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le you like who make you laugh and with whom you can have such beautiful meaningful conversations that you don t even care how hungry and tired and smelly you are other times you may find yourself in step with someone whose very way of breathing annoys the hell out of you except they don t just breathe they also talk loudly and consistently trumpeting out opinions you never asked for sometimes you ll walk alone vacillating between loneliness and gratefulness for the quiet solitude and sometimes you ll notice your shoulders feel like they re starting to float and you ll realize someone has come up behind you and started taking things out of your pack to carry for you this is incredibly humbling of course because you are an adult and you should be able to carry your own damn pack only you don t argue because you know full well you do not have the strength to carry your own pack right now and it would be good to walk unburdened for a while so you thank them and watch as they transfer your dirty sweat stained shirts to their pack and hope that someday you ll be afforded the same measure of grace to put someone else s dirty laundry into your pack like it s the most natural thing in the world and maybe it is and maybe when you show up exhausted at the camp site you ll find that some people got there before you and they already set up a tarp to sit under cause it s raining now and the opinionated heavy breather has even made a fire and started boiling water for coffee and you re so grateful you go sit down right next to them and accept the cup that s being offered to you and you ll drink the coffee and rest your legs and close your eyes and listen to the cadence of raindrops bouncing off the tarp and allow yourself to be lulled to sleep for a while by the wind swaying the trees and kissing you on the forehead posted by kate at 6 08 2019 draft of this post dated october 2013 saved but never posted it s october which means that instead of being 100 degrees every day it s only 90 sometimes 80 and will even get down to the 60 s on occasion just to make sure we re paying attention to me the seasons changing is the loudest reminder that god has not given up on the world eydie s favorite movie right now is soul surfer and her favorite joke is anything bottom related so when bethany s dad is training her for competition post shark attack he says it s not going to be easy and bethany says i don t need easy i just need possible but the other day while watching and quoting it eydie said i don t need easy i just need cheek bottoms just kidding i need popsicle posted by kate at 6 08 2019 monday july 15 2013 a year ago everyone s birth story is different and every one is amazing and interesting whether it all goes perfectly or nothing goes as planned my only birth plan was to deliver a baby somehow some way so i would say ours was a complete success this is what i remember so i won t forget later if you don t think birth stories are interesting stop reading now and scroll down to the pictures july 15 2012 i went to church and then to eat lunch at perini s with my family that evening brandon and i went on a walk i don t know what s slower than a walk but that s what we did around acu and pushed eydie in the stroller my due date was july 22nd and i had eydie 3 days after her due date so i wasn t expecting to go into labor early but around 1 00 the morning of the 16th i started having contractions and could not go back to sleep by 3 00 they were stronger and closer together i told brandon i thought we needed to go to the hospital and he said are you sure he didn t want to go and get sent back home i said well not 100 but i would like an expert opinion we called my mom to come stay with eydie and around 4 00 am brandon and i went to the hospital we were put in a triage room at first and monitored to make sure i was indeed in labor which i was at 6 45 dr tadvick came by and said we would be moved to a labor and delivery room soon get an epidural break my water and have a baby that s what he said in that order we hadn t slept much and brandon thought if this time was anything like the first i would get an epidural we would both take a nap and the nurse would wake us up when it was time for me to push so we got to the labor and delivery room about 7 15 the nurse took a blood sample and said she had to send it to the lab before they would give me an epidural they did not do this when i had eydie so when i asked her how long that would take and she said about an hour what i really wanted to say was why didn t you start this whole process at like 4 15 am but i wasn t in much of a position to argue since i couldn t speak during contractions and it seemed to me like there was barely a break in between them brandon had told our families that i would probably have the baby sometime that morning so they were getting ready to come to the hospital brandon was trying to keep everyone updated by text but he didn t really know when to tell them to come up there his mom came by around 7 30 and visited with us a little bit and then went to the waiting room every time i would have a contraction i would lean forward and my nurse would come tell me not to do that because the monitor on the baby s heart rate would come off so i moved to my side so i could curl up my knees and hold on to the bed railings at 8 00 my water broke it was a totally different feeling than the first time with eydie my water broke as the first sign of labor before any contractions this time i felt like a human waterfall i told brandon to go get the nurse because my water broke and i was pushing it wasn t that i needed to push or i felt it was time to push my body was pushing and i was not consulted about nor responsible for its actions the nurse came in and checked me and i remember this clearly because it seemed like an odd question to ask but she said are you in a lot of pain all i could do was say yes because i couldn t manage more than one or two syllables at a time she seemed surprised that the baby was coming now and said i didn t act like i was in a lot of pain i then wondered what good were all the damn monitors if they couldn t tell that i was having painful contractions but i m glad i couldn t say that she told me i was at an 8 i think the last time they had checked i was a 4 or 5 and a bunch of people came in and started doing stuff i don t really remember brandon asked her about the epidural and then he really sweetly came over to me and told me i wasn t going to have time to get it in my head i yelled no shit but my mouth was too busy breathing so i just nodded then dr tadvick ran in and i pushed some more yada yada yada a baby came out at 8 15 and he said it s a boy we had not found out the sex of the baby and in my mind i had thought that brandon would go out to the waiting room which would be full of our families and friends and announce the sex while people took pictures and hugged and high fived and hand shaked yes i just made it a verb but only karen was out there and thankfully she hadn t left because she was about to go to a meeting and then come back after it thinking she still had time so brandon went out and told his mom and we texted everyone else and told them it was a boy and they all arrived shortly after if it had been a girl we would ve named her holland faith holland is my nana s maiden name but we hadn t settled on a boy s name gavin grey had been my favorite and now that he actually had a son brandon agreed that he liked it so that is what we named him actually we named him gavan gray i don t really remember why we wanted to spell it that way at first but a week later we went out to eat for the first time as a family of four at jason s deli and i cried the whole time because we spelled his name wrong brandon said but we meant to but i couldn t stop thinking about it so we had it changed and on his birth certificate it says gavan gray with a little amendment at the bottom that has the change to gavin grey and that in a nutshell is gavin s birth story i wouldn t change a thing about it and i would do it all over again right now if it meant i got to hold that sweet newborn again gavin you have blessed and changed our family i love being your mom and the recipient of your pats kisses and snuggles i love being the one you want when you fall down or when eydie accidentally knocks you out of the wagon you are so close to walking and you sleep so well now it s hard to believe how much you have changed in a year i ve loved you every second and always will sorry about your birth certificate love mom posted by kate at 7 15 2013 friday july 12 2013 family vacation how is it already the middle of july i started the summer off strong with a couple projects around the house i painted and hung pictures in both bathrooms and i bought several paint samples and have about 4 shades of blue on the laundry room walls waiting for me to choose one and complete the job but i don t know where my motivation went surely it ll turn up somewhere i wish i could get the 30 week nesting instinct without the pregnancy another thing to fall by the wayside this blog so here s a short picture post of our family vacation in june sadie obviously knows what to do when there s a camera last month my family including my parents and my sister s family took a little vacation together near marble falls we stayed at log country cove on lake lbj the kids enjoyed some cousin time together and we enjoyed visiting swimming and being someplace prettier and greener than abilene there are several playground areas around the camp and look trees eydie turned 4 while we were there i hope she never hates her wispy curls because i love them these guys have no wispy curls to speak of but the fresh from the bath combover is pretty cute too this is where we stayed not too shabby random decor on the inside as you can imagine some of us summer brandon ava had several discussions about how we would redecorate if we owned it i don t think we need to worry though and this is what a few days of staying in the same house will do for you posted by kate at 7 12 2013 friday may 24 2013 ballpark sleepover a couple weeks ago mother s day weekend we got to experience something none of us had ever done before we had a sleepover at the rangers ballpark it was a pretty intimate group of about 3 000 to 4 000 although not that many actually slept there all night we left our little kids with grandmas and took the three oldest cousins family rangers ballpark baseball movie and sleeping outside it was pretty much a culmination of my dad s favorite things and mine it was pretty cool we watched the ranger away game on screen from the stands then they let us on the field to watch sandlot can you believe that movie came out 20 years ago did i mention the writer director narrator and the actor who played hamilton ham porter were there it was pretty cool little kids running around in pajamas on the field pure cuteness does this next picture make anyone feel claustrophobic the crowd didn t bother me at all but summer strategically chose our sleeping spot so that she could have an escape route if you look at the bottom of the picture you can see brandon next to the fence we slept just on the other side of that so as summer said if i have to go to the bathroom or there s a bomb i can get out fast good plan except that all night people walk past you to go to the bathroom and the security guards talk nearby and at 6 00 people start filing out right beside you i slept wonderfully unbothered by the crowd the noise the ground or the temperature until about 3 am when eydie got cold and started crying almost yelling i was trying hard to calm her down before she woke up everyone in earshot she s really hard to reason with in the middle of the night and her cry can turn into hysterical screams in a matter of seconds summer heard me and the next morning said it sounded like i was trying to talk her out of jumping off a building i finally got little bit quiet by putting her in my sleeping bag with me so my comfort the rest of the night was about what you would imagine if you shared a mummy bag with a 3 year old but we woke up in the morning in right field at the ballpark so you know it was pretty cool posted by kate at 5 24 2013 friday april 19 2013 been out now for as long as he was in this sweet boy is 9 months old he is happy and relaxed most of the time he has 2 teeth on bottom and 4 coming in on top he weighs 18 8 pounds 19th percentile and is 28 inches 42nd percentile he pulls himself up to standing crawls everywhere claps his hands tries to cover his eyes to play hide and seek gives slobbery kisses and has started eating table food some of his favorites are strawberries bananas bread peas and carrots he pretty much sleeps through the night sometimes waking up once crying a little bit and going back to sleep and he takes a couple naps during the day i love his big blue eyes his sweet disposition his cuddles before bedtime he grins big when brandon talks to him like he s waiting to see what daddy s gonna do next eydie s pretty crazy about him too what a joy you ve been to our family these past nine months gavers we love you buddy posted by kate at 4 19 2013 tuesday april 09 2013 baby slow down the end is not as fun as the start please stay a child somewhere in your heart u2 original of the species this is my ringtone everytime someone calls me i m reminded to slow down which may account for why i miss calls i hate the battles of getting ready and leaving the house i used to be so good at sliding in just on time verging on late but not quite however the kids have changed my morning routine a bit yet somehow i always think i ll have just enough time until i glance at the clock as i m grabbing the backpacks and then i start yelling at eydie to hurry up and get in the car because now she s in the front yard looking for her pretend key this sometimes results in a threat or a spanking tears on her part tension on my part and is just not the way i want to start the day the other day she told me i hate it when we have to hurry yeah i know me too but how can i break this cycle for starters i should get up and get the kids and myself ready earlier but more than that i don t want to hurry in life one of the reasons i like to backpack is because there is no schedule each day other than walking you eat when you re hungry and go to sleep when you re tired and you don t answer calls or texts or emails or think about what you should be doing you slow down and in the slowing you take in the beauty around you you listen to the stories of your fellow hikers you feel the pain and the strength of your body i m reading a book called sabbath in the suburbs right now these are some of my favorite quotes so far you want your children to have a spirit of service a sense of the holy a curiosity and openness to the world cultivate those things for yourself let them see you...