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it s not so much a new house as a new addition built onto a pre existing structure it was just easier that way are you weary of the house analogy me too anyway i suppose i ll leave this house standing for a little while along with all the things in it at least until i figure out what to do with it seventeen years seventeen years it s the end of a personal era if you read here for any amount of time i thank you and i hope you ll say hi over at the new place p s nablopomo shall continue over on ye new blog p p s ava and ezra if you are reading this if you have read through any portions of this blog at all thank you and i m sorry and you re welcome and i love you at 6 32 pm 2 comments labels nablopomo 06 november 2022 resurrections this morning i woke up thinking my bed was a magic cloud and that i should really only leave it for things like bike rides and trips to foreign countries and then i remembered when we first moved back here from portland how we did not actually have a bed that in the throes of moving and in a moment of blind optimism we ditched our old one in hopes it might force the mattress gods to smile down on us but there was no smiling and for months we slept on an old air mattress one with multiple tiny holes in it what this meant dear reader is that it had to be re inflated two or three times during the night and that most times we woke up millimeters from the floor felt our backs and hips and shoulders press into what were surely hateful plywood planks beneath renters beige carpet and so then ward would reach over in the dark in that drunken sleepy clumsy way i will always remember to plug the air pump back in we d hear the high pitched whir of electric air and feel our bodies slowly rise upwards as if supernatural forces were at play in the wee dark hours of the night i thought someday we will laugh about this not now but someday but it went on like this for months the two of us and that ridiculous situation every night with netflix and bowls of cereal and the slow hiss of the mattress the sound of air slowly escaping our bodies gradually sinking ultimately rolling in towards each other but someday is finally now and i am in my magic cloud bed and i am laughing nary an air pump in sight at 10 20 pm 1 comments labels nablopomo 05 november 2022 gold i tell you i am holding the idea of that extra hour tonight like a willy wonka golden ticket wrapped around a chocolate bar i am thinking about that part in the story when it seems all hope is lost and then charlie finds fifty pence in the gutter and his mind runs wild with possibility how he goes straight to the newspaper shop that sells sweets and cigars and buys one whipple scrumptious fudgemallow delight and wolfs it down so fast the shopkeeper says hey sonny boy slow down you ll make yourself sick i m thinking about how he decides to buy one more candy bar just because even though he thinks all the golden tickets have already been found i am of course thinking about the moment he unwraps that bar the slight crinkle of paper that glimmer of gold i no longer care about losing light i now find the argument around daylight savings time cumbersome and pointless i treat that extra hour like what it feels like a whipple scrumptious fudgemallow delight with a golden ticket inside at 10 10 pm 0 comments labels nablopomo 04 november 2022 so i m building a new house and i don t exactly know what it will look like though i have a pretty good idea and i m no coder or anything i do not have that kind of brain but a fresh new house for words and pictures with figurative space for figurative breathing and figurative moving is the literal plan fresh fresh is a word i love it really seems like i should have more words more substance to show for seventeen minutes of writing but here we are i will admit to googling a few things while the timer was running things like thermal baths in budapest and what does blood sausage taste like but the brain works in mysterious ways and i am in no particular place to question it at 6 37 pm 0 comments labels nablopomo 03 november 2022 i need a new house i can t keep living in this blogspot house i ve been here since 2005 i can t keep living here renovations are possible i ve certainly considered them frankly i think it s a little punk rock to operate via blogspot in 2022 there s something openly defiant about it which i love but this house here this blogspot house is a shell at 11 21 pm 2 comments labels nablopomo 02 november 2022 seventeen minutes the timer is running thinking about a new coat early blogger days tina modotti a teeny tiny list project boiled peanuts substack the year 2023 the word meraviglioso blood orange lipstick joan didion s things sunrise grocery store goldenrod along the highway the invasion of the joro spiders cherry cobbler moonshine jam florence italy a new timer with eleven minutes to spare at 11 49 pm 0 comments labels lists nablopomo 01 november 2022 november is my thursday night start easy they say or maybe that s just what i say maybe it s the thing i tell myself in the beginning when i just need to get out of my own way and on with it already at some point during this last hour of the first day of november i had the idea to set a timer for seventeen minutes and just write and then hit publish no matter what which is something i ve never done before and maybe this is a really bad idea but i think it just might be the thing at 11 17 pm 1 comments labels nablopomo 28 july 2022 as it turns out i significantly underestimated the sacredness of this space though quite frankly my underestimation looks more like forgetting and then remembering forgetting and then remembering back in may the night before ezra graduated from high school the subject of the butter came up that is the infamous tub of butter that went missing when ezra was just three years old and mysteriously showed up a few days later inside a lidded pot which was nestled behind a mess of many lidded pots in the very back of a kitchen cabinet so high up i needed a small step stool myself to reach it surely ezra was the culprit though it still seems impossible we were never able to prove it or explain it and he doesn t remember or says he doesn t and anyway now it s as embedded in the family folklore as both birth stories the time i put fake toilet paper in the bathroom and the crazy magic christmas of 2010 i remembered writing about the butter here and went looking for it in my archives that night something else i underestimated the unmitigated joy of reading old posts out loud to the humans you wrote about one post led to another and before long we were swimming in stories and details i had long since forgotten i cannot explain what it felt like to read these pieces out loud to the kids for the first time the kids who are now 18 and 22 i cannot explain what it felt like in the room that night story after story their joy my joy i cannot overstate this and in writing this right now i can feel how much i want to get it right how tempted i am to overthink it to leave this draft open and unpublished to get up and do something else to check stupid dumb instagram to reorganize the book shelves to wash the three dishes in the sink something anything to keep from thinking through writing through this thing that happened that was so wonderfully deep and joyful though also strangely inexplicably ever so slightly painful i want to get it right and i don t think i can in a year five years maybe ten i ll read this and remember what i know now after nearly eighteen years of blogging is that this is all that really matters at 7 58 pm 5 comments labels motherhood 29 november 2021 like i said at 6 35 pm labels nabopomo 28 november 2021 mike s we are not thinking about tomorrow yet we are not thinking about how sunday will give way to monday and monday to tuesday and so on and so forth we are not thinking about the hard things yet not thinking about the things we did not finish the things we should have said but didn t or maybe should not have said but did we are not thinking about these things these broken things instead we are thinking about leftover birthday cake and christmas trees about the avocado that might might be ripe in the morning about the story the security guard at the high museum told us the one about mick jagger we are thinking about neon yellow ginkgo leaves and the click of the canonet the last of the mashed potatoes in the bonne maman jar in the back of the fridge and how good it felt to sit in a dark theatre and let c mon c mon swallow us whole we are thinking about the christmas tree farm that was barely a christmas tree farm more a junkyard than anything how that seemed to make us love it even more how a guy named mike handed us a saw and said any tree any size 35 dollars we are thinking about the sun like honey and the smell of pine on our fingertips and the tree we cut down and tied to the roof of our car with twine that mike gave us we are thinking about the long shadow of our car on the way home christmas tree on top and the way we pointed at it hey look it s us it s our tree we said tree sap high sugar high thanksgiving break high finally enough sleep high everyone is home high these are the things we are thinking about at 10 42 pm labels nablopomo 21 november 2021 this is a picture i did not take first written seven years ago on november 5 2014 and when i read through it again just now on a whim while revisiting the archives i thought this is why i write here this is why this is a picture i did not take i read with ezra each night at bedtime as in he reads his book i read mine gone are the days of reading out loud have i told you one of my greatest joys in life has been reading roald dahl books out loud to my children a few months ago i begged ezra to let me read danny the champion of the world out loud to him one last time reluctantly he agreed and then i should add barely tolerated the nightly reading so that was that the last time the very very last time and now our reading together looks completely different but that s okay i ll take what i can get after our twenty minutes or so of silent reading which i have actually grown to love very much he tossed his book in the general direction of the nightstand and turned to sleep on his left side just like he always does and then i turned out the light said the prayers and sang the two favorite songs just like i always do and then usually i am quick to get up and out of there because you know netflix big green couch adult quiet time i am ashamed to admit just how quick i am to sing those two songs and slip out of the room i am ashamed but i am still quick but tonight as i felt myself rushing through the prayer the two favorite songs i felt that wistful thing that bittersweet thing that thing that sometimes overtakes me and i lay there for a little while and i willed myself to memorize every detail the deep green glow of the alien nightlight arm slung over a dingy sock monkey slight curve of a still small shoulder the hum and hiss of the humidifier the sound of his breathing sandy hair in perfect waves pencil drawn waves as if i can hold on to any of this as if any of us can hold on to anything or any of what happens to us and i wondered how many times my own mother tried to memorize details like these if she was able to hold onto any of them if she felt the way i did tonight i would give anything to know but i won t know i can t know and it s not okay it will never be okay but the wondering is all i have the imagining and the memorizing is all that s left and i ll take what i can get at 10 45 pm 4 comments labels nablopomo 20 november 2021 your moon is my moon is our moon are you looking at the moon right now get up walk outside and look at that thing that giant luminous thing take five deep breaths take five hundred deep breaths if you need to then let that crazy bright moon swallow you whole for a few minutes then march yourself back inside and sleep the sleep of a thousand babies because goodness there s work to do at 10 37 pm labels nablopomo 19 november 2021 november the nineteenth i insist on being shocked i am never going to become immune i think that s a kind of failure to see so much of it that you die inside i want to be surprised and shocked every time toni morrison at 9 41 pm labels nablopomo 18 november 2021 addendum re when the world is too much in addition to finding solace in moments written on paper things for remembering i might also recommend a spoonful of brie just one eaten slowly mindfully not that this is news but i have come to the conclusion that brie is like if butter and cheese had a beautiful baby and i swear i felt my knees buckle in the kitchen just now felt the weight of the world lift for just a second at 4 41 pm labels nablopomo 17 november 2021 the secret lives of secret lives look i don t have all the answers and certainly my finger is on no particular pulse but i know a poem 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