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r first time at daycare she saw a kid in her class walk and that was it the next day she was up and moving we re in daycare 2 days a week i started back part time to my old job about 4 months ago i felt like i was ready and could finally handle jugging being a mom wife and working my mother in law graciously offered to watch lena for us while i did 10 hours in the office a week and another 10 from home when needed as my work load increased and lena started really developing we made the decision to start her in day care for us it was a good choice i know it doesn t fit everyone but it does for us lena is adjusting well and is really enjoying being around kids her age she is still doing one day a week with my mother in law such a huge help to us being a mom is a hard there s no question about that everyone handles it differently and things really affect everyone at different times when lena was born i was in a state of bliss i was euphoric i didn t have any signs of postpartum i was the complete opposite trust me i had my days and moments of complete overwhelm but they were just that moments about a month or two ago is when things really started to set in and i had a small bout of it once i started working more and enjoyed it i had severe guilt that s a story for another day though for now i will close with i m back look out babies be crazy and here s my pumpkin 2 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest friday august 9 2013 5 weeks postpartum how has it been over 10 days since i last wrote when they say time flies they are being serious let s recap a bit everyone always says that the first few weeks home with a newborn are the hardest i didn t find that to be the case at all the first few weeks home were the easiest celena slept all the time and was only awake to eat yes she was a pooping machine but we got into a routine of change eat sleep repeat she ate about every 3 hours for 30 mins or so she was content she was quiet and she loved sleeping for the first 4 5 weeks her newborn clothes fit perfectly and she was still in newborn diapers she had gained back up to her birth weight by 2 weeks home thank goodness she got a decent amount of diaper rashes she has my poor sensitive skin sorry kid and we would load her with desitin even using sensitive diapers i will say that i am looking forward to when she fits into our cloth diapers i m hoping to start her on the green mountains with covers next week just need to pick up a pail liner celena never really latched well onto my nipples apparently mine are inverted and pretty small so we ve been using a shield since about day 3 i ve tried numerous times without and it doesn t seem to work i didn t pump much at the beginning either i was more focused on keeping her freshly fed at 4 weeks i was feeling the serious need to get out and socialize without my little lady thankfully the playgroup i joined was having a mom s night out that friday night and my in laws were kind enough to come watch our little girl since i didn t have a large supply in the fridge i had picked up some formula earth s best has a sensitive with low lactose that we gave a shot she took it just fine but after a few days of substituting feedings with it i noticed she was straining to poop a lot more to the point she was screaming i had a feeling it might be the formula so we stopped for a week and now she seems to be fine which leads us to now i ve been attempting to pump in the mornings and build up a supply in the freezer for the nights i want to sneak out for a bit honestly it s more for when i head back to the gym and she ll need to eat while i m gone i ve noticed that the mornings is the only time my supply is enough that i can pump and she s not ravenous the rest of the day if i pump in the afternoon or evenings she can never seem to get enough like last night i pumped 3oz in the morning then another 3 at 3 30pm well at 5pm the girl was starving and ate for 45 mins rested for 30 mins then ate for another 45 mins you d think that would be enough nope she then continued to eat both 3 oz bottles of bm i had pumped that day huge fail and me losing my mind thank goodness hubby was home and gave her the bottles i needed a break at that point the last 1 5 weeks have been the hardest to be honest once she hit a month old she ramped up her eating sessions to 40 50 mins at a time some days she eats every 2 hours then others it s every 4 hours i ve been trying to get her more on a schedule but it doesn t seem to be working so i am feeding on demand we have implemented a bedtime though at 10pm she usually gets hungry around that time so i ve been bringing her up to her room then we change her diaper then nurse burp and put her in her crib yes she has been moved to her crib she s sleeping more soundly and doing about a 5 hour stretch 11pm 4am then another 3 4 hour stretch i feel very fortunate that she s only averaging 1 nighttime feeding we ve been using a fleece sleep sack with the swaddle sides which seems to be working great she s cozy and falls right to sleep so why has the last couple weeks been the hardest cluster feedings and less daytime naps that about sums it up the longer nursing sessions don t bother me one bit but she s been staying awake for about an hour after each feeding then resting for 1 2 hours after but before she falls asleep she fusses for a good 10 20 mins not screaming just fussing most of the time she ll pass out after but there s been days where she just won t give in there s been days she s eaten every other hour from 9am to 4pm there s been days she sleeps for a 4 hour stretch all i can say is that she s growing like a weed so whatever she needs to do i go along with at her last appointment this past monday she was up from 6lbs 14oz to 8lbs 14oz she gained 2lbs in 3 weeks she also grew a full inch in that time she s now 22 her cheeks are more filled out and her thighs have some good lookin rolls now she s getting that cute baby pudge and it s freakin adorable me on the other hand i have healed so well and so fast i feel great we ve been doing some family walks on the weekends each week increasing our pace and distance in the first 2 weeks postpartum i lost 13lbs total in the last 3 weeks i m down another 12lbs i m only 11lbs from my pre pregnancy weight 28lbs from my happy body weight and 40lbs from my truly healthy weight i m just hoping to get to my happy body weight at some point then focus on my truly healthy weight all in due time though i keep reminding myself that it took 9 months to put this weight on well really over 9 months thanks to ivf meds and some poor diet choices so it s going to take at the very least 9 months to take it off i m giving myself until her 1st birthday to get most of the weight off i think that s a fair goal biggest changes this week wearing 0 3 month clothing size 1 diapers headbands finally fit her noggin socks fit her feet now loves being outside loves motion especially car rides and strollers i swear she s smiled at me and not because of gas holds her head up for a while started cooing now sleeps in her crib at night wants to be held more often awake more during the day eating a lot more pretty content during bath time she s a very noisy eater makes some pretty funny faces now 2 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest tuesday july 30 2013 what i ve learned so far a friend recently emailed me asking for some details on the last month mostly what i have learned how we ve been coping what i m glad we have and what i wish we had so i thought i d share my answers breastfeeding going well so far my milk came in on the 3rd day for the most part lena eats every 3 hours during the day meaning she starts eating at 8am and will eat again around 11am she was feeding 15 mins on each side per feeding so a total of 30 mins plus burping etc this week she started eating longer more like 20 30 mins each side night time is different though she usually does at least 3 hour stretches at night she has done some 6 hour and 5 hour stretches though those are heavenly pumping i haven t pumped too much i have found that i can only pump in the morning after her morning feeding because she does longer stretches at night i have more milk in the mornings i m slowly trying to stock up in the freezer formula i never thought i d supplement but lena started cluster feeding some days when she has a growth spurt she wants to eat for hours upon end mostly in the evenings between 6 10pm on those days i was super exhausted and completely drained so we ended up researching some formulas we found earth s best sensitive and vermont organics to have the best ingredients not every day but on the cluster days i will give her 4 oz of formula it s also come in handy when we want to go somewhere and know she ll need to eat again and i don t want to breastfeed where we are things i m so glad we have a changing table on both floors so much easier for daytime and night time changes especially post surgery flat bassinet that fits in the bed we ended up putting it beside the bed on her toy chest because we only have a queen bed i also keep a small lamp on at night so that i can see her and keep a constant light for night feedings fischer price rock and play great for when her gas is bad at night she s slept in that a fair amount as well the sitting position helps the gas to release swaddleme wraps helps to keep her crazy hands secure while she sleeps without it her hands wake her up wubbanub pacifier didn t think i d be using a pacifier but it s really helped to calm her down when she s ready to sleep saved us on night 1 at home swing for the most part she sleeps in that during the day i ve found it s helped to keep a difference between day and night we were using the bassinet on the coffee table during the day but she wasn t sleeping as long at night things i ve learned 1 get out of the house as soon as you can with your little one even if it s just to walk around target it allows you to feel human and lets your little one adjust to being out and about especially sleeping ensures there s unexpected noises that they learn to sleep through 2 baby screams for 3 reasons food gas or tired try each one if one doesn t work move on to the next 3 rub baby s back to relieve gas works better than patting 4 stock your freezer with easy cook or ready made meals there are definitely nights where i don t want to cook 5 i shower and get out of the house on m w and f t th we stay home unshowered relaxing let s me recuperate from our previous day 6 get yourself a big water bottle or massive cup and keep it filled with water all day drink drink drink 7 relax the best thing you can do is remain calm baby will feed off your energy if you feel like you re going to break down let hubby take over and do the same for him 8 change baby s diaper before you feed them this helps to wake them up so they stay awake to eat especially at night chris usually does the changing so that i can wake up and get prepped to feed her 9 take at least one nap a day when baby naps you will appreciate this at night trust me you ll be exhausted a nap a day is ideal two or three is even better if baby is awake a lot at night 10 join a mom s group especially one with babies a few months older than your own they ll be filled with knowledge and have great suggestions it will also help to keep you sane and feeling human and it s another reason to get out of the house our group also does mom s night out once a month so nice to get out of the house sans baby with friends 11 buy some inexpensive non restricting sports bras i know sounds like an oxymoron they work great for sleeping and night time feedings and much cheaper than nursing bras i found mine shhhhh at wal mart danskin 2 for 10 super soft super comfy and super easy to move for feedings 12 half a glass of wine at night won t hurt anyone hardly any alcohol will get into your breast milk and it will help to calm you down after a long day 13 shower do your hair and put on some make up nothing wrong with looking fabulous look fabulous feel fabulous 14 remember to eat no matter what time your meals happen at just make sure they happen eat well eat healthy everything you consume goes to baby it will also help them later on once you introduce solids 15 and last but not least take care of yourself cry when you need to just remember to smile and laugh as well get out for a walk change your clothes wash your face do whatever you need to to stay sane 0 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest tuesday july 16 2013 lena s birth story friday night june 28th i spent in the tub not feeling so hot all night my lower back was cramped up and my stomach was in knots i assumed it was the not so healthy food i ate the night prior at red robin oops the whole time i was waiting for a contraction to start i did have a couple braxton hicks contractions but nothing that was increasing in pain or longevity i ended up crawling into bed sometime around 4am and sleeping for a few hours saturday morning i woke up still feeling ill the discomfort was so bad that we spent the morning at my in laws soaking in their pool thankfully it helped to relieve some of the back pain but i still felt awful i ended up calling my chiropractor and snuck in a quick adjustment to hopefully help the knot in my neck and release my back and although my neck felt a million times better my back would not stop cramping i was also worried that i was leaking cervical fluid so i called our ob we ended up stopping by the hospital for a quick check all clear no fluid everything seemed to be fine sunday morning i felt a lot better the back cramping was easing up and my stomach was finally able to handle some food and fluids chris and i headed back to his parent s house to lounge in the pool for the day as the day continued i began to feel better and better and monday day was exactly the same monday night however is a whole other story around 9pm i started to get the same cramping in my back and complete all over discomfort my stomach was so upset and i ended up vomiting several times i had heard that some women s bodies start to clean themselves out before they go into labor so i waited like last time for contractions to start there were none the entire evening though was spent in the tub or in the bathroom when it hit 4am and the tub soaking no longer seemed to help i knew i need to call the doctor our 38 week appt was scheduled for that morning at 9am i made it until 6am and called the ob she suggested heading to labor and delivery to be examined i felt like the neurotic first time expectant mom yet again calling the doc but she assured me something was up and it might just be a gi bug so at 6am i went to go wake chris who was sound asleep hunny we need to go to the hospital his response now do i have time to shower i gave him probably 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