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ndemic side effects and the normal challenges of life call for prayer more than for fireworks it seems at the same time we have a new year ahead of us and every morning is a new day we have the opportunity to arise pure and fresh and sinless in the holy eyes of a god who cares so much for this world that he keeps the sun rising and setting keeps healing the sick keeps providing hope keeps forgiving our sins and keeps sustaining life and even overcoming death with a prayer for those who are suffering and hope for all of us going forward i do pray that 2022 will be a truly happy new year posted by sheila at 1 47 pm 1 comment email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels hymns new years sunday december 26 2021 second day of christmas snow i m usually the first to wake up in our house and this morning followed that pattern part of me had a hard time refraining from waking up the other to share the news but part of me loved being alone with time to take in the quiet beauty snow had been forecast but you never know whether it will or not this time it did and it did so in such a lovely way this is what i saw out the north window of the attic room which is my office space and out the kitchen windows to the west snow on the walkway below my first time to look out the window in the roof over my desk in the attic room with snow falling the view from the north kitchen window looking out on the street later in the day every morning many little sparrows come to this tall evergreen or maybe they sleep there during the night i don t know if i ll ever know about that but they are always there in the early morning this isn t a great picture but it was so cute to see them there with the snow i often wonder what all the little creatures think about the weather especially snow these will have to suffice as our two turtle doves on this second day of christmas we have a rather artistic neighbor and when we went out in the evening to visit some cousins we saw he had been at work bringing into being creatures of a different species the forecast is saying we could get another snowfall during the night i hope so let it snow posted by sheila at 3 37 pm 3 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels christmas flocks snow saturday december 25 2021 christmas snow this is the christmas tree of my in laws actually branches arranged in a vase the branches come from a big evergreen out in the yard some of the decorations surely came from a store but the snowflake ornaments came from the hands of my mother in law after she took early retirement in her forties she decided to learn to crochet i was amazed back then at how much she began to do making various items for tabletops and just the sorts of beautiful work that are done here but i was really amazed when i showed her some snowflake ornaments that my aunt had given me and my mother in law liked the idea and began making them herself getting ideas from the ones i had but she had even more ideas i haven t found any two to be alike just as with the cold outdoor version i m having tech issues and may have accidentally put the same one twice though i m tired so it s possible have a look and if you don t have snow for christmas maybe these will at least warm your heart merry christmas posted by sheila at 3 43 pm 4 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels beauty christmas wednesday december 22 2021 why are there so many churches in this place some years ago i was reading something that s almost all i can say for sure about it i don t remember if it was a book or a magazine article or something on the internet or what given the amount of reading i did during the years of the dmin degree i m sometimes amazed i can remember any particular book and author in this case i don t remember i kind of wonder if it may have been james k a smith and if so then it was probably in his book you are what you love i highly recommend that book whether or not this came from it whatever i was reading the author was for some reason driving in an area with lots of corporate buildings his young daughter was looking out the windows and suddenly asked daddy why are there so many churches in this place he was surprised and puzzled at her question because they hadn t passed a single church only a bunch of office buildings then he realized that his daughter was mainly familiar with church buildings that looked liked office buildings because their architecture was based on corporate architecture rather than traditional church architecture handed down through the ages if i remember correctly he went on to make the point that everything we do in material ways shapes how we see things spiritually architecture affects the ways we think and feel as we drove from the airport the other day out of curiosity i decided to take pictures of each structure we passed that i could see was clearly a church i wish i could tell you where all of them were but i can t this one may be more accurately called a chapel judging by the size i ve always loved seeing churches built on the tops of hills they remind me of jesus words about how a city set on a hill cannot be hidden and neither should we hide the light of our faith not to show it off but because the world needs light and hope and love i m pretty sure this is in the place called breznički hum i ve always loved that name knowing nothing about the place other than driving through it something about the name itself charmed me 30 years ago and still does i think this may be novi marof another place i know nothing about but have remembered the name for 30 years because we would always drive by through on our way to and from zagreb now we actually have a friend from there so perhaps it will become more than a name clearly the architecture of each of these is pretty similar and it s quite clear that they are not office buildings or centers of corporate activity except that the very word corporate comes from the word for body and the church s early teachings use that term to refer to the church a long long time ago so in a way these places are in fact centers of corporate activity just activity of a very different sort i realize of course that christians can gather anywhere possible and that the place they are in does not make them a church but i also love architecture that makes clear the purpose of the space and turns the mind and heart toward spiritual truths i love that steeples point metaphorically to heaven that the height of the tower and steeple help us feel our smallness encouraging humility i love stained glass windows and other forms of art that over time have made the stories of scripture available and vivid for people who would never own a bible i love the big wide doors on so many older churches welcoming people in and also thick and strong as a protection against the world when needed these are pictures i took in about an hour through the car window of the places i could catch before it was too late because of our speed there were others along the way besides these why are there so many churches in this place is a question for another time i m just so thankful that the decades of communism didn t do away with them or with the faith connected with them it did a lot of damage but faith is alive and for that i am thankful posted by sheila at 3 02 pm 2 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels architecture churches croatia monday december 20 2021 advent in varaždin before writing about varaždin here s a picture from our neighborhood church we got out after a night of less than ideal sleep and walked around to see familiar streets and houses and to let the sunlight do its part in resetting our circadian rhythm hoping we might sleep better the next night alas neither of us did but we re doing okay despite that it was the first time either of us had seen this wooden nativity scene almost surely carved by some local talent it is really nicely done and i love seeing things made by hand such a refreshing break from the inflatable figures that have become so common in memphis when the sun got closer to setting we took off in the car to meet a friend who lives in nearby varaždin just on the other side of the bridge mentioned in yesterday s post varaždin s baroque architecture just made me wonder how the city might decorate for christmas and it wasn t disappointing the castle was left alone which i thought was a good idea as it could have cost a lot to do anything that would really do justice to it and anything less would cheapen it it was so beautiful in the light of a nearly full moon the central part of the city held nothing back though strung with lights alive with stalls selling ornaments warmed by coffee shops selling hot drinks and refreshments it was full of people and full of life even with temperatures requiring hats and gloves a stage was set up with live music heard in the surrounding area church bells rang every so often adding to the joyful bustle this is a part of europe that i miss greatly in the states sometimes when i m driving down the road i try to imagine all the people in the cars around me as people walking by the way it is in the cities of europe we miss a lot by not seeing people up close hearing their voices seeing parents and children holding hands sometimes seeing expressions and eyes when close enough all of that as we walked i would look around and wonder who here really knows the story of christmas who knows why all this came to be and i just hoped that many did and prayed for all who didn t because just as in america christmas has been seized upon and put to use by the god of commercialization these lovely cities and their celebrations have become tourist destinations with marketing and awards given out zagreb the capital was chosen not long ago as the best place to go in europe for advent which brings up another difference between europe and america secular europe with its centuries long history of being so heavily influenced by the christian story and the christian calendar still calls this period leading up to christmas advent christmas isn t here until december 25th so they go by the church calendar and call all of this advent celebration just as in america it s an interesting mixture of earthly and heavenly influences at work this was one of my favorite light displays so simple so serene so much a mix of the old and new speaking of mixing old and new we saw new fangled flashing lights on a ferris wheel constantly changing colors while playing music probably not something mr ferris imagined when he created the first one before 1900 and one of the last sights we spent time admiring was this striking scene with that very old moon shining bright above the happy scene below and then we hurried to the car because my hands were freezing even with gloves and mittens that part of living here will take some getting used to again all photos in this post courtesy of mr vamplin posted by sheila at 3 38 pm 3 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels advent christmas croatia life stories sunday december 19 2021 over the ocean and through the woods my hopes for the same old routine written about in the last blog post here did not go as planned a leak discovered by the people living below us led to a major repair rennovation project which all the chaos such projects bring life continued nonetheless we survived the chaos and moved forward and what i briefly mentioned in the last post the big ship sailing steadily toward us that stood for moving to croatia kept moving forward too and so this past friday found us in the memphis airport yet again having successfully passed the negative covid test lately i m refusing to capitalize that thinking that tiny virus along with the illness it causes has already had more than its fair share of attention it was pleasantly warm in memphis but we had our coats at the ready for the colder temperature we expected the next day you gotta love a plane with delta spirit on it that delta plane took us to atlanta where we heard lovely music from a saxophone player a pianist and a violinist all in different times and places we had some of the worst stuff called coffee i think i ve ever had we also took turns walking as much as we could knowing how much sitting lay ahead this was the first time i recall seeing the moon nearly full out the window of a plane not the first and probably not the last time to see the sun rise from such a vantage point it s always amazing flying is not generally pleasant or comfortable but having a window seat makes for some wonderful moments of gratitude and contemplation we reached foggy foggy amsterdam on one of the smoothest transatlantic flights i ve experienced and after some much needed walking and a pleasant couple of hours waiting plus another hour or so of delay we finally saw this plane out the window and knew we were almost there i have fond memories of the earlier zagreb airport old and not so shiny as it was it was small built in an older style and you walked out of it to green grass with benches a playground for children and just a sense of being part of the real world not the world of speed and traffic hustle and bustle the new airport is nice though in its modern way mostly i miss the green grass but i always enjoy seeing this welcome sign which with its nod to handmade lace olives and fountain pens does feel far from hustle and bustle and closer to the parts of life that make it worth living a good friend met us at the airport and soon we were in the car the ocean behind us and the woods before us the drive from zagreb to čakovec means lots and lots of wooded hills with houses and churches and businesses dotted here and there lots of smaller towns but no major cities until we get to varaždin and then beyond varaždin we cross this bridge and that means we are officially in medimurje the land between the rivers the land with čakovec as its main city and a land with trains who have their own lovely bridge the sun was setting on two sleepy travelers making the view of the bridge even lovelier the official city limits sign of čakovec greeted us after we passed through a couple of smaller villages and then the more interesting welcome came with its happy art and the reminder that čakovec is the city of the 13th century castle that was home to the zrinski family and others who protected this area and made possible the settlement that became a city and best of all the sign was a reminder that we were almost home posted by sheila at 3 40 pm 7 comments email this blogthis share to x share to facebook share to pinterest labels croatia life stories travel thursday august 12 2021 the same old routine coronamnesia i don t think it s a real word and i don t think i m the only one to use it but it s a real thing our memories 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