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will see that the rain cleanses what it touches from the flood springs life and drought is no more in the same respect tears can cleanse the mind and new perspective and clarity can grow let the flood come down embrace it and you will see the sun shine again brighter than ever half empty half full or just a glass of water september 20 2015 eloquentdeviance leave a comment some people accuse me of being bitter or a pessimist this is far from the truth i am a realist and parts of me are an idealist a real dealist if you will however i am not blind to how things have been how they affect me how i need to work on things and the possibility that things may not always go according to plan i do not just blindly assume that things will work out for the best why well because if one wants something one has to work for it one has to inve st in it even when someone has something one has to work in order to keep it a person can look for something to be happy about in every situation and there is nothing wrong with that but to ignore negative feelings to just try to block it out creates more problems and few solutions no matter how much an optimist says things will work out for the best if he she doesn t acknowledge what is going on and how to fix it if that person refuses to acknowledge that it is affecting him her then that person will be left with spinning wheels not to mention saying that everything is okay when it clearly isn t doesn t really change a thing do you see this orange photo by jonas löwgren via flickr cc by 2 0 now an optimist can sit there all day and say that this orange is an apple that person can wish it was an apple even say one day it will be an apple but it is not an apple it is an orange wishing doesn t change it to an apple it will never be an apple realists see that and know that if they want an apple they are going to have to go to the store to buy one how shameful are the arrogant and prideful september 6 2015 eloquentdeviance leave a comment they will go with absolutely nothing and force their dependents to do the same all because they will not settle for less than they deserve for a short time too late september 6 2015 eloquentdeviance leave a comment they met when they were young she fell madly in love with him his charm his smile his kindness everything about him drew her in for a year it seemed as if he too was in love with her that was until he became so absorbed in his work that he forgot to focus on their world she could see it but for the sake of love was blinded to its severity for a time but time waits for no man or woman and soon it was too late she graduated college after working hard to earn her degree she looked out in the crowd eager to see his face she had hoped he would take the time to show up even though his friends were in town as she received her degree her heart sank as he was no where to be found as her fellow graduates invited her for a celebratory drink she peered at her phone a text read sorry got caught up in a project be there soon she replied no it s okay we ve finished up you re too late on a scheduled date night she waited at the restaurant she picked out she sat patiently recalling the things he had promised they would do that night she knew he would more than likely be working late again as he had been working unnecessarily long hours hoping to finally reach a big breakthrough an hour passed then two then three as the staff started closing the restaurant she picked up her things and walked to the car only to see him walking toward the door where are you going he asked i m going home they re closing it s too late on their one year anniversary she got home early to make a candlelit dinner she prepared his favorite meal laid out candles near the bathtub and unwrapped the lovely negligee she had picked out the week before she hoped that this would at least be enough to capture his attention for the remainder of the evening as they had spent little time together even when he was home maybe tonight they would rekindle the dying flame maybe they would fall asleep blissfully instead of with sterile kisses and empty i love you s her hopes were dashed when he came home ate hurriedly and opened his computer to finish up something he was working on she sighed and cleared the bathtub of the candles to put them away then changed into her pajamas to go to sleep when he walked in a few hours later he asked if she still was awake and wanted to celebrate their anniversary i wanted to celebrate yes i had a wonderful evening i thought planned out but it s 3 am dear it s too late the years went on and she found herself pregnant with their first child she was excited and at times he was as well as he was happy to leave behind his legacy while this view point was disconcerting to a point she brushed it off and enjoyed her growing belly when the time came for her to have their child a close friend rushed her to the hospital she called her husband telling him that it was time he was out of town on business but was supposed to be home early that morning he had promised he wouldn t stay any longer than required but he got wrapped up in his work he told her that he would leave as soon as he could later that night he walked into the room to see his tired wife surrounded by loved ones as they admired their son i missed it he asked looks of shame and disdain covered the faces of the others in the room as they turned to face him yes you missed it she replied in a voice exhausted by childbirth and disappointment you re too late another year passed he finally achieved the big break he had been working for the one he sacrificed all his time for the one he neglected his relationship for all those years as he and his co workers shared a celebratory bottle of champagne his friend of many years asked so do you think your wife will be happy for you now that you will finally have time for her after so many years of ignoring her to chase this he looked at his friend and suddenly the shock of realization hit him it didn t matter how many times she had warned him asked him or begged him to work on their relationship he had always chalked it up to her being hormonal or just looking for an argument it took someone else to point it out but he finally realized that he really had ignored the one person that had been there all that time yes he had more money and would have more recognition but would it be worth anything to him if his wife was not there to share it with him would she be willing to share a life with someone that used his job as a proverbial mistress while she sat patiently waiting for the man she loved to return to view he ran to his car and drove up to the house in time to see her packing some things into her car honey wait i got the promotion i don t have to spend long hours at work anymore i can make it up don t you could never make it up to me i have given you years of my life and no matter what you have placed your priorities at the very top your actions always speak louder than words and they bespeak a man that is never satisfied until his ego and greed are fulfilled you want nothing but the best for yourself and won t stop until you achieve it but you ignore what you have in front of you you had so many chances to make time for me for us and you didn t you didn t have to spend constant long hours at that job working for a promotion through countless failed and flawed project ideas but you chose to you have your promotion now you have more time now enjoy it alone for us as always you are too late everything in life requires balance we have responsibilities things we must do things we enjoy doing however if someone chooses to walk the path of life with someone by one s side one must be careful not to push one s significant other into the ditch just for the chance to walk on the smooth side of the road i repeat the sentiment that time is finite whether by death or by consequence of our actions the time we have with those around us is limited we should be careful to ensure that the time is spent well and not cut short due to selfish antics or an obsession with never being satisfied we will always make time for what we care about we must ensure that what we care about devoting most of our time to is truly important enough to envelope so much time so my friends i must ask you are you like the man in the story are you chasing something with so much fervor that you forget those around you are you living only in the future so that you cannot enjoy what is right in front of you do you find that you are working only to continue working so that you can work on something else instead of working to be able to have time and resources to enjoy life be careful on the roads you take in all aspects of life you may one day find that you lost someone or something dear to you because you realized the error of your ways too late confidence versus conceit september 1 2015 may 19 2017 eloquentdeviance leave a comment confidence is of key importance to having a happy productive life one must be able to believe in both ability and worth when it comes to many aspects of life such as work education socialization even relationships without a healthy self esteem one may want something yet not have the motivation to pursue it even a person that strives for something may not believe it is deserved in the end if confidence is naught though appearance is superficial in the grand scheme of things a person must possess the ability to accept oneself and appreciate one s uniqueness lest feelings of being unworthy of a romantic relationship sneak in people that are not self assured at times do not reach their full potential and in even worse cases their lack of self worth can cause destructive tendencies that not only hurt them but the people around them however with this being said there are major differences between someone who is confident and someone who is conceited someone who is confident possesses self worth and embraces strengths while also acknowledging and improving his her weaknesses while this person may be proud of a talent skill or accomplishment this do not mean turning a blind eye to the accomplishments of others people of this persuasion do not set out to prove to the world that they deserve everyone s undivided attention personal knowledge and growth is enough to satisfy someone self assured and the criticism from others will not cause this to falter even if it makes someone stop and reflect for a moment a confident person does not rely on the validation of every person met as it is understood that not everyone thinks and believes the exact same though other s right to an opinion is respected those that have self esteem often revel in the happiness of those around them as they do not need to tear others down to make themselves feel important they are open to new ideas even if they are steadfast in what they believe self assured people are scarcely afraid to share an opinion but they do so without being intentionally offensive or pretentious a person of this personality will take care of outer appearance however neither places value solely on such a trivial facet of life nor seeks the approval of everyone as a standard of beauty in many cases these people are comfortable enough with themselves to go against the societal fashion norms confident people tend to attract many others to them and usually are not adverse to socialization though quality friendships are valued over quantity in relationships they know what they want and what they deserve but they also are keen to want to keep their partner happy they are not content to settle for someone that treats them poorly conceited people are never content to believe in their own strengths they will over estimate and or exaggerate their strengths capabilities accomplishments and importance people of this caliber also usually assume that those around them always must view them in the same light and will become very annoyed or hostile to those that question or threaten their perceived superiority arrogant to a fault a conceited person will inundate others with mundane life details trivial problems and over stated accomplishments often conceited people are vain and have seemingly uncountable pictures of themselves while putting unspeakable amounts of money into beauty products clothes and the like these people will fake a humble exterior while their actions bespeak someone that wants to draw an overt amount of attention to themselves at the center of it all conceited people have a psyche based on selfishness and grandiose self importance it often stems from the exact opposite of what a person wishes to convey deep seated insecurities and feelings of inadequacy it is a mindset of if i pretend that i am more than how worthless i feel then people will surely see that i deserve money love friendship etc these people tend to constantly seek validation of their accomplishments therefore they never seem to talk about anyone other than themselves of course there are many that actually believe they are that superior and seek others to praise them as they deserve egotistical people are perceived at first as charming but in reality they have few friends instead they prefer followers or admirers if someone falls into a relationship with an arrogant person one may find that this person is more interested in his her own wants needs and qualities while there are major differences between these two personality types there is a fine line between them especially if one is not confident but wishes to project such an image it takes times self knowledge and reflection to get to the point of confidence in my case it has taken over a decade and i still must work at it daily never sell yourself short but also don t make a mountain out of a molehill and tell others it s a fortress the affair august 20 2015 eloquentdeviance leave a comment my dear i must confess though i swore to always be true my faithfulness has faltered there is another a man that is kind patient compassionate rapturous and endearing never have i met a man like him he puts a smile on my face where you only furrow my brow he wipes my tears where you cause me to spill them he offers me adventure where you offer me a stagnant existence he shows me passion where you show me complacency he speaks with actions where you speak with empty words i cannot help but love him yes there is indeed another man the man you used to be veils of perception july 30 2015 eloquentdeviance leave a comment i do not see him in the same light that i once did to gaze upon the man i loved no longer incites feelings of warmth and happiness or floods of good memories it is as if i see him through a fog i know he looks the same but the visage is distorted just pull back the veil one could say it would only be so easy if he would pull out the knife post navigation older posts search for recent posts phantoms of the past it all comes 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