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ense of worth because you made it thirty days with little food ed s and food restriction give you something that most people can t a feeling of superiority which when you lack confidence this superiority feels really really really really good but ed s devour you and suck you in eating disorders like to make you think that you are in control but you aren t they are ed s manipulate science buzz words and use scare tactics to keep you under their thumb before you know it you have drank the no sugar kool aid filled with collagen peptides and bone broth you re a whole food expert giving everyone nutrition advice because you have done something that is seen as hardcore and valuable or you give advice because you got a six week certification so that means you are superior to someone who has a masters or doctorate if you have made it this far another congratulations if you disagree with me and want to blast me online go ahead you won t hurt me hear me out though this is why i write this here is a quote from one of melissa s blog posts food freedom is feeling in control of the food that you eat instead of food controlling you that right there is blatant eating disordered talk to make it even more infuriating she follows up with this food freedom doesn t mean that you re a perfect eater however it doesn t mean you always make the right decision it doesn t mean you always stay on track and never fall back into old habits food freedom means that when you fall off course you don t let it ruin your day or your week physically or emotionally it means you always have a plan for returning to a place of healthy balance gracefully it means you recognize that life happens but every slip is actually a learning experience and your food freedom plan is that much more robust for these lessons food freedom demands that you re in this for the long haul there is no hack for food freedom no shortcut or quick fix it s you working my 3 step food freedom plan day in and day out every single day there are no weeks off there is no i m on vacation so i m just not going to think about it you can t disconnect from your body or your relationship with food when things get hard food freedom demands more attention than that this is prime example of the smooth operator that an ed is it is mixed messaging at its finest sure this sounds good we all want food freedom but look at her language words such as right ed terms good bad slip ed term relapse demanding attention and that you have to do it her way are setting someone up for an eating disorder sure you may not give in to this aspect of it however someone who is upset with their life looking for control coping with a traumatic event etc this language and concept will lead them down an eating disorder path conversely if someone has orthorexia obsession with clean eating healthy eating using whole 30 is the perfect cover up it gives them a reason that is societally ok to be this obsessive which as a recovery warrior is the last thing i want see i want to see women and men have food freedom because they want it not because someone else told them to or because their diet is less than i want them to find their own version of healthy by working with a dietician who can customize a program for them i want them to work out in a smart evidence based manner where the results are actually a lifestyle that is maintainable everyone deserves a healthy lifestyle but at an eating disorder free cost for more articles about eating disorders and whole 30 see the following whole 30 and holiness how the clean eating fad is taking it s toll on young women the dark side of the fad diet whole 30 diet does it live up to the claims whole 30ish the good the bad and the ugly p s i am aware that there is a post about ed s and whole 30 on the whole 30 blog it is very generic and in my opinion glazes over some the of deeper issues that sets eating disorders apart from disordered eating gateway to ed s and doesn t take the seriousness of this issue posted in recovery uncategorized and tagged anorexia anorexia recovery binge eating disorder bulimia bulimia recovery clean eating cleanses detox dietician dieting eating disorder recovery eating disorders health melissa hartwig mental health new years resolution nutrition opinion orthorexia paleo wellness whole 30 whole 30 diet on february 8 2018 by imageoftheheart leave a comment official diagnosis you re on my last nerve if you have followed me over the past few years or know me in real life you are aware of my phantom gi issues for five years these episodes have controlled my life there were days when i could not get out of bed there were days when i had to leave work early because i couldn t stop throwing up there were months where i lived on smoothies and liquid foods there were dates with the hubby that had to be cut short because i got sick and would pass out then there was the time i had an attack at the obgyn office the hubs had to pick me up and i had to drink the orange sugar drink they give pregnant ladies i lived in fear and sometimes embarrassment of knowing that any moment i could have something coming out of somewhere over the years i have spent more time in doctor s offices then i d like to admit i have lost my temper and swore off doctors all together i have had ingested more radioactive tracers than a healthy person needs to if i had a dollar for every time i heard you re too young to be here or too young to be having these issues i d have a brand new car i had tests done that costs more than a new car done that came back with negative results i have tried medicine food supplementation and just living to get this under control i had to listen over and over again to people telling me that i need to ingest essential oils and i d be cured that i don t do enough yoga or meditation these antidotes spun around me like a record on a record player i got to a point where i thought they were never going to figure out what s wrong with me it wasn t my gallbladder my hiatal hernia had been long cured it wasn t my small intestine and it s function my colon or more food allergies while i almost felt like giving up a part of me kept fighting on i knew eventually something would have to give and i would find out what was causing my distress even though it seemed like no one was listening to me that something was wrong it started to have that girl who cried wolf vibe i knew internally something was off i just had to find the right doctor after reading some research on a medicine i was taking i began to think that maybe my nerves weren t working while i suffer from gad and spent most of my life battling eating disorders i thought that maybe somehow together they caused the nerves that go to my belly to stop working if that was the case then maybe there is some way to stimulate them just like the therapies that are out for alzheimer s and when you estem a muscle when it has atrophied too much when i went to my new gi doctor we talked about that and he set me up for one final test the results were positive i finally got a result i have gastroporesis delayed stomach emptying the nerves from my brain to belly in fact didn t work since they don t work i can t tell if i m full hungry or something in between i was so relieved to think i finally had a diagnosis that something was actually wrong with me i wasn t crazy with this new found relief came a whole new round of stress yup the stress was still around this time instead of worrying where the closest bathroom was i had to restructure my eating and lifestyle again i m not going to lie it was and still is difficult i had to stop eating vegetarian because i can t digests lentils beans and most staples of a vegetarian die bring it on to those who disagree with research and science i m slowly eating more mea and figuring out how to keep my veggie loving self happy i have to eat small portions every few hours and eat very slowly while i still have some stress about eating i feel relief in my diagnosis almost a sense of peace with this new found peace i am determined to finally have a healthy relationship with food it will take some time but hopefully bite by bite food can restore how i view food once and for all posted in overcoming obstacles uncategorized and tagged ana recovery anxiety bulimia recovery eating disorder recovery food allegies gastrointestional disease gastroporesis irritable bowel disease irritable bowel syndrome mindful eating nerve damage real life on january 25 2018 by imageoftheheart 4 comments new year not so new me happy 2018 it s that time of the year for new year resolutions gym memberships intention setting manifesting positive thinking living life to the fullest and most importantly newyearnewme love it or hate it that is the mantra for january our feeds are filled with it i admit i have used that hashtag myself while i don t mind the concept deep down it isn t what we think it is whether you make resolutions or like me set goals and intentions they are filled with hope and the mindset of change our lists guide us every day in aiding us to make the best decisions that line up with our 2018 vision board as the days turn into weeks and the weeks turn into months what begins to happen some of intentions goals resolutions may have subsided and gotten lost with that gym key fob or they may have fully transformed our lives what changes do you notice maybe you are more peaceful maybe you have cultivated mindfulness maybe you go for a walk three times a week maybe you started a blog or vlog whatever it was they are all external but what about internally are you any different if you were to sit with yourself and look deep down inside would you notice anything have you changed from a type a bulldozer to a type b cool cat have you overcome your introversion and became a mad extrovert what about your values morals and things that make you tick did they change i didn t think so that s why newyearnewme is a lie it changes you outwardly but it doesn t change who you really are i may be making intentions to go from a human doing to a human being live life by the four agreements and 12 steps be impeccable with my word take my acsm certified ex physiologist exam by april launch a youtube channel and dance conditioning in the okc metro blog every other week become a better wife and develop a healthy relationship food now that i finally know what is wrong with me but i m still leslie i will always be a type a bulldozer who is highly competitive to a fault i will always be a perfectionist but am choosing when to express it i will always value kindness respect and treating everyone equally i will always be awkward and quote movies in everyday conversation and guess what that s ok so you can t really be a new you just you who is making changes to live a life more fully are you embracing the newyearnewme concept what are you wanting your 2018 to look like share below posted in overcoming obstacles uncategorized and tagged 2018 ana recovery bulimia recovery goal setting goals intentional living life manifesting mental health mindfulness new year new year new me new years resolutions resolution setting intentions vision board yoga life on january 11 2018 by imageoftheheart leave a comment to those with invisible illnesses over the past few weeks i ve been thinking a lot about invisibility i m not talking about the super power i m talking about things that can t be seen like invisible illnesses if you have followed me for some time or know me you are aware of my invisible illnesses eating disorders anxiety un diagnosed gi issues but there are also more invisible illnesses depression other mental disorders addiction autoimmune diseases fibro lupus chronic fatigue syndrome etc with 1 in 5 adults experiencing or diagnosed with mental illness and approx 50 million people living with an autoimmune disorder chances are you have known someone who is suffering without you being aware of it it those of us who live with these various illnesses become masters of masking our pain with smile and concealing it better than the best make up concealer in the world sometimes we are too good at covering it up that people don t believe us invisible illnesses are also hard to explain when on the outside you look happy and healthy but internally your body is waging war it seems that unless we bear our souls post a billion ig videos documenting our lives send up prayer requests in small groups act sick all the time become hermits then do people only sorta begin to understand or have a bit of sympathy i can t tell you how many times people don t believe me when i say i have an illness when i first began to seek help for my eating disorder i constantly heard you don t look like you have one you aren t emaciated just thin only emaciated people have eating disorders but you eat how can you have anorexia when you i see you eat all the time you can t be addicted to exercise exercise is healthy now with my mysterious gi issues i hear you are too young to have this problem are you sure you have a problem it s just ibs do this sound familiar you re just tired all you need is a nap you re being over dramatic do more yoga try this essential oil the list goes on and on i have blogged about this before and keep discussing it in therapy how difficult it is for me to work on cultivating a positive body image when my body hates me who else has been there between people not believing us the doctors appointments the episodes bland diets and tears we forget that we aren t our illness it is so easy to get caught up in the physical that we wear ourselves down even more the disconnect continues to grow and fester till it s unbearable but is it truly unbearable how can it be bearable by coming together and lifting each other up reminding one another that we are beautiful beings who are capable of so much more that there is more to life and even on our worst day it s a miracle that we are even here we can also see each other and i don t mean physically look i mean really see recognize others who are like us and show support educate others on these invisible illnesses and teaching them how to show support for people like us for my yogis out there really practice namaste lastly take time to remind yourself that you aren t your body by reading this meditation then reach out to someone who needs to be seen fully loved and fully heard so next time you are all alone in our bedroom wrapped up in our favorite blanket cuddling with our doggy waiting for our episode to be over that we aren t alone there is someone else out there wrapped up in their favorite blanket cuddling with their animal waiting for their episode to be over posted in overcoming obstacles recovery uncategorized and tagged anorexia autoimmune disease autoimmune disorder binge eating disorder bulimia eating disorder recovery exercise addiction gastrointestional disease invisible illness meditation mental 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