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the distance for all of my blog friends please share in their struggle by posting this picture below that has been a symbol of the mapalad farmers journey on your sidebar may that picture be our expression of support their beacon of hope maraming salamat filed under selvo s space tagged agrarian reform akbayan mapalad farmers sumilao walk for land 3 comments moo the gallant cow posted on nobyembre 9 2007 by s3lv0 sobrang natouched ako sa tag na ito ito pa yata ang unang tag na nakita kong muntik akong lumuha kung hindi ko lang alam na ito ay isang work of love in the making ay baka naglulupasay na ako sa lupa dahil mahal ko tong si maru at ang kanyang not so secret lover at di ko talaga mahindian ito sa marekoy kong nakablue curlers na si jojie ay papayag akong maging kasangkapan sa pagkalat ng meme na ito di ko alam bakit baka cow ang simbolo ng kanilang pag iibigan nahihiya akong itanong baka naman kasi sabihin pang chismoso ako at intriguero charing pero ngayon naintindihan ko na ang misteryo somehow click nyo na lang ang bakang ito para magkaroon kayo ng preview ng pagmamahalan ng dalawang nilalang na malapit sa aking puso ayan di ba winner alam nyo ba ang love song nilang dalawa di ako sure pero sa palagay ko pagkatapos kong makita ito if i could reach you ang love song nila tingin nyo ngayon gusto kong itag ang isang pinaka malambing sweet at napakamalalahaning babae na nakilala ko sa pagblo blog si mommy kengkay kengks para ito kina def at maru alam mo na di mo mahihindian ito rules dont tag me back tag mo lang sa next in line sayo and tell your downline to get 3 members to join the pyramid scheme tag just 1 person in his her blogroll which excludes the blogger already excluded in the list hopefully whoever s name is included in the list by dec 25 will get something from me so make this tag go around tagged people list 1 defpotec defpotec wordpress com 2 moo maruism com 3 jojie jojitah wordpress com 4 selvo joselgonzales wordpress com 5 kengkay kengkay wordpress com 6 please dont ask me to count for you add numbers if required filed under uncategorized 3 comments halloween at undas posted on nobyembre 1 2007 by selvo i was reading kengkay s blog this morning i was inspired by her kwento of the very cultural aspect of undas pareho lang ba ang halloween at undas ang halloween ba ay celebration lang mayayaman ng all soul s day samantalang ang undas ba ay ang poor man s version nito alam kong hindi naalala ko pa sa aking history na ang undas ay isang kristyanong practice samantalang ang halloween traces its roots to a celtic celebration that precedes even the birth of christianity nagkataong halos sabay lang sila sine celebrate and in one way or the other the two celebrations soon merged being a partial historian and an incomplete sociologist kulang ako ng isang semester sa double major kong history and sociology hehehe nagpasya akong magbasa ng history ng halloween at undas the celebration of halloween originated from the celtic people hindi po ito sa boston at wala pong kinalaman si larry bird who lived in what is the present day ireland ang kinaroroonan ni pareng kiko matsing at kanyang pamilya united kingdom and some parts of present day france some 2 000 years ago actually this is their version of the new year s day celebration november 1 which marks the end of summer and the beginning of winter this period the celts believed blurs the division between the world of the living and that of the dead on the evening of october 31 they believed that the spirits of the dead return to the land of the living they call this celebration samhain and they believed that this mingling of the living and the spirits of the dead makes its easier for their priests called the druids to make predictions of the future sa celebration na ito nagsimula ang practice ng pagsusuot ng mga costumes that is still being practiced by our kids kapag nagtrick or treat when the romans conquered the celtic territory sometime in 43 ad the samhain festival was merged with 2 roman festivals the feralia which is the celebration of the passing of the dead and the day honoring pomona goddess of fruits and trees by the 800 s with the domination of christianity over the roman empire which still occupied the celtic territories pope boniface iv declared november 1 as the all saint s day which was also knonw as all hallows day it was only in the year 1000 ad that november 2 was declared all saints day ayan base sa aking pagsasaliksik all saints souls day is a christianized festival that has 2 origins the samhain of te celtic people and the feralia of the romans ths is a perfect example of the blending of cultures and religious practices ang undas naman ay ang filipinized version of all saints souls day na minana natin sa mga espanyol at hinaluan na rin ng animist practices ng mga ninuno ng mga pinoys happy halloween sa lahat filed under selvo s space 12 comments seven pito at siyete posted on oktubre 31 2007 by selvo medyo nagulat ako nung tinag ako ni iya ang pang seventeen ng pangalan sa blogroll ko marami na akong nakitang mga posts about the 7 na tag akala ko madali lang susme nung makita ko ang post ni iya ito pala yung mahirap na variety ng 7 na tag seven things about me that is related to the number 7 nagdalawang isip ako ng 3 beses at kalahati 7 isip hehehe kung kaya ko ba ito at pinag isipan ko nang mabuti kaya eto ang resulta 2007 is my 7 th year in manila i moved from cagayan de oro city where i grew up to quezon city in july 2001 so last july marked my 6th year living here and i am into my 7th year in 19 77 my family made a big move from zamboanga city to cagayan de oro to look for greener pastures and to move away from the war that was intensifying then my son adee was born on 0 7 1 7 9 7 the month date and year all have7s while andre my first born so was born on 10 25 1992 2 5 7 and 9 2 7 andre passed away on 12 10 1992 12 10 1992 2014 2 0 1 4 7 i was born on 6 5 68 these numbers add up to 79 7 9 16 1 6 7 i was running 25 when i became a father 2 5 7 i had my first girlfriend when i was 18 8 1 7 of the 7 deadly sins i am usually accused indulging with the 7 th lust there you go thanks to you iya you made me search my memories and i now invite the following to examine their lives and search for the number 7 nika jeangrey kath bluep mee foobarph and chuckie filed under tags 12 comments my abcd s tagged by ann posted on oktubre 27 2007 by selvo i was tagged by my favorite mommy to be ann the pasawife and so here s my abcd s instructions each player starts with 7 random habits facts about themselves people who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their seven things as well as these rules at the end of your blog you need to choose 7 people to get tagged and list their names don t forget to leave them a comment telling them that they have been tagged and to read your blog seven facts about me activist smoker non drinker clown a father a college drop out and a socialist a age 39 b band listening to right now queen c career full time activist d drink or smoke doesn t drink just smoke e easiest friends to talk to miney taroogs maru jojie kengkay kath annie g gummy bears or gummy worms ano ito worms h have a boy friend no boyfriend gf meron i in love very much j junk food you like chippy k kids 10 year old boy l longest ride ever davao north cotabato pagadian ipil pagadian cagayan de oro butuan davao 5 days n names for your future kids andre andrea o one wish you have now a personal laptop p phobias fear of heights takot sa matangkad q favorite quote walang tunay na demokrasya kung walang sosyalismo walang tunay na sosyalismo kung walang demokrasya r reasons to smile if gloria slips and falls flat on her face and the first gentleman came tumbling after s sleeping time 12am t time you woke up 6 00am u unknown fact about you meron kaso pag sinabi ko di na sya unknown v vegetable you hate wala naman w worst habit chain smoking x x rays you ve had chest y yummy foods lechon sashimi liempo pork chop bulalo at marami pang iba basta may taba z zodiac sign gemini now i m tagging antuken didee jayme jeckass laarni pao and defpotec aka swami filed under tags 14 comments adee posted on oktubre 21 2007 by selvo ito ang pinaka una kong post sa nomadic thoughts at ito ang pinakauna kong blog dahil gusto kong ang bagong blog na ito ay tungkol sa mga bagay na mas personal napag isipan kong i post muli ito sinulat ko ito nung birthday nya last july 17 the very first time ever na wala ako sa tabi nya on his birthday adee posted on july 17 2007 nomadic thoughts 10 years ago today i received the best gift ever in my entire life my son adee was born i think it is but fitting that my first post will be about him remembering how he came and the happiness that he brings to me adee s story will not be complete without the story of my other son who was born a little less that five years before adee on october 27 1992 andre was born he was a 10 pound handsome little lad with the round face of my mother and the nose of my father words cannot suffice to describe the feeling of being a father for the first time it was a combination of many things the joy of holding one s flesh and blood in one s arms the nervousness of not knowing exactly what to do every time he cried the contagion of his smile while i watched him sleep i loved his scent i loved the way he grasped my forefinger with his tiny hands we named him andre the joy was however short lived on the day we were supposed to bring him home he was jaundiced and he keeps throwing up whenever he takes his milk from one hospital we just went to another hospital where his pediatrician was the doctor confined him to the hospital for some tests tests that were heartbreaking my heart sank every time i heard his cry as the nurses drew his blood for some tests this was done everyday to monitor his blood chemistry to what seemed to be forever for a young father his cries turned to just whimpers and soon enough he got used to the pain that he did not cry at all andre was later on diagnosed to have a congenital disease known as aganglianosis total aganglianosis to be exact this meant that his intestines failed to develop ganglion cells in his nerves and that his intestines were totally paralyzed as a result his intestines were not able to digest his food intake and this is the reason for his constant vomiting after feeding this disease was so rare that the doctors there were 6 attending physicians in cagayan de oro were not familiar with it to make the long painful story short my son andre was slowly dying of malnutrition not because of want of food but because his body cannot absorb the nutrients he went through 3 major operations a baby barely few weeks old a gain words cannot describe the agony and the pain of watching my son slowly go ounce after ounce of body weight disappearing each day his cute round chubby little body turning into a bundle of skin and bones and with countless punctures from head to toe from the injections and the intravenous needles andre lived exactly 45 days as he was gasping for air struggling to keep himself alive i held him in my arms and with a voice filled with surrender i whispered to him that it was okay to go and rest and that we want him to go back to god because god forgot something when he created him and that we want him to come back as our baby again a few moments later he breathed his last i watched the pulse in his neck slowly become weak until it disappeared it was like watching andre s back as he was crawling away that was 5pm of december 10 1992 it took us another five years to gather enough strength and courage to try to have a baby again we met jinkee s second pregnancy with a mix of excitement happiness and fear and ten years ago today adee was born we called him adee because we wanted to name him andre too it was around 3am when jinkee woke me up to fetch a taxi cab because she already felt the beginnings of her labor pains there was only one cab at the subdivision gates usually there were several in the early hours of dawn as we got off in the hospital i turned back to make a last check if we forgot anything in the cab as i did i saw the cab s name painted on its front door andre adee was born at around 5pm of july 17 which is thewedding anniversary of my mom and dad a 7 pound bundle of joy who was almost delivered by caesarean section had he not come out in time we named him andre too after a couple of days of careful observation we brought adee home for the first time we had a baby in the house however after a week adee showed the same symptoms as that of andre and we had to take him back to the hospital it was like a de javu of andre we stayed in the hospital for a week and to our relief it was just an infection that he got from the operating room the oldies scolded us because it was bad luck to name a child after a sibling who passed away so with a heavy heart we renamed adee after picking names at random we chose rafael francesco but kept adee as his nickname all went well after that a couple of months later i was with a colleague at national bookstore while i was waiting for him to find a book that he was looking for i chanced on a book about the meanings of baby names it quickly took the book and searched for the meaning of the name rafael healed by god i am not a very religious person but adee is my miracle baby i believe adee is andre who was healed by god filed under selvo s space 7 comments a peep at my work station posted on oktubre 20 2007 by selvo chuckie showed his very impressive work station and tagged me along with others a couple of weeks back di ako nakarespond kaagad kasi sineset up pa lang ang mga work stations namin dahil kakalipat lang ng office hanggang ngayon nga medyo marami pa ring pag aayos sa bagong opisina namin kasama ko si pareng taroogs sa bagong room namin medyo siksik kami sa room dahil mas maliit ang bagong opisina namin bago ang lahat ng aming mga tables pinasadya to maximize the use of space sa maliit naming room may veranda kami sa labas overlooking the street in front of the office with a nice view of the ladies dorm opposite our office ito ang intsura ng table ko sa opisina sa bahay naman ay may study room kami nandoon ang aking desktop na sira pa til now at ang study table ni fay kaya lang di ako sanay magwork sa isang study room na matahimik dito ako nagwowork usually sa round dining table namin sa baba na katabi ng sofa at kaharap ang tv marami sa work ko ay pagsusulat medyo di ako masyadong nakakapagsulat ng matino at mabilis sa opisina except kung talagang pressured na sa oras most of the writing i do at home sa madaling araw paboritong oras ko yun sa pagsusulat tahimik presko ang isipan at walang gaanong distraction basta may kape lang ako at yosi kahit medyo inaantok pa ay mabilis akong nakakapagsulat ito ang itsura ng aking work table sa bahay di ko alam kung late na pero gusto ko sana masilip ang work station ng crush kong...