won t agree to that emotionally i am more relax especially in facing life s obstacles not because im getting wise through age as some might say but i dont really have much choice but to ignore my anxiety and panic and face life like a cool girl physically well i wont talk much about this because we cant fight the fact that our physical anatomy will loose its strength somehow although i still wonder how marie osmonds did her dancing even after 8 children and at the age of 48yrs i guess she has been through alot too and being a single mother doesnt deter her from doing things she enjoys probably it is different here with the culture and mentality differences single mothers are expected to mourn their loneliness and singledom to their grave arghh this is something i wished change in our life im not saying that single mothers should rebel and run pickets to determine their rights in the community but a slight positiveness towards life wont harm it is good for the children too but either way im frustrated sexually well a taboo subject still but behind every good reasons any phychologist gave there is some truth to it as we grow old sex is more sacred and more emotionally involved and as they said again at this age it is the best of the bestest time hmm what do you think i have no idea anyway lets talk about the physical side of life yeah blame it on the hormon but again it s nature way of pulling our legs telling us w should never forget to take care of ourself how difficult can that be hmm very actually especially if you have a demanding lifestyle with career stood tall in your life s priority but all that can be changed if we want it to utterly change to a way we wanted it to be right now i am the red circle in the middle of the dart board waiting to be jabbed and scrutinized and i can feel the anxiety attacking me again why well it is something i cant tell you here because it is too personal but i wish i can talk to someone about it but i do have someone that i can trust with my life to tell all i m scared and still am wondering what else will come this week alone has proved to be such a nerve wrecking week and i dont have a place to hide all i can do is stood there and face the blow blow by blow i dont know whether i have to cry or if i can even cry at all im just too numb to say anything or maybe this is how it should be years ago i dont know posted by mizz dee at 4 09 pm no comments older posts home subscribe to posts atom about me mizz dee much detail about me has been written in my first post everyone who are interested in knowing the real me can browse through it view my complete profile photo gallery fresh and hotty recent books i read patricia cornwell trace martin g friedman straight talk for men about marriage tiki kustenmacher how to simplify your life recent movies i 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