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anew hang on i m not sure where it s headed i m frustrated yet content i think that s just how deep thinkers live kalliope epic poetry my life posted by e in oz at 1 49 pm 0 mused over my ramblings speak up these thoughts escaped my brain at 1 49 pm 0 comments post a comment home thursday may 06 2010 almost a year i figured i should come back here and see if it s still around if anyone who read before is still around are we all on f ceb k now about 30 000 things have happened since this time last year i m not sure what to say and probably won t say any of it now just thought i should check in and say i m still alive still head above water and doing not as great as i d like but things aren t as bad as they could be plodding along i ll be back soon at least in less than a year from now xox posted by e in oz at 10 38 pm 7 mused over my ramblings speak up these thoughts escaped my brain at 10 38 pm 7 comments meg said i follow on fb 11 17 pm gij said but will it be less than 11 months how about less than 10 7 32 am mel said hanging head i don t fb lord knows i have enough troubles with blogspot but i m glad for the tidbit better for the holiday card that got sent on letting me know you were doing okey dokey but i do miss reading about your life go figure is a sappy silly person from time to time 8 07 am grrltraveler said glad to see someone else checks in only once a year xo 6 53 am greyor said i stopped by to see if you re still about it s been awhile hope everything smooths out 1 42 pm unknown said lol i also have a hard time blogging now that i have fb ps hi mel 8 02 pm sj said hi eveie 6 05 am post a comment home friday june 26 2009 some days it would be nice to share the responsibilities with someone i feel slightly schiz0phr3nic lately the good is really good the not so good is overwhelming and i skate between the two moment to moment to be honest it s exhausting mentally and physically i do not like feeling up one minute and down the next depending on what s happened september is my life will get back to normal month that s what i m telling myself that s what i m hoping ya know i had a bunch more typed out but i deleted it i don t want to whine there s a big hole and i have to figure out how to get out of it soon ok i decided i had more to say it really piss3s me off that i m earning way below my potential these days i used to have disposable income i used to do pretty much whatever i liked i m really annoyed that the last job didn t work out because all i needed was another 6 months to get a buffer i m annoyed that they pushed me into a corner and made me make a decision i didn t want to make i m stubborn and i m determined but that doesn t get bills paid working does i know my business will be successful the companies i m working with are extremely supportive of what i m doing now and the idea i have for when i come back from k0k0d the feedback i ve had from people who have related interests in that project is also very positive but i m doing it on my own and trying to juggle doing what i have to do with doing what i d like to do i don t know how i m going to get through this but i know once i m there the pressure will be off and i should be in that place before the end of the year the last 18 months of my stupid illness getting worse lack of proper employment trying to build a business honestly i must be insane i ve given up lifestyle and so much more to be able to do what i want to do i m stubborn enough to get it done and be where i want to be i m also stubborn enough not to ask for help and i know that s the downside of being me posted by e in oz at 8 04 pm 4 mused over my ramblings speak up these thoughts escaped my brain at 8 04 pm 4 comments mel said yaknow all of those things are true they re true about you they re even potentially true about me i have my moments when i m well and truely frustrated with the financial side of things today i opted years ago to get out of doing something i didn t like doing to go to where my heart and passion was it was a good choice then i even know it s a good choice for me today i m just not accustomed to financial issues and they ve found me i don t like it i don t think i m required to like it just to accept these are the circumstances today and continue to work towards something getting different we don t have to like it nor do we have to like the interferences that happen darn good thing huh lolol stupid no complaints purple bracelet grumbling and changing wrists oh well 10 29 am thyst said sometimes i am amazed at the parallels of our emotional lives but why should i be when we are both single adult woman supporting ourselves i hear you loud and clear on wanting to have someone to share responsibilities and it s not that i don t want to take care of these things but it would be easier if i had that personal support hugs 9 37 am mel said so you ve had time you ve hopefully stayed determined and focused enough to move towards where you want to be i m just concerned wondering where things are at how you re doing and if life has begun to treat you a bit more kindly mostly i m just bothered that when things get tougher you get quieter lol yeah i know pot calling the kettle black how are you what s goin on you doin okay e 9 26 am mel said yup me and some chinesey symbol makin person stopping in again and again e sending wishes for a gloriously happy and wondrous christmas cuz i can 11 23 pm post a comment home saturday june 20 2009 on impulse i ve been sitting here thinking about where i m at and how i got here things are looking good and positive on the outside i have a few clients two more in one day this week and have been offered some ongoing work a couple of days a week doing something that will probably send me insane by the 3 month do i want to keep doing this date i ve agreed to i m getting lots of positive assistance and support from businesses i ve contacted who are working with me in various ways to help me build my personal training business one in particular is actively finding referrals for me and if i meet with those referrals i can invoice the business for my time it s nuts and it was his suggestion i can see us working more closely down the track but it s good already the thing is i m also drowning in tiredness in responsibility in lack of time to do insert task lack of money and needing the part time work which increases the whole lack of time thing the financial thing is just scary all this good stuff is going on and looking like it s getting somewhere positive but each week i worry that i m sinking and how i m going to get out of that by the next week i ve turned going to k0k0d into a business idea that is getting really good feedback but let s not discuss the fact that i still haven t fully paid for that trip and i won t be working for most of august yes i m whining well staying just short of panicking really it will get better i know it will i ll just keep pretending till then that life feels as good as it looks and m yes i now have a page on fb posted by e in oz at 7 55 pm 2 mused over my ramblings speak up these thoughts escaped my brain at 7 55 pm 2 comments mel said omg i m weary and panicked just reading sigh 10 11 pm e in oz said hugs i miss you know i m thinking of you even when i m not visiting x 8 33 pm post a comment home sunday may 10 2009 oh and i quit my job on tuesday nobody would tell me what was going on including my bosses who you d think would know they didn t want to get involved with all the cr p that was going on which basically meant even though they had no issues with my work i had nobody on my side so i called bullshit on the whole situation and said i had enough i offered to stay until they found a replacement but they didn t want that i wasn t owed anything except leave pay but they offered to pay me out in addition guilt much it s weird i m not stressed about it at all i really need clients now but i feel good about things posted by e in oz at 8 54 pm 4 mused over my ramblings speak up these thoughts escaped my brain at 8 54 pm 4 comments angela noelle said wow well this will definitely give you a great opportunity to get your clients and really follow those dreams rather than working in a job where you aren t appreciated good luck 3 02 pm mel said wow seriously geeze they don t play well with others huh shaking head onward into drumming up customers dunno how one does that hang around healthclubs with a billboard around your neck maybe just being creative lol 9 38 pm sara said waving good vibes your way for tons and tons of wonderful clients i miss you s 7 33 am unknown said hoping the client hunt is going well have you made a page on fb yet maybe your local friends can help out with the word of mouth thing 9 27 am post a comment home saturday may 09 2009 getting to the heart of the matter i m a bit disappointed i don t think i ll be going back for another echo in the near future this is a bit of a shame it means i probably won t get to see jarrod again he s the guy who ran the test twenty three very nice looking and charming it was worth all the annoyance for that ha he sent me behind the curtain to take my clothes off and put the gown on i said i didn t see the point in going behind the counter if he was going to be seeing my nekkid top half anyway d why do i think i won t be having another echo any time soon well someone somewhere along the line got the message very wrong it turns out jarrod s supervisor was the woman who did my original echo back in 2000 they both looked at the results while i was there normal wtf yes there s very minor regurgitation and a definite murmur but inconsequential right so i have no idea why i was told there was an issue all this time the test results still have to be reviewed by the cardiologist but jarrod and the other lady both agreed there was pretty much nothing to there that was anything to worry about my doc should tell me in about two weeks it still means the pains i get are unexplained but i can put up with that knowing that i m 99 5 ok otherwise i had a full blood test last weekend too my other doc called me on friday afternoon to let me know the results were all good blood sugar levels good cholesterol triglycerides etc are all pretty much normal all this is good news because i have to have a full medical before i go to k0k0d in august now the only hurdle is making sure i ll be able to take class b controlled drugs into p pu new gu nea a note from the doctor should be ok i hope speaking of the trek i did an hour of step ups carrying about 14 pounds of weights in a backpack today my legs aren t all that sore which is good i need to be able to do a few hours at a time with about 20 pounds of weight i really do like punishing myself don t i posted by e in oz at 9 38 pm 2 mused over my ramblings speak up these thoughts escaped my brain at 9 38 pm 2 comments mel said o m g i m trying to simply be grateful after 9 years of all that stuff wow k i m grateful really 10 24 pm e in oz said crazy huh i told the other doc when he called about my blood test and he was horrified that i d been made to worry for so long they can t explain the pains i get but right now i m just glad to have one less thing to worry about and one less doctor to see i am grateful if only they could find a way to fix the wonky brain thing p 10 45 pm post a comment home thursday april 30 2009 excuse me i seem to have lost my month where d the time go this is a fly by m will be here from 24 may to early june i am nervous and excited my personal training business has had a positive boost i m cross promoting in two stores of a major womens fitness wear retailer hopefully that will bring lots of new clients i need new clients k0k0d is booked and i ve paid the deposit somehow i have to find the money or the sponsors to give me the money to pay the balance and buy the equipment i need in just over three months i ll be trekking through the jungle for 10 days work sucks faaaar too much to explain but the bottom line is i m 99 certain i ll be finishing there at the end of next week right now i don t care except for the lack of income which i really need this is why i need the personal training business to kick off fast all things medical are pretty good medication is working having some blood tests on saturday the heart echo is next friday and my regular girl check up showed no issues nice change there most important current project is somehow producing all my marketing and promotional material with no money and sponsors for the trek that would help a lot i ll find a way hugs and all good things to everyone i miss you and i know it s remiss of me to not have been in touch lately know you re all in my thoughts always posted by e in oz at 6 47 pm 5 mused over my ramblings speak up these thoughts escaped my brain at 6 47 pm 5 comments risiblegirl said ack that reminds me that i need to make an appointment with my cardiologist if you re not happy where you re at follow your heart easy for me to say since i m not currently employed but damn it s nice 9 12 am mel said i must need some vacation time i almost said i d like being unemployed oh noooooo i d be bored stiff and crazy within three weeks but yaknow i think i m excited that you re excited even if a bit scared or a lot scared i ll hope the excitement overrides the fear sending hopeful thoughts 12 00 pm unknown said good luck with the cross promotion in the states a lot of small businesses use vistaprint to print out small quantities of materials basically they discount your order significantly if you let them print their ad on the back side of your business card i did a quick google search and came up with saltprint which is in australia but has a similar business model hth http www saltprint com au freebusinesscards php faqs 11 55 am anonymous said you all make me smile i do use vistaprint am waiting on an order as we speak i did not know about saltprint though so i will investigate thanks i have a few friends who use vista waiting for the stuff to turn up is the only bummer about that site e 12 06 pm anonymous said wow sp is about 4 times the price of vp that s insane for something that s local 9 24 pm post a comment home about me name e in oz older than i look younger than i feel growing older hopefully wiser view my complete profile previous posts high on emotion everything s changed but it s still the same almost a year some days on impulse oh and getting to the heart of the matter excuse me i seem to have lost my month life in march quick ish update on stuff friends bloggers i stalk archives august 2004 september 2004 october 2004 november 2004 december 2004 january 2005 february 2005 march 2005 april 2005 may 2005 june 2005 july 2005 august 2005 september 2005 october 2005 november 2005 december 2005 january 2006 february 2006 march 2006 april 2006 may 2006 june 2006 july 2006 august 2006 september 2006 october 2006 november 2006 december 2006 january 2007 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