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nd made the call left a message and a day later he called me and we got the ball rolling i was excited when i was told how much i qualified for thinking that s way more than i will need i hadn t checked out the housing market yet i had no idea how inflated it has become i asked him what the next step was and he told me to go find a house and put it under contract i remember thinking whoa i wasn t intending to actually look right now this is happening awfully fast a testament to the fact that god s time and my time are often not the same i figured it could t hurt to look so i asked my friend steve bond himself being really good at dealing in real estate who he would recommend as a realtor and he gave me the name of jennifer belliston excellent realtor for anyone who may be considering selling or buying a house i highly recommend using her she really delivers and gets the job done so i called and we got things going i went out looking at houses after a few i found a house in woodland hills on maple drive that i fell in love with it was perfect other than the fact that it was in serious need of major updating that would have taken a lot of time and a lot of work and money to do that was why i could afford it though i loved it because it was on an acre lot in the woods it was 5 000 square feet so lots of room for guests and kids to have fun and visit it had a 4 car detached garage that i could have used as a separate art studio in addition to a 3 car attached garage so much room and a couple of sheds to store my atv trailer and other things we made an offer and thought we had it so jennifer took myself and my kids to the house to see it the first woodland hills house i made an offer on while we were there at the house she got a call saying that they had put the house under contract but not with us with a friend of theirs instead i was so disappointed i was so excited emotionally and finding that out didn t even seem real i had been praying for heavenly father to help me find the right house for me and my family and i also had prayed that he would not let it work out if it wasn t meant to be well here it was not working out and it was so hard because i was so totally excited i spent the next 2 days trying to sort through my disappointment after the 2 days i got back onto the internet and started looking again i found a wonderful arrive home that was really nice it was brand new not even finished being built yet and i loved the floor plan i had looked at a lot of floor plans so much searching existing and new houses went into this that i m not telling about just know that it s about all i did after work for a long time late into the night and up early in the morning i loved it so i prayed about it and didn t receive a definite answer so asking heavenly father to again hedge the way if i wasn t supposed to have that house i put an offer on it arrive home i had under contract in salem ut arrive home i had under contract in salem ut i should say too because i didn t earlier that the amount i qualified for at first was not enough to buy most of the houses i was looking at i finally had to call my mortgage guy up and ask what i needed to to in order to qualify for more he told me that if i didn t show any business loss on my taxes i could qualify for more i usually take a lot of deductions for my art business because i buy a lot of things to create art some of my pieces sell and others don t so i had a loss i had already done my taxes but by some miracle there was a mistake on my original filing so the irs rejected my taxes while i was working on resolving the mistake it was my mistake i not my tax guy s i was also working on qualifying for my mortgage so since i had to re file with the mistake fixed i didn t have to amend my taxes which made it much faster to make the adjustment i consider that a bit of god s hand in this process had that not happened it may have been a lot longer before i could get everything in line to get the loan for my house still as nice as the arrive home was i still wasn t totally settled on it i loved it and went back and looked at it many times trying to convinced myself that it was perfect a few things bothered me about it it had a small yard no trees whatsoever and the payment was going to be higher than i originally thought i wanted to spend so still found myself up at night browsing houses online so much so that i knew every listing between springville and payson in my price range it actually made it faster to browse because i could list them from newest to oldest and just view the newest ones until i got to houses i recognized we went and saw so many houses i thought for sure that jennifer was going to get sick of showing me houses but she was so good and patient with me at the same time as this was all going on i was working on selling my house we had 30 days to sell my house for the contract with the arrive home i wasn t sure it would happen and i kept telling heavenly father that it was up to him i rented a pod and got tons of stuff out of my house so it would look less like a jeff goodsell bachelor pad and more like anyman s home i even felt like i should paint the front room white since most houses now are white inside so they look like wide open spaces light and airy it was a ton of work and i have to say that my kids really helped me so much i asked them for help let them know how much i needed the help and they pitched in and did a lot to help what a blessing family is i can t tell you how much i appreciate my kids more than i ever have before in my life kids are wonderful my front room re painted we listed my house on monday and but he end of the day on tuesday we had 10 offers we accepted one that was 20 000 above my asking price and put it under contract i was worried that it would sell fast enough so i left it in heavenly father s hands after i had done all that i could myself and i will tell you he really delivered what a blessing i have thanked him many times wow when god goes to work miracles happen we made another offer on a house that had a large pond bordering the back yard but that didn t pan out and then after several weeks i was glancing at houses more and found that the woodland hills house that i had originally wanted was back on the market i was so excited i let jen know and asked her to re submit my offer which she did i was so happy i couldn t believe that i had another shot at that house i thought for sure that this was the answer to my prayers and now that house would be mine it was an excruciating 3 days waiting to hear back from the owners and in the end when we heard back they had decided to give the same guy i lost the house to a month earlier another chance at it his offer was even 30 000 less than mine they must really be fond of that friend i even wrote them a letter to submit with the offer that same weekend i was on facebook and an artist friend who i follow on facebook posted a post that said something like come be my neighbor and included a link to a brand new post for a different house in woodland hills the house fit into my price range so as soon as i knew the first woodland hills house wasn t going to pan out i asked my realtor to take me to see this other house i loved it honestly it s not a perfect as the first one it doesn t have a detached garage that i can use as a workshop and it s not big but it is a good price it s plenty big about 2 000 sq feet bigger than my current house if i finish the basement and the basement has 9 foot ceilings so it won t feel like a basement and it has a wonderful walk out area that i can use as my studio it s going to be a great place to do art and have family coming over it s on an acre of land and it s forested i m so excited during this entire process i was praying for clarification from heaven to know if i was choosing the right house i have not received an overwhelming yes or a resounding no at any point i was really frustrated with heavenly father at one point and was telling him so when he told me to look up receiving answers to prayer on google i did and elder richard g scott s conference talk on receiving answer to prayer came up i watched it on youtube and he said that god answers prayers by saying yes or no then he explained that there is a third way he answers prayers by allowing us to exercise faith in other words he doesn t give an answer and expects us to trust that he will course correct as we go i have felt this course correction throughout this process i have prayed often for his help to know if i am headed down a path that needed course correction he has told me in small ways and obvious ways i have learned so much through this experience god does live and he answers my prayers in his own time and in his own way i love him i love my personal relationship with him jeff this is the house i am buying look at all those beautiful trees posted by jeff goodsell at 2 22 pm no comments tuesday january 9 2018 my thoughts on the shawshank redemption andy or red so i watched the shawshank redemption last night i know it s rated r so it took me a while to decide to watch it there are only a few r movies i have ever watched in my life another one is the pianist and the passion of the christ both of which i highly recommend the pianist being a movie that is set during the holocaust and it shows some of the atrocities perpetrated by the nazis which is how it got it s r rating the passion of the christ shows all of the abuse that christ underwent it s quite bloody understatement but basically shows what it was most likely actually like for christ to go through that for us i highly recommend both movies back to shawshank redemption it s a great movie but it has a lot of language as i can only imagine would be the case in a maximum security prison however it was nothing compared to many days in high school that i remember and i feel like in this case it helped to illustrate the situation as it probably really would have been which was necessary to the message of the movie it s a hard movie to watch but in the end it shows how the indomitable will of the human spirit cannot be broken if one wills for it to not be broken it also shows how one who s will is broken can be restored through hope and kindness as shown by another in other words we can make a difference it also shows pure evil the warden i have no words to describe how i felt about that character the fact that he covers it over with the bible and christianity creates basically a rouse around religion that hides his insidious under side this is what gives religion today a bad rap so many hypocrites have used religion to hide their true selves their bad choices and their pure evil as for myself i can honestly say that i have made mistakes i have messed up and made poor choices in my life and i have paid a high price for those mistakes i continue to pay a high price and i have done my best to clean that up and make changes in my life i have grown closer to god through all of it i have also learned not to judge others i simply don t have enough knowledge about life in general and about individuals to ever be able to pass a good judgement so i will leave that to god the great thing about that is that now i understand more what unconditional love means if i don t have to spend time judging i can just love others for who they are i can love them for all their good parts and see them through all of their bad parts it s my bad parts that have helped me to become better making mistakes and learning from them choosing better paths when i don t like the outcomes and working to be the man i want to be and them and god knows i can be i love the final scenes where red is looking for the obsidian rock and digging up the tin i love that the note was obviously placed there by andy after he escaped i love that he had the forethought to watch out for his friend plant the seeds for his friend s redemption before he escaped i think the shawshank redemption is not about andy i think it s about red and his redemption men can change many don t but all have within them the capacity to change and sometimes it just takes another crossing their path and walking with them for a while to make the change possible for them to see that it is possible we all can help each other out on this journey called life it s so full of hard things but we are not alone and most of all for me my trials have found many friends and most importantly they have helped me to build a strong relationship with god and christ i want to say too that i feel like every soul on this planet is known to god he loves every one and he knows what each one needs in order to get back to him and he helps them to have what they need in other words i do believe that there is truth and that we will all find that truth but every person has their own journey to that truth everyone has their own path and i believe that god is there ready to lead each soul on their individual path we all get to choose whether we will follow or if we will choose our own ways that is god s gift to us the gift of choice as the movie ended i found myself talking to god asking him to help me and to allow me to be an andy to someone to make a difference in as many lives as i can before i die in whatever way god wants me to make that difference my thoughts turned to my kids i can be the best dad that i can to them and help them develop their own relationships with god in their own time when they are ready i can help them on their path to find truth and most of all i can make sure that they know that their dad loves them i can do the same as an uncle brother son friend etc someday i hope that i can also do that as a husband we will see what god has in store for my life posted by jeff goodsell at 11 10 am no comments sunday august 13 2017 i wasn t in a place where i had internet yesterday so i wasn t able to post so here are 3 more progress pics on my drawing i wanted to include a skull like the kuksi drawing does so i chose a turtle for this drawing the turtles traditionally are a symbol of long life because they live for so long so i chose to use a turtle to represent endurance or more finely put enduring to the end it s a personal challenge that i have accepted to be connected to god and to endure my life well until the end i was originally going to go with a more curling filigree motif for this but i decided that i had enough of that going on in the filigree wave so i decided to go the direction of maori face paint which was definitely the right choice i love the way the turtle turned out for this one incidentally the fleur de lis is significant in many cultures as a representation for such things as royalty and the holy trinity i used it here as a representation of both i believe that we are all children of god and who is more royal than god and endurance in this life can only be achieved if we are connected to a higher power for me this is my heavenly...