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he system and all so that was dumb too it was back up to 65 and then two days later only down to 52 because it was so early on my levels had never been anywhere near high enough for an ultrasound to be of any use my ob was thinking ectopic methotrexate for me whee i will save my rant on the logistics of that whole fucking fiasco for next time three days after the shots my beta was 7 and on ike s birthday it was 5 i am going to call that the end for now lest i wear out my thumbs or find some reason not to post this at all it s a timeline of sorts at least i ll try to come back and rant reason again soon i hope this finds anyone still reading well not per the pattern posted in anxiety grief hope how to piss me off loss rpl stress 2 comments june 27 2014 by notundecided twice around the sun dear baby ike wednesday of last week was your second birthday if i am to believe the subject lines of baby center com emails this means you are now a preschooler but let s be real mama will keep calling you baby ike at least on occasion as long as she can get away with it at the same time you are certainly becoming a true big kid in some ways so i will compromise and try to come to grips with the fact that you are at least solidly in the toddler range technically you most likely will not start any kind of preschool program until next year so i can for now at least semantically justify the procrastination of using that next categorical designation of tiny human most of the time now you refer to yourself as ikey a nickname which grew on me more quickly and more fiercely than i anticipated when grandma first started calling you that i honestly wasn t sure how much i liked the sound of it but coming out of your own mouth it seems 100 fitting all the other things coming out of your mouth which are way too numerous to even attempt to quantify at this point are nothing short of astonishing for barely two you are quite verbal you want to know the name of everything wat s dat and spend a lot of time identifying things and people you re quite sure of dat s mommy dat s a teevee you repeat lots of new and old phrases every day earning your moniker of little parrot ikey s a wittwe pawwot and your sentence constructions and emphasis and expression never fail to impress me wat s gampa doin over dere we ve only had a handful of incidents so far anyway in which you repeat somewhat unsavory things you overhear mama or daddy or one of their friends saying the best of which had to be the time at aunt jeni s house when the xbox remote s batteries died meaning we couldn t set you up with yet another episode of daniel tiger or super why you immediately declared this injustice to be bullshit nice use of context i guess i don t think anyone even tried not to laugh your love of reading and books continues you can pretty much recite the entirety of the very hungry caterpillar and the expression you use for each turn of events kills me dead every time as much as i try not to let you insist and win on reading awwwwww dese books before every bedtime i ll always let you sneak that one in before lights out i need to enlist someone to help me get it on video soon before your pronunciation goes up another notch toward proper it s already making me nostalgic for the time when the remotes were meat motes and you didn t have the s sound down pat yet even gamma and gampa now sound more like gramma and grampa though the rs are still a bit w ish i have however developed my own private conspiracy to keep you saying rhino nocerous i have to think and say it very slowly to get it correct myself anymore you re solid on the abcs colors and basic shapes and most of the numbers up to but not quite including 30 i m not sure you get the numbers concept nearly as much as you do letters n e t f l i x dat spewws netfwix and you usually try to skip over 14 through 16 or 17 to get straight to 18 with a similar pattern through the 20s but i m still pretty astonished that you seem to have absorbed so much so fast sesame street ftw speaking of the street we had your birthday party on saturday and the word of the day was fun in no particular order like last year you were more interested in the fruit on in your cake s than making a big messy cake face but at least this year we did not have to resort to putting chee rios in the frosting just to entice you to take a bite i m pretty sure you had a great time a few of your friends were able to come and you all had big fun playing in the pools and running around in the yard and in and out of the house you stayed up waaaay past your normal bedtime and showed off some of your new imaginative play skills pretending to be a dog and barking which sounds remarkably like dexter at the window and the front door when asked what you re barking at you reply da maiwman you definitely have an independent streak which i love to see ikey can do it aww by himsewf even when it means slowing the progress of some tasks or activities to match the viscosity of molasses you re also starting to show more of your imagination in playing with toys feeding blocks to the caterpillars because they re vewwy hungee you know and prompting me to feign sadness mommy sad so you can give me kisses to cheer me up you bet i m a sucker for that game i started asking you to guess what a while back and answered for you with i love you which you ll now say back most of the time that is when it s not an everything is no no everything no time of day if it s time for everything to be no then you say no wuv you instead but most of the time i can turn that into mommy sad and still get a kiss tricky mama sometimes it morphs into i woof you which i guess is dog for the obvious you haven t really explained you just laugh dats funny but it seems like a fairly educated guess and perhaps your first pun we practiced a couple of those last night and while i m somewhat doubtful that you really grasp the concept of jokes with words yet you definitely do enjoy it when dat sounds funny or now dat s punny you also got your first haircut last week i was rather loathe to dispense with your natural spiral curl rat tail but even without it some curls remain before after without much humidity during it s already been a great start to summer with you ikey i m so looking forward to the rest of it and to everything that will follow love you much mama posted in baby ike dear ike dexter photography things that feel good two years 2 comments march 26 2014 by notundecided 21 months dear baby ike as of this last week you are 21 months old and hurtling headfirst toward your third year i m not sure you completely grasp the concept of a birthday but we do often have a little rote memorization conversation geared around it how old will you be on your next birthday twooo right and how old are you now none holds up one finger yes one old yes one year old what happens on a birthday birthday cake so we re definitely looking forward to that i rarely capture a decent photo or video of you when you are anywhere but trapped in your highchair these days so i try to get at least one video every weekend the rate of language acquisition for this stage is still a bit mind blowing to me you can name all the letters of the alphabet can count to ten and then to twenty sort of you re clearly a bigger fan of some numbers than others name almost all of the shapes in your shape sorter toy and are much more confident about identifying colors than even a month ago it s crazy to me i don t know why but every time you display a new bit of knowledge i m all what is this toddler sorcery a few weekends ago it was actually warm enough to play out in the backyard for more than a few minutes and as you ran around throwing a tennis ball for the dog offering him sticks and sniffing hand mulching last summer s dead black eyed susans you started chanting good enough for several minutes i wondered how i d already set the bar so low then i also heard a refrain of cookie cookie cookie and was thankful you were only quoting that particular monster s most famous song phew your assertion of independence is showing up right on schedule every task or activity is a split between help me still sounds more like hold me at this point but i definitely know better and no ike do it your love of books continues unabated and your affection for sesame street has morphed mostly into a constant begging for teevee on so you can watch the songs one awful weather weekend of this never ending winter i made the genius mistake of searching for sesame street songs on the you tube app on the x box rather than just pulling up full episodes on net flix there have been more cold gross weekend days this winter than i would like to admit during which we went through the loop of these favorites more times than we should have but it s hard to have many regrets about it yet when teevee on is not an option which is way more often than you d prefer screen time what you ll quickly resort to requesting mommy sing and hahahaaaaaaa mommy is no vocalist but you still get a kick out of my bruno mars or elvis costello i m particularly proud of my usher frankly we ve also watched some of the new cosmos series with you while it s not entirely age appropriate it s definitely mama approved teevee i think you ve picked up on that because when we won t let you have yyyoooo tooob you ll inquire about second best neil it s hard for me not to give in to that lately you also love asking for tummy tickles and chase ike and most recently zerbits belly raspberries sometimes a combination of the three is the only way to get a clean diaper on your butt we recently introduced potty chairs but you rarely have any interest other than disassembling them or perhaps sitting on them fully clothed you re much more interested in the big potty until you slam the seat or lid down on your own fingers of course that seems to be a lesson you need to learn the hard way more than once somehow we re in no hurry yet but i remain hopeful that some extended naked time this summer will change your mind about the whole deal probably famous last words on my part but we shall see some of the things i end up putting in these letters are more to remind myself years from now when i can t believe i ve forgotten when you first did this or that or stopped doing the other thing than things you ll probably ever care about you still nurse here and there pretty much only before sleep on evenings when i am home for bedtime and or weekend naps your separation anxiety seems to come and go and take on different forms these days this past weekend i spent saturday night out of town and your father reported that you were pretty pissed i wasn t there on sunday morning even asking him to nurse just wouldn t have been the same i know but i applaud your sense of egalitarianism young man if you wake up in the middle of the night which isn t often anymore you ll usually ask for cuddle these days rather than to nurse so while i don t have any particular cutoff point of weaning in mind yet i think we may be nearing the end an idea which is bittersweet for me i never thought we d go much past a year but there doesn t seem to be any pressing reason to wean either i quit pumping at work around 16 months i ve been making a fairly conscious effort to give you plenty of daddy time lately to not gatekeep since there has never been any need nor any benefit though i ve seen lots of families do that i didn t always have a name for it since when we are both home he sort of gets the cold shoulder from you at times me being the anchor parent for now i think it s helping though it may just that we re nearing the end of the phase or at least the worst of it you spend wednesdays with him rather than with grandma now and this morning when i left for work there were no tears just kisses but you do still have a canine like dislike of strangers on your home turf s when an appraiser came to grandma s house one day you were terrified and when a friend of your father s stopped by this weekend while i was gone the same reaction freaked out but you love to go out and see other people and children if we had more any money to spare i d start you in preschool now but sadly it s going to have to wait a bit i recently found out that a local children s museum also operates a preschool and can t quite stop lusting after the idea despite the tuition being ridiculous not exactly affordable for us it would be so cool to send you there even for a short period of time right now it doesn t seem possible but a few years ago neither did you and that worked out pretty well didn t it yes yes it did love mama daddy makes cooooookies oat a meal in ike speak from back in november at your uncle mikey aunt steph s wedding ringbearer box full of cheerios only a crazed grin is better than no grin tall photo credit to your aunt jeni posted in baby ike breastfeeding dear ike twenty one months leave a comment november 23 2013 by notundecided one point five dear baby ike this month you had your second half birthday eighteen months this holiday season has been quite a whirlwind and you have reached such a fun stage in your development i apparently didn t use much of my vacation time all year so i ended up being done with work for the year a week and a half before christmas having all these days to spend with you has been ridiculously fun thanks especially to the explosion in your speech so many new words many of them quite hilarious to me anyway to back up we traveled to your paternal grandparents home in alabama for thanskgiving last month this was your second trip down there but this time we drove during the daytime instead of overnight i was skeptical that you d be able to handle that much time restrained in your car seat as you are normally very busybusybusyalldaylong exploring and playing and being generally on the move but you actually did great we only stopped a few times each way and you were fairly content to babble to your stuffed buddies or snooze or whatever you were doing back there for such long stretches of time i was amazed and grateful your grandparents of course had a ball playing with you and letting you show off all your new words and skills christmas was well everything a toddler could want i think you love the trees pointing them out to me each morning anew and waiting for them to be lit up only a couple of ornaments have been obliterated one of which appeared to have been gifted to the dog i m sure he thanks you we didn t go see santa this year i couldn t bear the idea of paying money to subject you to an almost certainly upsetting stranger hairy dude s lap situation for a photo op you are fairly adept at opening presents though so perhaps next year you ll be game i don t plan to push it we ll just have to see what you think at the time your favorite gifts have probably been the various basketballs baseballs footballs etc every time you come across one we really 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