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family and friends in israel and my fears for their future made worse daily by the atrocities that will bring more hatred against them by their neighbours do not stop me opposing dehumanisation of palestinians my horror and grief about october 7th only reinforces my commitment that nobody else should be murdered raped and terrorised because of their identity and so i will be for 25 hours fasting from food and drink praying and observing yom kippur the most holy day of the year outside parliament i do this as an acknowledgement of ongoing sins and a call to make 5787 the year we as british people refuse to be complicit anymore in genocide may we all merit a gmar chatima tovah anyone who is able to protest against the transgressions of one s household and does not is punished for the actions of the members of the household anyone who is able to protest against the transgressions of one s townspeople and does not is punished for the transgressions of the townspeople anyone who is able to protest against the transgressions of the entire world and does not is punished for the transgressions of the entire world categories politics tisha b av vigil for palestinians edinburgh sunday 3rd august 2025 august 1 2025 fleabite leave a comment tisha b av edinburgh vigil for palestinians sunday 3rd august 2 3pm duke of wellington equestrian statue 9 waterloo pl edinburgh eh1 3bg we a group of jews in scotland are bearing public witness on tisha b av the saddest day of the jewish calendar to the ongoing atrocities afflicted on palestinians genocide proceeds in gaza with the israeli blockade of food medicine and other essentials causing famine on this a fast day we protest for the starvation of gazans the children starving today even if god willing they survive will have irreparable damage caused to their growing brains and bodies the destruction of the temple is mirrored in the destruction of gazan neighbourhoods schools hospitals and mosques the many antisemitic massacres over the millennia are echoed in the over 1000 palestinians who have been murdered in the west bank since october 7th with no accountability for the settlers and soldiers who killed them we also wish for the safe and soon release of the hostages categories politics a talk i gave at a palestine solidarity event on sunday july 2 2025 fleabite leave a comment polished and slightly expanded edited version of the below is now at https organisemagazine org uk 2025 07 18 on off opinion the on off refers to a gimmick i tried where i wore a high vis cycling vest to signify the parts that were from 2003 vs the more contemporary parts on rafah 16th march 2003 the world my world narrowed to a single point the war the wars that had filled my thoughts raged on around the iraq war buildup the brutality of the occupation of palestine that for the past two months had crowded all else from my head with its desperate importance all that blurred to non existence off london 7th october 2023 the anarchist bookfair is over i m still buzzing but exhausted from a day running a stall and workshops an old friend israeli but based in uk for many years realises i haven t seen the news and carefully tells me what he knew so far including that one of the kibbutzim attacked is the home of old friends of his family as it turned out the grandfather was killed the rest escaped bh we shared our horror at both the images coming out and what we feared the idf would now do to gaza one of my partners says well they were having a rave next to a concentration camp on my back is broken the last words rachel corrie ever said i took her head in my hands to stabilise her spine she had been run over by an israeli army bulldozer whilst we had been trying to stop the idf destroying houses in gaza off london 20th october 2023 a british jewish friend s 4 year old nephew was killed in a kibbutz on october 7th other israeli connections also lost people they knew friends in israel many refuseniks and long term palestine liberation activists tell me how shaken the left in israel is by the global left s lack of condemnation of october 7th for me after 4 days in hospital with neutropenic sepsis i manage to escape and rush to swiss cottage to join an anti war demonstration by jews and israelis outside the israeli ambassador s house we sing a hebrew prayer for peace sung weekly in synagogues and often amended by the left to include the whole world oseh shalom yoshvei tevel version 30s on the world consisted of 4 people i held rachel s head on her right and left greg and will knelt beside her focusing all they could to will her to survive four friends one of whom s life force was leaking out as we held her told her we loved her and how awesome she was and how she was going to be ok off glasgow 28th october 2023 before the massive weekly march for gaza i hear more than one speaker to great applause legitimise october 7th i spin around images from the massacre flashing before my eyes as i bolt out of the cheering crowd on we desperately tried to keep our dying friend with us but her body was breaking apart and there was nothing we could do helplessly i observed the thin skin around her eyes and ears blackened with blood from the bleeding in her brain the depth and regularity fading from her breathing off around me there are many non jews as well as jews who seem able to be against both the attacks by hamas and the unfolding genocide perpetrated by israel yet also increasingly in person and social media are minimisation denial and justification for october 7th and ongoing hostage crisis when i challenge this i m told i m defending genocide and that i should think about palestinian children being bombed at a flashmob occupation of goma i help affix a long banner that drops all the way through the stairwell stating silence is violence permanent ceasefire now but when i express my discomfort at the chant leaders insisting on when a people is occupied resistance is justified without any clarification that they re not referring to the massacre of just weeks ago i m told that maybe i shouldn t come to any more on in less than an hour she would be declared dead and this tiny world would be the centre of global attention as international media filled with the news of an american girl killed defending a palestinian home suddenly my world would be talking live on tv channels from every continent a call with a usa congressman a packed out press conference to local and global media off 20th november 2023 my friend s mum in gaza died today her heart medication has been impossible to get because of the israeli blockade we didn t talk much but she always smiled and made me tea when i visited him last week 2 of his cousins were killed and his home was badly damaged as well as palestinian friends i m in close touch with my family and friends in israel many are involved in mutual aid projects for the thousands of israelis traumatised grieving and displaced by the war who the government has abandoned the hostage movement hosts regular mass protests against netanyahu demanding hostage negotiations instead of war my cousins are not political in either direction and my emails with them reflect that this was the hardest one i had to write dear barbara mum says your grandson is now in the idf in gaza i wish him a safe and speedy return home to you it must be frightening for you i can t imagine i think is my cousin now shooting at my friends in gaza on but at that moment there were just four of us in the world and one was dying as we held her four kids from usa and uk whose life paths had happened to intersect in palestine four kids in the most dangerous place in the gaza strip and one of us was fading fast and there was nothing the rest of us could do about it off june 2024 i think they re all destroyed now those homes where i found nothing but hospitality humour compassion where even in 2003 people were exhausted desperate living under privations even then attempts at building decent living conditions destroyed regularly the farm greenhouses nurtured into existence over months bombed flat in seconds regularly people shot just going about daily life such as the man with learning difficulties a street cleaner who was shot smoking a cigarette outside his mother s house in rafah shortly after rachel corrie was killed but with no international outrage i walked the streets many knew i was jewish as were perhaps a quarter of international solidarity activists in palestine and the only threats from palestinians to my life was perhaps giving me obesity due to how difficult it was to stop them feeding me even though none of them had much i will never ever forget my 3 months in rafah you taught me so much about ways of retaining humanity and relating to other humans under unimaginable conditions your lives are not worth less than israelis your children are as deserving of conditions in which they can thrive not starve and be terrified i am so so ashamed of what israel is doing that i once loved that country and even my friends and family in israel itself aren t safe because they are all disposable to this cold hate filled murderous ideology i don t think many of the people with whom i shared endless pots of sweet tea with maramiya are still alive or in any way healthy all those family homes i slept in are destroyed the kids i knew would have been parents by now did any of their children survive and if they did how is their physical and mental development after famine how is their emotional health after endless fleeing and learning new definitions of safe zones i m so sad and angry and frustrated we have failed to stop a genocide and our government has actively supported it on this is what war means this is the detail in every casualty statistic people holding their loved ones as their soft flesh disintegrates from the sudden penetration of the hard metals of war tanks guns bombs shrapnel bodies and lives broken for what off glasgow 6th october 2024 for weeks in the synagogues and we re a very small community less than 0 1 of population of glasgow with only 3 synagogues has been advertised the communal vigil for october 7th which many people in the community feel personally connected to i was working and hosted my own alternative memorial event the next day but many friends went there were super aggressive people with palestinian and lebanese flags screaming the entire time playing super loud music siren noises megaphones literally drowning everything out and yelling stuff like calling all the people who were at the vigil genocidal swine rats etc this woman was trying to talk about how her brother was murdered on october 7 and you couldn t hear her because people were yelling horrible things over her all the speakers rabbi rubin mps other people yelling into the microphone to have their voices heard over all the noise and chanting it was actually horrible like everyone just felt really attacked and angsty birmingham december 2024 with 2000 attendees limmud is easily the biggest gathering of jews in the uk so this must have felt like an easy gig for the israeli ambassador hardright tzipi hotovely yet the organisers kept it under wraps until just 4 hours before she was due to speak a few of us mobilised immediately networking sending messages and making easily hidden signs to hold up they d put her in the showcase main conference room with seats for 1000 but only about 80 were in the audience and after the introduction as she tried to start speaking we stood i was even more nervous than i am tonight but as i turned i saw that over half the audience was also on their feet unfurling a3 sheets accusing her of genocide calling for a ceasefire and enumerating the numbers killed after we were escorted out elated at our success we went to the neighbouring room set up or 200 but standing room only as people had piled in to hear from gazan and israeli peace activists the tide is turning on each war death is a unique human being just like your mother father sister brother and child communities deemed war zones by too powerful others living remote lives moving infantry pieces over plans of strategic areas a little to the left and suddenly that village is ground underneath the caterpillar tracks of war the tanks roll through the fighter jets race overhead communities and lives are wrecked off june 2025 israel has now attacked iran as usual i message my family and friends all of whom are terrified and if they can staying in shelters though many israelis don t have one everything is terrible and we had 3 nights of this in gaza they had so many more and no shelters i see posts celebrating iranian missiles and expressing how they deserved it when a hospital in israel is hit a friend of a friend is killed in be er sheva naomi stood in protest vigils for the hostages and against the war every day since october 7th she was a librarian and volunteered in reading books to blind people a refusenik friend who s always been very clear about the privilege she has within israel that helped her to refuse tells me one of the soldiers who died in an explosion today in khan yunes shahar munab there s a picture of him holding a sign saying we don t have children for unnecessary wars and yes he was in the army he was also ethiopian and it s his only gateway into israeli society and he should have refused but he still held that sign and they d just buried him this is shit a 17 years old boy who holds this sign understands something on what possible question can this be the right answer to how can destruction this brutal birth anything worthwhile what dehumanising of other human beings what racism must we hold to ever justify such slaughter off israel s brutal military occupation of palestine created fertile ground for the hate filled rightwing rhetoric of hamas just as hundreds of years of antisemitism culminating in the holocaust created fertile ground for a rightwing supremacist zionism and that in turn was the result of nazism finding fertile ground from the humiliation and economic destruction of germany in the treaty of versailles following their defeat in world war one we need to have the humility to realise that our own politics are in large part formed by our own contexts we like to think we d refuse conscription and take the months in prison instead but we don t know what its like to have to make that decision at 18 after being raised in a highly militarised society let us address the root causes of this fertile ground for rightwing everywhere we see it including the reform voters in our own city lets understand that if a group as historically leftwing as the jews can fall for rightwing ethno nationlism given the right context anyone can we can undercut this shift to the right by fighting alongside ordinary people for better living and working conditions and i d like us to show that jews don t need to be fearful in the here and now that 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