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ospital is in a remote place and they don t get to go visit i have often read that orphans that end up in the hospital do not get visitors i have to believe that he is not alone i think about a little prayer that i read to haiden and noah in 1 of their books the other day matthew mark luke and john bless the bed that i lie one 4 corners to my bed 4 angels around my head 1 to watch and 1 to pray and 2 to guide me through the day it makes me think of dima and helps me to have faith that his angels are taking care of him and loving him until we can get him home we also found out that 2 family members just recently found out about him his grandmother and uncle never knew until the other day that he existed in his country it is the law that all the relatives are to be contacted if a child is wanted in an adoption if they agree to the adoption then they are to sign the guardianship papers waiving their rights to the child if they do not agree then they have to take on the responsibility why in the world the family isn t contacted before this point in the child s life is so beyond me why do these children waste away in an orphanage and that is completely fine no family contacted until someone else wants them now the family will not respond to sign the papers they won t answer their door or return phone calls i am completely and totally in a state of panic i am dreading this is a martin situation all over again the night i found this out i cried and cried what were we going to do who could we talk to could we write a letter to the family there are so many questions we ask wondering how we can fix this and control this i think to myself there just has to be a way jumping back a few weeks ago charlie and i were at church talking about the adoption and keeping everyone is our small group informed on where we were in the process a wonderful man and leader of our small group who we only just met a few months ago but deeply respect a great deal told us that he was praying for us he also told me something that has stuck with me just about everyday in fact i emailed him a few days ago asking him to tell me again because i was having a rough day and wanted to see the words he said we do not want to be so focused on the destination that we miss the journey often god s purpose is found in the journey not just the destination many times god prepares us during the journey so that we will be prepared when we arrive at our destination many of his greatest lessons and blessings are found in the journey trust god s sovereignty through the process after hearing this and then getting that last bit of devastating news i decided charlie and i need to change the way that we handle everything i just don t know exactly what we could do differently then i received a post on facebook from a friend and i m so sorry if you know who you are because i can t remember she said that i needed to just be still and quiet and to just wait for him to tell me what to do next at the time i read that post i didn t know it yet but that has been the best advice i have heard so far now i m fast forwarding up to this past weekend in church this sunday was one of those ahhh haaa sundays one of those days where everything made so much sense to me i was glued to the sermon and even took notes seriously i never take notes 99 of the time we forget to even take our bible with us the sermon was about being courageous in the worst of times better yet how to be courageous in the worst of times was the point of the sermon this week a few ways that struck me 1 be righteous and obedient this i honestly feel like i am doing i do without a doubt feel like we are on the right path i feel like i am obeying what he has commanded charlie and i to do as far as being involved in this crazy world of adoption 2 trust him and his sovereignty he has our long term best interest at heart this one i have had some problem with with all the issues that have set us back in our adoption journey i have often wondered what his plan was for us and for these children he has brought into our lives i know that it is alright for me to question and have my doubts but i struggle hard with disagreement in his plan 3 trust in his control these 4 words did it for me over the weekend they helped to put my mind and heart as ease now i still worry there is no doubt about that i have now been in love with dmitri like he is my own for months now we have gone to see him i have held him hugged and kissed him and have dreamt about him night after night i would love nothing more than to have this boy in our home as part of my family is that part of his plan i certainly hope so i pray for it to be his will all day and all night i know there is no bargaining or persuading no amount of words that come from my heart and from my mouth will change anything i just hope that if dmitri is not meant for our family that god will be a great comfort to us in our grief and while we move on i know this will happen to quote from charles spureon as sure as god puts his children into the furnace of affliction he will be with them in it so until we find out and i hope that is soon i will just try to be still and listen to what he wants that is so much harder said than done but i have found that i am doing a much better job than i was last week he has our best interest at heart he has our best interest at heart be still i hear him softly say be still lay all aside he who made the universe stoops down and gathers up my cares be still he chides again his work begins within my weary soul be patient in quiet stay listen to me though pressed on every side i clear my heart and mind in timid voice and heart i lift to him my praise how quiet his presence how healing his words in hushed awe i listen i savor each one my will he bends my heart he sweeps clean my strength he renews my soul he fills to overflowing he teaches through his word i heed what he tells me i stand and give him praise together we go forth to serve now i just have to remember all this if things should not go the way we pray posted by blessed at 11 35 am 3 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest friday september 16 2011 can t really talk about it as usual i have been meaning to update my blog for almost a month i have been waiting for good news so i have something to write about unfortunately i have nothing good to report i also have been instructed not to mention anything in case the wrong eyes should see what exactly is going on in dima s country i have been quite careful not to mention the country or anyone s name since i have noticed that i see in the stats that his country has viewed this blog so instead of going into a big long thing explaining what is going on and taking a chance that someone sees it that is not supposed to i will just ask this please say a prayer for dmitri and our family we need a lot of prayers right now this is just one more road block and a bit of bad news one would think that we would be used to getting this kind of news by now i can say that our paper work is now in the right hands we are told that it will take about 10 to translate everything once that is done the judge will receive it and god willing we will get a court date i was so hopeful that we would have a date in september not happening then i was holding out for october pretty sure that will not happen by now either that leaves us dangerously close to the holiday season in which many places shut down just need a court date so i can sleep posted by blessed at 11 15 am 3 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest wednesday august 17 2011 keeping ya all in the loop so i have to say that we haven t really made too much progress since last time i posted we are still just waiting and waiting for everyone to be finished on their end a list of things waiting to be completed fbi updated background check we are supposed to call back in 1 1 2 weeks fyi that will but us at 8 weeks information from our mortgage company stating how much the house is worth and other things i m sure the court doesn t really need this info should have been done last week but they never received the fax updated physicals for all the kids and also for charlie and me i have to admit this hang up if our fault we just weren t thinking about blood work and how long it would take to get back it should be done friday we shall see this one is just the best we need an addendum for our home study the court wants a fresh hs to make sure there have not been any changes to our financial status and heath the judge wants no more than 2 pages we have tried telling our social worker this over and over but she wants to redo our entire thing with a grand total of 650 no matter what we tell her the judge wants word for word even she won t budge well that is when she is returning our emails that it seriously thinking about biting the bullet and finding another agency for our post placements we would lose the 1500 we already paid but at least i would have peace of mind that the right things are getting done with an honest agency we just found out yesterday that our hs agency was almost put on the blacklist by the country we are adopting from not a good place to be especially if this happens when we are still in our process no matter what we are trying to stay positive and we are trying to keep in mind that he is in control over this all his timing is perfect and there is a reason for all of this posted by blessed at 11 29 am 4 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest tuesday august 9 2011 officially exhausted i have had it i can honestly say that i am officially exhausted from this adoption it has been almost a year i know i know there are so many people that have been at it for well over that amount of time but i m still tired i am physically and emotionally exhausted just when i feel like we are maybe getting close to the end we get pushed back we are still trying to get together the remaining documents for our dossier it s not going so well why in the world can t 1 thing just go right we are waiting on our fingerprints from the fbi they called last week saying they tried to run my credit card and it was coming back telling them that it was invalid makes no sense seeing as they had just swiped it and used to charge charlie s prints i keep checking my account and my credit card was charged for the prints as well as fedex so where in the world are they we are also waiting on a letter from our mortgage company that was promised would be done in 5 to 7 days or something like that why do i keep falling for that next the part that i honestly thought was going to be the easiest of them all are the physicals they military keeps changing our freaking doctors and every time they do that the new one wants to meet us not to mention that getting an appointment within the year is impossible lately between all of us we have 4 different doctors someone just sign these physicals already let me see i think that is it i feel so defeated thinking of waiting on these fricking people while my baby sits in that institution literally rotting away each day he is there he loses any skills he has and not to mention more and more weight a 5 year old that weighs 20lbs is killing me i swore we would have him home by his birthday but that came and went next i vowed he would be home by my birthday but that day is right around the corner and we still don t even have our court dossier in yet day after day passes and i have one anxiety filled dream after another last night i had a dream that we got there to pick him up and we had nowhere to stay all the hotels were closed and nobody would take us in i really think that i am going to have a heart attack due to anxiety sorry this is so negative but i need to vent somewhere and this seemed like a good place since i usually get encouraging words from everyone that follows this blog thank you for reading and listening hopefully next time i post something it will be positive posted by blessed at 11 05 am 7 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest monday august 1 2011 sorry as i have stated many times before in previous posts i am the world s worst blogger however i just wanted to update everyone on our adoption there has no been any progress and really no news to share we are waiting on the judge to get back from vacation and that will not be until sometime in september ughh we have had to update our fingerprints for both state police and fbi yay more expenses for something we have already had done to our frustration we got back our fingerprints from the state with mistakes that we had to correct that alone took 3 weeks i am hoping that we hear something soon since we submitted them again about 2 weeks ago i run to the door every time i see a fedex truck driving on our street we are just trying to stay busy so that time passes quickly i am getting ready to order dima s new bed since it will take about 6 weeks to get here at least that is how long it took for haiden s to get here they will have matching beds i am hoping that looking forward to the arrival of his bed and picking out sheets and a comforter will pass some time whatever it takes huh sorry that is about all i have i just wanted to let everyone know that we are still alive and praying for a travel date soon xoxo posted by blessed at 12 40 pm 2 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest older posts home subscribe to posts atom steven curtis chapman biology is the least of what makes someone a mother oprah winfrey my wish i hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow and each road leads you where you want to go and if you re faced with a choice and you have to choose i hope you choose the one that means the most to you and if one door opens to another door closed i hope you keep on walkin till you find the window if it s cold outside show the world the warmth of your smile but more than anything my wish for you is that this life becomes all that you want it to your dreams stay big and your worries stay small you never need to carry more than you can hold and while you re out there getting where you re getting to i hope you know somebody loves you and wants the same things too yeah this is my wish i hope you never look back but ya never forget all the ones who love you in the place you left i hope you always forgive and you never regret and you help somebody every chance you get oh you find god s grace in every mistake and you always give more than you take but more than anything my wish for you is that this life becomes all that you want it to your dreams stay big and your worries stay small you never need to carry more than you can hold and while you re out there getting where you re getting to i hope you know somebody loves you and wants the same things too yeah this is my wish this ...