Meta tags:
description=Soul Writing;

Headings (most frequently used words):

love, post, navigation, follow, menu, am, know, forgive, what, would, letting, go, mean, secret, life, black, dove, luminous, does, he, nourish, you, how, to, man, eagle, launch, is, continuum, law, of, detachment, me, on, facebook, website, via, email, soul, writing,

Text of the page (most frequently used words):
the (137), and (106), you (89), have (58), love (55), that (53), for (39), never (37), would (37), what (33), him (32), day (31), with (30), this (29), will (29), your (28), how (23), want (20), not (20), was (18), don (17), myself (17), been (17), all (17), his (17), but (16), one (16), about (16), her (16), know (15), time (15), meditation (14), tell (14), like (13), can (13), life (13), get (12), just (12), let (12), out (12), again (12), back (11), through (11), under (11), many (11), over (11), had (11), when (11), going (10), first (10), years (10), posted (10), gabriella (10), 2014 (10), open (10), are (10), around (10), new (9), why (9), say (9), ready (9), could (9), beautiful (9), own (9), soul (9), from (8), there (8), didn (8), heart (8), times (8), still (8), every (8), she (8), who (8), comment (7), now (7), other (7), right (7), give (7), last (7), any (7), long (7), after (7), fly (7), come (7), talk (7), emotion (7), leave (6), world (6), which (6), feel (6), until (6), good (6), end (6), has (6), down (6), class (6), wings (6), then (6), see (6), its (6), man (6), because (6), meant (6), without (6), fear (6), email (5), write (5), comments (5), follow (5), same (5), next (5), start (5), were (5), story (5), voice (5), gone (5), knew (5), think (5), more (5), different (5), october (5), having (5), journey (5), hope (5), thought (5), forgive (5), purpose (5), forgiveness (5), letter (5), nothing (4), kids (4), make (4), law (4), detachment (4), attachment (4), mean (4), words (4), relationship (4), speak (4), much (4), reason (4), moving (4), eagle (4), today (4), felt (4), fell (4), forward (4), arms (4), wish (4), failures (4), some (4), way (4), only (4), wouldn (4), told (4), break (4), asked (4), even (4), ask (4), people (4), met (4), better (4), son (4), part (4), does (4), finally (4), before (4), black (4), dove (4), flying (4), together (4), line (4), free (4), secret (4), ego (4), being (4), yourself (4), living (4), courage (4), started (3), wordpress (3), com (3), website (3), sign (3), posts (3), post (3), reading (3), intention (3), decision (3), someone (3), married (3), order (3), doesn (3), desire (3), moment (3), spiritual (3), august (3), bye (3), stood (3), goodbye (3), means (3), always (3), launch (3), done (3), wanted (3), often (3), pull (3), towards (3), move (3), into (3), seen (3), face (3), taking (3), hadn (3), well (3), others (3), heard (3), something (3), made (3), used (3), our (3), begged (3), away (3), these (3), against (3), best (3), need (3), telling (3), show (3), big (3), most (3), nourish (3), growing (3), asking (3), really (3), working (3), teacher (3), luminous (3), each (3), seeing (3), terror (3), everyday (3), them (3), half (3), find (3), home (3), walls (3), support (3), gift (3), self (3), old (3), faith (3), happiness (3), marriage (3), mum (3), writing (3), happy (3), god (3), site (2), required (2), content (2), log (2), subscribed (2), subscribe (2), address (2), facebook (2), older (2), navigation (2), continue (2), relief (2), decisions (2), than (2), focusing (2), place (2), should (2), stick (2), says (2), anything (2), relinquish (2), result (2), pointed (2), deepak (2), success (2), five (2), final (2), real (2), stay (2), ended (2), healing (2), chapter (2), instructor (2), doing (2), save (2), pain (2), lean (2), won (2), rest (2), they (2), known (2), afar (2), becoming (2), another (2), secrets (2), held (2), getting (2), conversation (2), thoughts (2), put (2), wanting (2), silence (2), dreamed (2), work (2), romantic (2), mind (2), mother (2), take (2), meet (2), spoke (2), learned (2), serious (2), later (2), answered (2), touched (2), answer (2), everything (2), said (2), ever (2), thing (2), blue (2), suddenly (2), questions (2), splinter (2), mine (2), rules (2), loved (2), melt (2), haven (2), believe (2), did (2), gave (2), simply (2), changing (2), taught (2), cry (2), gives (2), september (2), looks (2), ranting (2), raving (2), stories (2), family (2), maybe (2), sure (2), too (2), creating (2), whole (2), session (2), year (2), welcome (2), body (2), beauty (2), fog (2), deserts (2), night (2), silent (2), looking (2), middle (2), waddle (2), wide (2), turn (2), found (2), 105 (2), shaking (2), holding (2), where (2), point (2), live (2), look (2), entirely (2), their (2), woman (2), financially (2), yoga (2), psychic (2), complicated (2), wanna (2), giving (2), enough (2), scared (2), daughter (2), intimacy (2), worry (2), wisteria (2), wedding (2), certainty (2), path (2), letting (2), past (2), dad (2), learnt (2), two (2), here (2), park (2), prayer (2), feeling (2), oprah (2), loving (2), battle (2), pray (2), coming (2), soon (2), drop (2), intuition (2), osho (2), hubby (2), conflict (2), stillness (2), knows (2), creation (2), finding (2), design, name, loading, collapse, bar, manage, subscriptions, view, reader, report, privacy, already, account, join, 140, subscribers, blog, enter, wesbite, receive, notifications, via, provides, forth, rather, outcome, bring, focus, making, form, friends, run, ragged, options, none, consequently, rave, aquire, physical, universe, create, combining, few, nights, chopra, seven, laws, flicking, struck, notes, ending, window, forever, trying, sayings, connection, transforming, moments, laid, meditate, tried, wave, muse, waving, africa, continuum, preparing, comes, comforts, weak, falling, properly, indeed, pose, feet, arched, catching, finger, tips, whipping, knick, calves, shake, shoots, leg, side, encourages, sacrum, sky, promising, fall, music, softens, squat, position, almost, torso, thighs, rotating, head, outstretched, uncategorized, ten, close, watch, refusing, risk, victim, resented, drawing, blood, stone, struggle, announces, leaving, mulling, left, instead, chair, arm, direction, facing, near, relaxed, pillow, beloved, strolls, chit, chatting, hoped, dinner, assumed, ignoring, approve, recently, actually, darling, saved, couple, tears, problems, deeply, remember, listening, taken, three, yelled, 000, skype, stranger, true, very, instance, stubborn, alone, calm, wasn, denying, broke, exact, hundreds, tells, tease, cornered, game, choice, months, decided, slowly, tapped, lock, thousands, daily, hammer, chipping, wood, followed, job, outyou, weaknesses, throw, bet, wished, number, makes, yes, shown, flogged, doghouse, encourage, worst, fight, care, wrong, got, secretly, yearns, mama, wants, unconditional, saw, vulnerability, easy, spend, minute, learn, cut, off, try, communicate, boys, stand, use, teach, mouth, weapons, finish, interrupt, video, above, profound, watched, patient, jakes, women, golden, question, fake, quizzical, attempting, cover, slyness, knowing, prods, spiritually, mentally, emotionally, physically, sinking, stomach, silencing, explanations, asks, yeah, difference, between, destiny, fate, lovers, saying, rant, answers, directly, cryptically, challenge, philosophical, ideas, impatient, handsome, nose, lips, counselling, changed, crying, truly, buried, cycle, wishing, 100, longing, swirls, calls, disappears, leaves, hard, commit, guidance, permission, ahead, confirmation, carry, water, total, set, sessions, transitioning, dumping, welling, table, psychologist, kinesiologist, cranio, sacral, hippie, else, listen, fallen, presence, breaking, dawning, beaming, greeting, blooms, blissful, matter, beginnings, begun, feels, beginning, wrapped, dusty, packs, pure, white, doves, brilliant, coloured, parrots, forests, bored, during, road, house, sit, complete, exhausted, wrap, selves, trembling, painfully, edge, closer, slump, wire, colourful, galahs, behind, sparrows, flown, staring, land, opened, single, bird, sitting, phone, sunrise, nowhere, stars, chilling, wind, bones, drink, feathers, worn, bare, tired, seas, wild, doubles, pack, birds, clipped, boundaries, beautify, boast, soar, country, hearing, reassure, explain, justify, must, master, second, avoid, possible, travel, business, roll, sheets, eyes, freeing, miss, opinion, state, fears, louder, hates, figure, published, longer, committing, child, guess, panic, chubby, faced, demanding, non, unpublished, writer, chisel, claiming, visit, call, able, soften, running, late, vin, lake, como, speech, written, rehearsed, continuing, anxious, relationships, ache, beliefs, reinforced, manifested, require, step, fulfilled, great, along, bowl, requires, responsible, thats, disappointment, isn, lose, fantasy, week, though, strong, negotiate, depending, become, pushed, created, opportunity, mature, assured, despite, distance, uncertainty, promise, bottom, jungle, bali, admired, reassured, quirks, uncomfortable, awe, visualised, book, newly, planned, trip, italy, figured, connect, uniqueness, necessary, sister, jealous, spent, friend, memories, deepened, friendships, sharing, personality, passion, lies, amazing, version, otherwise, souls, mid, posture, stopped, hands, surface, moved, triple, headed, serpent, triggered, memory, quote, tonight, midway, yell, joyful, experience, glided, moves, excitement, bubbling, inside, flexible, focused, postures, while, ago, fantastic, forgiven, cheated, winfrey, rescue, bury, lie, transform, betray, dream, surrender, weight, trust, men, manifest, daisy, ring, poetry, zorba, buddha, joy, sex, accepting, relaxation, awareness, judging, conditioning, tuition, within, everyone, creative, integration, needs, intelligence, watching, dangerously, art, balance, anger, meditations, thank, king, solve, mirror, lessons, days, foe, father, letters, pause, release, movie, deserve, daddy, circles, contributing, waking, mysteries, responsibility, takes, suffering, speaking, truth, seat, scary, choices, resisting, change, possibilities, playfulness, peace, continues, brings, death, present, keys, judgement, instinct, inherited, holiness, concept, depends, grace, deeper, gain, roots, embrace, reactions, dharma, affair, comparison, lives, calling, born, meditators, possessive, mad, authentic, inspired, loves, bio, skip, menu,

Text of the page (random words):
r for my father letter for my first love letter for my foe letter for my mum letter for my new love love all of my days are you will you can you how to love a man hubby s gone lessons love meditation osho love is a mirror love is not going to solve anything loving without fear my king thank you the part of him wisteria wedding osho day 1 what is meditation day 2 meditations on love and relationship day 3 meditation and anger day 4 the art of living in balance day 5 love meditation day 6 living dangerously day 7 watching the mind day 8 it needs intelligence to be happy day 9 the integration of body mine and the soul through meditation day 10 coming soon day 11 everyone is creative day 12 intuition tuition from within day 13 meditation and conditioning day 14 how to drop judging people day 16 relaxation through awareness day 17 accepting every part of me day 18 sex love and meditation day 19 living in joy day 20 coming soon day 21 zorba the buddha poetry black dove daisy ring i can t make you love me love luminous manifest you new love so long as pray every day i pray faith forgive me prayer for men trust weight i surrender self dream home soul betray yourself how do you know purpose transform ego battle fear is a lie forgive myself i bury myself loving without fear old new rescue myself scared of the world secrets i am i know soul writing post navigation older posts i forgive posted on october 22 2014 by gabriella under me forgiveness is giving up the hope that the past could have been any different oprah winfrey i d heard this a while ago and thought it was fantastic when i thought had i forgiven my love no why would i want to hope that i hadn t been cheated on tonight midway through my moving meditation in the park i wanted to yell out to my teacher i am just so happy for no reason i was joyful for the experience i was having i felt free i glided through the moves with excitement bubbling inside me feeling flexible and focused on my postures we moved into triple headed serpent and she said something about forgiveness that triggered my memory of the oprah quote suddenly mid posture i thought i forgive i stopped the move and stood still my hands in prayer focusing feeling the emotion come to the surface i didn t wish it had been any different otherwise i wouldn t have been here in the park having a beautiful time with these beautiful souls i had met in my class i never would have met my spiritual teacher and i never would have been on this amazing journey i never would have been the better version of myself that i am now with all that i know about love i never would have learnt that i am not my ego i am not me personality i am my soul my soul has a voice that will tell me what my path is what my purpose is where my passion lies i never would have deepened my friendships by sharing my soul journey i never would have spent two years with my best friend creating memories and growing together i never would have made up with my sister and learnt how to love her and support her without being jealous of her success i never would have finally figured out how to connect with my dad and why his uniqueness is necessary for my journey i never would have started my website and finally visualised by book i m going to start writing on my newly planned trip to italy i never would have found my five year old me at the bottom of a jungle in my meditation in bali i admired her reassured her loved her and all her quirks which make my own mum uncomfortable i am in awe of her i never would have become who i am today and pushed my love to be a better man i never would have created this opportunity for us to start again as more mature people assured in our love for each other despite the distance the uncertainty and without promise we will end up together i never would have been strong enough to negotiate marriage or no marriage depending on what i feel is right for me i never would have been ready to have kids with you i never would have known i could love you still even though i could not forgive you until today when i give up the hope that the past could have been any different 2 comments what would letting go mean posted on october 17 2014 by gabriella under him me last week in meditation i thought about seeing him one last time i heard you will then be ready to let you you will be ready to let go thats not what i want i don t want to let him go i don t want the final disappointment that he isn t what i want that he s not the one for me i don t want the certainty and i don t want to have to let go i don t want to lose the fantasy of maybe that would require me to step out in faith that i will be self fulfilled in this life or that some great love will come along and bowl me over with certainty that requires that i am entirely responsible for my own life my own path my own decisions my own happiness the thought of continuing to go through anxious relationships that end in heart ache is not what i want for myself i don t want old stories and beliefs to be reinforced because i manifested them if he is not meant to be it would mean i will worry about not having kids i worry about running out of time of not getting over my self and working myself out before it was too late it means we will never have the daughter we dreamed of and never get married under the wisteria vin in lake como i ll never get to say my wedding speech that i have written and rehearsed for the last 4 years it means that one day i will get a call that he s met someone that its serious that the intimacy in his voice will go i won t be able to make him soften and melt around me then i ll really be on my own then i ll really panic who will love this chubby faced complicated demanding non working unpublished wanna be writer who is going to chisel away at the walls of someone claiming they don t want to get married or have kids who is going to tell me everyday i m the most beautiful woman in the world who is going to financially support me so i can go to yoga write and visit my psychic every day i guess the answer is me i will have to love this complicated being i will have to write until i am published until i am no longer a wanna be i will have to break down my own walls to be open to committing to some one to be open to giving myself the gift of a child to love myself enough not to be scared by daughter will turn out just like me but hope she does because i think i am a gift to the world i am going to have to look at myself everyday and tell myself i am the most beautiful woman in the world i am going to have to figure out a way to financially support myself so that i can go to yoga write and see my psychic every day i will have to love myself louder than my ego hates me i will have to break down my own walls i will have to back myself i will have to be a whole not looking for another half 4 comments secret life posted on october 17 2014 by gabriella under journey me secret life what would i do if no one knew if no one would find out if no one could give their opinion or state their fears if no one would need me or miss me or want me back i need to live my life as if it s in secret freeing me entirely first order of business in my new secret life go get my love roll in the sheets and look him in his eyes again second order avoid work for as long as possible and travel and write for as long as i can i must master this to save myself to free myself to live without fear or what other people think want don like i want to be gone and not have to reassure any one to never have to explain or justify i want to be free hearing only my own voice leave a comment black dove posted on october 1 2014 by gabriella under me you are home to me i can fly and fly boast and soar around every country seeing all beautify all terror having no boundaries never having my wings clipped i can even fly with other birds doubles or in a pack flying free flying wild i get to a point where i ve seen everything all the beauty and all the terror all the seas and all the deserts now i m tired i haven t had a drink and my feathers are worn and bare my bones start to show chilling in the wind i fly around all night through the stars and through the fog with nowhere to go until sunrise when the others find me when i m 105 i see this phone line with a single bird sitting on the end wings opened wide up shaking like he s been holding them open for years i land for the first time on the other end of the line staring at this black dove with open shaking arms and i start to cry for all the beautiful sparrows i ve flown with for all the colourful galahs i ve made fly behind me i ve never found a place to rest in 105 years until now i edge closer to the slump in the middle of the wire you see me turn towards me and waddle down your half of the line with your arms still open wide trembling painfully i waddle down my half of the line finally we meet together in the middle his exhausted wings wrap them selves around me and i feel complete for the next 95 years we sit there together looking at the same road the same house the same family go and come back everyday during the day we talk and night we re silent in each others wings i m never bored i never want to leave you think i will but i never do because flying through the fog the forests the deserts seeing the beauty and the terror flying in packs of pure white doves and brilliant coloured parrots wouldn t be the same without the dusty wings of my black dove wrapped around my body 7 comments luminous posted on october 1 2014 by gabriella under him your welcome feels like a new beginning no matter how many beginnings have begun before each beaming greeting blooms blissful relief like the breaking of a new year the dawning of a new day your presence in my life is luminous leave a comment does he nourish you posted on september 3 2014 by gabriella under him i m ranting and raving to my spiritual teacher in a one on one session about how i think i ve fallen back in love with my ex this is a total set back to what we have been working on in my sessions i am meant to be transitioning growing moving forward creating a new life i take up the whole session by dumping my welling heart on the table and asking her to tell me what to do with it i have done this many times before with my psychologist kinesiologist cranio sacral something or other hippie and any one else who would listen i m asking for her guidance a sign permission i m asking for the go ahead and confirmation that it really is meant to be or is it not and if it is not why do i carry this water well of emotion for him i have been through this cycle many times before wishing i would feel 100 sure even 75 sure but i never have emotion and longing for him swirls every time he calls me out of the blue but disappears every time he leaves and says its too hard to talk when i can t commit i m telling her how handsome he is how big and beautiful he his his beautiful nose and his beautiful lips how he s been to counselling and how he s finally stood up to his family i m telling her how much i have changed and that maybe this time it would be different i m crying with emotion wanting her to tell me its right that its meant to be that i do truly love him its just been a buried emotion she let s me rant on and on but never answers any of my questions directly only cryptically i challenge after all of her philosophical stories and big ideas growing more and more impatient ok i get that yeah but is it meant to be what is the difference between destiny and fate are we meant to be lovers what are you saying just tell me she never would after much more ranting and raving and explanations as to how it could be different and how much i love him she looks at me and simply asks what part of you does he nourish i feel a sinking in my stomach and a silencing of my thoughts i have nothing to say she prods me you know spiritually mentally emotionally physically what part of you does he nourish she gives this fake quizzical looks attempting to cover up her slyness and knowing that he doesn t i had nothing to say but my question was answered 2 comments how to love a man posted on september 2 2014 by gabriella under him this video above has to be one of the most profound i have ever watched i wish i knew better and i wish i could have been more patient t d jakes gives us women these golden rules when we do talk let us finish don t interrupt me don t use what i told you against me because you will teach me to never open my mouth again we are often taught not to talk when we have learned that our words will be used as weapons against us vulnerability doesn t come easy you re changing the class the first class you taught us is big boys don t cry stand up and be a man don t show emotion and then later you say open up show emotion communicate well you spend 16 years telling me not to do that so give me a minute to learn how to do that and don t cut me off when i try what we need to know is if you saw my failures would you still love me if you love your man the way you would love your son then we will talk to you because you love your son you will fight for your son i don t care what he did wrong you will come after him if you would give us what you gave your son we re good we got you we can do this that s why he secretly yearns for his mama because he wants the love his mother gave him which is simply put unconditional love let him know that i can see the worst in you but still believe in the best for you number 4 just makes me melt yes i still love you but i haven t shown you that i have flogged you and held you in the doghouse for so long i didn t encourage you to get back up when you fell i wanted you to stay down and think about what you ve done i didn t tell him you that you were doing a good job becoming a man i pointed outyou re your weaknesses i used what you told me against you i would throw it back in your face and ask you about it again and again and again i bet you wished he never told me if i followed these rules i could have loved you better but i didn t know this at the time i didn t know how i begged and begged and begged my love to open up over the years i have slowly tapped away at the lock around your heart day by day by day i asked you thousands of questions daily over and over again its like taking a hammer and chipping away at some wood over and over again splinter by splinter i never felt like i knew you i never felt like you were mine so many times after we broke up he would come out and tell me the exact thing i had asked him hundreds of times about i used to ask him to tell me the story he tells other people about how we met how we fell in love he would tease me and say there is not story that i cornered him and it was game over that i just wouldn t let him go so he had no choice 18 months after we ended our relationship i asked him again out of the blue and he suddenly decided to tell me i have been in love with you fr...