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d on march 16 2021 by dreamshadow59 0 wow what a hangover i m afraid i may have partied just a wee bit too much on my birthday yesterday i ve already had 3 guinness and 3 shots of grey goose trying to undo last night s festivities finally i am beginning to feel almost human again i must say though i really know how to throw a party this morning i woke up in my thong naked on the floor with my hand next to a guinness bottle unfortunately i don t remember much about last night other than i had a lot of guests over i remember a piñata made of a naked man with lifelike genitalia bella made a bob for apples bin with vodka instead of water that may have been where i started to go astray i was told that i played my guitar and sang for about 50 of my closest friends and neighbors that i don t remember at all hopefully i didn t scare anybody hahahaha i am beginning to feel good now as i just had another beer with a chaser i figure since wednesday is st patty s day i might as well carry it over until then anyway no big plans for tonight i m just gonna chill with bella and maybe play some strip poker it s not really who wins it s who remembers what they did when the game is over today is a beautiful day out with the temp still a little chilly around 57 degrees i m sitting out by the pool typing this while sippin and relaxin you ve gotta love these lazy crazy days god s in his heaven and all s right with the world i really can t think of anything else to say except i m not telling you how old i am so don t even ask after looking in the mirror i ve discovered even though i still look maaavelous i am no spring chicken anymore yikes i hate that anyway i hope that all of you are also having a great day no matter what you re doing love to all until later share this share on x opens in new window x share on facebook opens in new window facebook share on reddit opens in new window reddit share on pinterest opens in new window pinterest print opens in new window print email a link to a friend opens in new window email share on tumblr opens in new window tumblr share on linkedin opens in new window linkedin like loading posted in sensuality sooz s diary sooz s thoughts the legend of lake killarney posted on march 5 2021 by dreamshadow59 0 once upon a time a long time ago in a far off land i just love that opening there was a beautiful forest deep within the forest was a beautiful lake surrounded by a postcard sky with a landscape including a crystalline blue lake and a glass like appearance it was almost surreal legend had it that once a very handsome soldier was killed in battle and discarded in the lake his name was liam a proud irish boy he was from cork county strong with flowing red hair and a personality to match he had risen quickly in rank to a captain s post in the irish guard and was known for miles around as not only being fierce on the battlefield but also a kind and compassionate leader being so well liked he was called on often to help negotiate village disputes and skirmishes throughout the land one day when the guard was called out to negotiate a truce between two warring counties a skirmish broke out fighting was heavy on all sides and while liam held his own a tall and powerful man threw him to the ground and with his sword he ran him through he was dead with a snidely laugh the huge man wrapped liam s body in a blanket attached to his steed found a large millstone and tied it to his ankles he then dragged liam to the lake with a rowboat he saw on the dock he went out to the center and again bellowed as he dropped liam s dead body into the cold waters the tale of liam and the battle at lake killarney spread throughout the villages when a poor town s girl named claire received the news she was devastated secretly claire and liam were engaged to be married and when she heard the news she dropped to her knees and prayed that it wasn t true for days she stayed in her hut crying and staring out over the pines to where the lake had taken her soon to be husband people came but she wouldn t get out of bed to receive them all she could think about was his smiling face and how they used to cuddle as they would talk by the hearth and plan their wedding finally she could stand it no longer walking to the lake she wiped the tears from her eyes looked into the void of the vast lake and decided what she must do she walked into the cold waters of lake killarney and kept walking until was she was totally consumed by the lake legend has it that on moon lit nights as the dew blankets the water the two lovers can be seen holding hands and walking upon the lake s still waters once again united keeping lake killarney safe for all those who set upon her serene waters now and for ever more share this share on x opens in new window x share on facebook opens in new window facebook share on reddit opens in new window reddit share on pinterest opens in new window pinterest print opens in new window print email a link to a friend opens in new window email share on tumblr opens in new window tumblr share on linkedin opens in new window linkedin like loading posted in creative story uncategorized is covid 19 real posted on november 28 2020 by dreamshadow59 0 the answer to this question is yes while there are many people out there who still reject this claim 1 45 million people have succumbed to this deadly disease 61 9 million people have contracted it and over 11 000 new deaths reported just today the american people seem to have been hit hardest by this pandemic and why the answer is simple we americans don t like to be told what to do by anyone many people are disregarding the guidelines of wearing masks social distancing and limiting large social gatherings look i understand the not being told thing concept here but come on people millions of our own kind are dying almost every health organization has issued stern warnings and guidelines but are people listening no this isn t just the flu folks yes many say that the flu kills also and that certainly the older more infirm once contracting it can also die but never in such numbers worldwide i beg all of you who read this article please follow the cdc guidelines so that many more people can live hopefully there will be a nationwide vaccine shortly distributed that will either eliminate this deadly threat or at least if contracted will greatly reduce its symptoms please people let s not play chicken with your lives or the lives of others we are all human beings and we all deserve to live don t let our own egos and self absorbed facts lead us to total annihilation i for one am totally ready to get back to normal let s do what we need to do in order to accomplish this needed goal thank you until later share this share on x opens in new window x share on facebook opens in new window facebook share on reddit opens in new window reddit share on pinterest opens in new window pinterest print opens in new window print email a link to a friend opens in new window email share on tumblr opens in new window tumblr share on linkedin opens in new window linkedin like loading posted in uncategorized tagged covid 19 national geek day posted on july 13 2020 by dreamshadow59 0 that s right folks today is national geek day don t be confused however the term geek also includes the nerd brainiac or people that are out there believe it or not it s the geeks that run this country take dr fauci bill gates and tim cook of apple for example these are the geeks who have transformed and set the precedent for many new and innovative thoughts and inventions throughout the last 20 years i say give thanks to the nerds the geeks and all of the brainiac s out there who have made history and have changed our lives for the better also in this month other events that have come to pass are as follows holidays by month food holidays garden holidays birthdays anniversaries just 4 fun this day in history christmas halloween thanksgiving easter valentine s day st patrick s day chinese new year holiday recipes garden recipes pumpkin recipes how to create special days national days definition greeting ecards amazon com search for calendars holidays recipes this month in history july historical events for the month of july by day 1 u s postage stamps went on sale for the first time 1847 1 the first photographs were used in a newspaper 1848 1 the bureau of internal revenue service was established 1862 1 the philadelphia zoo opens the first zoo inthe u s 174 1 taxes begin to be withheld from paychecks 1943 1 zip codes go into use 1963 1 medicare health insurance program goes into effect 1968 2 president garfield is shot his struggle to survive lasted 80 days until his death on september 19th 1881 2 the lawrence welk show premieres on television 955 3 the first cultivated strawberry is displayed by michael kent 1806 4 after being displayed or over a century the torch on the statue of liberty is removed so it can be replaced 1984 5 baseball great joe dimaggio hits his first grand slam 1937 5 the bikini makes it s debut at a paris fashion show 1946 6 in the very first all star baseball game the american league wins 5 2 1933 7 the united states annexes hawaii 1898 8 the u s state department issues the first passport 1796 9 dick clark hosts american bandstand for the very first time 1956 10 after an unsuccessful attempt to change it s formula coca cola brings back the ever popular original formula as classic coke 1985 11 robert bailey thomas publishes the first issue of the farmer s almanac it is now called the old farmer s almanac 1792 11 former vice president aaron burr kills secretary of the treasury alexander hamilton in a duel 1804 11 skylab space station re enters the earth s atmosphere pieces land in the indian ocean and in australia 1979 12 etch a sketch goes on sale 1960 13 the radio is patented by guglielmo marconi 1898 14 alfred nobel demonstrates dynamite 1867 14 liquid rocket fuel is patented 1914 15 vulcanized rubber is patented by goodyear 1844 15 margarine is patented 1869 16 john f kennedy jr dies in a plane crash off martha s vineyard 1999 17 the harvard school of dentistry becomes the first dental school in the u s 1867 17 the air conditioner was invented 1902 17 walt disney s ames and his gang rob their first train 1873 disneyland opens in anaheim ca 1955 18 adolph hitler publishes mein kampf 1925 19 samuel colt invented the revolver 1814 19 winston churchill uses the two finger v for victory sign 1940 20 in one small step for man one giant step for mankind astronaut neil armstrong becomes the first person to walk on the moon 1969 22 bank robber john dillon was shot dead 1934 22 an act of congress restores civil war confederate general robert e lee s citizenship 1975 23 charles e minches of st louis missouri fills a pastry cone with two scoops of ice cream and the ice cream cone is invented 1904 23 air force colonel eileen m collins becomes the first woman to command a space shuttle 1999 24 pres hoover announces the kellogg briand pact which renounces war a lot of good that did 1929 25 american forces defeat the british at the battle of niagara falls lundy s lane 1814 25 louise joy brown the first test tube baby is born in oldham general hospital uk 1978 26 benjamin franklin became the first postmaster general 1775 26 mickey mantle hits his first grand slam 1952 27 bugs bunny debuts in warner brothers animated cartoon a wild hare 1940 28 world war i began 1914 29 walt disney s steamboat willie premieres 1928 30 president lyndon b johnson signs the medicare bill 1965 31 mariner 6 flies past mars 1969 as you can see july is a very special time of year i want to personally thank all the nerds geeks etc for a job well done and i sincerely hope you enjoy your special day until later share this share on x opens in new window x share on facebook opens in new window facebook share on reddit opens in new window reddit share on pinterest opens in new window pinterest print opens in new window print email a link to a friend opens in new window email share on tumblr opens in new window tumblr share on linkedin opens in new window linkedin like loading posted in uncategorized dear diary posted on july 6 2020 by dreamshadow59 0 monday july 6 th 2020 dear diary i am sad today i awoke to a huge hangover and a blackout from last night sometimes i wish i was just a regular person who didn t rely on alcohol to stimulate my daily existence today i feel alone like a person sitting alone on a block of ice in a never ending ocean floating effortlessly to a never ending destination life seems to be a repetitive circle of ongoing activities i get up with a hangover out drink it and then drink until the sensation of inebriation develops my soul usually i will have sex drink some more and then fall off into a drunken hazy sleep once awake i repeat the process is there nothing i can do to end this cycle yes i know go back to rehab i am just too weak to revisit that ugly cycle of shakiness while constantly being sick i have tried it twice now and the longest it took hold was for about six weeks drinking just seems to fulfil me i realize that this is just my mind conjuring this fallacy but for now it seems to be all i know remember i have been an alcoholic since i was about thirteen wow thirteen someday maybe i can summon the courage to go back to rehab and give it another try in the meantime i guess i will be stuck in this never ending sea of addiction for those of you who have overcome this addicting behavior i give you credit as for me i guess i will wallow in my feelings of self doubt and destruction a little longer as i take another shot of vodka and drink a beer thanks for letting me share my feelings diary until later share this share on x opens in new window x share on facebook opens in new window facebook share on reddit opens in new window reddit share on pinterest opens in new window pinterest print opens in new window print email a link to a friend 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nationally it nev...