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why i do what i do skip to main skip to sidebar why i do what i do 08 march 2010 on being asked how i am losing weight there is far more to my diet plan than appetite suppressants and exercise the basics i have been following are just that basic i have to make sure that my caloric intake does not exceed 1200 calories in addition to that i need to make sure that my exercise routine if you will burns at least 1 2 of the calories i am consuming to that extent my regular diet has an intake of appx 900 calories and my exercise burns 600 that gives me a net gain of 300 calories requiring my body to consume itself for the balance of the 1200 i take appetite supressants phendimetrizine and a b12 everyday but there is a whole other side to this process that not many who haven t been there know about i am talking from my experiences here the only place i can speak from i am just trying to give you some insight into where and why weight issues may happen you need to understand the psychology behind why people gain weight and in this case i will use my very specific case i have a pretty good memory and i can remember pretty far back in my life i know that there was a time when i was a normal weight for my age and that was around 2nd grade in second grade something change in how i was able socialize with others in my class there was no reason that i can think of other than shifting social dynamics ironically it was in the 2nd grade where i started my love for singing and performing maybe that is what set me apart from the others i don t know but it was at that point where the textbooks would tell me that i started compensating for feelings of inadequacy by looking to food for comfort and to fill the void as it were as new age and hokey as that sound it is essentially what happened it is only now at the cusp of 40 that i can fully understand and embrace what happened when i realized that i didn t like the same things as the others and i didn t perform as athletically as others i found myself moving away from the normal social circles i shied away from those that put value on athleticism because of the ridicule i would receive from them that sadly actually included the coaches and faculty as i found i thrived academically i embraced that and began the track to a sedentary lifestyle at that point i hadn t started overeating yet i was just eating a normal kid type diet including all the usual suspects it being the 70 s there wasn t a huge focus on fast foods but my mom god love her isn t the best cook and tended to make what we would consider very fattening foods as i progressed in school my social skills developed slowly and i had to develop coping mechanisms to protect myself epically as i entered into the time that girls became an issue rather than put myself out there and take risks i hung back to that effect it was at that point where i started my poor eating habits that led me to where i ended up i used my weight as a barrier between myself and others keeping them at a distance and keep myself armored it also lowered people s expectations of what i could do i used to tell myself that i could only trust were those who could see past my weight to the true me i also used to make fun of my own weight before anyone else could but what i didn t realize that this only gave those people permission to mock me it also lowered their opinions of me for if i didn t respect myself why should anyone respect me by the time my social skills had gotten to the point where i could deal with the issues i was having too much had taken root for me to change having lead a sedentary life for so long i was willing to accept the status quo and just go forward with it always knowing in the back of my mind that i need to change but ultimately not caring i look back over high school to 3 months ago and i can see where that mindset has led me it wasn t all bad because prior to my paradigm shift i met amy and started a life that i never anticipated i deserved and that has a lot to do with me finding the church and learning if god loved me without reservation and found me deserving of answering me then i could do no less for myself truthfully it s a lesson that hasn t fully set in yet but i am getting closer but the parts that were bad i wouldn t wish on anyone it wasn t because i was overweight per say it s because of the mindset i had because of it the mindset that led me to my weight it allowed me to not care enough to take care of myself when i got into situations where i was well in danger not necessarily mortal danger but is in a place where i was allowing myself to be hurt there have been 2 times in my life where i have been able to lose weight both times the loss was 100 pounds and both times i gained back 150 the reason i was able to do this was because other people made me do it i was thrilled at my results but they weren t for me they were for them and when those people left my life my reason to lose weight left with them what i am doing now is for me no one else i need to do this and i did this on my own well there was a lot of praying involved and some prompting on the correct way to go but the initial seed of desire came from me i know as sure i a breath that i will not go back down that path because this is for me i made drastic and significant changes in the way i think and do things what i am trying to tell you and show you is that it isn t as easy as seeing a nutritionist taking pills and exercising there is an underlying reason for people to gain and keep on weight whether they realize it or not you can go thru all the actions and lose the weight but unless you address what the cause was it just comes back unless it s done the right way for the right reasons it just comes back love comfort and support are three of the most important aspects of trying to change one s life but the seed has to be that persons desire to make the change they can t be led scared coerced or otherwise manipulated into it they have to want it and see that it makes everything a whole lot better posted by don at 5 13 pm 2 comments 06 march 2010 on being asked why i am losing weight let me start by saying i have been overweight since 2nd grade there have been 2 times in my lkfe that i have been a normal weight but both times i did it for someone else not me needless to say the weight came back with a vengance my motivaton this time was very different back in october i had some potentailly serious medical issues that resulted me having to go through things i should have had to to make sure everything was ok that lead to me quitting all carbonated soda and such on 10 9 i also joined a gym that day but didn t really start going yet after that i was having isuse at work and it was partly due to a poor self image to be blunt i felt oafish and underestimated becuase of my appearance i know full well that such opinions onve formed are difficult if not impossible to overcome also once you get used to them you tend to allow youself to fall into them even though you hate it i need to chnage something becuase if i didn t chnage my self image and my outer image i felt i would be trapped in that stereootype as long as i worked there after thanksgiving i started dressing in what i felt was my best look shirt and tie it has always been what i am most confortable in oddly enough when i saw myself in that it wasn t enough it wasn t just how i was dressing its was how i looked and how i felt feeling the pressure of the extra weight always pressing on you when you sit stand or even lay down what finally broke me was my kids i am watching them grown and run and looking to me like i can do anything the truth was that i was so severly limited by my weight it would only be a matter of time they would see me for that i started seeing a time that they would be embarassed in having the fat dad i would rather embarrass them by what i do rather than how i look i realized that day 12 5 that if i started now they would not rememeber me like this that suddenly became very important to me but it wasn t for them it was for me i need to be healthy and active so i can lead the life i want be who i know i can be i want to dispel the sterotypes i have been backed into by my own inaction without the weight loss i would not have the confidence to do it we can lie to ourselves and say what others think about us doesnt matter but teh cold truth is that it does i can see how people looked at me wheni was almost 400 pounds and how they treated me i didn t and still don t like it with all that motivation coming from inside me i snapped and i was done that day i started this that day i knelt and pray for the strength suppport and guidance to do everythign that i was going to take upon myself i found a trainer that i trust and can work with i told my wife what was about to change and that i needed her support she has whole heartedly supported me in this partly because my weight was becoming an issue for her as well the motivation that will get anyone to change is what they demand of themselves i stopped demanding the best of myself and where i landed was evidence of that i also realize that the weight loss is only part of the equation and i have spent the last several weeks working on getting the rest of the thing i need in line i now have a plan and i am going to make it happen if you made it down this far this is probably more that you were looking for see more posted by don at 11 21 am no comments home subscribe to posts atom blog archive 2010 2 march 2 on being asked how i am losing weight on being asked why i am losing weight