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ng if he senses we are sad saying please and thank you and you re welcome without prompting in the right context and articulating more of what he wants and needs verbally i think the fact he s going to have a baby sister is sinking in more too as he mentions her in our nighttime prayers and notices the belly more and randomly talks about the fact that he s going to have a baby sister my favorite phrase he says these days is oh okay i see in general bribery doesn t work as well as we would hope but we find that once he takes some time to tantrum or be alone and then think about what we are asking he ends up coming around on his own we are currently on day 5 of potty learning training and he s slowly but surely figuring it out first day with no accidents so far i want to note too that at this point in his life this child has two of the most affectionate parents who are always wanting to hug kiss him and tell him we love him all the time but much to our chagrin he is not affectionate in return he tolerates our hugs and kisses but doesn t usually hug or give kisses in return and doesn t say that he loves us too he is not the kid that runs up to hug us if he hasn t seen us in a while these days he sometimes protests our affection so we are respecting that but it makes us so sad even so we love this little person more and more every day just a few more weeks until he isn t our one and only so i just wanted to try and remember some things on his 2 5 year mark today love you buddy posted in uncategorized 1 reply 525 600 minutes posted on november 5 2018 by ireney07 reply we held you loved you from the moment you came into this world if you forget we are here to remind you as many times as you need brian andreas first of all i hope reading this title puts the opening song from rent in your head if it doesn t please go youtube the song and listen to it immediately as i finally found a chance to begin writing to reflect on my first year of motherhood and ezra s first year of life this was the song that came to mind five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes five hundred twenty five thousand moments so dear five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes how do you measure measure a year in daylights in sunsets in midnights in cups of coffee in inches in miles in laughter in strife in five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes how do you measure a year in the life how do you measure a year in the life it s been the longest shortest year i feel like anyone reflecting on their first year as a parent will understand what i mean by that the first 6 months when e only slept 3 4 hour stretches at a time one time he slept 5 and i woke up in a panic thinking something had happened to him but i honestly thought i wasn t going to make it everyone kept telling me that he would sleep and that i would sleep again but those first 6 months i did not believe it the first time he slept through the night i only slept for 6 hours and couldn t go back to sleep but it was victorious and glorious what kept me going and sane was that he was otherwise a very happy and easy going baby and he still is i count my blessings around that every day and every night as i put him to sleep oh and just for the record he sleeps for 10 11 hours every night now with an occasional restless night it s a miracle becoming a mother this past year was just that it was becoming people would tell me before i was a mom that i was a natural mother but when you have your first child at 37 years old it comes with what i would guess as a bigger transition in some ways when you ve lived your life with just you and maybe a partner for that long you really know who you are what you like and how you function and although i had always wanted to be a mother as previous posts will indicate i wasn t quite prepared for the loss that comes with that new identity too i hope i don t sound like i m complaining i love e and can t imagine life without him but everyone expects you to be super happy about being a mother and no one asks you about what feels hard and what is lost with that new identity and i guess i didn t like to really talk about it either because i felt like i was being ungrateful or that maybe it would sound like i didn t love my son with a depth of love i ve never experienced but i want to put it out there that there were and sometimes still are moments where i feel some kind of loss basically no decision i ever make ever is just about me anymore as i began this post i was literally eating sliced cheese and tortilla chips as a late lunch after feeding my son a gourmet meal and putting him down for his afternoon nap on my day off but along with my truth and my own process of becoming again with its growing pains every minute this past year however hard however joyful are minutes i wouldn t trade for the world and although i wouldn t have thought it was possible i love e more and more every single day and in this horrible political climate and bizarre time in our country and world a time where my heart aches almost every time i read the news what has kept me going sane and hope filled is this little child of mine he reminds me and teaches me to see life for what it is to live each moment fully to laugh explore try and be willing to be held by someone else he is the reason i never forget to say a prayer at night he is the reason i have measured this year in love despite the messages of hate that surround us he is the reason why i feel more convicted that we must work for love and change and justice with some measure of courage because i need things to be better for him and for all children born in this time so in case one day e grows up and cares about what his umma had to say about year one here s also a note for him dear ezra i stared at a blinking cursor for about 5 solid minutes before i decided to type and tell you that i stared at a blinking cursor for 5 solid minutes trying to think of the words to say to you to express everything you could mean to me in this first year of your life is overwhelming and all i can tell you is that i have so many feelings rushing over me right now you are my love bug my baby my beautiful boy you have brought incredible life and nonstop joy to me and your appa every night before we go to bed we reflect on the day and talk about what you did and watch my instagram stories yes the ones that disappear after 24 hours and yes the same videos of you playing eating and doing something silly even after you re asleep we can t get enough of you you remind us that there is so much to be grateful for and we make sure we acknowledge that every single day at one year old you officially have 8 teeth you wave high five manseh lift hands up pray praying hands at meals and blow kisses you shake your body to music and recently you started shooting baskets into a little hoop you got for your birthday you love trucks pick up trucks dump trucks or ups trucks airplanes birds and dogs and will always make an excited ooo ooo sound while pointing at them when you see any of these things you love balls and we are pretty sure your first word where you associate it is baaa for ball you re not a fan of stuffed animals you prefer real objects over your toys in general you love books you love when people read to you and you have your favorites that rotate on a regular basis you can say umma and appa but you don t specifically call us by those names but instead will randomly say it you do whisper up now when you want to be held you always whisper it ever since you began laughing i ve always been able to make you laugh appa not so much but you re starting to finally think he s funny too i am guessing you re going to be left handed like your appa but only time will tell you go back and forth with your hands a lot you love being outside we are pretty sure you are an extrovert you love being around people definitely get energized by them and could keep going and going if i would let you sometimes it takes me putting you into a darkened room and holding you for you to realize how tired you are and then you literally crash in my arms you can sit through most of a church service much to the happiness of your church family you seem cautious in general you re not walking yet and it took you a long time to figure out how to crawl on hands and knees and pull yourself up you were an army crawl champion for a long time though and you can still move super fast that way you never minded being on your belly and you prefer to sleep on your belly now your bedtime ritual consists of us putting on pajamas giving you a bottle reading you some books and then hugging and waving goodnight to appa we then go to your room and sing jesus loves me twinkle twinkle and abc and then you go to sleep so far this year we discovered that you re allergic to peanuts and massively allergic to sesame we found out about the sesame allergy one week before your birthday and were in urgent care for hours after your massive reaction an epipen probably saved your life i had never been so scared since you ve been born i had given you hummus and apparently it was the tahini in it i spent that night laying on the ground next to your crib to listen to your breathing per the doctor s suggestion just in case i m glad we found out but we are also pretty bummed because almost everything in korean food has sesame or sesame oil in it we are just so glad you re okay anyway those are some of the things we want to remember i want to close with this poem that was given to me at one of my baby showers it made me emotional then but now that you re here it speaks a louder truth in a beautiful way that i can t do on my own it says i am your parent you are my child i am your quiet place you are my wild i am your calm face you are my giggle i am your wait you are my wiggle i am your audience you are my clown i am your london bridge you are my falling down i am your carrot sticks you are my licorice i am your dandelion you are my first wish i am your water wings you are my deep i am your open arms you are my running leap i am your way home you are my new path i am your dry towel you are my wet bath i am your dinner you are my chocolate cake i am your bedtime you are my wide awake i am your finish line you are my race i am your praying hands you are my saving grace i am your favourite book you are my new lines i am your nightlight you are my sunshine i am your lullaby you are my peek a boo i am your kiss goodnight you are my i love you maryann k cusimano thank you for making me a mom ezra happy 1st birthday baby i love you love umma p s all of these pictures were taken on the day of your 1st birthday close to the time you were actually born photos by quiannamarie photography posted in uncategorized leave a reply one decade posted on october 18 2018 by ireney07 reply ten ten years since that day in which i made vows vows made not to a human partner but to a divine one in divine community where bread was again broken the cup shared a natural flow to the rhythm of my life ten 3 650 days of swimming of flapping of wonder of confusion of proclaiming of baptizing of sitting with of crying of laughing until my belly hurts 3 650 days of memories in hospital rooms of the dying and the sweet squirming of new life 3 650 days of teenagers ten ten years of easter sunrise celebrating the resurrection and having the privilege to proclaim it again and again and again ten years of regular attentiveness to the spirit movement ten years of hard work ten years of easy work ten years of heart work ten it feels like a lot and yet each day it s just a new beginning because it s really just one one decade and so may the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart continue to be acceptable in thy sight our rock and our redeemer amen ordiversary tenyearsofministry ministerofwordandsacrament grateful posted in uncategorized leave a reply 2017 posted on december 31 2017 by ireney07 reply i breathe you in there it is again my heart saying thank you for this whole life that brought me here to you brian andreas i found out i was pregnant in early february of 2017 so pretty much the entire year was ezra on my heart and mind being pregnant and laboring hard to bring forth this life was also the hope and motivation i needed in the midst of a year where when i looked around all i wanted to say was wtf and those of you who know me well know it takes a lot for me to swear my heart ached for the world and at the same time grew with each heartbeat i heard in my womb and now with each cry smile and snuggle in my chest it didn t seem possible to keep hope love justice mercy and kindness on the forefront of everything i tried to be and do without being super cynical but i did and i will continue to do so because at the end of the day i am choosing gratitude i have an amazing loving family that would do anything for each other i have badass friends who are smart compassionate and practice what they preach yes you i have a partner who brings light and levity into my life on the regular and who has stepped into a different place of goodness toward me since the birth of our son i now have a child along with all children who deserve love and hope for this world and the future and i still have a god who has continued to show me through christ that a life of service is not one that is lived in vain 2017 as a new mother my heart has only expanded so even though my heart ached more than it maybe ever has for the world and this country you didn t rid me of love and joy i am indeed grateful for this whole life that has brought me here to the close of 2017 posted in uncategorized leave a reply things i want to remember 39 weeks pregnant posted on october 14 2017 by ireney07 reply for a long time there were only your footprints laughter in our dreams even from such small things we knew we could not wait to love you forever brian andreas it feels like only yesterday that i took the pregnancy test and yelped in disbelief thank goodness i was home alone because i really wanted to surprise marion when i found out which if you haven t seen the youtube video yet i managed to do with great success click here to see it again surprising marion pregnant over the last 39 weeks everyone has been asking me how i m feeling and how the pregnancy is going and my standard answer has been i m feeling good i m doing fine i m tired but good these are all true statements i m still feeling pretty good he s sitting cozy in there but now that i m winding down toward the end and washed all the baby clothes organized every closet and done everything i could possibly think to do to prep for family leave from work i wanted to take time to actually write down some things i want to specifically remember about this special time of being pregnant with my little one one thing i want to remember is how from the moment i found out i was pregnant that i felt like baby was going to be a boy i ...